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Disclaimer:*Edward dazzles me with his eyes* ok ok jeez, i don't own twilight... yet. *more dazzling* ok ill never own it. sm is a great writer, i couldn't take credit for it. *Edward lightly taps my head* great now I'm a dog. o well i can live with it if im near Edward! lol
o yeah just so you know i dont know how foster care is, i just guessed sorry.
life goes on ch.3
I was 17 now. everything had changed. i was put into a foster family because mom had left my dad. dad became an alcoholic and was sent to jail every other week. right now i was staying with an in-between family because no one wanted me. no one has ever wanted me.
it was time to go to school. i had to go. i was still under age. today was like any other day in forks. we had gotten some new students in. really it doesn't matter. not like they will talk to me. I'm a loner, not that i minded, i just hate attention. but i still had Angela Ben and mike sometimes who talked to me. but that was it. I went through my first 5 classes. i turned in my homework, did the class work and started reading ahead. nothing new. i was always ahead because i had nothing better to do. today for lunch i got a water and some crackers. my usual lunch. i sat in the back corner near the window by myself. Nothing new there. i finished eating my crackers and pulled out my worn book of Romeo and Juliet. i have the book memorized but i still read it. i always envied Juliet. she found someone. even if she couldn't be with him. she found someone that loved her back.
"can we sit here?" a boy with gorgeous bronze messy hair gold eyes and pale skin asked.
"sure." i went back to reading, he must be lost.
i heard 5 people sit down. must be the new students. that would explain it. i put my book down to see 5 pale, gorgeous people. one looked like a super model, she had blonde hair and a slim figure. she was hanging on to this body builder looking guy. next to him was a small pixie, with dark hair pointed every where. she was holding onto a guy who was lean and had blonde hair. next to him was the guy with messy bronze hair. they must be lost. i was going to start reading again when the pixie spoke up.
"hi Bella!" she sounded so happy to be sitting here with me. they must of done some research on the school or grabbed a year book. I looked at her like she was crazy
"hi... who are you all?" i asked. might as well be polite while they are here.
she looked like i hurt her, like i should know who they are. She sighed "we are the new students. I'm Alice, this is jasper" she pointed to the blonde male. "this is Rosalie and Emmett" she pointed to the super model and the body builder. "and this is Edward" she pointed to the bronze haired guy. "we are going to be your new foster family"
"oh... That explains a lot" like how they knew my name and why they sat here. well this means that i have to be nice to them. great. ill be even more of an outcast now compared to these gorgeous teenagers. "ok. well its time for my class bye." i ran off to science a couple of minutes early. i don't know why but i feel some how i feel connected to them. that's why i left. i cant feel that toward anyone. everyone i love leaves or pushes me away. i sat in my usual seat by myself. this class is really easy. Then edward came in. he gave Mr. banner a note. the teacher pointed him to the only empty seat. next to mine. great. that's even better.
he sat down next to me. so i put my long hair down between us. i really didn't want to be here right now. i looked up at him between my hair. i saw that he looked really sad. that's stupid. he is sad because i wont talk to him. Wow. get used to it, i did. i kept staring at him until he turned to look at me. i quickly went back to paying attention to class. something seemed so familiar about him. why did i have this urge to just come out and tell him everything?
i needed an escape. Mr. banner was collecting homework so I raised my hand. "Mr. banner may i use the restroom." he nodded and i left the room heading for the restroom. i looked in the mirror. what is happening to me? have i officially gone crazy? i wanted to leave. i had my license and my car. i started to walk out of the bathroom when i ran into alice. she looked at me with concern
"bella are you ok?" she tried to touch my shoulder but i pulled away.
"yeah I'm fine. I'm just having a bad day." wait why did i say that. i could of just said yes and left it at that. but noo i had to open my mouth. what is with these people.
"do you want to tell me about it?" she pleaded with me with her eyes. i ran out of the bathroom. i ran back to class. i could not wait for this day to be over. I waited for the bell to ring but it didn't come so i headed back into class and sat down next to him. i gathered my stuff ready to go. if i played sick i could get out of gym. I contemplated all the ways to leave when the bell finally rang.
i jumped out of my seat and almost fell over. i caught myself on the table. you would think after 16 years of walking i would be more graceful. ugh. i dashed out of class and went down to the nurse. i tried my best to feel sick. i walked in a little woozy. which didn't take a lot. I sat down on the seat. the nurse turned to look at me. i must of been pale because she grabbed the trash can for me. this is not the first time I've been in here. she turned around and grabbed a note to excuse me and filled it out. i thanked her and left. i almost ran to my car. i tried to keep it normal. i finally made it to my truck. i got in the cab and started it. the warmth felt so good. For some reason i felt like just driving around. i had a full tank of gas. i pulled out of my parking space and i saw the weirdest car. a silver Volvo. it stuck out of the older cars here. i don't know why but i wanted to smash it. it must be the new kid's car. i don't even know where they live either, great. i stopped the car. i took a deep breath. i just needed to relax. i needed to go to Charlie's house.
so i drove down to my father's house and just sat there in my truck. i couldn't help it. i started to cry. i felt all alone anymore. being pushed from family to family takes a toll on you. i knew in about 3 months they would want me out. everyone kicked me out. they'd said i didn't trust them enough and that i was a problem child. they never liked what i did. i really don't expect them to be different. i wanted to be with my mom and dad when they were happy.
school was about to let out. i had decided it wasn't the new kids fault that i was acting so weird. so i drove back to school and parked in my spot. i waited for one of them to come out. i saw Edward come out of the school. i followed him with my eyes in my rear view mirror. he got into the silver Volvo. i knew it. he pulled out of his space and i pulled out of mine to. i pulled up right behind him. everyone got into his car except Alice. she walked back to mine. i rolled down the passenger side window.
"would you like me to ride with you so i can give you directions?" she asked.
"that sounds good." i said.
while Alice was getting in i saw Edward in his rear view mirror. the pain was gone from his face but not his eyes. i felt really bad for him. alice closed the door and i turned on my CD player. i asked Alice "which way?"
she told me to follow Edward out. i followed him but he drives super fast so i lost him. alice giggled at this. she pointed me in the direction of my new home.
when we got there i felt at ease and like i truly belonged here. i haven't even been inside and i feel weird. i looked out the window. the house was beautiful. it was so...open. it had windows all the way through out the house. it was very bright on the inside. i really felt like an outsider. i usually tried to stay in the dark. alice came around and opened my door. i didn't realize she had gotten out. i got out of the car and walked up to the house. the door flew open and a man with blonde hair and a short woman with brown hair stood there with welcoming eyes. they too had golden eyes and pale skin. "hi I'm bella. you are?"
"I'm Carlisle and this is Esme, your faster parents." they smiled but in their eyes i could see the were upset. Not what they had expected i guess. o well. I just bring pain every where and I don't even mean to.
i walked into the house and it was breath taking. i looked around before i went to go sit down on the couch beside Emmett and rosalie. i really have had a rough day but i had homework to do. i got up off the couch and went out to my truck to get my school bag.
when i came back in alice said "the kitchen table is the best place to work. would you like me to help you?"
"sure. if you want." alice dashed in there beside me. i laid out all my homework. i really didn't have that much. i started on math, the subject i hated. every time i asked alice something she knew the exact answer. she was a lot of help. i finished my homework when my stomach growled it was 5:00. i haven't really ate today.
i saw esme walk into the kitchen and say "are you hungry bella?" i nodded and she went to start cooking. i got up to. i wanted to help but esme told me she had it.
i asked alice "can you show me my room so i can put my stuff in there." she lead me upstairs.
"here is your room. it is right next to Edwards. I'm sorry but you have to share a bathroom with him."
"as long as he doesn't come in while i shower I'm good." i put my stuff on the desk that was in there. i turned around and said "Alice did you all get my stuff from my old house?"
"yes. your books are on the shelf over there. nice collection. your old clothes and some new ones are in the dresser and the closet u must also share with edward. sorry. it is a big closet so you should have room."
"thanks. I'm going to go get in the shower."
"when you get out put on your pajamas. we are having a small bonfire tonight." that sounds like fun. i quickly got into the shower. the warm water felt so good on my back. when i got out i found a pair of pajamas and went downstairs. i was starving.
esme had made a lot of food. my mouth started to water and my stomach growled even louder. i sat down at the table and esme handed me a plate full of food. i said thank you to her and she smiled. It was eggs and bacon. everyone was sitting at the table watching me eat. they all looked disgusted. emmett looked the worst. i said "would you like some bacon emmett?"
everyone stared at me like i had just done the most amazing thing. " no thank you bella I'm full." he looked kind of shocked. i shrugged and went back to eating. when i finished eating, which was the most I've ate in forever. i went into the living room with them. jasper and emmett decided to play chess.
alice asked "can i do your hair bella."
i normally let no one touch my hair but the way she looked killed me so i sighed. "sure alice."
she played with my hair while i watch emmett get his butt kicked by jasper. near the end of the game edward went outside to start the fire. i felt bad for him. he looked so depressed. i turned around to alice and asked "is edward ok? he looks mad at me or really upset. did i do something?"
alice smiled but it didn't touch her eyes. "he is fine. he has just had a bad day. he found out some bad news. its not your fault"
"oh. i hope he gets to feeling better." i felt that because i moved in is why he is upset. i really felt bad.
"bella i promise you its not because of you." jasper spoke up. for some reason i still didn't believe it but i felt calmer. jasper smiled at me and i half heartedly smiled back.
edward yelled "fire is ready." into the house. i hopped up with alice, who did an amazing job on my hair. we went out onto the back porch and i saw stuff to make smores. it has been forever since i had one. i tried to remember but i couldn't so i gave up. i sat down in the chair and alice handed me a stick and the marshmallow bag. i put one on the end.
as the marshmallow was toasting i said "did you all know i really love smores. it has been forever since I've had them. do you all not want one?"
"no we are good" Emmett said with a weird look on his face. alice handed me a graham cracker with some chocolate already on there. she was careful not to touch me like everyone else had done today. i wouldn't want to touch me either but i smiled my thanks. i put my marshmallow on there and took a bite. it was really good. by the end i had about 3 smores and i was tired. we had talked about a couple of things like school and why they came here, which they just said they had come to see a family friend. i felt myself falling asleep. suddenly i felt two cold arms around me, carrying me.
all of a sudden a rush of memories came to me. i remembered the last time i had smores and had these cold arms around me. i flashed my eyes open and jumped out of edwards arms. i turned to look at them. all of the pain i had stored away when i was little came back but tripled. i started to cry. i couldn't take this i had to leave. i screamed and ran to the door. i didn't make though because i fell. of course. i couldn't believe it. i got up and tried to run for the door again. i knew they would follow me so i changed course and went up to my room instead. i locked all the ways the could come in and went to lay down on my bed. they could break down the door but i don't care.
i could feel the flood of tears coming down my cheek. no freaking way. after being away for 8 years of my life they cant just waltz right back in. they are the reason I'm an outcast. i could not trust anyone after that. i could feel my heart being ripped up again. they are the reason i never did my hair, wear nice clothes, be in light areas, have smores, or trust anyone. i couldn't stand the remembrance of them. i promised to never think of them again. i did these things subconsciously. They had promised to never come back.
i heard a soft knock at my door. "Bella?" it was edward. i hated him the most. i cant believe he left me with them. i had to be stuck with a cheating mom and an alcoholic dad. they knew what would happen. He especially knew.
i didn't answer him. i heard a knock from the bathroom. "bella please?" i still ignored him. i didn't want to see or talk to anyone. i just kept on crying. i heard a knock from the closet. "bella I'm sorry. please just allow me to talk to you."
"go away." i mumbled into my pillow. not really loud enough for anyone to hear. i grabbed Romeo and juliet off my side table. i now know why i loved this book. he would quote from it all the time. I took the book and threw it across the room. ok i am probably over reacting but i don't care i hope jasper is having a lovely time with my emotions. god why now. i have no one to talk to. damn them for making me feel all alone. i couldn't stop the tears. i heard another quite knock at my door.
"I'm sorry bella. i know we hurt you but please let us explain." it was alice. it hurts me to see alice sad. that's why i hated seeing her like that. i got up and went to the door. i opened it up a crack. "bella it is just me and edward." it was like when they first found me as a kid. i sighed. i knew they would eventually come talk to me. i had to face it. i opened the door and let them in. alice tried to hug me but i moved away from her. she looked down and walked in. i closed the door behind them and went to go sit on my bed. alice sat next to me and edward sat in my desk chair. i never realized it but he looks gorgeous. i looked up at him. i cant think like that right now. i took a pillow off my bed and held onto it.
"i guess we have a lot of explaining to do." alice said. i nodded. "Bella first i want you to know how sorry we are for leaving you. but i also want you to know why we left." she looked like she was going to cry if she could, "as you know since we are vampires we never change. well carlisle was at work on day and i saw someone mentioning it and looking it up and finding out. we couldn't risk being exposed. we had no choice but to move. he was the only suspicious one. we wanted to take you with us but I foresaw that your parents would say no and hurt u even worse. i wanted to have a goodbye party but that would have made it harder to leave. we wanted you to remember us, but forget us as well. we loved you to much for that. it really hurt all of us to leave you there. Edward and I saw my visions of what was happening to you and we felt horrible. every time I trued to leave they told me you needed to grow up human. we missed you so much that we were coming back just to visit or at least see that u were doing better. then we heard that you were in foster care so we applied for all of it and we got custody. Edward told me not to look for your future so it would be easier so that why it was such a surprise to me. I'm sorry." i really feel bad. it wasn't their fault. they really did love me. i missed them so much.
i threw the pillow aside and attacked Alice. i jumped on her and gave her a huge hug. i missed her so much. i gave her a kiss on the cheek and got up. i went over to Edward and i felt this electrical current through my body. i extended my hand. he looked up at me. he grabbed my hand and i tugged for him to stand up. he understood and did. i wrapped my arms around him. i missed him the most. he was my secret keeper. he knew what to do whenever i had a problem. i looked up at him and smiled i let go. it felt weird to hug him, i had a tingly sensation. i grabbed Alice's hand and went downstairs.
the first person i had to hug was Esme. she was my real mom now. after esme came Carlisle. he was my real dad now. i then turned around and saw Rosalie trying to not sob. i ran and jumped her. i hugged her till Emmett pulled me off and gave a huge hug. i laughed my first laugh since they left. i squirmed out of Emmett's arms and went over to jasper. i opened my arms to give him a hug and he looked at me with worry. "sorry for all the emotions. I'm fine now." i apologized he smiled and gave me a light hug.
i was finally with my family. the one who has loved me ever since they found me. everyone took a seat back on the couch and i took a seat beside edward. again i had that tingly feeling. weird. alice blurted out "I've missed you so much Bella."
"i've missed all of you to. I'm so glad i remember you now." everyone had a confused look on their face. "i thought i was just your pity case and you didn't love me. i was 9 years old and i promised myself to forget you. you weren't coming back i thought. but i somehow forgot. it just happened one day. i stopped thinking of you and all of my memories went away. the weird thing was is that i did stuff subconsciously to help me not remember. like having messy hair. I've never had anyone but alice do it. also like wearing baggy clothes, which i know has been killing alice, i never bought myself clothes because of alice and rose. and not really trusting anyone anymore. i never told anyone anything after you left. i didn't want them to hurt me. that's why i sit alone at lunch and in all of my classes. i was really hurt after you left. then my mom leaving and dad becoming an alcoholic didn't help. i see now though that it wasn't your fault." i could see the pain in their eyes. i had to eliminate it. "i forgive you guys for it. I'm just so happy to have you back. you can take me now if you have to leave. I'm actually your daughter now."
"you were always our daughter." esme said. i smiled at her.
"and you were always my second family. the ones who would care for me no matter what. I'm going to get some water, crying can sure take it out of you" i giggled. I was feeling really tired and my head was hurting. i got up off the couch to go get some water. i knew i would feel better after that. i started heading to the kitchen and tripped again. but this time edward caught me. i mumbled "you would think after 16 years of walking i would finally know how to walk." everyone laughed. the electrical shock was a lot more intense now that he was touching me. what in the world is going on. edward steadied me and i went into the kitchen. i filled up a glass of water. i drank the whole glass. i was feeling a little dizzy. i could feel my eyes starting to droop. i could feel myself sway. i moved forward but the floor was at the weirdest angle... i felt that non painful shock again.
"lets get you to bed. your dead on your feet." edward picked me up and carried me up to my room. he laid me down in my bed. like i was 9 again he pulled the blankets up to my shoulder and told goodnight. he kissed me on the forehead. i about had a heart attack. the shock was at full force. I had just enough energy to say only a couple of words "thank you my angel". that was the first night i had a peaceful dream since my saviors disappeared.