Title: Who is This?

Chapter 3: The Jungle

I heard Esme and Jasper working on the newest edition to our house. It seemed like this house was expanding in size every month. I wasn't much into the whole woodworking scene so I chose to not help.

Esme walked into the living room where I was laying on the couch with my eyes closed, I was still upset about what I did several days ago. That Monday was something I thought I would never do. Carlisle stopped being rough on me when Jasper had pulled him aside to say that I was leaving enough hatred on myself for everyone in this house and then some.

Carlisle was never angry at me, however, he was just upset that I, out of all of his 'kids' was the one who almost started a mass murder at school. He was being rough on me because he knew that I had fallen away once and still fears to this day that I may fall away again. I try to explain to him that I won't but he still thinks I will.

Esme spoke, "Edward come with Jasper and I. We have to go to the hardware store to pick up some more six inch nails and two by fours." She said standing at the doorway. "You haven't left the house since you guys were suspended. This is going to make for a long two weeks."

"I don't want to right now." I didn't trust myself.

"You haven't even seen Bella in three days, she calls up every day and is getting worried. You have to get out of the house at some point or Bella will find her way here." Esme knew how much I hated when Bella was around the house. Anything could happen in this house. "Besides, I need help picking out a new coat rack after what Emmett and Jasper did to the last one."

Emmett and Jasper had some weird bets, this one included three dogs from the pound, the coat rack, a sword and one really angry Esme. Luckily none of the animals got hurt, we were able to find good homes for the three dogs, and Emmett and Jasper were threatened with their lives if they ever attempted something like that again. "Fine I will go." I said getting up.

"Good!" Esme walked off to get changed out of her carpenter clothes. "Jasper come on, Edward is going too."

I sighed getting up.

Jasper sat up front of the huge pick up with Esme as the two talked about what they needed from the store. I kept staring out the window at my reflection. I hadn't seen myself since that day. If I didn't know better, my eyes were even darker.

We got to the department store and went in. I never liked this place, it was so huge. Jasper and Esme were going through the wood to pick out the good pieces as I stood by them. I never cared to learn any of this stuff. Normally it would be Jasper and Emmett that would come with her to these stores.

I felt an odd feeling take over as I had to suppress a growl. I looked over at Esme and Jasper, had they noticed?

"Well this piece has a small split down the side, will it hold out as long?" Jasper had just asked.

"I am sure we can cut that part off." Esme had said back.

Luckily, they hadn't noticed at all. I breathed a sigh of relief.

A little kid ran by us, running toward her father. I chuckled at that. I wouldn't mind if I could have a child one day, if it were possible. That was one of the few things Rosalie and I had in common. We both wouldn't mind giving up everything we have had so far in order to be human and have a family. Why was I thinking these things? I would never have a child…it was impossible.

I just then heard a high pitched cry, the little girl had tripped and fallen on her knees. Esme quickly looked at Jasper but I realized it wasn't him she was too worried about; she looked past him to me. "I'm fine." I mumbled.

The other two had held their breaths for a short time while the father helped his child up and they walked away.

"Good! Maybe the other time was just an accident." She said as the two went back to talking about what they wanted to do with the new addition. "It's so good that you guys got suspended when you did! I was in a rut on what to do next." She gave Jasper a hug as they loaded the huge wagon with wood.

Nothing is funnier than watching two vampires try to look like a piece of wood is heavy.

Once it was piled on, we started to walk down the next aisle as Jasper gave her his thought on the newest room and how he thought the interior should look.

We stopped at an aisle with tile. Jasper enjoyed helping with add ons way too much. We were walking by a man who was looking at some of the tile when I felt something strange take over.

I looked around the warehouse, it was a huge forest. There were trees everywhere; animals were all over the place- ready to attack. A huge ferocious looking tiger came at me quickly, I don't know why I was so afraid of an animal but at this moment I was terrified. I backed up accidentally slamming into a tree, making its leaves come crashing down on me as I started hyperventilating. I was trying to throw everything off; I could feel my eyes wide. Nothing matched up, where was I?

Jasper and Esme came running toward me, I couldn't hear what they were saying as they cleared the tile from me...tile?

I started to growl as humans started to crowd around us. Finally, I got up and ran to the door, trying to keep it at a decent speed but somewhat failing. I ran out of the jungle and straight to Esme's pick up, she used it when she had to pick up wood, and fell to my butt. I kept my head in my hands.

Esme must have sent Jasper out to me. "What happened in there?" He asked.

"I don't know." I said as I still tried to figure it all out.

"Tell me what you saw." He said.

"It was the warehouse and then it all changed to a jungle."

Jasper nodded, "What do you see now?" he asked.

I looked around, "The parking lot."

"We will have to talk to Carlisle about it. You are the oldest to be on this diet next to Carlisle and Esme."

I nodded. "It was a forest, a jungle. There were animals all around me but they weren't animals, they were people." I shuddered at the memories.

Esme came out of the store with her supplies, "Edward are you alright? I tried to get out of there as soon as I could."

I nodded, "I'm sorry Esme. I will help you pay for all that with my allowance." Tile wasn't cheap and with the amount that fell I knew it would be an expensive bill.

"I was able to pay for it." She said. "I am more worried for your well being." She bent down to me forcing my face to look up at hers.

"I don't know what that was." I told her.

"Well I am going to have Carlisle come home early and have him check on you." Esme said as she took out her cell phone.

I put my head in my hands, Jasper put an arm over my shoulder as a way to console me. He could tell I was embarrassed.

"He will be home in thirty minutes. Let's go." Esme said as we put everything into the truck. No one talked all the way home, I gulped when I saw Carlisle waiting right at the front door for our return.

"Edward, come up to my study." Carlisle said not waiting for the truck to stop, looking sympathetic. I slid down in the chair as the truck came to a stop. He was blocking his thoughts which meant this was going to be a long talk.

"Go on Edward, we need to figure this out before it gets worse." Esme said as she parked the car.

I slid out; this wasn't going to be a fun conversation. I looked over at the wood line, it would be so easy to just run in and escape. I just kept telling myself that I had to do this.

I stood in the doorway of his study. Carlisle was looking over some papers that were on his desk. His thoughts were on the papers, which turned out to be all of Jasper's experiences that he had when he was changing to our diet.

"I'm really really sorry." I said to him.

'I'm not looking for you to apologize, sit down.' He thought.

I sat down in front of his desk. He pulled out a fresh piece of paper, 'Tell me what you saw.' I don't know why he was thinking all of this instead of talking to me. It was getting annoying.

"Today, I was in…"

"Starting with the first attack." Carlisle said.

"Back when I attacked Bella?"

"If that was the first time then yes, start there."

I started telling him everything I remembered from that day. He wrote it all down.

"Alright, now tell me about the school one." He grabbed a fresh piece of paper. Carlisle bent back in his chair as if to get comfortable.

I went over that one as well, that was shorter.

"Now todays." He said. He didn't seem too upset or anything as he kept a straight face through all three stories.

I told him about the jungle scene I saw, the vines that were hanging, the animals walking around. I was claustrophobic.

When I was done he stared at the three papers, playing with his bottom lip.

"Edward this worries me, I don't see any reason why you would randomly get like this. Other than the fact that you were hunting the first time- there's no blood involved in any of these. There's nothing where all three stories add up." He looked over at other files of each family member, "I find it easier to write everyone's experience down so that I can find a common denominator but in your case, nothing is adding up."

I looked down at my feet.

"We are the first family to go this long on the vegetarian diet." Carlisle stated. He went through each paper again, then went to Jasper's papers then Emmett's papers. He must have done the same for everyone. It made me wonder if he did the same for everyone if they messed up. Other than when I chose to go to a different diet, I had never come close to killing anyone.

"I need to do something, I won't go see Bella because I randomly get these swings."

Carlisle shook his head, "It's too soon to force you to live in the house. I would suggest you go see Bella for the night. Maybe that will help you feel better. Vampires do tend to hallucinate when away from their mates for too long."

"I can't do it, what if I hurt her?"

"Then we will have her come here. She won't be in any danger because all of us will be home."

I wanted to say no, but I knew that even if I did they would get Bella to come anyways.

"Then it's settled, I will have Alice call Charlie and she will talk him into having her spend the night."

"Doesn't Bella have a say in it?" I asked. I knew Bella hated when we made the decisions for her.

"She has been calling the house several times a day. She has been asking everyone nonstop about you. She came by the hospital yesterday to ask me about you. I am sure she won't mind."

I sighed, no use trying to argue. I had been avoiding her since the incident at the gym room. Maybe he was right, maybe I did need to see her again.

"I will have her here for the weekened."

This was going to make for a long weekend.

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