I do not own the teen titans... grrrrr

Dec 29th...

You paced the length of your room going over everything about Robin and about Red X... "Robin was my first love, and the father of my children... but Red's been their for me.... Robin cheated on me... Red's has a rep for being a player... urg!" you exclaimed clasping onto the bed.

So far none of your prayers have been answered, you were still confused, and to top it all off Slade has made an appearance in Gotham; "And they wonder why I ran off," you snorted. You stood up and walked out of your room had pushed into your coat pockets.

You walked down the stairs where Star and Terra where sitting down talking; they stopped when you went in... "Where are Arella and Saya?" You asked. "They are outside with Red getting some fresh air, don't worry Cyborg, Robin, BB, Bee, and Speedy went with him," Terra replied.

You started to leave when Starfire called out to you; "Raven, actually we've been meaning to have a talk with you... about Robin," she said. "Look guys I know what your going to say and don't... I'm dealing with this as much as I can considering the circumstances," you sighed. "We know its just... Robin he's really missed you and wants you back," Star said.

"Really then why hasn't he said it?... Why hasn't he showed me he's even worth my time?... Why hasn't he spent any one on one time with the twins?... Answer me those three simple questions," you paused waiting for their answers.

"Ya," you said nodding and started to leave again when Star spoke. "Please friend Raven at least give him a chance, you didn't see him when you were gone he was..." she trailed off. "He was a wreck," Terra said. "Don't you think I know that, I'm the one with a bond to the boy," you yelled quickly angered. "Look Rae you don't have to yell at us," Terra exclaimed. "Then stop thinking you know everything Terra!" you exclaimed.

She flinched at the harshness in your voice; "look friend Raven you do not have to yell at us!!" Starfire yelled at you. "Wow, i never actually thought you would raise you voice at anyone Star... other then Robin that is," you snapped. She flinched as if you'd took a swing at her. "That was a mistake, I told you that," she growled. "Doesn't seem like it, after all you've done it more then once here now haven't you," you snarled savagely.

She leaned back surprise crossing her expression; "Ya do you really think I haven't wondered down your room corridors at night because i couldn't sleep, or because I wanted to talk with Robin... at first i thought it was you and Speedy in the room... you snorted, how wrong I was when I ran into him last night during one of my walks," you said.

Terra looked at Star with wide eyes... "You... You were lying to me," Terra said. "Doesn't she do that a lot," you said and turned away again. "You don't know how it feels Raven to love someone who doesn't love you and all he thinks about is another," Star said.

"Yes I do actually, its how I felt when I thought Robin loved you, but I'm not the one that made the first move to take him form you, i would have been perfectly content to see him happy with you if you were what made him happy, but he's the one that told me other wise," you said softly your anger evaporated.

She looked away; at that moment Beast Boy ran into the room... "The Twins are gone!" he exclaimed then fell to his knees, his arm broken and bleeding and he had a gash running down the side of his face. Your stomach dropped and every fiber of your being screamed "NO!!!" Your emotions scrambled toward Instinct to hold her back. Your body started to shake and your eyes flickered form Amethyst to blazing white.

One word escaped your lips... "No"

"Where were you attacked?" Terra asked. "At the bottom of the hill near the lake, Slade came out of nowhere with all of Robots, we fought as hard as we could to keep the Twins protected, but we were no match, Cy, Bee, Robin, and Speedy were knocked out, and Red's hurt badly," he said.

In a second you were at the bottom of the hill by the lake (she teleported). She ran to Reds side and quickly evaluated his injuries quickly before starting to heal him, he had a deep gash across his chest about 3 broken bones and bruises, cuts and scratches all over him. You healed what you could on Red just as Star, and Terra came flying down the hill.

You were to weak to teleport everyone back to the Manor so Terra and Star made quick work in getting everyone up including, none of them were hurt as badly as Red thou. Terra helped you take Red to the infirmary in the mansion so you could properly bandage him up.

It took a while without the use of your powers. You sighed and tried to distract yourself from thinking about your daughters; you kissed Red softly and walked out of the room and down stairs to talk with the others.

They were all sitting down in the living room; Alfred was surviving them some pain meds and water. Every ones eyes widened as you walked in the air of a mother on a mission... you eyes blazing even thou your deminer was calm.

"What the hell happened out there?" You growled out. "Slade came out of nowhere, we weren't prepared for him," Cyborg said rubbing his head. "How's X?" Bee asked. "Stable for now," you replied.

"You should have seen him attack Slade the way he did... no offence Robin but Red almost bet him in hand to hand, Slade had to cheat drawing a dagger over Reds chest but that still didn't stop Red form attacking again and again even when Slade picked up the twins and walked away the Robots took over fighting Red along with Robin and me," Beast Boy said.

A sound that sounded like a growl came out of Robins throat. You shot him a glare; "I'll be in the bat cave searching for leads," you said and turned away walking to the bat cave calmly. Inside your emotions were screaming love was paired up with anger who were standing on either side of instinct. Wisdom and Inteligence were barly able to reason with them not to tear through the city looking for your babies.

You sat down at the computer and starting to look for Slade.

A couple of hours later Terra came up to the bat cave... "Rae, Red wants to see you," She said. You sighed and stood your legs were sore from sitting so long and you brushed passed Terra and walked to the infirmary where you found Red sitting up on the bed waiting for you his head down, black hair framed his face as he looked up.

You sat down on his bed; you were surprised to see tears glistening in his eyes threatning to fall. Your own eyes teared; "I'm so sorry Raven," he said. Tears fell from your eyes and you lay down next to him when he scooted over to make room for you. He wrapped his arm around your middle placing your head on his chest above the bandages and held you tightly as you cried tears streaming down your already swolen cheeks.

"I am so sorry," he said. You looked up at him; "Its not your fault Tyler," you said. "Yes, it is Raven... I told you I wouldn't let anything happen to them, that I would protect them... I faled you Raven," he said and this time tears did slide down his face. You reached up and gently wiped the tears from his eyes; "You did what you could, that is all I could expect from you," you replied and kissed him.

"I love you Raven," he said. "I love you too," you replied and that is when you realized that all you wanted was right there, in the man that nearly gave his life, and probably would give his life for your daughters... for you. "And I promise to you Raven, I will bring them back, what ever it takes I'll do it," he said staring deeply into your eyes, you leaned down and kissed him again. This time he kissed back, he deepened the kiss his hand cupping the back of your neck.

"You know we can't do this... yet," you sighed. "I know," he said...

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