THE LAST NIGHT: Chapter 4
AN: I'm pretty set on this story being all about Edward but for some reason I think Bella needs a chance to talk, so we all better under stand whats going on and where she is coming from... It might suck so I'm sorry! But sometimes you have to do what feels right :-) Also sorry for the update taking so long. I've been stuck :( and way consumed with other fanfics! Hope you all enjoy...
BPOV
*Tuesday*
Why did this happen to me? Its been three days since he came and left. I know its wrong, but I want him to come back. Leave her for me, but I don't even know him but yet my body and soul do.... I don't make any since. I never have... My mom has been telling me for years I over think and I just need to do. But now that I've done, I don't know what to do next. This is why I think. Thinking and planning don't lead you into places and situations like mine.
I'm stupid for taking a job at a strip club. Sure it was my idea... mentioning to Rose but shit I needed a job! I left home after I got my massage license. Moved to Seattle figuring I would find a job pretty quickly. But no such luck. Thank good I found a roommate and friend in Rose. I'm not going back home, I can't....
I want to see him again, my body wants to feel that way I did on Saturday... Monday morning I checked the papers to see if the wedding announcement was made, pictures of the happy couple but nothing was there. He said he was going to fix 'this'. But what was this? I know he wanted me. I could feel it. And Oh god how I wanted him. Its wrong, so so wrong. Am I a horrible person because want him to come to me? Love me? Or is it just attraction? The things I felt while giving him the massage were un real. I surprised myself by pulling it off without fainting or something stupid like that. When he helped me with my robe and caressed my face, it felt like more. The kiss??? OMG it was magical. I had to run out of there before I did something stupid. I told myself over and over it wasn't anything... He was drunk, it was his last night... But it felt like more, at lest to me. Damn Alice and calling in because she went home with someone that night and wasn't able to come into serve on the day shift left it open to me to cover. Before I even walked over to his table I knew, I could feel. This crazy pull linking my soul with his. I wanted to throw up while walking over to the table. He didn't notice me. I was crazy... Be then when his eyes locked on to mine I knew he felt it too. God the way he pushed me into the wall, kissed me, told me he wanted me too made me want to blow this pop stand and runaway together and never look back... But he left, he said he would be back, fix things but I haven't seen of heard from him. In reality the only way to get into contact would be New Moon... Ive been taking extra shifts, just hoping he will be back. I need him to come back.
*Thursday*
He still hasn't come back... I don't want to even go into work anymore. Every time I walk in the doors I feel the emptiness take over. I need to find a need job. I can't be here anymore. Rose is not working the night shift anymore and has a new boy toy... Alice just does the party's in the private room so I'm left to sit and wait for a costumer who wants the PG package... Not many of those come around. Serving tables isn't my thing and I might as well go to a freaking diner and do it rather then deal with the grubby hands of guys. The days aren't bad but I need to get outta here.
*Saturday*
Its been a week, he's not coming back. I put in applications in at Starbucks and a few bookstores around town. Anything is better then here right now. I hope one of them call me soon.... I'm driving to see my parents tonight. Another trip to disappoint. I can't tell them where I'm working or what my roommate does. They won't understand or see it in the correct light... Well my mother would but defiantly not Daddy. The chief of police would shit his pants if he knew his little girl was working in that kind of establishment regardless of what I actually did there. Maybe if I moved further away from home I would disappoint less? Less visits would be nice, phone calls would be much easier... But I know I can't. And I won't... Yet again I always over think and not do...
*Monday*
So my visit with the parents went pretty well. Mom still wants me to come back and work in town. My father wants me to get a "real" degree... Blahh Blahh same shit different day. Bite Me Books called, I have an interview in a few hours... I really want this job. A trendy yet funky environment with coffee and snacks is much better then stale beer and half naked girls... Also something I can tell my parents about. Maybe then I wont get such a hard time.
I know I shouldn't think about him, but I do. He is in my dreams every night. When I wake I can taste him. I know Im crazy, but thats nothing new.
The interview went great. The owner was a sweet lady obsessed with Vampire's and Vampire books it was kinda funny but the store looked like a lot of fun. I start on Friday, I can't wait.
* Tuesday*
" Bella!!!"
" Yeah Rose?" I screamed back
" Help me pleaseeee, Em's coming in 15 and I don't know what to wear!" she wailed down the hall
" Yeah, be right there..." I huffed, another night alone...
" Ok, so we are going to the movies and a car show so I want to look cute but now whorish right??"
" Um yeah.... Maybe your skinny jeans? Heels? And a sweater? Add a tank under the sweater and then if its hot or something you can take it off and yeah, that outfit" I pointed
" Ok, that's what I was thinking..." she smiled putting on the exact thing I described.
" If you had it layed out already why did you need me?" I questioned laying across her bed.
" Well I wanted to see what you were going to say... test you and see if everything has stuck with ya" She smiled
" Ugg Yes, your shopping torture has been logged, although I personally will never use it."
" You never know. Just be patient the time will come..." she glanced at me
" So hows the thing with Em going?"
" Pretty good, he's really nice..." she stopped talking and was switching purses.
I want to ask about the bachelor party and how he knew him.... But screw it, I need to know. Ive held it back over a week.
" So umm I hate to ask and stuff but you met him at the bachelor party a week or so ago right? So how does he know Edward?"
" Umm well, he's Em's brother..." She whispered
" WHAT!?!" I yelled lunging off the bed
OMG OMG OMG....
" Rose, did he marry her? What happened please you have to tell me!" I ranted
" Bella??" She quirked an eyebrow.... " Are you asking if his brother got married?"
Fuck, I didnt tell her about him... what happened between us.... fuck fuck fuck, I have to now... Maybe I can find out what he did before...
" Rose, Please I'll explain I promise. I just have to know did he marry her?" I swallowed
" Umm well, all I know is that Em didn't go to any wedding on Sunday... he was with me. Does that help?"
" He didnt do it..." I whispered " He didnt marry her.... If he did his brother would be there right?" I questioned myself. Rose was staring at me like a grew a second head. I guess its time to talk...
" So spill it!" She said sitting on the bed
" You know I gave him a massage right?" She nodded " Ok well he kissed me Rose... It was amazing..." I looked down thinking about Saturday and all that was said and how nothing had been done. I told her everything... My tears fell. Telling someone made it sound even worse... I let a man cheat on his fiance. I let it happen. But I can't take it back and I'm not sure If I could I would.
" WOW, and you didn't tell me shit! Seriously Bella, you've been all sad and shit but I had no idea what was up. I can't believe you let him kiss you! Fuck he is pretty damn hot..."
Knock...
Knock....
Knock.....
" Crap, Em's here... Please Rose don't say anything please, he cant know. I don't want to be the whore that fucked up his family!" I cried harder.
" First off, you are not a whore, secondly, what if his brother left her for you Bella? Everything he said to you before he left Saturday would make me believe he did."
" But he hasn't come back... I'm crazy to think he ment anything he said Rose." I stuttered
" It's going to be ok, I'm going to go talk to Em and we are having a girls night ok?"
" No No, Rose go please. I'm fine" I mustered up a smile
" Just hold on ok?"
" Ok"
I lay back on the bed and sighed. It was nice having someone to share this shit with and not feel like there were disgusted with me. And What the hell he was Em's brother?.... He's so close yet so far away.
" Bella?" Rose called " Come out here for a minute..."
" I'll be right out..." I grunted
I went to the bathroom and washed my face. Ridding myself of the tears. And made my way to the living room.
" Hi" I waved and sat down on the love seat
" So you wanted to Know if Eddie got married?" I nodded glaring at Rose and her big mouth. I hoped she didn't say anything else.
" Well he didn't. And ya know I recognize you from New Moon... He umm was quite taken by you at lunch last week. And Since helped me get Rosie's number here" He reaching into his picked grabbing him cell phone and dialed a number...
Oh god Oh god Oh god.... Please dont being doing this!
" Please... Don't" I muttered covering my face
He just wiggled his eyebrows and let the phone ring.
" Hey, Eddie man so I got this banging chick sitting with me, no not Rosie, but she's here too, a friend of Rosie's infact... Anyways she thinks your a hottie and fuck I'm going to give her your number. I know your going through shit but I'm giving it to her and you better be nice. Call me later bro, peace" and he hung up scrolling down his list again. " Rose baby got some paper?"
" Yeah, hold on." Rose got up and got the post-its on the counter
Em quickly wrote down a cell number and handed it over. The paper burned my hand... I wanted to call that number so bad. Even though I know he wasn't going to answer since Em just called... I wanted to hear him.
" Thanks..." I smiled " You guys can go, I'm sure your late for the movie but don't just sit here. At lest go to the car show ok?"
" Are sure your going to be ok lil Bell??" Em asked
" Lil Bell??" Rose laughed " You've meet the girl twice and you have a nickname?" She said kissing him.
" Yeah well I do, gotta prob with it?" he mock frowned and looked at me
" Nope" I grinned back and gave Rose a hug and told them to hit the road.
" I'll see you later!" Rose called as the door shut
Holding the post it, I walked to my room and sat on my bed. I stared at the paper for what seemed like forever. I wanted to call and just hear his voice mail. After contemplating it for about an hour I decided I was going to do it. With sweaty palms and shaking fingers I dialed his number.
Ring
Ring
Ring....
" Hello??" a raspy voice answered.... He answered
" Hello???? Anyone there?"
I just sat there
" Hello??" He said again.....
What do I do now???
Chapter Notes:
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