If It Were Only That Easy Chapter 3, a twilight fanfic

Review! and thankyou to those who have! i have updated three days in a row now! which is good for me! I do it right after school, but today was hard, casue i went for mexican with my mum and big bro, and thn went to dance til eight. It is now ten, because I was stuck, Anyway! it is a pretty boring chappy, mostly songs she sings.

One last thing-

Seth- What?!

Me- Oh! Seth! Heyy... (batts eyeashes)

Seth- I HAVE A LOVE INTEREST!

Me-Hey dont yell at me! I can kill Be-Kristen If I want to! So shut your mouth before I make this chapter too descriptive in a certain PART!

Seth- Gosh....Sorry.

Me- No, Im sorry, I DONT OWN TWILIGHT!

Seth- You do own me though!

Me- REALLY?!

Seth- Hehe Nope!

Me- Aww..jerk... :'(

Maybe next chapter...

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If it were only that easy...

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KPOV (Kristen)

I gulped, scared to death of the man only few feet behind me. I was crying, feeling like a total baby. You imagined it Bella, don't worry...

But I didn't. I knew what happened. I remember. I cannot forget. It wil forever ve burned into my memory. His face, his eyes, his mouth, his words. Everything made me cry. and then, a memory hit me, like a load of bricks.

FLASHBACK

I walked into my dressing room, totally at ease after a concert. When I walked in, Lucas was there. Of course, I wasn't frightened, just suprised. Lucas was my band's drummer, he was a close friend even. I didn't think anything of it. Just...normal.

"God!" I blurted, obviously shocked. "You scared me!" I laughed. "Yougotta warn me-" Before I knew it, I was on the floor, my face planted againt the ground.

He hit me. He punched me. He just punched me in the face...

"You make another noise, I will slit your throat. You hear me?!" That shut me up. So I lay there, my face aching, and my head throbbing. He leaned down, pinning me to the hard tile. He turned me around, so I faced him. Then I realized what he was doing. What he was trying to do everytime he would ask me over, after band practice. Everytime he wanted us to be alone. It was what he wanted.

Me. He wanted my body, my innocence, my...my-

I felt pushed his lips to mine, angrily. I was shocked, and I didn't respond, so he stopped and slapped me. Hard, obviously angry.

"You'll enjoy this. You will..." He paused a moment, smiling sweeetly, innocently, like a little child. "Bella."

I was so shocked, I didn't notice him take off his shirt.

I felt tears prick the corner of my eyes, and my stomach churned, repulsed. I couldn't breathe even, because it would catch in my sore throat and cause even more pain. My mind was going crazy, thinking of what I could do, what I couldn't.

I was so busy thinking, that I didn't realise he took off his jeans, tossing them in the same pile as his shirt.

I was so busy worrying, I didnt see that he brought my skirt down to my ankles.

I was so frightened, that I couldn't respond, as he slipped off my tank.

I was so terrified, and shocked, that I couldn't do anything, as he raped me, over, and over, and over, until I passed out, bloody on the dressing room floor.

"You little whore." He smiled. "You little whore..."

PRESENT

I was brought back, by the screaming and cheering of my fans. I shook it off, and put on a fake smile. I introduced our newest song Alice.

"This is a song about getting lost in a fantasy. A fantasy that you'll get used to. This is our new song, entitled, Alice." The whole crowd erupted in cheers, and I smiled happily, in real excitement.

Trippin out
Spinning around
I'm underground
I fell down
Yeah I fell down

I'm freaking out, where am I now?
Upside down and I can't stop it now
Can't stop me now, oh oh

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, I won't cry

I found myself in Wonderland
Get back on my feet, on the ground
Is this real?
Is this pretend?
I'll take a stand until the end

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, I won't cry

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, and I won't cry...

The crowd burst into screams, and whistles and clapping. Cheering for me and my band. I felt content at that moment, but it slipped awy quickly. A feeling in the pit of my stomach ached my heart. The feeling made me want to double over and cry. The weird bubbly feeling I had earlier dissapeared, and I realized something then.

The pull wasn't towards something, It was toward someone.

The realization came fast.

I shook the thought off though, not feeling trusting towards whoever this was for. Never will I get too close. I began thinking of a song to sing next.. I thought until-

"This is Imperfect is the new perfect." I dismissed. The guitar began, and I waited for me cue...

Compare the way my body looks to the magazines
Don't know why everybody's buying into the scene
So I'm gonna drive down the boulevard
Not caring who has a faster car
Tone down the makeup and the noise
'Cause what's inside will bring the boys

If skin and bones is the secret to all your happiness
Then pop your pills 'cause the money
is never gonna last
So save the plastic for the toys
Come out your shell, just make a noise
I'm gonna run, I'm gonna live
I'm gonna smile and not fit in
I'm gonna dance, I'm gonna strut
I'll shake my curves and not give a fuck

Just dry your eyes, you're beautiful
I understand, it's logical
'Cause these images are everywhere
They'll make believe, so don't compare
I will not compare

We're every shape and size
You know we're just perfect, just perfect
We love our hips, our thighs
Because they're just perfect, just perfect
I don't fit the mold, I am real
I'm too colorful to conceal
Imperfect is the new perfect
Imperfect is the new perfect

I don't wanna look like you because
You're too perfect, too perfect
And I don't want to fill your shoes because
It's not worth it, it's not worth it
I don't fit the mold
I am real
Too colorful to conceal
Imperfect is the new perfect
Imperfect is the new perfect
Imperfect is the new perfect
Imperfect is the new perfect
Imperfect is the new perfect
Imperfect is the new perfect

I, being Bella, only began crying, as I heard my drummer say low enough, as I went past.

"Whore."

I told the crowd we were taking a break.

When I got off stage, I ran. I didn't want to have a break down infront of anyone, so I just ran.

I just ran...

and ran...

I ran for miles, outside the stadium, sprinting even, until I reached a weird place called La Push.

Where have I heard that before...?

I began walking, as I reached the forest edge.

I stumbled in, and began crying, with my knees bent up toward my chest, and my head resting on top. I began singing, to calm down.

I'm standin' on the bridge
I'm waitin' in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
I'm tryin' to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
Hmm hmm hmm

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
I try to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
Yea yea

Oh, why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yea eee yeah, yea eee yeah
Yea yee yea, yea eee yeah,yeah

It's a damn cold night
Tryin' to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you, yea
I'm with you, yea

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you, yea
I'm with you, yea

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you, oh
I'm with you
I'm with-

I froze, as I heard a voice behind me. They came close to my ear, whispering.

"You smell...mouthwatering..."

I wanted to run...I wanted to just attack him...

If it were only that easy...

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