Mercedes led Quinn into her house. Quinn's mother's offer became unnecessary when Judy Fabray had decided to move out of Ohio to be near her oldest daughter and farther from her husband. Mercedes' house was nice…but Quinn tried to be there as little as she could. It hurt watching such a functional family, when truly even when living at home with her parents was still a malfunction. There were moments when Quinn wished that she had raised Beth on her own, but she knew that it was best giving her to Shelby. Quinn's life seemed so flawless to others but Quinn's life was mistake after mistake after mistake. She herself was fine…but her life was falling apart. Since Finn's accident a smile and a laugh were only ever small, short flickers. She was like shattered glass that was loosely taped together…anything threatened to break her.
Of course at schools she put up barriers so that no one thought that she was weak. And of course every one in glee knew that she was better to Finn now than Rachel was.
"Quinn, I'm going over to the hospital, so you don't have to," Rachel said gently. The undercurrent in Rachel's voice let Quinn know that she wasn't welcome at the hospital.
"No, I'm on my way. I'll go too," Quinn replied. Rachel frowned.
"No seriously, it's ok," Rachel hissed.
"No, I want to go," Quinn said severely.
"Stop pretending like you belong there, with Finn. Stop pretending like your life is so horrible, because my life has been worse," Rachel said. Quinn laughed.
"I don't hate my life, though my life has been my own personal hell! I went through a pregnancy, giving up my baby, getting kicked out of my own house, putting up with you and I might as well admit that before I moved in with Puck that I was homeless for three days," Quinn said, still laughing bitterly. Then she left to go to the hospital.
Quinn smiled to Finn, even if he didn't know that she was here. She started to sing, praying that he would hear her somehow.
There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted
But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame
He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came
And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.
The bleeps on the monitor changed their pace. The doctors came in calmly and Quinn left.
Life wouldn't be hell with Finn by her side.