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Afraid to Let You Go

Chapter 2: Daze.

As much as I want to go home already, I really can't leave Akemi there. I sighed when I re-entered the third music room. My eyes searched for my best friend. I found her shouting and giggling with the other female guests as the twins touched each other and do the brotherly love. I can't help but look at the twins, wandering if Kaoru-kun was the one who really talked to me or they were just playing pranks on me. I sighed again, I shouldn't keep thinking about those things. I walked to my best friend and told her that it was time to go. I turned her to me and it was obvious that she was lovesick.

"It was paradise. I saw heaven Tsukino-chan!" Akemi told to me. I shook her and said, "Snap out of it!" I helped her stand up and I casted one last look at the twins. I blushed when I saw one of them already staring at me. The same enticing golden orbs, it was so deep and caring. I looked away. I shouldn't have these feelings. I went to the door and found a boy with black hair and eye glasses, blocking my way.

"You need to pay first before leaving," he said.

"We need to pay?" I asked him. He rolled his eyes and uttered, "Do you expect a service and entertainment free of charge these days?"

"I'm sorry. I thought that we don't need to pay for clubs," I replied. "Can I use a credit card?"

"Any form of payment is welcome," he stated. I took out my credit card and gave it to him. I told Akemi to wait outside and she exited the room in a daze. The eyeglasses boy went to his desk and swiped my card to his machine. Then he wrote our names to his log book but still he didn't give back my credit card.

"Can I get my card now?" I asked him. He shook his head and fixed his eyeglasses.

"I'm still getting information about you. And I need you to answer my questions if I have any," he said. I frowned at him.

"Why do you need to get my information?" I questioned him.

"We need to know the back ground of our customers so we could entertain them better," he answered. He opened his laptop and typed something.

"Who are you by the way? You still don't know if I will come back here again," I said to him. He smirked, "My name is Kyoya Ootori. I'm the vice president of this club and I'm a second year student."

"So you're my senpai then," I told him and he nodded. He went back to his laptop.

"Your name is Tsukino Watanabe, only child of the president of Watanabe Banks and Corporation. Please say hi to your father for me. And your mother is a successful hair stylist, owning some of the biggest salons in Japan. Please say that I will be please if I could meet such a wonderful person," he said, smiling at me. Then he looked at his laptop again and this time he frowned. He looked at me and said, "You were confined to the hospital for months diagnosed of-" I covered his mouth with my hands. How could he know that information? I was shaken. Then I remembered something. He was an Ootori. They were the owners of the big hospital I was confined to. No wonder he knew that information.

"Please Kyoya-senpai. Don't tell it to anyone. I'm begging you," I told him. My tears were threatening to fall. I removed my hands from his mouth and stared at him. He nodded his head and said, "I won't tell anyone. It was a private matter anyway. And our hospital never leaks information if the patient didn't like it."

I gave him a sad smile and thanked him. He finally gave my credit card back. I went to the door, gave him a last sad look and exited the room. Akemi was waiting outside, she was back to normal.

"What took you so long?" she asked. I forced myself to give her a smile and uttered, "The card machine just malfunctioned."

Afraid to Let You Go

I went home, riding the limousine my father sent to fetch me. The maids opened the door and welcomed me. They got my things from the driver and brought it upstairs, to my room. Mother went to me and hugged me.

"Are you alright?" she asked me. I nodded and said, "I didn't do anything strenuous."

"That's good," she told me. "You better go to your room now and get a rest. I would ask the maids to call you for dinner."

I nodded and obeyed. I didn't dare to tell her that I had an attack at school. She would freak out and might ask me to stop going to school. I don't like that. I like going to school and study. It makes me feel alive and healthy. I went inside the room and closed the door. I decided to take a bath and went to the bathroom. I took of my clothes and opened the faucet of my bathtub. Then I added the strawberry scented liquid soap on the water. After a few minutes, I entered it.

I feel relaxed. All of my problems seemed to wash away...my terminal illness, my imminent death and the new feeling I had when I look at those golden orbs of Kaoru-kun or is it Hikaru-kun? I hugged my knees to myself. I don't like this, it makes me want to continue hoping that someday I would be cure and healthy.

After taking a bath, I grabbed my towel and exited the bed room. I dried myself and changed into my nightdress. I slumped at the bed and felt tired all of the sudden. And after a few seconds, all I see was darkness.

Afraid to Let You Go

The next day, I went to the school early. I found out that the first subject was P.E. The guys cheered and the girls groaned. They hate P.E. because it was hot and they worry about what will happen to their white skin. Aside from that, the stinking sweat it would bring. Me, I also hate P.E. because I can't really play during this time. I'm excused because of my illness. I'm jealous about those people who can do whatever they want. I sighed.

When the P.E. time started, I just sat under the shade of a tree, watching those people who ran under the heat of the sun. Then the teacher announced that we will have P.E. with the 1-A students. The girls cheered. I wonder why. And after a few minutes, I understood. The twins and the one they called Haruhi, three members of the host club was in that section. The girls started to crowd into them. Akemi was nearly fainting again. I smiled, she was just so cute.

Then one of the twins stared at me. He broke away from the crowd and approached me. He sat down by my side and grinned, "Why are you sitting here by yourself? Come and play with your classmates."

"I'm excused," I told him. He pouted, "Are you sick?"

I smiled sadly and said, "Very sick." He turned me around so I could face him. He pulled his bangs upwards and put his forehead on mine.

"You don't seem to have fever," he uttered. I felt blood crept on my cheeks. I was totally blushing. I pushed him away from me.

"W-What are you doing, Kaoru-kun?" I stuttered. He smirked, "So you knew that I was Kaoru."

"It's only an instinct. But I still can't distinguish you apart," I replied. "And you're always saying that you're Kaoru-kun."

He laughed, "Because I'm really Kaoru."

I found myself looking at him in daze. He was just so beautiful. He glanced at me and caught me staring at him. I flushed and looked away.

"Just leave me alone," I said and hugged my knees, "Please, Kaoru-kun or whoever you are."

"I can't," he said. "I found myself being drawn to you since I saw you crying beside the fountain. I want to know more about you."

"No, don't," I cried, looking down on the ground. I felt his hand shot up and touched my hair, brushing some of it away from my face. My eyes widened and glanced up from the ground.

"Why are you always crying?" he asked me.

"You don't need to know," I told him. He stood up. Finally, he was going to leave me. But why does my heart ache like I don't want him to leave me alone?

"Let's go and play," a voice said above me. I looked up and saw him stretching his hand to me. He was smiling. I was in a daze again. All I could think about was how beautiful he was. His light brown hair that shines under the sun and his golden orbs that glistened as he spoke was fascinating me. Why? Why does he have this effect on me? I unconsciously accept his hand and stood up. He led me to the crowd and his twin perked up.

"Kaoru isn't that the girl we entertain yesterday?" he asked. I looked at him, "Are you Hikaru-kun?"

"Who else could I be?" Hikaru-kun rolled his eyes. The brown haired guy with him called Haruhi nudged him in the stomach. He yelped in pain.

"This unbearable guy with me was really Hikaru," Haruhi-kun smiled, "And that person with you was really Kaoru."

I saw Hikaru-kun blushed when Haruhi-kun smiled. What? Is it normal for them to blush around guys? Does Hikaru-kun like Haruhi-kun? I shook my head, how foolish of me. The teacher went to me and asked, "Is it alright for you to participate in P.E.?"

I nodded, "I won't do anything tiring and besides I'm recovering from my illness." I obviously lied but I want to participate in P.E. with everyone.

Our practical game was basketball. After teaching the basics to us, the teacher assigned us to different groups. In the guys, there were five of them in each group. The same goes for the girls too. I was in the first batch to play in the girls. I stood up and went to the basketball court. The teacher whistled and I got the ball. I dribbled it and ran to the basket, shooting it and it went in. My group cheered. The ball was with the enemy and they dribbled it to their territory. They shoot it to the basket but it missed and one of my teammates got the ball and passed it to me. I dribbled, running to our territory. I was very happy that I could play like this.

But then, my heart suddenly clenched again. I stopped dribbling the ball and my hands instantly hold my chest. I slumped down. It hurts. It really hurts. Why? Just when I started enjoying the game why did this happen? Everyone approached me, asking what's wrong with me. No, I can't let them know. I stood up and walked away, staggering.

"Don't force your own self," Kaoru grabbed my arm. "What's wrong with you? Are you hurt anywhere?"

I slapped away his hand, "D-Don't touch me." I was gasping now. It really hurts. I need to take my medicine now.

"B-But Watanabe-san," he called out desperately. Ugh, my chest really hurts. I fall down, losing consciousness already. Am I going to die? And after a few seconds, all I could see was darkness.

Afraid to Let You Go

anime16: I was really frustrated when I wrote this. It's because I felt sorry for Tsukino. But please do a favour for Tsukino and leave reviews.