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"P. Sawyer. Hey what is up with you?"

"What do you mean?"

"Well for like the past 3 weeks you have done nothing, but sit in your room and pout. And with you finding out your dad was okay I thought that you might be a little bit happier."

"I don't know maybe it's that he didn't come home after the scare. I mean he just went straight out to another job, he didn't even come by to say hi or anything."

I was lying through my teeth. I knew that was not what was wrong with me. The truth was I didn't want to take the chance of running into Lucas. It had been three weeks since the day he left my room and we had not spoken to each other at all. I was trying my best to act like nothing had happened, but I was aching inside and knowing he was still with my best friend hurt like hell. All I wanted to do was have him hold me in his strong arms and tell me he loved me and not Brooke, but I knew that wasn't the truth. He loved Brooke and not me, that's why he had wanted to come back so early, that's why he had agreed not to tell her cause he knew it would ruin his relationship with her.

"P. Sawyer, P. Sawyer, Peyton!"

"Oh, sorry what."

"What is going on with you? I was calling your name out for like five minutes and you were just staring off into space."

"Sorry I just have a lot on my mind"

"Well Lucas just cal and the three of us are going to hang out together today."

"No I don't want to ruin your plans"

"you're not so go and get your big but in the shower and get dressed"

"Brooke, I don't want to go anywhere today, so can we make it another day?"

"No we are going to hang out today. I will force you if I have to so you better just go get dressed."

Great, a day with Lucas and Brooke just what I need to get me out of this funk. Not. Today should be fun! Though I really can't wait to see him. This would be weird though I hadn't seen or talked to him since he left my house that day with Brooke.

About forty-five minutes later Lucas and Brooke were waiting on me in my room. I had taken a little bit longer to get ready than I normally do. We had decided to go see the new horror movie "mirrors". Actually Lucas and I had insisted that we go see it. Even when Brooke complained about not wanting to go sit in a dark room where we couldn't see each other, Lucas and I had kept telling her that it was suppose to be a good movie and that we both really wanted to go and see it. The truth was that neither of us wanted to deal with the weirdness of being in the same room with each other without being able to leave. So Brooke had made Lucas promise that he would sit in between us so that if she or I got scared we could just reach out for him. That would not be weird at all. I have to admit though it was a pretty nice picture in my head though. Me in his arms, yup I liked that thought. I had to keep myself from thinking those thoughts though. He was with Brooke not me and I had to deal with that. It would help though if he didn't always look so good. I studied everything about him has I walked into my room ready to leave. He looked great even in a pair of ratty old blue jeans that had a couple of holes in them and he also looked mighty fine in that cold play T-shirt (that I had bought him). He was a beautiful man.

God she was beautiful. Has soon has she walked into the room I had to remind myself that Brooke was there and that I was dating Brooke. All I wanted to do was take her in my arms and grab those wonderful blonde curls in my hand and kiss her until she couldn't breath. I couldn't do that even though I wanted to, she just wanted to be friends so I would have to deal with that.i knew that on some level that wsnt wat she truly wanted thoguth because I saw that look of disappointment flash through her eyes when she saw that Brooke was trying to kiss me. Secretly I wanted to push Brooke away and tell her that Peyton was the one that I wanted to be with though, but that would let out our secret. It was killing me inside, ever since we had gotten back to her house after deciding not to tell Brooke she had not spoken to me not even a little text message. I knew she wanted to let the secrect out just has bad has I did, but I would let her decide that. I loved her and that's all I needed to know. I watched her leave the room to go and answer her phone.

He didn't know yet but the call I was about to answer held a lot of truth for the both of us and it would also make Brooke see us both in a different light and that would not be a good thing. I walked out of the room to answer my phone.

"Hello"

"Yes, is Ms. Sawyer there?"

"This is Peyton Sawyer."

"Oh, Ms. Sawyer this is doctor Mccay."