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Sorry I couldn't update sooner, but I really had an awful lot of things to do...

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So, on with the new chapter...

Previously:

They flew by us and into the house. „Come in!" Eleazar looked behind his shoulder and whispered that to us.

We followed them and we all settled in the living room.

„So, why are you here?" asked Eleazar.

Now...

„Well, we're looking for a girl..." trailed off Carlisle. How could he say that? She wasn't just a girl. She was the girl.

„You know that's not very concrete, Carlisle. I need something more than that." Eleazar answered.

„Her name is... Isabella Swan."Carlisle added.

They all took a sudden breath and suddenly looked a little taken aback.

„Who is she?" Tanya asked.

„Not your--" I started, but Carlisle interrupted me.

„Edward, they have a right to know. They're family" And he told them the whole story... I couldn't believe it. They didn't need to know everything. And, well, I didn't want them to know. It just... It felt too personal.

And I was surprised that one image appeared in their minds. It was a girl. A vampire, to be exact. And she was breathtaking, literally. She was sitting on a bed, her dark mahogany hair spreading all the way down to her waist. And her eyes... they were bloodred. And yet, I couldn't bring myself to become disgusted of her. She seemed to be in one of the rooms in the Volturi castle. Apparently she was one of the Volturi.

„Who was that?" I asked.

„Who?" they looked like they were hiding something, I just couldn't put my finger on it...

„Oh, come on, you know very well. The girl that was in all of your minds a moment ago." I was getting a little impatient.

Tanya was the one who actually decided to answer my question. „That's just Izzy. She's the newest member of the Volturi." she snapped. „Happy now?"

„Wait. A member of the guards or the family?" asked Carlisle.

„The family" answered Eleazar. We all gasped.

„But that's ... impossible!" exclaimed Esme. „They haven't accepted anyone in the family in centuries!"

„Aro, Caius and Marcus thought that her powers were too valuable for her to be sent in the guards. And I'm sure that anyone who meets her would share their opinion."

„Her powers? What are they?" Alice asked. Apparently, she hadn't seen her coming.

„First, no one can read her mind. She has a very powerful shield. Then, she can copy the power of any vampire she meets. For example, she can use some sort of... compulsion or something on people and vampires to make them do as she says. Or, she can... connect the minds of a few people and they can hear each other's thoughts. Her powers are amazing, no one's ever seen someone like her." explained Eleazar.

„Wow" said Alice. „I... didn't see her coming. When did she join the Volturi?"

„About two months ago. Actually, she didn't want to become a vampire." Answered Kate and the others stared at her in amazement.

All of their thoughts were the same: Why would she tell them that? It was supposed to be a secret!

And Kate's thought's surprised me... Oh, you're so gonna get it, Cullen.

But I didn't get which Cullen exactly she was talking.

We looked at her curiously. „Well, apparently she's been through a lot in her life and she wanted to die. She knew our secret and knew about the Volturi, so..." Eleazar trailed off.

„How did she know? And what so bad could've happened that she would want to die?" Esme was staring incredulously at Eleazar.

„Well, um... She has had a vampire... boyfriend. Then he had to leave, he had been there way too longer than he should have. She knew that he loved her, but he couldn't take her with him and he refused to turn her. And when he left, she decided that she didn't want to live without him. The end." explained Kate.

This was... the same. Could this be...?

No. It couldn't be her. It wasn't possible. She truly believed that I didn't want her anymore, that I never had. And I couldn't understand how she believed me so fast, so easily. After the thousands of times when I've told her that I love her... it was like it hadn't meant anything to her. And it hurt me to think that I had never actually convinced her in my eternal love. That she never understood my true feelings for her.

And how could she believe me at all, even if she didn't understand why I love her? It was like I was ripping my heart out when I told her that I didn't want her to come with me. It was the biggest lie I've ever told in my existence. And it hurt so much... I tried to hide the pain behind a poker face, but from time to time I felt like she could see through the façade. And still, she didn't try to stop me, she just... pushed me away. And although I could see in her eyes just how much I've hurt her, she tried to prove that she wasn't hurt, but... mad that I've been playing around with her for all these months.

I got carried away and didn't even realise that my whole family was staring at me intently.

„What?" I asked.

No one answered.

„I have a question." I said. „Does she drink human blood?" I didn't know why I asked a question like that. I mean, she is one of the Volturi. But I had some sort of weird feeling...

„Uh, no." Answered Tanya. „Not exactly."

„What do you me--" I was interrupted by the vision in Tanya's head.

Izzy was standing in the middle of a clearing, crying. With real tears. But that wasn't what caught my eye. It was the fact that she had a girl about 10 years old in her arms – it had brown hair and deep green eyes. And a bleeding wound on her neck.

„No, no, no..." she kept repeating over and over again.

„Iz, it's okay. It's not your fault, it's instinct" Tanya said.

„No, I can't let her die, I just can't..." And then she bit into the girl's neck, starting the transformation to a monster...

„Why did she do that?" I asked incredulously. „She just took away her soul just like that?"

„Oh get over it. She doesn't believe in that crap about the soul." Tanya snapped. „Oh, and she couldn't live with the thought that she has taken away a life. That's how she is."

That reminded me so much about Bella and me... We always argued about my soul. I always refused to take away hers, but she remained as stubborn as ever. She said that I had a soul, but I have never been sure about that. I even remember one of the most interesting conversations about it...

Flashback:

„Bella, how many times have we discussed this?" I asked, frustrated. „I told you, I'm not going to take your soul away from you!"

„Argh, Edward..." she complained. „I told that you're not taking my soul away! You do have a soul, and you know it!"

„I don't, and that's the problem! I can't do this, not if I'm taking away the most important thing to you!"

„This is not the most important thing to you!" she argued. „I don't give a damn about my soul! You are the most important thing to me!"

„Okay, okay, don't be mad... You're the most important thing to me, too." I soothed her.

„I'm not mad, just... disappointed" she sighed. „I can't believe you're gonna let me grow all old and wrinkled... and die."

„I won't live without you." I said. „Ever."

„So you're gonna turn me?" Her whole face was alight with joy, and I hated to do this to her...

„No, Bella, I told you I'd never do this to you. When you die, I'll follow right after."

„You're such a freak. You'd die, but you wouldn't turn me?" She looked at me with her big, brown, puppy dog eyes...

„Damn, Bella, don't do this to me! Stop with these puppy dog eyes..." She didn't stop. She was teasing me, she knew I couldn't resist those eyes. Uh, she was driving me crazy. No one's ever done this to me before.

I knew that she wouldn't be able to hold it for much longer – she usually burst into giggles about a minute after.

So three, two, one...

She started laughing histerically. Uh-oh, now I was going to burst into laughter soon. She just made me want to smile - something that I haven't felt in over a hundred years.

So instead I kissed her. And a feeling of endless joy erupted in me.

End of flashback

I got so lost in the feeling of her lips on mine that I almost didn't notice that Alice was waving her hand in front my eyes.

„What?" I asked, irritated. How could she be so cruel to wake me up from my perfect memories?

„We have to go. I'm sure the Denalis have other things to do besides telling us stories" she answered.

We got out of the house and headed back home.

So, sorry again for the really big delay, but I really had a lot to do.

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