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Afraid to Let You Go
Chapter 4: Laughs and Tears.
I was released from the hospital on the next day. The sweet moment with Kaoru-kun left me breathless, ecstatic and wanting for more. But I was confused too. Why did I fall in love with him so fast? It's just that whenever I'm with him I felt so alive, happy and comfortable. I smiled. I entered our manor and the maids greeted me. Akemi was also there to welcome me, giving me a big hug.
"I'm sorry I couldn't visit you at the hospital," she said. "But I came here to spend the night with you. I brought my school uniform so we could go to the school together."
I grinned and thanked her. My mother suggested that we should go to my room and continued our reunion there. We laughed and obeyed her. We went upstairs, opened the door to my room and went inside. We slumped on my bed, giggling and playing with each other.
"About your illness, why didn't you tell me?" she asked. She had a sad look on her face, feeling hurt and betrayed. My heart ached as I saw her like that. I reached for her and hugged her tight. "I'm so sorry. I just don't want you to get worried." She was trembling and I felt my clothes stained with her tears. I rubbed her back and whispered my apologies. After a few minutes, her crying start and she chuckled. She told me that we would be best friend forever and I smiled. Then the topic was changed and I felt myself blushing.
"So what's the score between you and one of the twins?" she smirked when she saw my flushed face. I muttered, "You mean Kaoru-kun?"
"So it's Kaoru-sama!" she wailed. I nodded and said, "The host club visited me yesterday."
"What?" she hollered. "Darn, if only my mother didn't drag me to the mall yesterday then I could visit you and see them." I smiled at her complaints.
"So what happened when the host club visited you?" she asked. My cheeks were tinted with red as I told her what happened yesterday. After telling her the story, she screamed with joy and hugged me.
"He totally likes you!" she said. I grinned. But I told myself not to raise my hopes high. I don't want to get hurt if he rejected me and he probably meant that I'm close to his heart as a friend and not romantically.
"So do you like him?" he questioned me. I blushed and nodded. And she wailed more, "You looked so cute when blushing!"
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We went to the school early the next day. I stepped out of the limousine with Akemi and saw the twins and Haruhi-chan at the school gates, talking to each other. One of the twins saw me and waved in my direction. Akemi nudged me and I winced in pain.
"I say you wave to him, wave to him now!" she whispered to me. I forced a smile and raised my hand to wave back. He grinned to me and turned to talk to his companions. After a few minutes, he was already at my side.
"Are you Kaoru-kun or Hikaru-kun?" I asked. He rolled his eyes and replied, "Of course I'm Kaoru. You should really learn to tell as apart."
"How could I tell you apart if you looked so similar?" I told him and playfully punched his shoulders. He scowled and said, "Well I think that I'm nicer, more sensitive, soft spoken and more mature than Hikaru. And my hair was usually parted to the left side."
"You're overconfident," I mischievously smacked his head. He groaned and I giggled. Then Hikaru-kun and Haruhi-chan called to us, saying it's time to go. Kaoru-kun walked me to my classroom, trailing behind us were Hikaru-kun, Haruhi-chan and Akemi. We arrived at the 1-B's classroom and we bid farewells.
"Later," Kaoru-kun told me and walked away with his twin and Haruhi-chan. I entered the classroom but I went back and peered on his retreating form. Then he turned around and caught me staring. I flushed and looked down. Oh no, he caught me! It's so embarrassing.
"Watanabe-san," He called out. I glanced up and saw him smirking. He said, "See you later at lunch." He gave me a wave and walked away.
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When the lunch bell rang, I quickly stood up and fixed my things. I asked Akemi to have lunch together and she agreed. We went to the canteen and saw the girls crowded at a certain table. The host club was probably there. We went to get food and sat at the corner side of the canteen.
I was halfway eating when one of the twins approached me. His hair was parted to the left side. He was probably Kaoru-kun. He leaned towards me and whispered, "Let's meet after you eat lunch." I was shocked. I looked at him and saw him smirking. He went back to their table. My cheeks were hot and tinted with red. Akemi giggled beside me.
After a few minutes, I saw the blonde boy stood up and shouted, "That was mean Hikaru. How dare you steal Haruhi's packed lunch?" Hikaru-kun teased him more by hugging Haruhi-chan. The blonde boy wailed, "Don't eat my precious daughter, you Hikaru wolf!"
Then I saw Kaoru-kun stood up too and went to the door. He turned towards me and signalled me to come to him. Akemi saw this and said, "Go to him!" I nodded and went to him. He smiled and took my hand, dragging me outside.
"Where are we going?" I asked him. He chuckled and said, "I will show you something special."
He led me to a place behind the school building. It was a garden full of different types of flowers. I gasped, "I never knew that there was a place like this in the school."
"Are you happy?" he asked. I smiled at him, "Of course I am!" We went to the middle of the garden. I twirled around happily. He smiled and looked at his watch. His eyes widened and shouted, "We probably should get out of here. It's-" his words were cut when the sprinkler turned on and splashed them with water. I screamed.
"What is this?" I hollered. He sighed and replied, "It's already 12:30. The sprinklers turned on during this time."
"Why didn't you tell me? Now we're all wet," I said. He shrugged and smirked, "We are already wet. We can just play now." He slowly went towards me. I backed away, "I don't like that look on your face." He stooped down and got a sticky mud on the ground. It was probably made by the water. He ran to me and I shouted, "No! Don't come near me." He was laughing and caught me. He put his arms on my waist and swung me towards him. He put mud on my face.
"You're a jerk," I said. He let go off me and ran. I bent down and got mud on the ground. I went towards him but he ran away from me. I crouched down and kept quiet. He quickly went to me and asked, "Are you alright?" He was very concern and it made my heart flutter. But I have to take revenge. I pounced at him and pinned him on the ground.
"Revenge time," I told him and wiped mud on his face. He chuckled and tackled me. He was on the top now. We are both laughing. Then slowly our eyes met and time stood still. His deep golden orbs were staring down on me.
"Kaoru-kun," I muttered. His eyes widened, quickly get off me and mumbled, "I'm sorry."
I flushed and said, "It's alright." He stood up and offered his hand, "Let's go now." I accepted it.
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"What are you both doing?" the nurse in the infirmary scolded us. "I'm going to request for new uniforms." She reached for the telephone and dialled. Then we heard her talking about "wet" and "uniforms." We giggled and the nurse glared at us.
She banged the telephone and hollered, "Dry yourself and I have to write a note for your teachers stating the reason why both of you were late."
We resumed drying ourselves but we can't stop laughing. Then after a few minutes, the uniform came and we changed into it. We got the notes from the nurse and Kaoru-kun walked me to my classroom.
"Go to the host club later," he whispered to me before walking away. I smiled and went inside my classroom. I gave the note to the teacher and went to my chair. When I sat up, Akemi giggled and asked, "How did it go?" I told him what happened and she squealed with joy. The teacher turned towards us, "Yoshida-san and Watanabe-san, if you're more interested in talking to yourselves, do it outside please." And with that the whole class laughed.
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The afternoon classes went by in a flash and it already ended. I stood up and fixed my things. Suddenly a girl approached me and said, "I have to talk to you. Can you come with me?" I looked at her and nodded.
We exited the classroom and she led me outside of the school building. We went to a deserted place and I asked her, "What are we doing here?"
She heaved a sigh and said, "I want you to avoid Kaoru-sama." I was shocked, unable to speak. What is she talking about?
"You're dying, aren't you?" she uttered harshly. Just who is she to tell me these things? And tears fall down her cheeks. "You're just going to hurt Kaoru-sama. Don't let him fall in love with you."
"W-What are you saying?" I managed to say. More tears fall down her cheeks.
"If Kaoru-sama fell in love with you and you happened to die then he would be devastated. Do you want to take his happiness away? Do you want him to suffer? Face it girl, whoever gets involve with you then that person will get hurt. I don't want to see Kaoru-sama's sad face. So I'm begging you, please stay away from him," the girl cried. I was shaken. The girl turned his back on me, "That's all I have to say. I was hoping that you would take it to heart and stay away from him." And she walked away.
I was left all alone. What was that? I barely know her but she was telling me that I would take Kaoru-kun's happiness away. I slumped down the wall and then tears fell down my cheeks. I'm so stupid. I'm so close to him that I forgot that I'm dying. Can love really do this? I'm just so happy. I'm so happy that a tiny hope sparked on my chest, wishing that I would survive from this illness. However I'm just being stupid, right? I needed to stay away from him but would it hurt to see him one last time.
I trudged my way towards the third music room. I opened it and the roses flew everywhere. There were already many girls inside. Kyoya-senpai approached me and I said I was just going to visit Kaoru-kun. I looked to the table where the twins were entertaining their guests. One of the twins saw me and he went towards me.
"You're here," he smiled. So it was Kaoru-kun. Then he saw my puffy eyes, "Did you cry again?" I shook my head, "Dust just gets on my eyes." He tilted his head and said, "I think I heard that excuse way back." I smiled and muttered, "Go back to work."
Kyoya-senpai offered me a seat while saying, "Please tell your parents that I would be happy to meet them." I unconsciously nodded and sat down, watching Kaoru-kun. Tears suddenly cascaded down my cheeks again. I'm still watching him. Oh, I just can't leave him alone. Would someone call me selfish if I stay beside him? Is it a sin to be with him? Does fate never bounds two people who can't stay together forever? My tears overflow and I covered my mouth to prevent the sobs from escaping my lips. And then I heard him laugh. I stared at him.
"Kaoru-kun," I muttered. But at the same time, I also love his smiles and chuckles. I don't want him to stop laughing. I always want him to be happy. I don't want to see him frown or sad. I just want to keep him cheerful and in high spirits. I stood up. That was it. I have to avoid him. I ran outside and went to the fountain where we first met. I sat beside it and cried silently.
"I knew it. You were crying again," I heard his voice. That familiar soothing voice that I love. I turned around and saw Kaoru-kun panting. His hair was parted to the left and I was sure that it was really him. I stood up and went to him.
"What happened?" He asked. I smiled to him. Kaoru-kun, I love you but we can't be together. I grabbed his tie and pulled him down. I caught his lips and softly kissed it. Kaoru-kun, you've given me so much. You gave me a lot of firsts and probably a lot of lasts. Thank you. Thank you for the memories. The cries and laughs we shared together. I would probably remember it until the day I die. I broke the kiss and saw his shock face.
"I love you Kaoru-kun," I muttered and added, "...and goodbye." I ran away from him.
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I rode the limousine and went home. The maids welcomed me at the door of the manor. My mother went to me and asked, "How was school?" I hugged her tightly and cried.
"What happened?" she rubbed my back. And I let myself fall down. She joined me on the floor and hugged me back.
"Mother," I hiccupped. "Please, I want to quit school and get homeschooling courses."
Afraid to Let You Go
anime16: I'm inspired of writing this one. Thanks for reading my story. Please review.