Sm owns all. A/N at the end.

3 days. It's been 3 fucking, excruciatingly long days of nothing but banging my head into trees, and practically pacing into the floor of my bedroom. How could I have been so stupid? I knew that this was going to happen one day, but I never dreamed that it would happen when it did, and how it did. Why had I allowed myself to go so far?

The blood, oh god the blood. So deep and rich, never had I ever tasted anything that good! I could feel it as it poured down my throat, so warm and perfect, just like Bella. Oh god Bella! I knew that I had to stop, but I couldn't, the blood was overpowering every other part of me, and my animal side was greater than ever before.

Suddenly I was being thrown away from my bed, and something was holding me back from the scent that was driving me crazy. I did my best to force my captor away, and just as I was succeeding a second pair of arms wrapped around me and I was dragged from the room, and taken to another part of the house.

I was wild, thrashing, but it seemed Emmet and Jasper (my captors) had a firm grasp on me. As I stood gasping and growling across from the 2 men who were blocking me from my meal, it hit me with more force than a tsunami. My meal! How could I have referred to Bella in such a manner? I crumpled to the ground and felt Jasper do his best to calm me.

"Edward, dude, you gotta calm down." Emmet had crouched over me, as he draped a blanket over my naked form.

"What the fuck have I done?"

I knew that I wasn't ready, that I didn't have control….but Bella. Oh god Bella. Her beautiful lifeless body is lying neatly on the gold bed in the center of my room. My poor Bella. She looks like a fallen angle, lying so still on the bed.

Claire de Lune drifts softly from my ipod dock in the corner. It's been playing pretty much continuously for the last 3 days. I'd come to think of it as "our song". It was the first song we danced to in this very room, something that we had bonded over. If only I could go back to that time before I allowed this to happen to my love!

I can hear Alice creeping into the room, doing her best to remain stealthy. I can't be bothered to acknowledge her. Edward it's almost time. Her thoughts are cautious. I feel like there is something that she's not telling me, and I tell her as much. There's nothing to tell Edward. Five minutes and she'll be awake. I just want you to be….ready.

"Ready for what Alice?" It comes out harsher than I mean it to. Oh well.

"She's going to be strong Edward, strong and confused. You're weak because you haven't been hunting since before this all happened. Remember that we're all here for you. We all love you both." With that she bows out of the room, and I can hear her talking quietly with the rest of our family outside of the door. I return all of my attention back to Bella. After much bickering between Alice and I yesterday, Bella was dressed in a simple white shirtdress with gray leggings. When I had finally worked up the courage to go back to Bella after my freak-out, I had entered my bedroom to find that Alice had cleaned Bella up, and dressed her in an ice blue ballgown.

"ALICE!" What in the name of God's green earth was Bella wearing?

"Yes brother dearest?" smug little pixie.

"What in the name of God's green earth is Bella wearing?"

"Don't you love it?! I picked it up in a vintage shop in Seattle awhile back. The 50s silhouette is really nice on her because of that tiny waist, and then the flared skirt-"

"Alice it's absolutely ridiculous! She has no need for something like this right now. It's too fussy for Bella. She needs something more..casual."

"You're no fun Edward." At which point she sticks her tongue out at me.

"Mature."

"Spoil sport."

In my reverie I hadn't noticed that everyone had slipped into the room until Carlisle laid his hand upon my shoulder. "Are you ready son?" Good ol' Carlisle, always stable and supportive.

" What do you think?" he just laughed at me. Good ol' Carlisle.

"It's time." Alice whispered from the doorway, and immediately 7 sets of eyes are all on Bella as her eyes slowly begin to flicker open.

BPOV

Darkness. All there is, is darkness, and that's all that there has been for what feels like years. I try to scream in frustration but it is impossible. It's like there is a weight on my chest, not allowing me to move or breathe or speak. Slowly the weight begins to lift and I am overwhelmed by a strange sense of lightness. I begin to take a mental inventory of my body. Something is wrong. No, not wrong, but definitely different. I try to shift my awareness to the space around me. I don't know how, but I know that there is a tenseness that is filling the room. Using what feels like all of my strength I manage to open my eyes.

It takes a brief moment for my eyes to adjust to the room. It seems so familiar but I can't quite figure out why. It seems a very distant memory.

"Bella? Love, are you alright?" Bella? Is that me? Who is talking? I push myself up and look across the room to where 7 people are all staring at me intently.

What the fuck?

A/N: It's short, and so long overdue, and I am so incredibly sorry! This last semester has been absolutely ridiculous. I had two shows and no time to myself. I would like to thank those who have taken the time to review and Pm, and I am sorry to those who I did not get back to. Right now I'm in find a job mode, so hopefully once that is accomplished, I'll be able to finish this off. There's only a chapter or two left, and I'll do my best to make them good for y'all.

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