Second chappie. Thank you so much for the reviews! They really did warm my heart! I apologize for the wait. My dog got a disease so its been really hectic around the house lately:/ There was some cutting in the last chapter. And in this one. Please be warned that if you dont like "emo" dont read this! You'll find out eventually why she cuts...that is if you havent already figured out! Haahhaha. Enjoy;)

As much as I tell myself not to worry about her, it just won't pass through my skull. I know there's something wrong with her, I just knowit! Why she won't talk to anyone about it is definitely beyond me. If I only had the guts to knock on her door and demand her tell me what the hell her problem was! But something told me that just wasn't the way to handle this. I don't know why I can't just drop this. I mean, before when Raven kept to herself, I completely went along with it. Now I constantly want her to open up to me, to tell me everything that she keeps bottled up within her.

Yeah. Keep dreaming Garfield.

Ever since the night I mentioned Raven's lack of eating, she's been…well…not herself. In the kitchen, when we all eat together, or in the common room when we hang, it's like she forces herself to make small talk. It's terrible! It's almost like watching Starfire shove her horrible food down poor Silkie's throat, which by the way is a horrific sight.

Like just this morning we were having breakfast. Cy was preparing his usual crud: eggs, bacon, waffles…all that jazz. Raven had her kettle of water for herbal tea, and Star and Robin sat at the table conversing. My tofu had already been prepared, and I was having it with a couple of waffles.

"Hey Rae," I say out of courtesy.

"Beast Boy." She nods in my direction. I notice that she turns her torso in my direction. "How…is it…going?" her voice is cracking and she winces.

"You okay Rae?" I say in between bites of tofu.

"Didn't anyone ever tell you not to talk with your mouth full?" she murmurs. Notice how she disregarded my question completely! She always does that. She always ignores herself and her well being.

Writing about that gothic beauty gives me a headache. I'm gonna get an asprin.

Garfield Logan

After the green changeling finished his entry, he was off to the medical bay for an asprin. It was true that talking about his love was sometimes very tiring. She was such a complex person…but that was just one of the many qualities Beast Boy liked about her.

On his way back from the med bay, Beast Boy's ears picked up the faint sound of a whimper in the hallway where all of the bedrooms were. And then another. And another. Maybe it was just Robin and Starfire in the same room again. The changeling winced at the thought. Could they at least keep it down?

As he passed Robin's room, he noticed that the only sound coming from inside was snoring. Robin was asleep? Then what was that he'd heard?

Beast Boy checked Starfire's room to be sure, and when he heard slow breathing coming from within the bedroom he knew it meant that she was asleep as well. He could even hear Cy's charger running, probably refilling his battery after a long day.

The whimper caught his attention again. Raven!

"Raven? Rae are you okay in there? Hello?" On the other side of the door Beast Boy heard something clunk as though it had fallen to the floor. That sick metallic scent was back again, and this time it was even thicker.

"Raven, please answer me! Hello? Hello?"

"Go away Beast Boy! I'm fine!" The green teen knew that he was not the brightest person in the world, but anyone would have been able to tell that she had been crying!

"No you aren't! Let me in, or I'll break the door down!"

"You do that and I'll send you to another dimension!"

"You think I won't break this thing? I will Rae! Dimension or not, I KNOW there's something wrong with you! And you're going to tell me what the hell it is!"

Audacity was coursing through the Changeling's veins. Finally he'd had the guts to get Raven to spill everything! He wasn't going to back down until she did!

Much to his surprise, the door was surrounded in black aura, and it slid open. Raven stood with her body toward the changeling, face hidden by her hood. Her cloak surrounded every inch of skin around her besides the corners of her mouth, which were turned down forming a scowl.

"What do you want?" she whispered trying desperately to conceal every hint of sadness in her voice.

"What's wrong Raven? Please tell me."

"I'm fine."

"Don't play bullshit with me Raven. I know you're lying."

"…Nothing is wrong, Beast Boy…" her voice was about to give in and it began to crack.

"Nothing is wrong? Or is-"

"Everything…is wrong…" she whispered as a tear rolled its way down her pale face.

"Raven…" the changeling whispered pulling her into an embrace.

"OWW!" she screeched and he immediately let her go.

"What, did I hurt you…?" Beast Boy stopped dead in his tracks when he realized what she was eyeing. He followed her amethyst eyes to observe a sticky crimson fluid that painted his shirt. "Rae, you didn't…" he whispered.

The half demon was gripping her left arm tightly with her right as if to try and stop the constant bleeding. Beast Boy's jade eyes grew, and his eye brows pulled down in rage.

"WHAT THE-"

"Shut up! Don't wake anyone up-"

"How could you DO that to yourself? Since when do you cut yourself Raven? Since when have you given in to anything? This isn't the answer! I know you're stronger-"

"Oh yeah, and what do you know about cutting? Nothing!"

"…You don't know what you're talking about," he said.

"Don't I?"

Scowling angrily at the beautiful girl, his love, in front of him, he shoved up his sleeves and said, "I was stupid Rae. I used to do that too." Unbelieving, she looked down in amazement completely stunned at what she saw. Both of the green teen's arms were covered in scars and whips!

"Now do you see? You can't do this…" he murmured pulling her to her bed to sit down.

"I…I'm so sorry Beast Boy," she sobbed. "I didn't want you to see me like this…"

"Tell me why you did it,"

"…"

"Rae, you can trust me with anything and you know that. You do know that don't you?"

She thought for a moment then nodded. "Then tell me why," he said again.

"…I don't want to live anymore, Beast Boy,"

"What? What are you talking about? Why?"

"I was born to do horrible things…and…I've already handed the Earth over to my father on a silver platter…"

"You saved the whole planet in exchange. Every being on this planet owes you their life!"

"…I'm a cold hearted demon Beast Boy. Don't you know what that means? It means I don't give a damn about anyone in this universe!"

"But you aren't a demon Rae. Have you forgotten of your human side?"

"Of course I haven't forgotten. It's what haunts me so much…" she said, mindlessly healing her wounds.

That must be how she hid the wounds, he thought.

She glanced up at the changeling and said, "Yes, that is how I hid them. Feel the pain and then put it away until later."

"Sometimes I forget you can read minds," he chuckled. Without warning the changeling yanked her hood back and placed a hand on her soft, delicate cheek.

The two were sitting at a perfect angle; the moonlight hit her perfectly causing him to sigh at her loveliness.

God you're so beautiful Rae, he thought. Oh shit. Had she heard that?

"Yes I heard you," she said. She was smiling. For the first time in so long, the corners of her lips were pulled upwards and the sight of it made him want to gasp in awe.

"Why don't you shudder at my touch?" she asked abruptly.

"What?"

"…Isn't my skin ice cold?"

"…I don't know. I can't…um…I don't feel the way you do. Cold doesn't bother me, though heat is something entirely different."

"So…I feel normal to you?"

"Of course." He grinned.

"Beast Boy?"

"Yeah, Raven?"

"Thank you for being here." She whispered.

"You know I care about you Rae. You know that I will always be here."

"Beast Boy?"

"Hmm?"

"I know now." Then she sighed and he wrapped his arms tighter around her smallish figure pulling her even closer.