Warnings: yaoi m/m relationship – don't like, don't read

Disclaimer: Vampire Knight and its characters belong to Matsuri Hino – Just this plot is mine, and there's this little fact that vampires don't exist – so everyone is human…

Authors Note: originally I wanted to name this chapter – The Night When he Began to Change Something in Me – but it's just so loge. So I renamed it…

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- 2 – Hold Me Tight -

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I can't remember a time when I was so fascinated by a man in my whole life as I was with him. From the first time I laid my eyes on him, I was captivated by his aura shining over all others. And those deep eyes when he looked at me – I felt something pulling me closer to him. I never felt such need before – I wanted this man to hold me… and never let me go.

"Is he the one," I looked at Kaito, "who will take you away from me for the whole night?" he's acting like a little kid – like his favorite toy is about to be taken away from him.

"Its not like I have a saying in it," I smile at him politely, not wanting his mood to worsen – he can be such a kid sometimes – even if he's older than me – sulking about the most trivial things. And I don't want him to leave and never come back – but I don't think he would really do that. Once he sulked nearly for half a year, but even so he came back. And the reason I want him to stay is simple – I enjoy being with him. And above all, our bodies are compatible.

"Do you perhaps know him?" I have the feeling that he does, from the way he's glaring at him – well, it could also be just my imagination.

"Kaname Kuran," so that's his name. "He's the young master and heir to the Kuran Corporation. They are the biggest trading company in America," so in short – another snobbish young master who thinks that everything will go the way he wants it. Great. Just great.

"I'm leaving," just so little can make him pissed.

"I promise you the next time you come, I would be exclusively yours," I lean closer to his ear, "and you can do anything you want with me for the whole night," I whisper seductively, knowing well he won't – he can't – refuse. That he will be satisfied for now.

"I look forward to it," kissing my hand lightly like when he came, I can tell the smile on his face is real, and that he's leaving in a good mood.

"You really shouldn't make promises you don't know if you can keep," I nearly forgot that Kain was the whole time standing there, now looking at me – he learned too fast to tell me if he thought my actions were wrong.

"Just shut up, will you?" I like to be my normal self around him, even if my words are sometimes harsh, I know he knows that I mean it playfully, that I care about him enough to relax around him.

"I will go check the room," he sighs, a small smile on his lips lasting just a few seconds before it vanished.

"So this is the diamond you wanted to show me, Yagari?" turning around, I instantly found myself looking in those eyes that hypnotized me from affair. I can't bring myself to speak, I don't even want to breathe as not to break this precious moment.

"Very beautiful, indeed," taking my hand, he kisses it lightly, not breaking the eye contact and I'm melting as he smiles at me. Snap out of it Zero, you're a professional.

"I welcome you Mr. Kuran," my professional smile on my face the moment those words left me. "It's a pleasure to be yours for this night," and I mean it – after a long time I really mean those words. My heart skips a beat as he smiles at me again… hold it right there Zero, and calm down. Why is it affecting me in this way? There shouldn't be any emotions involved.

"Should we go then?" I point the way up the stairs, bowing my head slightly to Yagari before walking after my partner for tonight. As we're walking side-by-side in the upper level where the rooms are located, I can see the envious looks from the other courtesans we meet on our way – of course they would be jealous. It's not everyday you got to see such an elegant and handsome young man. This is making me feel great.

We don't talk, and as we take the right turn I see Kain already waiting for us. As we are near him, he opens the slide-door to the prepared room, and I invite Kaname with the motion of my hand to enter – entering politely after him.

"Do you know when will you be done?" Kain asks me with those unemotional eyes he's always looking at me with when I'm with a customer.

"I hope that in the morning," I smile a mischievous smile at him and slide the door shut the rest of the way – I just can't bring myself not to tease him sometimes. Turning around, I see Kaname looking back at me – the smile and confident look he had till now vanished, and he sees kind of nervous – did something happen?

"Do you like the room?" I try to start a light conversation, to make him relax.

"Yes. It's very beautiful," but of course it is. This is one of the best rooms we have – my favorite one I muss say – full in Japanese style, with the light and decorations giving it this nice touch. There's another small room attached, with big futon laid out. There's also a small table where he's standing, with sake – that will be a good way to make him more comfortable.

"How about some sake?" I can see in his eyes that he wants to refuse, but he just smiles politely taking the offer. I sit down beside him, pouring him some.

"How do you want me to act, Mr. Kuran?" this is why I don't like taking new patrons – as by our first meeting, I don't know their tastes – I don't know how they want me to act – what they want me to be.

"Just Kaname. Please," he ads when he sees the doubtful look on my face. "And just be yourself," to be myself – that's easier said than done.

"Well, I don't really think that that's a good idea," I say trustfully. Putting down the slim white bottle, I pull myself closer to him – well, it's time for some action.

"How do you like it – do you like to be the dominant one, or should I take the initiative?" it feels so good to be so close to him, our bodies touching. My hand feels like it's on fire as it slowly travels down his chest. I lean closer to his ear, "Kaname," I whisper his name with as much longing in my voice as I'm able to – sweetly and quietly, licking his earlobe. I can feel his heart beating faster thru my fingertips thru the thin fabric of his button-up shirt.

"Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait…" his hands on my shoulders are pushing me away – I'm speechless. I can't – I don't want – to hide my shocked expression. What the fuck happened? Did I do something wrong?

"Am I not to your liking?" that's the only explanation my mind is able to come up with – but that can't be true because… "Because earlier, you said that I was beautiful."

"Yes, you certainly are very beautiful… breathtakingly beautiful," as he looks at me and smiles, I can tell that there is more he wants to say.

"Than where's the problem?" I don't understand. I was NEVER turned down.

"I don't look at man in that way…" what the fuck is he saying? I'm starting to boil inside with anger, but I try to control it as I speak again.

"So than why are you here?"

"It's because of my uncle," he sighs, looking away from me. "He always urged me to come here, because of my status and also telling me that it will be a good experience for me – I couldn't longer refuse him," is he an idiot?

"So…" I have him looking back at me, "what do you want to do now?"

"Talk?" he says shyly – and it's kind of cute. Talk – picking up the white sake bottle – if he wants to talk instead of fuck, I can play along with that. But it's really a shame – I so much wanted his body to embrace me.

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"Hey Kain," I sneak behind him as he's preparing my clothes for the day, hugging him from behind. "Let's fuck," I whisper to his ear.

"Are you insane?" he states calmly, not even looking back at me.

"Of course not," letting him go I let myself fall back on the bed, my face burying into the big pillow.

"What may be the problem?" I feel one side of the bed sink a little under his weight, as he sits down.

"You know what the problem is," I say into the pillow. "Four days. FOUR FUCKING DAYS," I sit up abruptly, looking back at Kain – my anger definitely showing. "The first time he told me he wants to just talk I thought – Oh well, little change wouldn't harm me. I thought that if he said to me that he wasn't interested in man in a sexual way, that that will be it – that I won't see him ever again! The next night I was surprised at first to see him again, but I thought he changed his mind and would finally do something.

BUT NO.

It was again just talking. And the night after that and also the next night. All four nights he kept me by his side, just talking till morning."

"I thought you enjoyed talking to him," I looked deep into Kain's eyes, holding the eye contact for a bit, than letting my back hit the bed.

"I'm not saying that I'm not enjoying it – quite the opposite," yes, that's true. It's surprisingly fun talking to him, and I really like it. But…

"What I'm saying is, that he kept me to himself all this time, without so much as a light touch. And I," sitting up again, "want to fuck."

"And why are you telling this to me? Tell that to him."

"Because…" why indeed? Because I know that he's not interested in holding me? Because by telling him I would first need to throw away my pride, as it would mean begging for something? I never begged for anything. Or is it because by telling him I fear that he will be disgusted by the idea to the point of running away and never returning? Bullshit.

"Where are you going?" I hear Kain calling after me, but I don't pay it attention, as I'm already by the door, pulling it open – why is it so nosy?

It's true that every day – few hours before opening – there are a lot of people running everywhere, looking over every detail that needs to be perfect – but this, this is too hectic. Did something unexpected happen?

"What is going on?" I question the nearest person, a young girl holding a vase.

"There will be a mizuage tonight."

"Whose?" I can't think of anyone right now.

"Well, yours…" I don't pay her attention any longer, as I make my way down to Yagari's office. I don't bother with knocking, just letting myself in – shutting the door behind me and walking to his table where he sits quietly, not once looking up from his work to see who had disturbed him.

"What's this nonsense about a mizuage?"

"It's not a nonsense…"

"But I already had one. It's not like I'm pure anymore," I interrupted him.

"Of course I know that. But as there are special circumstances, I agreed to it."

"What special circumstances?"

"It was a request…"

"From whom and how is it that I haven't heard about it sooner?" I interrupted him again, now really curious about all of this – well, you can say that Yagari is not the kind of person to willingly go thru so much trouble and preparations just because someone had requested it. It muss be someone special – now I'm really interested to find out who.

"Will you let me finish, or what?"

"Okay, okay. Go on," he leans back in his chair – I sat down in the one opposite him.

"I hadn't had the time to inform you any sooner, as the request came just few hours ago, and there were many things that needed to be taken care of first. About your second question, the one who requested the mizuage was Mr. Kuran," I can't believe it. I must have heard wrong. Why would he… he didn't so much as touched me till now… and why did he choose such a way? If he wants to sleep with me, as a paying customer he had all the right to – and I'm more than wiling to let him hold me – I even want him to take me so badly.

"Why did he?" I whisper.

"That, my dear, you have to ask him yourself," so now, few hours later, I'm sitting in this beautiful room – the same as the last four nights – side by side with this elegant and mysterious man, whose thoughts are so unpredictable – he's dressed in black, me in silver-white kimono with small pink sakura flowers – Yagari told me that Kaname send it for me, hoping that I would wear it tonight. The ceremony is beautiful, much much more than my first one, but hell I'm nervous – all kind of thoughts are going thru my mind right now…

"You haven't touched me these four nights, so why now?" I ask quietly as I hear him closing the slide-door of this small room. The ceremony is over, and now on this red futon, I will give myself to him – I wonder why red. Did he also choose it? I'm quietly sitting on it, my back to the door as I wait for him to move closer – to speak up his mind, as I'm curious. And so nervous.

"I wanted to hold you," what is he talking about? I really hadn't had that kind of impression from his actions. "I know what I have told you the first night, but after we talked, I…" I hear him moving closer, "…I felt this sudden urge to hold you."

"So why didn't you?"

"I thought I was unworthy," his hands are finally around me, as he's embracing me from behind, holding me close in his strong embrace, his face buried in the nape of my neck. "You looked so delicate that I thought that you would break if I were to touch you." I feel his breath on my neck, and it sends pleasant shivers thru my entire body – closing my eyes, I let myself drown in that feeling. "This way, when you are bound to me alone for the whole night, I feel like I'm worth of touching you."

"You fool," I whisper thru my clenched teeth, turning in his embrace and kissing those awaiting lips hungrily – my hands in his chocolate hair, pulling him closer into the kiss. He's gently pushing me down on the futon, and I'm more than happy to let him take the lead.

"Wait for a bit," I break the passionate kiss, pushing him off of me to give some little space between us – his words from the first night resonating in my memory. "Are you sure that you can sleep with a man?"

"You want to know if I can get it up for you?" well, I didn't want to say it out so bluntly, but I guess he got the point. He then took my hand – I didn't protest, fully trusting him – Kami.

"I think that there's no problem," I blushed deeply – I can feel my cheeks burning – and I'm speechless by his actions, my hand still kept firmly in place over his arousal with his hand – he's huge – I can feel so much thru the fabric that is hindering me to feel his flash.

"Guess there's not," I answer him when I found my voice again – my eyes travel to his lips that I want to kiss again, then lover to his opened front and I was right – he does have a nice body. Not too much muscles, but I say it's enough to make him manly and irresistible.

"Let me touch you," he lets go of my hand, and I – even if unwillingly – pull it away from his hardening member – I would have so much more time later to feel him to my fullest. Opening my legs, I let him lay his lower body down between them, his arousal touching my own hardening member and a moan escapes me – he definitely did that on purpose. And when I see that mischievous smile on his face, I know I was right.

"You're so beautiful," his hand caressing my right cheek – it feels so good to hear those words from him – I lean into the touch, moaning out his name. His hands and lips traveling thru my whole body that is shivering under his every little touch, wanting more attention from him. His two wet fingers enter me as his hot mouth is playing with my right nipple – I bite down on my lover lip as not to moan out from the so wanted feeling of his fingers stretching me out. He purposely avoids my arousal that is screaming for attention, his third finger entering me – that teaser. I can play this game too – but right now, I want him more than that.

"I want to ride you," I don't give him the time to say anything – and I don't think he is in the state to say anything as his surprised expression is telling me. Well, he was the one who told me that I should act like myself around him – I'm really a selfish kind of guy sometimes, and I like to get what I want – and right now, I want to be the dominant one, dictating the way things should go.

Letting him sit down, I kiss him as my hand travels down his chest till it found his arousal – freeing it from his underwear, I play with the tip first, earning a moan from him into the kiss – sweet. Pushing him down, I first undo the already loosened obi to fully open up his yukata, enjoying the view to my fullest before I kiss the tip of his arousal. Letting my tongue slide up and down, I know exactly what feels good for my partners and his moan as I take him fully into my mouth is proving it.

"Wait, enough," he pulls at my hair slightly, telling me by it to stop. "I can't take much more. I want you now," I love when they beg for it – and to have such a beautiful creature begging to me, I can't let him wait much longer.

I take off my own yukata as I'm positioning myself above his hard member dripping with pre-cum – I see the hunger in his eyes as he's taking in every curve of my body. Firmly holding his member, I sit down slowly, taking in deep breath as I feel him by my entrance – closing my eyes as to fully feel this feeling I longed for for the last four days when his tip enters me. Feeling his hands on my hips, he's pushing me down like he can't wait to be fully buried deep inside me.

My hands resting on his chest for support, I let my muscles relax around him, my body screaming from happiness at the pleasant shivers all over it – my arousal twitching for attention. I love this feeling – being so full of him, having something that is binding us together. Looking down on him, I smile from the happiness – I don't care about my rule of not psychically getting involved. I can't help how I fell about him.

"Let me take over."

"What? No… Kaname… wait…" he ignores my protests as he's sitting up and pushing me down instead – I feel him moving in me slightly as we change positions, and it's a stimulating and pleasant feeling. Looking up at him, as his face is getting closer, I hungrily kiss those lips. Oh well, I let him do as he wants – looks like I like him to be gentle with me, like a real lover would.

Wrapping my legs around him as he starts to move, our kiss growing into more passionate one – our tongues dancing to satisfy the hunger for each other. I moan into the kiss, as he fully buries himself in me, hitting my prostate – he smiles into the kiss, hitting my spot with every thrusting now that he had found it.

"I want to hear you moan out in that sweet voice of yours," my lips feel lonely when his leave them. Pushing my legs closer to my chest for better access, his tempo is increasing and I want to touch myself as I feel my climax coming closer.

"Kaname, I'm close," I let out between moans. "Wait, no," his fingers tightening around my arousal, hindering me in fulfilling my body's desire.

"Hold out just a little longer – let us come together," kissing my lips lightly, he then moves down to kiss my neck. I don't think I can take it any longer – my hand trying to pull his hand away. With one more thrust, he buries himself deep inside me – releasing my own painful member and coming together as he had said – I cry out his name as the blissful feeling of fullness takes over me, my body shivering under his touch.

He lies down on me, still buried in me – I hold him close, not wanting to let go. Our eyes meet, and I see his gentle eyes longing for more – and I too, want this man with all of my being.

"Can I be selfish and want to do it one more time?" he doesn't even need to say anything, as his sparkling eyes and that unbelievably sweet smile of his tell me everything I need to know. As he leans down and kisses me again, only one thought is on my mind – I love this man.

TBC…

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-The next chapter: - Raping My Soul -

…I had some matters to take care of, so I wasn't able to update anything. But now I'm back and there will be a lot releases this following week (well, I hope I can kick myself to it)… so look forward to it…

…originally, there should have been three more chapters, but there would be just two – as I'm fusing the 4th chapter "The Proposal" and the 5th chapter "The Betrayal" into one chapter…