A/N: Hello again, my readers!
I 'm glad I got to post the chapter this week!
So, the moment I've been waiting for since I started the story... Most of the chapter is Edward's POV!!!
I'm so happy! YAY!!!
I wanted to add, unlike in the real book, Edward didn't leave his family to be alone, so now he's living with them. Just in case you don't understand why is he there.
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or any of its characters... Damn, I hate saying that.
So...
Previously:
Oh, Edward was soooo going to get it later. And I wasn't going to go easy on him, just because he is my brother. No way in hell...
Now...
Bella's POV:
It was a month since Eleazar and the others came to Volterra.
I told them the whole story about me and the Cullens. They didn't believe me at first, especially Eleazar, but he believed Aro and Nick. And, since they could see that I was honest, he had no reason not to believe me.
Carmen became like a mother to me. Kind of reminded me of Esme, always the motherly figure. I got to know her in the past month, she was kind and caring...
Eleazar, he was almost the same as Carlisle, and whenever about him, it hurt abit, but not so much. Eleazar and Carlisle shared the same opinions about almost everything. And, just like Carmen, he was like my own father.
Kate was amazing. She had the power to spread electricity through her skin, and, apparently, it didn't work on me either. So she helped me control my shield and take it off whenever I wanted to. Now I could do a lot of things – read minds, see the future, feel emotions, hurt people (like Jane but I don't use it), I even could read thoughts from a distance. I had other powers that I had yet to discover. The good part of all that was that I could shut them down in a way, they just... disappeared. When I wanted, I could turn them back on.
It was pretty cool, actually.
Tanya didn't give me a hard time at all. Considering she had a crush on my ex-boyfriend, she was pretty cool. We easily became friends, and even Jane was a little jealous. But as soon as I realized that, I assured her that she was my best friend... She believed me.
Irina... Well, she was the one that was hardest to deal with. She was still jealous because of Laurent, and although I tried a thousand times to prove her wrong, she never changed her mind and I'm sure she's still thinking I was moving in on her boyfriend...
The Denalis left today. I was going to miss them, they were like my... third family. Okay, that didn't sound so convincing, but yeah, I loved them, too.
I seem to love a lot of people lately, don't I?
Edward's POV:
Hell, I wanted my family back. They weren't the same after we left Forks. After we left her.
Not that I was any better, but... well I was in love with her, that ought to make a difference.
Everyone took leaving Bella really hard. Well, except Rosalie that is. The stupid blonde will never understand me. Never understand us. She couldn't love anyone. She wasn't capable of loving. I know I shouldn't talk like this about my own sister, but... Well, I didn't think of her as family anymore. She just doesn't fit here anymore.
Everyone is pissed at her for acting this way. Even Emmett. For example...
We were sitting in the living room one night, all of us except Rosalie. The TV was on, but no one was actually paying attention. We were all deep in thought. About Bella, of course. Trust me, I ought to know. We were thinking about all the time we've spent with her. I thought about the kisses I'd shared with her. And how they hadn't been enough, how I wished I could turn back time and not hold back. To just hold her in my arms and kiss her until she's out of breath, and her beautiful little face is blushing like crazy. What I wouldn't give to be able to kiss her one more time...
And then Rosalie ran into the house, frowning. „What are you all guys doing?" Everyone glared at her. Even Esme, I didn't even think she was able to pull that off. „You just mope around all day ever since we left Forks. Well I'll tell you something – she is human and when she dies, I can only imagine what you're going to be like then. And, to be honest, I can't wait until that bitch is ten feet under the ground" That's it. I jumped from the couch and pinned her to the ground. No one made a move to stop me. She struggled against me, but I was stronger so I managed to hold her down. „Let me go!" she screeched.
Everyone was standing next to me in an instant. „You'll never, ever, talk about her like that, do you understand? If you do that one more time, I'll rip your head off and burn you until there are only ashes left. I don't care if you're supposed to be my sister" My voice was trembling from the fury I was experiencing, and I was sure Jasper was struggling not to spread them out to everybody else in the room.
I let her go and ran through the door, off to the forest.
Everyone hardly talked to her since that day.
She was being a bitch, and she knew it, but... well, she didn't care.
Emmett didn't even want to see her. Neither did I.
I didn't expect my family's reaction to be like that. I didn't realize that they loved her so dearly. They haven't known her for nearly as much as I had, and yet... ow come I didn't realize it earlier?
I was a fool. I hurt myself, my family, and, what I would never forgive myself for, was that I hurt Bella. Little, fragile Bella, whom I'd sworn to never hurt. Alice had seen her one time, accidentally, a few days after we left.
She was curled up on her bed, crying her eyes out. My heart broke just from the sight of her suffering like that. Alice had given me a hard time that day, and I couldn't forgive myself for hurting everyone I loved.
Right now, I was hunting with Carlisle, Esme, Emmett and Jasper. Rosalie had been away for a few days. Her explanation was „I'm leaving for now, I hope that, when I come back, you'd be over that stupid little pathetic human." If I wasn't so relieved that she was leaving, I would've ripped her apart right there.
And Alice, well... I didn't get her. For the last few days, she's been blocking me out. She hasn't even been talking to me. She was up to something, I knew it, I just couldn't put my finger on it.
So it was only the five of us. We were running through the forest, sniffing the air for our favourite meal. We all took off in different directions.
I followed the scent of a mountain lion and found it climbing up a tree. When it felt me there, it immediately faced me and attacked. It struggled against me for a while, but I restrained it easily and my teeth sank in the fur on his throat. The liquid poured into my mouth and down my throat, but it held no appeal for me. I was just doing it out of habit. It was like I didn't need it. I only needed... Bella.
Again I remembered her beautiful face. All the memories I had with her. I smiled a little when I remembered how she'd always thrown herself into the kiss, while I was always fighting to hold back... And maybe I shouldn't have. Maybe I should've been myself a little bit more with her... not restraining myself. Back then I thought I was going to break her if I didn't control myself. But now, when I thought about it... I realized that I was never going to be able to hurt her. Physically, yes, but emotionally, mentally I would never let myself lose control that way. I'd rather kill myself before I ever hurt her.
And I regretted that I hadn't thought of that earlier. Because, if I had, I wouldn't be here, 'moping around', but I would've had Bella in my arms, kissing her until she couldn't breathe. But it was too late now.
Too late to get her back.
We cut the hunting short, because apparently neither of us was feeling like it today.
We ran back to the house only to find it empty. We were all suddenly worried, where could Alice have gone? Without even telling us? It was getting darker and darker outside.
I tried to read her mind but... Nothing. She wasn't close enough.
And then I could hear her. Her thoughts were furious, though I couldn't quite catch who they were directed toward. She was driving at an incredible speed, the trees almost blurring around her. When I was back in my own head, I could hear her tires against the road to the house. A few seconds later, she was outside. She stormed in and immediately threw herself at me.
„How could you do this to us? To her?" she screamed. I just stared at her, shocked by her outburst. „Why? Why did you have to leave? And take us with you? Why did you have to do this...?" she broke down to the floor, sobbing. Jasper was by her side in an instant, comfortin her. When she calmed down enough, she started screaming at me again. „Do you have any idea where she is now?"she asked, her voice was grim. She didn't need to say her name so I would know who she was talking about.
What did she mean with that? Of course I knew-. Or maybe I didn't, or else why would Alice ask me that kind of question? It figures that she would be in Forks, so apparently she wasn't there...
I shook my head. „Where is she?" My voice almost sounded scared.
„I don't know. No one does. And that's the problem."
„What do you mean'No one knows'? How is that possible?" I was getting angry now, how could no one notice if she suddenly disappeared?
„When we left, she was cathatonic. She wouldn't talk to anyone unless they asked her something. She became an A student, but never went out, always stayed in her room... It wasn't until Charlie threatened to send her back to her mother that she snapped out of it. And it looked like she was getting better. She went out with friends and came home late at night. Later Charlie found out that it was much worse – she was drinking and he even suspected she was doing drugs" Esme, Carlisle and Emmett all gasped. I only stood there, staring at her wide-eyed. „Then one night Charlie went home at about one o'clock and, just as he was getting into his room, Bella stepped out of hers. They argued, she thought he wanted her to move out and then she left the house, but, five minutes later, she came back and... she said she was leaving. She said that her past was haunting her and she couldn't move on." I looked down. It was all my fault, and I knew it. I never should've left... „She didn't tell him where she would go. No one knows where she is now. Charlie thought that she would go to Renée, but she never did." How could I do this? Now I even hurt Charlie and Renée... I had to find her, but I had no idea where she could be... „Oh, and there are werewolfs in Forks" She added as though it was just an insignificant detail.
We all gave her the are-you-serious look. „How? I thought we left early enough" Carlisle said.
„Oh, that's Edward's fault too, by the way."Alice muttered.
„How come it's always my fault?" I whispered.
„Because that's how you are. I told you we had to take care of Victoria immediately after we took down James, but no, Alice doesn't understand anything, why should I listen to her. And here she is, Victoria in all her glory. Why? I don't know. Maybe because Edward didn't listen to Alice when he should've." I fell to the ground on my knees. I was truly an idiot for leaving her. Now she was in danger, and I didn't even know where she was...
„Well, apparently Bella's in danger" Carlisle announced. „And, since we don't know where she is, I suggest we-" I interrupted him.
„What if we're too late, Carlisle? What if Victoria already got to her?" My voice was strained, full of panic.
„Let me finish, son. I suggest we go to the Denali's. Eleazar is close to the Volturi, and they know where most of the vampires might know something." I would agree to anything, if it meant that I could at least try to keep my precious Bella safe. „I'll just call them to see if it's okay"
„No, we don't have time, we'll call them while we're driving. Come on, let's go!" I practically pushed Carlisle out the door and the others followed.
We jumped into our cars – me in the Volvo, Alice and Jasper in the Porsche, Carlisle, Esme and Emmett in the Mercedes.
We all started the cars at the same time and sped down the road. We were driving so fast that I was sure we would be there in a few hours.
I put in the player the first CD that came in sight, just needing a distraction. A familiar screaming boomed through the speakers. Dead by April. Bingo. It was my favourite song – What can I say. I know that I usually a guy to listen classical music, but... It depended on my moods. When I was around Bella, I was happy and listened to classical music. When I left... I started listening to metal, because it expressed my feelings best. And the lyrics of Dead by April were the best.
I tried to be all that you need
Tried to not ever let you down
Still I can see it in your eyes
Not good enough
This time I believed that I really could change
I gave it all
This time you really had my everything
I guess I was wrong
I guess I was wrong
What can I say, What can I do
This is who I am and I am hurting you
What can I say, what can I do
No matter how strong my feelings are
I always end up hurting you
I always end up hurting you
I'm hurting you
I tried hard only to be him
You've always wanted in life
Still I just bring you misery
What can I do
This time I believed in you, in me
When I gave it all
This time I could see it all perfectly,
I guess I was wrong
I guess I was wrong
What can I say, what can I do
This is who I am and I am hurting you
What can I say, what can I do
No matter how strong my feelings are
I always end up hurting you
I always end up hurting you
Without you I keep crying
With you I am just hurting you
Without you I am dying
With you I am tearing your heart
Without you I am crying
Without you I am dying
What can I say, What can I do
This is who I am and I'm hurting you
What can I say, what can I do
No matter how strong my feelings are
I always end up hurting you
I always end up hurting you
I always end up hurting you
I'm hurting you
Yeah. It was absolutely perfect for my situation. And damn, if I could, I would've turned back into a human right now... I wanted to be with Bella so much...
I heard Carlisle's thoughts. He was hopeful that we could find Bella. And a little confused, because Eleazar didn't answer his phone. That was strange. Why didn't they?
As I said, we got there in mere hours, but... They weren't there.
Where could they be? It wasn't like they traveled a lot. They only went to... the Volturi. So apparently there was another vampire. Another poor human to lose his soul, to become a monster just to have immortality. I really didn't understand, and yet... I was grateful. Yes, I would suffer forever, but if I didn't become a vampire in 1918, I would never have met Bella... Never would've felt that kind of love. I couldn't lose that feeling.
So, back to the point. The Denalis weren't here. That much was pretty obvious. We had two options:
Number 1: Stay here and wait for the Denalis to come back. Nah, that could take days, or even weeks. I don't wanna just stand here all night or presumably longer. Plus, it'd be kinda creepy...
Number 2: We go back to our house and do a little research of our own.
Well, definitely the second one.
„Okay, let's move" I said. Thay all looked at me questioningly. „What? Apparently thay're not here, why waste our time?"
„Because they're coming" announced Alice. „And, if you've been listening to what I was saying, you were going to know it."
Damn. I've been so caught up in my own musings that I didn't even understand that Alice was talking.
Soon I could hear their thoughts. They were thinking about Volturi. Well, all except one. Tanya. She was thinking about... me.
Why wasn't I surprised?
But when I heard what she was thinking, I definitely was surprised.
That stupid bastard. He's so selfish, so... So... I can't even find the words to describe it...
Well, that was definitely weird. And I didn't even know why she thought that of me.
Seconds later we heard the screeching of tires and two cars stopped right beside us. They all thought the same thing at the same time...
They're here?!?
They flew by us and into the house. „Come in!" Eleazar looked behind his shoulder and whispered that to us.
We followed them and we all settled in the living room.
„So, why are you here?" asked Eleazar.
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