Shizune was quite shocked when Ino and Sakura unabashedly began to have sex right in front of not only her, but the Hokage. Embarrassingly enough, she found herself enraptured as she watched the girls express their passion. When she felt herself warming in the crotch the brunette managed to gain enough control of herself to turn away. She felt Tsunade wrap her arms around her, almost reassuringly. Caught in the moment, she nuzzled into the blonde's large breasts, inhaling the sweaty scent. A pair of lips settled on her neck and a firm hand stroked her back. Shizune fought the conditioned urge to pull away from the older woman. She felt the area around her knee hear up and realized how close she was to Tsunade's core. Blushing, she stuttered out. "T-Tsunade-sama!"
"Relax Shizune, it's a very natural thing." The blonde chuckled and Shizune couldn't decide whether the Hokage was aroused by her proximity or the genin in front of them. "Ino and Sakura seem to have realized that."
"It may be natural, but is it appropriate?" The jonin wondered aloud. The Hokage merely kissed her attendant.
"It doesn't matter." She replied, silencing Shizune and allowing her a few minutes of her own reflection. By now Ino and Sakura were dozing, , sleeping off and orgasmic high. All around them was silent, the only sounds were the rhythmic breathing of them all and the throb of Shizune's heart. For awhile neither of the two moved, both seemed either comfortable or just too nervous. It was the brunette who moved, Shizune pulled herself farther into the older woman's lap and snuggled up to her shoulder. She nuzzled the blonde's neck tenderly. "You're feeling affectionate today." The Hokage noted, stroking Shizune's back again.
"Its surprisingly natural." The woman mumbled. Shizune was truly surprised at how easy it was for her body to relax so fully around Tsunade. To the Hokage's credit she did seem to have relaxed as well, her demeanor was no longer predatory as it had been for years. Her appearance had morphed from a hard, stony demeanor to a softer, more friendly one. It was a welcome change. Shizune still couldn't quite accept that her senpai would indulge her need to emotional attachment. Though Tsunade was an exceptional ninja, she was often inept when it came to intimate relationships. Since Dan had died, Tsunade looked upon those she was attracted to as mere sex objects. She had never implored anyone for an emotional relationship. Other than the few times that they had met before her uncle's death, Shizune had never seen warmth in Tsunade's heart. When the two had left Konoha together, it seemed that the busty blonde cared only for gambling, eating, drinking and some nights sex. During her early twenties the brunette had toyed with the idea of changing Tsunade's stony manner with her own affection. She soon abandoned the notion after Tsunade had brought another woman to her bed and barred Shizune from it. Shizune had not believed that Tsunade was celibate during the years they traveled together, but Tsunade had never been so brash about it. She would often invent some training exercise and send her off so she would not be bothered. This time her only warning was a bar floozy sneering from behind a door that had been slammed in her face. It was only a few weeks after that incident that Shizune had shared drunk Tsunade's bed.
Since they had come to Konoha for Tsunade to serve as Hokage, her master had turned all her lust toward Shizune. The decision, if it was one, made perfect sense. Tsunade spent all day in a small office, stressed over the village's issues. She often talked of how much she missed the years of drinking and gambling. It was possible that she associated Shizune with that time because she was always with her. If that was the case Tsunade was simply using her to gain a feeling of satisfaction that she had during her wandering years. Realizing this Shizune was not about to let herself become a sex object for Tsunade, she wasn't about to sacrifice her own needs. No matter what happened she wasn't going to compromise herself. At the same time she wasn't about to deny the chance to satisfy both her and her master's needs and desires. So she stayed in the Hokage's arms, for once completely comfortable despite her doubts. To her it seemed as though Tsunade had finally softened the wall blocking off her emotions. Even if it was only for a few moments she would be happy with that. After this time of silent reflection, she began to wonder exactly what was going through Tsunade's mind. The brunette shifted and looked up to the blonde's face.
Tsunade had unwrapped one of her arms from around her waist and brought her thumbnail to corner of her mouth. She was seemingly lost in though as well. Shizune nuzzled the Hokage's neck, hoping to get her attention. It worked as the blond twitched to attention. She pulled her thumb from her mouth and secured her arm back around Shizune. "What's on your mind." The Hokage asked, her voice gently instead of authoritive.
"I was about to ask you the same thing." Shizune replied
"Don't change the subject." Tsunade reprimanded.
"I wasn't." The brunette defended herself. "I was just reflecting."
"Reflecting on what?" The Hokage asked.
"My uncle." Shizune lied, not wanting to admit how heavily Tsunade was weighing on her mind. Almost immediately the younger woman regretted saying such things. Tsunade visibly hardened, her jaw set and her lips form into the thin lines they were usually pressed into. Her eyes became hard and looked guarded. She gently pushed Shizune from her lap, crossing her arms and leaning her body into a slouched position. Shizune could have cursed herself, she knew that Don was a sore subject, especially since the incident with Orochimaru. Every time her late lover or little brother was mentioned, Tsunade became distant and guarded. She knew that this was caused by the fact that those two had been the people she loved most in the world and loosing them had been and still was a tremendous strain on her psyche. It was even worse now that Orochimaru had exploited the people who she loved most even in death. "He wouldn't have wanted this." She found herself mumbling. "He wouldn't have wanted you to block off your emotions at the mere mention of his name, he wouldn't want you to be distant all the time."
"I know that!" Tsunade snapped. How many times had Shizune brought this up instead with her habits of drinking and gambling? It seemed Shizune could never stop her nagging and she was just as bad as Orochimaru when it came to using Don as leverage. She wondered if anyone could leave the man in his grave. "Don had high expectations of everything around him, he was a visionary. He could not see how much of a shit the world around him was! He thought so highly of me and held me to those standards. I am not perfect, as he refused to accept, it was my imperfection that killed him!" The blonde was close to yelling with the level her voice had raised to.
"I was not implying-" Shizune was cut off as she motioned with her hands for the Hokage to be quiet.
"I can't live up to his expectations and you don't have to remind me of my every short coming!" Tsunade continued, lowering her voice as it began to crack. Shizune could see the walls around her greatest weakness were beginning to crumble. "If I was able to live up to his expectations, he would still be here. Shizune, what am I worth if I can't even protect and save those that I love?" Her voice cracked and her eyes had begun to moisten, they burned with unshed tears that she would not let out. Her attendant realized how close she was to falling apart and stood.
She moved behind the woman and kneeled to pull her into a tight embrace. Tsunade's head was pushed against her chest. "Tsunade, calm down. Listen to my heart. It still beats, hear my rhythm and tell me that am I not alive. Am I not important to you? Do you not love me?" The brunette questioned in a soft voice. Tsunade pressed closer to her.
"You're too good for an old drunk like me." The blonde confessed.
"I am not, get a grip on yourself. You're the Hokage." Shizune responded somewhat harshly. Tsunade rested her head on her attendant's shoulder.
"I'd fall apart without you." Tsunade continued relentlessly to heap undeserved compliments on her.
"Now you're just being ridiculous." Shizune stood up, pulling the blond to her feet. "You're drunk."
"I told you I'm an old drunk." Tsunade smiled wryly.
"Just be quiet, I'm putting you to bed before this gets any worse." Shizune ordered, pretty much carrying Tsunade to the Futon mattress she had lay out. The brunette lay her master down and covered her with a blanket before checking the fire and smothering it down to the embers. Next she checked to see if Ino and Sakura were covered. Unsurprisingly both girls had kicked away their blankets so Shizune recovered them before returning to Tsunade's side.
She lay on the mattress next to the blonde. There were only three blankets, all of which were in use so she did not cover herself. Tsunade seemed to notice this and lifted her blanket for her attendant to crawl under. Shizune refused for a minute then realized that her master would not relent and rolled under. She snuggled up to Tsunade's bosom and rested her head there. She listened intently to the beat of the blonde's heart. As she felt herself being lulled to sleep by the rhythmic sound, a thought sprung into her head. Let the world bring all its hardships for she would never give up the feeling that had sprouted in her breast. She felt united and at peace with Tsunade. She could not help thinking that she loved Tsunade in the euphoric, pre-dream moment.