Bella looked down at her hands clasped in front of her, shutting her eyes to allow the darkness to engulf her as she tried to blot the angry voices in her head. She looked up again.
She's indecisive, she can't decide
She keeps on looking, from left to right
She looked at Edward, his amber eyes looking at her. There was calm in his stillness, but there was also ferocity. A fierce desire that she would step into his arms, and he could hold her fragile human form against him.
She looked at me. I'm still me, Bells. I will her to hear me, but I know she can't. I'm not her Jacob anymore, not her Jake. She doesn't believe I'm me anymore…not since I turned into this…
C'mon get closer,
Look in my eyes.
Bella tore her eyes from me and turned back to Edward. It felt like my heart was breaking, and I could see that Edward was trying to keep back some of the delight that he felt when Bella turned his eyes to him. I clenched my fists tightly at my side. It didn't take long though before she glanced away.
'I…I don't know what to do…' she said quietly.
Searching is so wrong,
I'm Mr Right.
'Bells, you have to choose. You can't leave this.' I said firmly, 'You can't put this off!'
Edward glared at me, 'She can take as long as she likes!'
'Oh really? So she can play with both of us to make up her mind?'
You seem like the type
To love 'em, and leave 'em
And disappear right after the song
Bella looked at me again.
"I was never playing with you, Jacob. I would never hurt you!" she pleaded.
"You already did, Bella." I couldn't keep the venom out of my voice, "You broke my heart Bella. And you don't care."
"Yes I do!"
Give me tonight,
To show you, hold you,
Don't leave me out here dancing alone
"Bella. I beg you. Don't do this," I said gently, changing tact after seeing the hurt in her eyes.
"Jake, I-"
Edward looked at me questioningly. He'd read what I had in my mind, and as much as he didn't want me to say it he wanted the answer too.
"What if Edward hadn't come back, Bella?"
Bella was silent for a moment.
"Nothing would be different."
"Bella, my love, you have to choose." Edward said, speaking for the first time in ages.
Can't make up your mind, mind, mind, mind, mind
But please don't waste my time time time time time.
I'm not tryna rewind wind wind wind wind
I looked at her then. The shock in her eyes that Edward was telling her to hurry up. The vampire, with all of eternity, wanted an answer now. I looked at him, and saw that there was something else there. Something deep rooted. I looked inside myself and saw I felt exactly the same.
"Bella, I love you, but I don't want to tear you apart anymore, ok?" I said softly. I stepped forward, and placing my hands on her shoulders kissed her long and hard on her lips.
When I stepped back she was silent. Edward didn't speak. He knew this was my way of saying goodbye.
"I just wish…" I turned and began to run, transforming into a wolf before I could finish the sentence out loud.
Just wish our hearts could come together as one.
