Vespers Goodbye: A Niley Story - Chapter 4
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My heart dropped straight to the bottom of my chest.
God Miley Ray, why do you do this to me?
I rolled my eyes, and as much as it took out of me, I looked away from her misty blue orbs and pushed her hand away from mine, feeling the connection ease as I edged away from her.
Did she like leading me on like this?
Did she enjoy seeing me in pain?
I paced a few feet infront of her, my eyes on the ground, though I felt the stare of her eyes on me as thought about what I was doing here.
Did I really want to be unfaithful to Selena?
I would have, right then and there if Miley wouldn't have said something about her boyfriend.
Which was really un-needed, by the way. The fact that she and Liam were and have been together for 6 years was a clear fact in my mind.
But when I leaned down to kiss her, I didn't hear a mere whimper of a thought that advised me to be faithful.
My mind was clear of Selena, Liam, and anything else that stands in the way of me being with her.
How could she not feel the same.
I was erupting in anger.
My heart wouldn't slow down to an even partially healthy rate, and my breathing was quickening at a concerning pace.
Why the hell was she back in my life?
I was happy before she was here, now I'm just confused and perplexed at what was happening.
"For gods sake, Miley!" I erupted, looking up from the grass to look at her eyes that were still shining in the now setting sun. They looked more silver than blue the way that the light hit them, and it took everything in me to stay mad at her. "Does it really matter?" I asked softly. It was nothing more than a blunt whisper.
And I knew it did.
I knew that in all logical situations the fact that neither of us were single would be an obvious bump in the road.
But right now, after not seeing her for 6 years, after not being able to hold her or kiss her, I didn't give a crap.
I could care less that people could be watching us, or that we both had faithful lovers to go home to.
I wanted nothing more in the entire world than to press my lips upon hers, to feel the mind blowing connection...To feel whole again.
Even standing in her presence I couldn't help but edge closer to her as I talked.
Miley Ray had this way of drawing people in, and as much as I hated what she did to me, I knew it was right.
Nothing felt more right in the entire world than where we were a couple minutes ago.
Holding her in my arms, my forehead against hers, our lips just inches from touching...I hadn't felt more alive in years.
She was exhilarating and unhealthy. I knew that for a fact. No one should be able to do that to me with such ease.
It's been years since my heart feel like it was going to beat right out of my chest, and I felt the breath being sucked out of me as her eyes lingered on mine.
"I don't know, does it?" Her abrupt question startled me from my thoughts.
"I have a boyfriend, Nicholas. And I know for a fact you and Selena have been together for...A while now."
Her heavenly voice whispered through the air, making a small cloud in the air around her.
The weather was chilling and the sun was setting. The wind wisped around our head,
and I knew a storm was coming.
"Does it matter, Nicky?" A question I had been asking myself settled into the air around us.
I didn't say anything. I didn't know what to say. Her complexity mystified me. Did she want me? Did she miss me? Did she even love me anymore?
I ambled towards the pond, leaving her behind me.
She might as well have just killed me right there.
Quite obviously she didn't have the insane urge to run over to her, pick her up around her waist, and kiss her as her arms wrapped around my neck and mine made their way down to her waist, our connection flowing strong between us. Making us feel invincible, free.
The July California sun beamed down upon us, and I walked, humming 'My Girl' as her bike strolled along by me slowly.
"Sing, Nicky." She asked loudly, her hair flowing behind her.
We were 13...We were young and untouchable.
Nothing ever came close to taking us down.
When we were together nothing brought us down.
When she was smiling, I was smiling.
And well, Miley never stopped smiling.
Even from the side, I could see a glimpse of her eyes that were burning like the sun.
She turned to look at me, and my heart just about bounded out of my chest at that smile, and those eyes.
How could I be so lucky?
Why did I, Nick Jonas, get someone like her?
Someone who shone brighter than the sun and lit up a room when she stepped inside.
Someone who could make someone laugh on their hardest day, and could hold them when they just needed to cry. Someone who could write a beautiful melody over something that happened everyday, and could belt out a tune like there was no tomorrow in front of thousands of people in the blink of an eye.
Miley was my definition of fearless. Nothing ever hurt her. Nothing ever came close to touching her. Nothing was more brilliant than Miley.
"I've got sunshine,
On a cloudy day,
When It's cold outside,
I've got the month of may.
Well I guess,
You'll say,
What can make me feel this way,
Miley,
Miley,
Miley,
Talkin' bout...
Miley"
I belted out our song. The one she loved so much, and the one I never got tired of singing.
Cause' it was true...Miley lit up my day when a storm was coming. At Miley's very touch anybody was warming, comforted, and safe.
I don't know who it was. Whether it was god, some other otherworldly being, or just the way she is, but something made Miley special. She wasn't your average girl. She wasn't made like every other girl in the world. She's something different. Something, if you ever see, you're one of the few lucky ones. She's not something you see everyday, and sometimes it can be scary, how much you love her. I would die for her in a second. I would give my life to make sure that she lived on and kept lighting up the world. There were never enough words in the world to tell her how much I loved her. So we kept it simple, even though we knew we meant so much more.
As my singing halted, Miley stopped her bike, and I stared at her and she jumped off with her long legs. We were inching down a sidewalk, and stopped in front of a diner. She walked over to me, looked at me for a second, and while she'd done this plenty of times, I never got tired of it. I always wanted more and I never, ever wanted anything more than to hold her. She leaned in and pulled me closer with her sweet breath. Soon we were engrossed in a deep kiss. This was perfect; this was how it was supposed to be. Me, Miley, together. It was simple kiss. But it meant everything in the world. Like I said, we found it impossible to show our love with words. It just wasn't enough.
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I buried my head in my hands, my mind spinning at an extreme speed. I was standing on the edge of a pond. One more step and my feet would be soaked. I heard Mileys bare feet begin to edge towards me. She tapped my shoulder. She was just going to tell me she had a boyfriend again. That she was sorry, but she couldn't. I had to accept it. Miley isn't one to be unfaithful, no matter how strong a connection is.
"What, Miles?" I asked in annoyance.
"It doesn't matter to me." She murmured.
My heart halted in its place. I slowly turned around. Her eyes were twinkling brighter than a vesper in the sky.
"What?" I pushed out. I had to remind myself to breath. Her face was about 2 inches away from mine, nothing more, nothing less.
"I said, it doesn't matter. Not to me."
And she did it.
She kissed me.
A kiss is something you do to show somebody you care for them. Miley and I shared many kisses in our years together. Everyone of them meant something different. Some were better than others, some were thoughtful, passionate, and caring, while others felt needed and comforting and sympathetic. But in every single one of them we still shared that connection. That overwhelming, stunning connection that almost blew me off my feet.
I thought I'd felt every kind of kiss there was.
Until this one.
Maybe it was the fact that it was every kiss we'd missed in the past six years all built up into one.
Maybe it was just the feelings we had felt for each other while we'd been apart, the loneliness, the grief, the depression, the tears, the moving on, but knowing we'd never be over each other, all in one.
And perhaps it was the memories, all of them flowing through us. The summers, the winters, and singing, the laughter. Everything we'd ever done together.
All I knew for sure was that this kiss had so much love in it, so much passion, so much feeling, that it almost knocked me off my feet. She wrapped her arms around my neck, and as if I'd done it every day for the past 6 years, my arms made their way around her waist, just how it was supposed to be.
And for a moment, I didn't even think about what was going to happen next. Selena wasn't anywhere near my mind, Liam was as far away as Australia. I felt my heart, which had been patched up over the years, fall apart all over again as this feeling reunited us.
The thing was, Miley stole my heart the day she met me. And as cheesy as it sounds, when we broke up, she never gave it back. That's whats been missing. That's what Selena can't give me. No one can. Except for her. The only time I'll feel this right is when I'm with her. When she's in my arms and when we're together, and happy.
I didn't want this to end. I knew when it did, harder things would happen. This was when I happiest. This was my haven. My safe place. This was my home, right here with her.
We pulled away to take a breath. Breathing hard, we stared into each others eyes. And she smiled that smile I missed so much. In one day, I'd fallen in love with her all over again.
"Wow." She gasped, amazement laced between her words.
I wanted to tell her. Right then and there. I need to tell her those 3 words and hear them back.
"Miley...I-I love you." I sighed. And at the moment those words wondered out of my mouth, I felt a sense of relief roll through my body. I needed so bad to hear those words. This feeling that we had, it wasn't human. It was the closest thing we had to magic. Teenagers say love and don't even know half of the definition. If they did, they wouldn't say it as much as they did. Love is something, that if it is felt, it's the most beautiful feeling in the world. It's what I feel now.
She took her hand and wiped a curl out of my face lovingly.
"I love you too Nicky. I always have."
Hearing those words escape from her mouth, I couldn't help but lean down and kiss her one more time. She pulled away and giggled. I smiled wider than I had for years. I was finally happy again. And it might not last long. I know tonight we're both going to go home to different people. But she'll be the only one I'm thinking about.
She sat down on the damp grass, and I took a seat next to her, placing my hand over hers, just to feel the connection, just to keep her close. She looked over at me and smiled, leaning in one more time for a kiss. It was another radiant, delicate kiss. And it seemed to natural, so familiar, I couldn't believe it'd been so long since we'd been together. Since I'd been able to hold her.
She pulled away, looking at the pond, but her hand still underneath mine.
"Nicky?" She wondered quietly.
"Yeah Smiley?"
"Did yo---"
Her sweet voice was interrupted by a loud, piercing voice.
"Nicky?!!!" Selena yelled, approaching Miley and I, hand in hand.
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