Yesterday a very good friend of mine was over and she made me realize something. I've been thinking of it all day, and it's true. From I was little I've switched schools a lot, made new friends all the time though my childhood. Though this past years and a half I've moved 6 times. It's a lot. Things have happened, I've changed a lot, grown up. See things in another perspective then I did 1 year ago. Other things are important now, I see myself letting go of thing's I have been dreaming of forever. Making new dreams, I have one childhood friend I still keep in touch with. I dont even know if you would call it your childhood fried if you only had known her since you were 11 and 13. but I do, she's always been there if anything, we always find back to eachother and had some kind of similar adolescence. She told me last night randomly "you are the closest thing I can call a childhood friend" and it got me thinking. She is too.
A lot of things has happened these past weeks. But I finally see an end to it all, the shitty situation is soon over. We can move on. I've lost 'old' friends and gained new ones on a level with "friends for life" it just said click, and we got this strong bond. Including 100% thurst, and we can joke. Real bestfirends. I have had friends over the years who I could thrust with some things. But not all of it, never opened myself completely up. But now.. I know who my friends are. The real one's.
Linn,Siw,Maggie,Cecilie,Stine,Annika,Cecilie. These girls, im so lucky to have them in my life, i dont need to feel lonely, hold anything back i can just be myself. And talk about what I feel talking about. No holding back. Not anymore. I would travel around the world with these. I already almost did with a few of them.. we can laugh until we cry, cry til we laugh, drink til we puke, sing at clubs, dance til we cant feel our legs.
I don't need to fake a smile and say im okay when im truly not, I can truly say. I am happy, and it feels so good :)