The Best Man
Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyers own all Twilight and the Characters
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Now You Know By: Hilary Duff
Chapter 5
EPOV
I was behind her so I decided to push her for old times sake. When I did this she turned around to look at me. She had tears running down her face. I raised my hand to her face and wiped the tears off her cheek. I had forgotten how soft her skin felt underneath my fingertips. When she opened her eyes and saw that it was me she didn't move. Instead I moved around the swing to face her.
"I'm so sorry," I told her kneeling in front of her. This was a start to telling her the truth and I needed to take it one step at a time. "I know that I owe you so much more then that."
"You just left me," she whispered to me. "No note, no phone call, no explanation."
"Bella," I said putting my forehead against hers. When I did this she sat up and got off the swing.
"Why," she demanded. I didn't say anything I was trying to think of something to say to her. "Edward why did you leave?"
"I'll tell you," I said to her. I knew that mom was right at this point, I had to tell her the truth. I owed her that much, and more. "Can you come and sit on the swing?"
"Why," she asked.
"I want to be able to look you in the eye when I tell you the truth," I said hanging my head down in shame. She came and sat down on the swing and I kneeled on the ground looking into her chocolate eyes. "Do you remember that last day?"
"Of course," she told me. "I have relived it so many times trying to see where it all went wrong."
"It was all my doing," I told her. She had no clue how many times I relived that day, or thought about the events differently. "When I got home I started thinking about us and our future."
"What was wrong with that," she asked me fighting back tears. There was nothing wrong with that in fact I was the one who fucked it up.
"While I was thinking something came over me," I said. I put my head in my hands and started to sob. I was disgusted with myself at this point. "It had nothing to do with you, believe me. I got scared and the only thing I knew to do was to leave."
"So that's it," she said. "You got scared, and you left. You're not answering my question though."
"I'm afraid that you'll hate me for sure," I said. I knew what question she wanted answered and I was afraid of the aftermath.
"How could I hate you anymore," she said placing her hand on my shoulder. I took a deep breath and let it out.
"I was scared because I hadn't experienced anything new," I said with my head still hanging low waiting for the aftermath.
"What experiences do you mean," she said to me. She hadn't put the pieces together I thought. Then her hand came off my shoulder and I looked up. "You asshole!"
"Please Bella," I said as she got up. "They meant nothing to me."
"You son of a bitch," she yelled at me. I didn't say anything because I knew that she needed to vent on me. "That's why you left me so that you could go and sleep around with other women."
"Bella," I said grabbing her arm as she walked away. "You're the only one I have ever loved. They meant nothing, they could never take your place."
I had her by her arm so that she couldn't go anywhere. The next thing I knew she turned to face me and slapped me. When her hand hit my cheek it stung worse than a thousand bee stings. I didn't flinch or let her go. She wasn't going anywhere until I told her how I felt.
"I hate you," she said breaking down and hitting my chest. "You broke my heart and never looked back."
I stood there letting her hit my chest. Letting her take her anger out on me. She was wrong about something, Yes, I did break her heart but she was wrong about never looking back. I have looked backed everyday for eight years.
"Bella," I said grabbing her and pulling her to my chest. "Let it out, love. I'm not going anywhere, I promise."
She took my embrace and cried. It felt so good to have her in my arms again. I just stood there holding her, not moving until she was ready.
"Bella," I finally said. "I need to tell you something."
"Okay," she told me looking up to meet my gaze.
"I love you," I told her. "I've always loved you from the first moment I saw you in biology class almost ten years ago. Those other women meant nothing to me. They never made me feel the way I feel about you. I wanted you to know that Bella. I love you and promise to never make the same mistake twice."
"Edward," she said. She didn't say anything but instead looked at me. The tears had stopped flowing and I could see her beautiful eyes. "There had never been anyone else but you. I just wished that you could've talked to me before you left."
I could wait any longer, when she finished talking I cupped my hands around her cheeks and kissed her. This kiss wasn't like any that I had given her before. This one had passion and longing in it and I hoped that she felted it. She welcomed my kiss and returned it back to me. She locked her fingers in my hair and I placed my hands on her back pressing her to me.
"I've missed you," I told her when I caught my breath. "I love you Bella Swan and want to spend everyday making it up to you."
"Edward," she said but I cut her off.
"You don't have to decided tonight," I told her. "I'm catching the red-eye to New York tomorrow night and I won't go unless you don't want me to."
I kissed her forehead before leaving the meadow. I walked towards the house praying that I wasn't on that plane tomorrow. Instead I wanted to be here in Forks with Bella starting our lives together.
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