'I lived my life defending others. But now... there's no one left to protect. Maybe... it's time I shaped my own story.'
Everyone who stood in the room watched the girl's face quickly change emotions from joyous to a sorrow and dreadful look in a matter of seconds. No one dared to say anything at that moment, afraid for what might come next in the girl's actions or words. Instead, they all stared at her and waited for her to say or do something so they could determine what to do next.
In hopes she had heard the young man wrong, pleading that was the case, she asked him again. "He's…" She paused as she swallowed down the sob beginning to take place in her tightened throat. "Dead?" How could this be, she screamed in her head, he promised me he would come back for me.
Again, no one spoke except her best friend knowing exactly what she was feeling. "Yes." Sora whispered wishing too that it had been some sort of mistake, some kind of misunderstanding instead of this dreaded turn of events. But he heard it from King Mickey himself that he watched him slowly parish during the mission to escort some very important people to a safer world.
The mission was signed off as complete, due to him sacrificing his life for people whom he never even had connection to. He was that kind of person, the one who would do anything in order to save some one else's life even if that meant he had to take the low road just to have that happen for them.
The girl shook her head causing her side bangs to fall over her squeezed shut eyes as she clinched her fists to her sides trying hard to control herself which she was failing miserably at. Yuffie was the next to speak. "I'm so sorry ." She whispered as she took a step forward towards her but the girl took a step back needing her space right now afraid of lashing out on these kind people.
Alone, that's the next emotion that swirled through out her body and mind as she stood there in front of the door trying to over come the hysterics about to take over her body completely. Her shoulders began to shake and her eyes started to get glazed with unshed tears as it all processed in her mind. The love of her life wasn't going to come back to her, he was taken away from this world, away from her. She was going to be alone forever, alone with no one to love or love her back. He was never going to walk through the doors of her house and take her in his arms and kiss her like she was the world to him as he was to her. They were never going to get married like he had promised her one day, they weren't going to start a family together like they had always planned. All her dreams and world were now crumbling around her as she tried to take as many breaths as she could cause it seemed like no matter how much air she took in, it was never enough; She felt as if she couldn't breathe anymore , like the walls around her were slowly but surely closing in on her.
The door knob was suddenly under her trembling fingers as she tried to determine what she was going to do next. The only thing she could do was plainly obvious; She was going to run away. "I'm sorry…" She whispered. "But I have to go, please don't follow me." And with that , she threw the door open and ran as fast as her leg's could carry her out in the dark night.
Ignoring the call's of her name, she ventured off into the thicket of tree's with tear's streaming down her face. Where she was going, she didn't know nor care. All she knew was that she had to get away from everyone's sympathetic eyes, it was suffocating and she needed to be alone with herself so no one else had to see her this weak. Her screams and cries were only going to get worse, something she did not want anyone else to witness besides the wandering eyes of the animals and critters that ventured around her, trying to desperately avoid being trampled on by the souls of her shoes.
How long she had been running, she couldn't tell but soon she came upon a small lake and she knew this was her destine location to finally stop running from her fears. She collapsed beside the lake then cried into the dirt while pounding her fists beside her head as if it was the one to be blamed. "Why?!" She screamed out into the sky, to no one really in in particular. "Why him…"
Out of all the people who could have been taken from this world, he was the chosen one; He was the one destined for a short life. The weight of her heart was almost unbearable as she closed her eyes and brought her knees to her chest while picturing his face, smiling down at her like there was no tomorrow. It was a painful sight to see, but that's all she had now were her memories. No matter how painful they were, she was going to store them away forever.
Her cries became louder as she remembered the day before he left, how he made her feel, all the things she said to him and all the promises he made in return. Those promises were going to be un kept, unfulfilled and there was nothing she could do about it. All they were now were memories to taunt her , showing her how good her life used to be and no longer will be. Oh how she wished she could stop time and go back to where everything and everyone was carefree, no talk about all the worlds, all the heartless venturing around that needed to be stopped. If only thing's were that simple, but nothing was ever simple for her.
She felt as if the world and everyone around her was mocking her, throwing everything in her face as if to show her how weak and how much control they truly had over her. All they had to do was one simple thing and her world was then crashing down around her and there was no one there to pick up the pieces and make it all better. Nothing was going to be the same anymore, nothing was ever going to be as good as it used to be; Not even close. The time when she finally thought things are almost too good to be true, they really do turn out that way as everything was finally ripped away from her. She should have expected it all a long though, nothing good ever lasts in her life. When she finally does get a good fortune in it, some how it's always taken away from her , that's just the way things worked for her.
At this instant in time, all she wished was to stay here like this and slowly die so she could be with the one who truly made her happy; The one that needed her the most as much as she needed him. Life seemed pointless now, she had nothing to live nor to strive for. One could say she had her friends to always live for, but that wasn't enough, it was never going to be enough. They would always have some one there with them, but what about her? Did her feelings not matter as much as their's did? Her friends were the ones who always came first, their happiness was the only thing that mattered to her and when she finally found her share of happiness she realized she was missing out on this whole time, it gets stolen from her tight grasp. Where was her happily ever after?
"Jessica?" A familiar voice whispered from behind her causing her head to snap up in his direction. "Come back please." With a shake of her head she sat up and buried her face into her hands to attempt at stopping her cries from being heard and her face from his watchful eye. "Leave me be." She said against her shaky hands. Leave me be alone with my memories, she shouted in her head. Why couldn't everyone just listen to what she had said for once and let her be alone when she most needed it. She understood his reasoning's for coming out her, in hopes of sharing this pain with her and take her to a more safe location but no one understood what she was going through, what she was feeling especially him.
Sora shifted his weight around from foot to foot as he watched her shake from all her violent sob's. It was not an easy task to find her, but her screams gave up her location; They could hear her all the way back from the little cottage they were staying at. It hurt to watch his close friend sit here and suffer through this but she didn't have to be alone while doing it. His legs carried him over to her when her cries were calming down, he knew it was better to deal with her that way. "Come on , let's go back inside." He said as he placed a hand on her shoulder for comfort which she shrugged off and shook her head.
A sigh escaped him when he tried to grab her hand to lift her up but she snatched it away when he touched her. She seemed to flinch away from his touch which caused his frown to deepen. "I understand what you're going through, but please, I need to get you back inside."
When those word's left his mouth, he saw her snap and her body stiffen. "You don't understand nothing." She said after a while that seemed like years. "You don't understand it at all!" She shook her head around then looked up to finally meet his confused eyes. "You can't possibly understand what I'm going through, sure, he's your friend too. But he was the love of my life." She began "And now he's gone and he's not coming back as much as I wished it wasn't true. You have Kairi to go back to , but who do I have?" She asked him darkly.
"No one! I have no one to go back to while everyone else has some one. I'll be alone watching you all live happily while the only happiness I am ever going to get is from my memories and even then the happiness wont last when I realize that I'm just setting myself up for false hopes." He blinked a couple times at her words and took a couple steps back unsure what to do. Every word she said was like a rip to his already broken heart, he hadn't realize all these thing's she was pointing out to him. "So never tell me that you understand cause you don't understand anything."
He opened his mouth to speak, but he was unable to find the words. She had left him completely speechless and with a tangy feeling of guilt upon his chap lips. Tear's began to fill his eyes as he watched her slowly change in front of his eyes and as realize finally sunk in, he knew thing's were never going to be the same again and he despised that fact ever so greatly. "So just please, do me the favor of leaving me alone." She whispered after a while as she turned her head away from him to stare out across the sparkling lake and settle into her cherished memories. Even though he knew she couldn't see he, he nodded his head and began to take his leave. This was the one battle no matter how hard he tried, he was not going to come out successful like he had hoped for even with his good intentions. He had tried his best, but apparently that was not going to be good enough to save her from herself.
'What's gonna happen to me now? Just tell me that. Nothing else really matters anymore.'