Soul Alone
I meet your eyes
You don't even see me
You hardly respond
When I whisper
Hello
Could be my soul mate
Two kindred spirits
Maybe we're not
I guess we'll never
Know
My own mother
You carried me in you
Now you see nothing
But what I wear
People ask you
How I am doing
You smile and nod
Don't let it end
There
Put me
Underneath God's sky and
Know me
Don't just see me with your eyes
Take away
This mask of flesh and bone and
See me
For my soul
Alone
BY: Hannah Baker
B p.o.v.
"So what happened?"
"With what?"
"That new doctor."
"Why you suspect him of something Jake?"
"I don't like him; he looks like he thinks he is so superior, and he's so cryptic."
"He's OK."
"Oh no."
"What?!"
"You like him!" he said enthusiastically…wacko.
"Jake…I do not"
"He-He then why are you blushing?"
"Because it is too hot in here."
"Sure, Bells sure."
"How did it go with you?"
"Simple….boring…and weird."
"Hm strange." Time for lunch everyone! The intercom said.
"Yes lunch!!!!!!! I love lunch."
"Always" I said laughing.
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J p.o.v.
"So Jacob, tell me about yourself."
"Uh…"
"You know at some point you'd have to tell me."
"Not really, you have my file don't you?"
"Ah, you're not much of a talker."
"Nope,"
"How about that name you've mention a lot to Esme? Is it Belle?"
"No, Bella"
"She's a girlfriend?" What is it with this prick?
"No."
"Does she know your excessive interest to werewolves?"
"She's my best friend."
"Do you know what's wrong with her?"
"There is nothing wrong with her…us!"
"What if you thought she was a werewolf would you hurt her?"
"Absolutely not!"
"That's a progress."
"What?"
"It seems that your obsession with that certain mythical creature isn't your main priority."
"Oh." Huh?
"This was our first meting and I already see this ending well."
"I can go now?"
"Yes." Weirdo.
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"Helloooooo earth to JACOB!"
"Sorry I was…thinking."
"Humph."
"Stop it!!! I can feel your beady chocolate eyes." I chuckled at his funny remark.
"I'm the magus the great and powerful one!!!! Feel my wrath flying monkeys!" Mike screamed running down the hall being chased by orderlies and yelling "Ohh ohh ahh ahh" to everyone he passes. Jacob and I laughed our way into the recreation room.
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"What are you thinking about sweetie?" Esme said breaking my reverie.
"Nothing worth publishing." I said with my bright smile. My sister Angela was the only thing that kept me from killing myself at the end of the day, but one day she was taken away from me without warning. It seemed impossible to let it go, I was ready to lose control, but Dad was sick and I was the only one left.
Then he died too I had no one to look up to, to confide in I wanted to go into a corner and scream to unconsciousness, but it never came with satisfaction. It was like a tear in my brain where all the voices creep in and trying to throw me off balance.
"After your break you're going to see Dr. Masen."
"Grreat."
"What you don't like him?" I felt that undeniable warmth in my cheeks. I looked up to see Esme's smile broaden.
"Um, he's um, uh he's intoxicating…"
"You can say that again you don't know how many times I've had to hear the nurses talk about him it's like high school all over again."
"Oh."
"No, I didn't mean it like that..."
"Nah its OK it happens."
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Another end to an unusually normal day.
"Before I go Bella your cousin Emmet he sent you a book."
"Cool! What is it?"
"Um, Sophie's World. I think." Yes! What I great way to end a good day. Esme left my door askew before she left. I turned to my desk sat down and open the package. There it is! My old novel of Sophie's world.
I looked up to face the window and tried to look outside, never really could form anything out there. I thought up to go see Jacob before we all got confined in our room. I turned around and saw…
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E p.o.v.
As I made my way to the exit I heard an awful shriek down the hallway. As ran to its direction and orderlies were already opening the door. I looked over the door frame and saw its number I quickly recognized that it was Bella's room.
"AH!!! You gotta help me she was there on the floor blood was everywhere!!!! Get me out of here!!!" she yelled.
"You can't you must stay in your room you've probably disrupted other patients in this hallway. Calm down." An elderly said soothingly and sternly.
"She probably disrupted the whole building." The other orderly mumbled.
"Shut up! Ju just shut up! You don't know what your talking about." She reacted irrationally. I didn't see this morning…
"Where is Esme isn't she one of the nurses in this wing?"
"No Doc her shift is in the morning."
"You guys got this covered?"
"Yeah we got it." I tried to say goodbye to Bella, but her hid her face and was hunched in the corner.
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"Hey bro! How's it goin'?"
"It is going very well Jasper."
"Aw, good to know. So seen any hotties?"
"Jasper I'm not hookin' you up with any of my patients."
"Oh, you wanna keep em to yourself don't cha?"
"Shut up and eat your burger." He laughed boomingly. Should I tell him 'bout Hermia? No it'll ruin the moment keep the conversation light….
"You seem different can't put my finger on it."
"Oh no Jasper's inaccurate intuition is kickin' in."
"Ha Ha Ha very funny Edward." His weird ice cold stare cracked me into a sweat. I will not break. "So how's life?"
"It's great I've got more patients than ever… Though I need a new intern."
"Again? I bet half of the asylum's population are filled with girls you've fucked including staff."
"Hey! I'm not Charlie from two and a half men that's for sure." He said with his million dollar smile.
"You're so…eccentric it's petrifying."
"And you my brother are too naïve." I snorted with resolve.
"How long are staying?"
"As long as you need me sweet cheeks."
"I don't need you…"
"That's what you said."
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I woke up tied down…I didn't even care everything was all fuzzy and awesome. A chill came out of nowhere and I felt a massive headache, but it was all smothered and I couldn't see straight. Black feathers start to fall I turn my head and see Angela. I tried to say hi but my mouth felt heavy with metal.
Now I'm floating and the sun is hot on my face I'm ascending upward to a church's belfry. I stand on the edge and feel the hour hand move to twelve.
Ding…
The bell is moving, vibrating everything even me.
Ding…
I slip and slowing fall.
Ding…
I see birds flying away.
Ding…
I'm on a road, still noon.
Ding…
Cars stop by to see, but what?
Ding…
The blue red light of a cop's car won't let me see clearly.
Ding…
I feel sadness, hurt, worry, curiosity…
Ding…
Why?!
Ding…
What's going on???
Ding…
"It was an accident!"
"The rain made it hard to see…"
Ding…
Edward? Is it Edward? Answer me!!
Ding…