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I smiled at Alice and excused my self and headed into the forest where I knew I would find Josh.

Is it safe? Or am I going to be ambushed by you psycho Ex?

Josh said in his head after sensing I was near. I rounded a corner and came to a stop when I saw him standing there.

"Well, let's see. It turns out my 'psycho ex' has a super bitch fiancée." I said trying not to let it bother me.

"Oh, are you ok?" he asked, concern leaking into his expression.

"Don't worry about me, Hon. I'll get my own back, don't you worry. Besides, she wasn't to thrilled to find out the reason he left in the first place." I told him, an evil smirk on my face.

"Hmm, I'm guessing that haven't…" He trailed of suggestively and then started to laugh. At that moment we heard someone approaching, Edward, I could hear his thoughts. He was coming to find me to tell me off about revealing the truth to his family, not that it was as big a deal as he was making it.

Quick! Kiss me, he won't like that!

Before I could make up my mind Josh's lips were on mine. God he was such a good kisser! Our lips moved in sync, my arms were rapped around his neck and my fingers had woven themselves through his hair. His arms were wrapped around my waist and his hands had tucked themselves under the waistband of my jeans. Our bodies were pushed together tightly. I was so lost in the moment that I had completely forgotten all about Edward until I heard someone clearing their throat behind me. His thoughts were so angry that it was almost funny. God he always had to ruin everything. I pulled myself away from Josh but when I turned to face Edward he stood behind me, wrapped his arms around my waist and laid his chin on my shoulder.

"What do you want Cullen? You're kind of ruining the moment." I said glairing at him.

"How dare you! You waltz back into our lives after ten years and now you're trying to ruin my life -" he said just before I cut him off.

"Excuse me? Just like you ruined mine?" I asked him. "You're talking like I was the one how left you." I choked out. I couldn't do this. Not right now. I was about to leave but he stopped me.

"I want answers Bella. Who changed you?" he had the nerve to ask. What a dick! He knew by the stubborn look on my face that I wasn't going to tell him what he wanted to know. "Whatever. But when I comes to Tanya, that trap of yours better stay shut." He said coldly before turning and running back into the house. Great, now I felt like shit. My mind drifted back to the kiss between me and Josh. It had made me feel great. I turned in his arms and put my arms back around his neck.

"So, I know we're only meant to be pretend dating but how do you feel about friends with benefits?" I asked him raising my eyebrows suggestively. He didn't answer he just pulled me in for another mind blowing kiss.

After our make out session we went through exactly what was going to happen. We were basically going to be dating but with out any of the complicated feelings. I felt as if I was using him but he was happy to do it because he said he would be helping a friend and he got free sex out of it. He was such a guy. I had to remind him that as soon as any feelings got involved we would have to stop.

After our little discussion things got hot and heavy again and me and Josh ended up having sex against a tree. I know it was really random and so shouldn't have happened but I really needed it, all the sexual frustration was driving me insane. Once we were sorted, I reminded him again that there could be no feelings and he promised that there wouldn't be. We walked back to the Cullen house hand in hand to keep up the whole façade of us dating even though we were kind of, it was already getting complicated. Once we got into the house Alice whisked me away into her room while Josh was in the shower. He got quite dirty during our activities in the forest. Alice sat me down on the bed and shut the door.

"Shield the room." She told me.

"Why?" I asked confused.

"Bella, I don't want anyone hearing what I have to say. And I don't think you will either." I nodded and expanded my shield until it was all around the room, wrapping it in its own little soundproof bubble of sorts.

"Ok. Shoot." I told her once I was done.

"Your sleeping with him, aren't you?" She asked smirking. "I thought you were pretend dating?" she exclaimed after I nodded.

"Umm, we're sort of friends with benefits but we've made it clear to each other that no feelings have to get involved what so ever, I'm not ready for that yet." I said ending in a whisper. I looked at Alice; she had a sad look on her face.

"Bella, it's been ten years." She reminded me.

"Time means nothing, Alice. I'll never get over it, over him. I just have to accept that that's the only thing time wont change." I said sadly looking at my hands and not at her. I had never told her that I still felt this way.

"You still love him?" She said. I didn't know if it was a statement or a question.

"It doesn't matter, he's engaged." I said. I was going to pass out. It had happened a few times before, whenever my body got too stressed or there was an overload of information on my brain I would just past out so my body could process everything.

"I have to go." I said dropping my shield and running out o the room.

"Bella!" she knew what was happening, when did she not. But she also knew I wanted to be alone so when I didn't reply she just left me. Thankfully Esme had given us a room with a bed in it. I could also keep my shield up when I passed out or safety I guess. I put up my shield barely able to stand straight I locked the door and quickly checked the time, 2:30, before everything went dark.

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