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Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi or its characters…I know…sad
Clare's POV
I took a step inside the room and looked at the figure before me. It was Eli lying on a hospital bed looking so…peaceful. He had an IV connected to him and a bandage wrapped around his bare stomach. I started to cry softly. I felt so bad, although he was going to be fine, all I could think about was how this was all my fault and how he would hate me forever. I took his hand and placed a light kiss on his cheek. I then sat down in an uncomfortable chair next to the bed, his hand still in mine.
"I'm so sorry, Eli" I spoke softly knowing he wasn't listening. I squeezed his hand harder and let out a random sigh. It was a happy, yet sad sigh.
Eli's POV
I felt someone squeeze my hand and I slowly began opening my eyes, I didn't know where I was. Was I dead? Is this heaven? No, I thought, this is too real. I noticed Clare sitting on a chair next to me crying, her head down. I'm guessing she didn't notice I woke up because she started talking and I quickly shut my eyes and listened.
"I can't begin to wonder how much you hate me. This was all my fault." Oh no, she thought this was her fault. No! I wanted to open my eyes and tell her everything was okay but then she continued, "I should have never ever agreed to go to the dance with Fitz. He is such a jerk and I knew that, but I guess I just didn't want to believe it. I wanted to believe that he had a soft side too. You know?" she paused. No I really didn't know what she meant, but I continued listening. "I wanted to believe that he really did want to end this feud, and finally make things better, but then you put ipecac in his drink and he got made. I was mad at first too, but now I know that you really were trying to protect me. You knew the entire time that he was a bad guy and you tried to tell me. I was just too stupid to listen. And I hate myself for that. I hate myself for letting you get hurt and suffer. Eli, you could have d-died." She started really crying then, but she still continued. "When I saw Fitz pull the knife out of his locker and say, 'Clare, I really like you, and with Eli gone, he won't get in our way' I just wanted to beat him up right there. I was so petrified so obviously I didn't, but I should of, because then you wouldn't be here. Oh my god, Eli this is all my fault. I guess what I really wanted to say to you is that I'm so sorry that words can't even explain my self-hate right now. I also wanted to tell you the truth. The truth is that no matter how stupid you can be sometimes," Wait did she just call me stupid? She took a deep breath and finally let it all out, "I-I love you, Eli, I really do, with all my heart. Also, I'm so happy you are alive, because without you, then I would be heartbroken, Literally heartbroken, because the second you were s-stabbed, I felt half my heart get ripped out of my chest, because it was all my fault. And yes, I do know that you will hate me forever because I almost got you killed, but I just needed you to know how I feel. I'm truly sorry." And with that she kissed my hand. I decided this was my queue to let all my feelings out.
Clare's POV
I had finally finished my speech to an unconscious Eli when suddenly he spoke, "How could I ever hate you, Clare?" He said softly. I looked up at his face and stared into his green orbs.
"Oh my god, uh, I, uh, didn't know you were awake….I'll just uh go now" I started to stand, but he yanked me back down.
"You're not leaving me Clare… ever." He spoke gently and pulled my hand towards his mouth and placed a soft kiss on my knuckles, and then he continued, "You know how I was going to tell you something right before I blacked out?" she said, his hot breath hitting my hand that was still near his mouth.
"Uh..yea" Was all I could get out, since I was still shocked that he had heard my heartfelt speech.
"Well do you know what I was going to say?" he asked in a serious tone.
"Um…no"
"Well I was going to tell you that I love you, because honestly, Clare, I wasn't sure if I was going to survive and I needed you to know how I truly felt." He confessed. Oh my god, I thought, he couldn't be serious.
"R-really" I stuttered and blushed a little.
"Yes" Was all he said and that's all I needed to hear to believe it, "Oh and Clare, don't you ever, ever, blame what happened, on yourself, never." He said.
"But Eli, it was my-" he began but he cut my off.
"Eh, what did I say? Never blame this on yourself because it was in no way at all your fault. What happened was I was being a jerk and didn't know how to end a fight peacefully and just apologize. And Clare I'm so sorry for causing you any trouble ever. I'm also sorry you had to witness my near death experience. Ha." Did he really just laugh? Oh my god.
"This isn't funny Eli." I said and hit him on the shoulder lightly.
"Ouch, Clare! Way to injure the injured." He said and smirked at me. Oh how I loved his smirk. It just made me melt.
"Oh I'm sorry, want me to kiss it, make it better?" I asked sarcastically giving him a fake frown.
"Hm… actually my lips were kind of hurting. Maybe you could kiss them and then I would feel better." He spoke softly and smirked. Of course I gave in.
Eli's POV
Her lips brushed up against mine and I kissed her hard and passionately. Soon enough I trailed my tongue across her lower lips and begged for an entrance. She granted me access and my tongue explored her mouth. The kiss lasted for what felt like hours. It was perfect. I couldn't control it, it just felt so right. Eventually she and I both pulled away, needing air. We were both panting and I stared into her aqua eyes and I could see her every emotion. I scooted over towards one end of the bed and motioned for her to sit. She accepted the invitation and I wrapped my arm around her shoulder and we just sat there in silence for about 10 minutes.
"I love you, Clare" I said while looking down at her. She stared back up at me and looked at me with her breathtaking eyes. She smiled.
"I love you too, Eli"
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