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Sorry it took me so long to get this up, my lap top is so stupid sometimes =( but now it's better and ill be sure to put up fresh posts fairly quickly once again =)

Bella's POV:

I was so excited for the upcoming weekend. I would be staying with Edward and the rest of the Cullens, hopefully getting some much needed relaxation. Charlie had been acting weird lately, always thinking about the wedding and how I was 'growing up so fast'. I honestly wondered if he knew I would be leaving when it was all over… I mean he knew I would be living on my own with Edward, but I know he didn't know that I might be leaving for good. It made me feel so awkward around him, I needed a few days to regroup, so Alice came to my rescue, convincing Charlie we were going to spend a girls weekend, alone with her, preparing for the wedding.

When Friday afternoon came I drove to Edwards house as fast as I could… well as comfortably fast as I could manage in that super car, elated that we would have some much needed alone time. Just as I knew he would be, he was standing in the driveway as I pulled up and smiled as I got out of the car. I found myself quickly wrapped in his cold, strong arms.

"I get to keep you for two days, all to myself." He said into my hair.

I nodded, pressing my face against his chest and enjoying our closeness. "What will you do with me for two whole days?"

He looked down at me, thoughtful for a moment, then scooped me up, my overnight bag almost totally forgotten in the back seat. He rushed me upstairs and placed me on the lavishly soft, gold bed, my head slightly spinning from the fast motion. "I wanted to get you here before Emmet got to you." He explained.

"Excuse me?" What was he talking about?

"Emmet's being his usual self and he's getting bored of harassing the rest of us, so I suppose it's only natural that he move onto you."

I lay back on the gold spun covers, pulling Edward down with me. "I'm used to Emmet teasing me. Ill be fine."

"So you think." He kissed a line from my forehead down to my chin. "Luckily, you have me to save you." His cool lips stopped at my color bone.

"Yeah… lucky…" I panted, wanting more.

"Mmm… you smell delectable." He whispered in my ear, sending familiar chills up my spine.

Then I heard a loud crash which had startled both of us. I sat up, confused. I looked up and saw Emmet standing in the doorway. "Bella!"

"Emmet. Get. Out." Edward growled.

"Woah, woah, woah!" He held up his hands defensively. "Someone has to look over this poor girl's chastity."

I felt my face turn crimson. "I can look after it my self." I said defensively.

"Can you, now?" He chuckled. "We'll see about that."

"Emmet." I could hear the warning tone in Edwards usually honey-smooth voice.

"Calm yourself, Edward. Emse made dinner so she wanted you to come eat before it got cold."

"Okay Emmet, thanks. Now go." Edward ordered. As soon as he closed the door behind him, he looked at me apologetically. "I'm sorry about Emmet, he doesn't know how to control himself. And I don't want you to think that anyone has to look after your… 'chastity'. I can control myself."

I sighed. Loudly. "I don't want you to control yourself."

"Bella." His voice was a pleading one.

"I know, I know. You'll kill me." I got up and started to the door. "Let's go see Emse,"

Esme had honestly prepared a feast... A strange feast, but a feast nonetheless. Roast chicken, pasta, apple pie, sushi, some sort of stew, mashed potatoes, and a pizza covered in vegetables. She spread it out on platters on their dining room table and the rest of the family was sitting around, waiting for me and Edward to come.

"Wow, Esme, you really didn't have to make this much food." I took my place between Alice and Edward.

"It was no trouble, Bella. I just wanted to make sure you were taken care of." She gave me one of her motherly smiles.

I sat and nibbled on a roll while the rest of the family had light conversation. Yet they all still watched me. Edward watched me closely as I ate, I felt his eyes bore into my cheek. Esme fluttered about the table, making sure the food was all arranged just so for me. Alice poked at some peas and chattered in my ear about the idea of letting doves go after the wedding. Emmet gagged and mocked me as I ate, finding the idea of me eating food disgusting. Rosalie, obviously being forced to be there, observed with a look of pure distain on her flawless face. Jasper tried not to look at me too much, it wasn't because he was trying to be impolite… it's just still difficult for him to be close to me without wanting to eat me. Even Carlise was there, finally off after a busy day at the hospital, praised his wife's culinary works.

Even though Esme doesn't eat food, everything was delicious. It felt strange being the only person eating, but the feeling soon passed as I realized in a few months I wouldn't have the need for food either. I thanked Esme profusely for the dinner and tried to help her clean up, which she politely declined by saying, "No, thank you, Bella. It'll be faster if I do it myself. You go spend some time with Edward."

By the time I made it upstairs with Edward, the sun had already set and I could hear the summer crickets. It was so peaceful. He sat on the edge of the bed with me perched next to him. I gazed up at his perfectly sculpted face. It was all too much.

He turned to me and grazed his fingers along my cheekbone, making my heart beat faster. "I'm going to miss this."

"Miss what?"

"The sound of your heart." his hand trailed down to my chest, he held it there, feeling the rapid thumps. "It's become one of the best sounds to me."

"What else will you miss?"

"Your warm, pink cheeks." He touched one with a cool finger. "You blush so often and soon It will be nothing but a faint memory."

His sad tone worried me. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be! It'll be so nice not having to worry about you getting yourself killed all the time. And you'll still be the same Bella."

"I won't be at first… Alice told me all newborns cant control their hunger and it's like nothing else matters anymore to them."

He put his arm around me. "You'll be fine, love, don't worry about a thing." Edward pressed his lips to my neck, sending familiar chills down my spine.

I took this as a window. I took his hand, hoping to pull him down on the bed with me. I wanted to get back to where we left off before dinner. However, I wasn't so lucky. Edward held out my over night bag to me. "Wouldn't you like to change before bed?"

"Bed so early?" I looked at the clock. It was barely ten.

He nodded. "We have an early day tomorrow. Alice wants us to look over guest lists and final menus… that sort of thing."

Sighing, I took the bag from him and went into his private, never used, bathroom. Sitting on the granite counter top, I tried to concoct a plan. I wanted Edward to want me tonight. I wouldn't be human for much longer and I was afraid I wouldn't be able to have that human experience. I needed him. But I didn't know how to be a sexy temptress… I looked through my bag. I wanted something cute to wear to bed. Something that would make Edward need me too. I had packed a few revealing lace pieces that Alice had made me purchase on one of our more recent trips to Victoria's Secret. Just looking at them made me blush. They were all tiny, lacy, and looked like they wouldn't cover much.

I settled on sky blue lace boy shorts with a matching cami, complete with a built in push up bra. I instantly felt my face go red as I scrutinized myself in the mirror. This set wasn't the most risqué, but I still felt so… naked! And, to be frank, I didn't feel the least bit sexy. Hoping to improve my look, I pulled out a small make up bag from my purse and dumped it out on the counter top. I quickly reapplied blush, mascara, and black eyeliner. I felt like such a poser. I wasn't meant to be sexy. I was just me.

Taking a deep breath to calm my racing pulse, and not give myself the chance to second guess my decision, I slowly opened the door…

Don't you love a good cliff hanger? this next chapter could go in so many different directions i just cant decide! but if you review, i'll decide and write so much faster!! 3