That same night, Santana and Brittany were having a Skype conversation with Rachel. And the whole
experience made Santana feel blessed that Brittany was with her in every sense of the word. She may not be
shouting about it at the top of her lungs for all to hear, but she was able to proudly walk around the halls of
McKinley with her hand tangled with Brittany's. Quinn and Rachel didn't have that, they never had the
chance, she felt sad about it, not that she would ever admit that.
"She seems really sad Rach, like someone kicked her puppy and killed it. She has these circles under her
eyes, and she never smiles anymore, unless she's with Lulu, even then it's not as bright." Brittany tells Rachel.
"The other day, I saw her staring at your seat in history, she looked like she was about to cry. And every time
any of us asks her if she's ok. She'd shrug and continue what she was doing. She refuses to let anyone know
what she feels."
They see Rachel's eyes tear up and watch her cry, Santana vaguely hears a whispered, 'my poor Quinn'.
"I'm sorry Rach, I didn't mean to upset you." uttered a panicking Brittany. "It's just she misses you a lot. We all
do." Rachel just cries harder.
Santana decided to cut in and do some damage control, "B why don't you let me do the crappy stuff, and
you handle the rainbow side of things."
Brittany just tilts her head to the side and says, "I don't understand S."
Rachel Berry and Quinn Fabray's drama momentarily forgotten, Santana couldn't help but smile, "Just make
Rachel smile, I'll tell her what's been happening. ok?" Brittany just nods her head and they both look at the
screen and notices that Rachel was about to answer her ringing phone with an oddly familiar song.
"Quinn?"
"Oh, Hi Lulu!"
"No, I just thought your Momma was calling."
"I'm funny?"
"Did you mean I sound funny? It's just cause I had something spicy and my nose is runny."
"I know sweetie, it is kinda gross."
"So what's up my little Lulu? did you want a bedtime story?"
"Is Momma there?"
"Oh, ok."
"I miss you too, I'll be coming home on your birthday though, and it's in a few months."
Santana marveled at how Rachel could carry a normal conversation with a baby that barely spoke in full
sentences and that they seem to understand each other. Only Rachel Berry.
"Lulu, I can't come home now."
"I miss her a lot too baby. H is sad too."
"I really can't come home yet."
"I love you too Lulu"
"And I love her too very much."
"Lulu, I can't do that right now."
"Oh baby please don't cry...Lulu..."
"I- I can't come home yet."
"Lulu? Lulu?"
They watched a frustrated Rachel, look at her phone, dial a number and frown, "Quinn, You need to talk to
Lulu, she sounded very upset cause I couldn't come home, to you, to both of you. I, I don't know what to do
Quinn. I'm sorry. I- I miss you." the last line whispered reverently. It seemed as if Rachel forget they were
there and called someone else. "Daddy? are you home? could you check on Lulu? She hang up on me. She was
pretty upset and she's not picking up. Is Quinn there? She is? do you think she'd...Oh ok. I miss you guys. Can
you hug her for me? Thank you Daddy. I love you."
Santana feels Brittany get up, and looks at her in question. Brittany gives her a hug and whispers 'I'm gonna
check on Quinn and Lulu' both knowing that Brittany was one of the things that could make Lulu smile if only
for awhile, She turns back to the screen, and sees Rachel holding the Teddy Bear Lulu had given her.
"Rachel, you know that she's only upset cause she's too young to understand what's going on right?" She
doesn't really understand the situation." Santana tries to placate the obviously distressed girl.
Rachel sighs, "It doesn't make it hurt any less, she probably thinks *I* don't love them, that *I* don't want to
come home."
The look of dejection and sadness on Rachel's face made Santana want to be able to hug the girl, 'wow, I've
like totally come a long way' she thought ruefully. "Rachel don't be like that, you should think about the
opportunity you've been given. Just worry about getting your whole body through the door and not just
your foot, not that it's going to be difficult since your teeny." She smiles at the small smile she gets in return,
"I promise B and I will take care of Quinn and Lulu, just do what it is that you left Lima for."
She watches as Rachel sits up a bit straighter and looks at her with intense brown eyes, "You do know that
one of the reasons why I left the way I did was because Quinn didn't want us to be together, spouting
nonsense about being selfish and unworthy. How she got that notion in her head is beyond me." She sees
Rachel grab something beside her monitor, it was a picture frame, which Rachel turned towards the camera.
The picture inside was that of Quinn holding Rachel who had her back against the arm of the sofa with a
sleeping Lulu against her. Quinn was smiling a content smile, look down at her daughter held by the girl she
was holding, and Rachel had her head turned looking at Quinn love shining in her eyes. It took Santana's
breath away. Turning the picture back to her, Rachel runs her fingers on Quinn's face, "Dad took this picture
and gave it to me the night I was leaving, I don't even know how he was able to do that. I remember this day,
It was a Saturday and Lulu was strutting around the house in a tutu all day, and Quinn kept calling her little
Lulu in a tutu. She was so happy, and so content. She helped Dad and Daddy make dinner and I couldn't stop
myself from thinking that we could be just like that with Lulu someday. As we watched a movie, she held me
in her embrace, as Lulu was snuggled against my chest fast asleep, Quinn occasionally ran her hands through
my hair, across my arms, she gently rubbed Lulu's head. And when she thought I was asleep, she'd gently
sporadically kissed my head, my cheek, my shoulder. When we retired to bed, we changed positions. I held
her in my arms, and once she was asleep I knew without a doubt that I was so madly in love with her. That
day is engraved in my memory; I keep it with me always. It was on that day that I knew I wanted to spend the
rest of my life with Quinn, and raise Lulu with her. It was only a matter of time before we reached the
pivotal point wherein we'd have to finally acknowledge our feelings, I had planned for it. The day I was going
to confess was also the day I got that call."
"Rach-" Santana tries to speak, but finds herself unable to, it seemed that Life had a fucked up common
sense.
"It's not that I don't understand why she was wary of starting that kind of relationship with me. I was
completely and absolutely prepared to woo her, and show her that just because we were about to embark
on a romantic relationship it did not mean we had to abandon the friendship we had cultivated. I just, I
wanted more time, I was asking her to let us have more time with each other, to explore whatever this thing
between us was. We already had to think about being apart because we were on our last year of high school
and by taking this opportunity, it meant cutting an already short time together shorter. I wanted to stay and
she wanted me to go. In her mind she believed that she was unworthy of my love, that letting me go and
fulfill my dreams was the best path for me to take. She didn't know that since falling irrevocably in love with
her, my dreams changed, I still want to conquer New York and Broadway, with her and Lulu, and whoever
comes next."
"Wow Berry. I mean just Wow." was all Santana could say.
"I love her Santana, I really really love her. And if it means, sticking out my neck here in lonely New York,
working towards Julliard and Broadway then I will. I will do absolutely everything and anything to make it. But
I need her too, I need her too." Rachel starts crying again, "I need to know that she'll be there, that she
loves me, that we'll be together one day, that she's mine just like I'm hers. Coz if it isn't the case then
whatever I'm doing here will be moot, whatever success I gain is worth nothing."
"Rachel, she just thinks she's doing what's best for you. This is really killing her too." Santana says trying to
defend Quinn Fabray's fucked up sense of logic and sacrifice.
"Case in point, we don't have to be miserable at all. If it were up to me, we'd try, even if I was here and she
was there we could have made it work. But she took away that chance, she never gave me a choice. And
even if I don't agree with how she just decided for the both of us, it is imperative that she be the one to
end this impasse she banished us to. So really, I have no choice in the matter, I love her, she loves me, She
wants me to fulfill my dreams, and for me being with her is part of those dreams, and unless she finally
realizes that I need her just as much as she needs me, we're bound to stay as miserable as we are now."
"You're giving her way too much power in your relationship Rachel." Santana warns the girl, It's not that she's
worried Quinn would take advantage of that power, It's obvious she doesn't even know that she wields that
power over Rachel, she just doesn't want them hurting any more than they already were, after all they were
all friends now.
Rachel just smiles at her, "Contrary to popular belief, the Bottom/Submissive always has the upper hand
Santana, When they say stop the Top/Dominant stops. In most cases anyway, isn't your relationship with
Brittany working along the same lines. You are obviously the dominant one in the relationship, harder,
fiercer, stronger. But at the end of the day, you cave to whatever Brittany says."
Santana just turns red at that, "Ok first off, I love Brittany and I just want her happy, and two, we are not in
any way or form in any kind of BDSM thing going. We have a certain kind of balance between us, a symbiotic
coupling. She's the yang to my yin you know."
"I do, and I hope one day Quinn will understand that she could never ever take advantage of me. What I
offer, what I feel, and what I do, I do so freely without asking anything in return." Santana nods, and tells
herself that she was going to knock some sense into Quinn Fabray, maybe even hit her as long as 1.) Lulu
wasn't anywhere near the vicinity, 2.) Rachel's dads don't see it, and if they do she tells them why she did it,
and 3.) Rachel never finds out.
"Just hang in there Berry, maybe B and I will knock some sense into her, knowing Quinn it might take awhile,
with her having such a hard head and all." they share a laugh, but Santana wasn't done, "She does love you
Rachel, I know that is, cause I see the way she looks at you, and it's the same way B looks at me. Just give
her time ok?"
Rachel just nods her head and waves goodbye, Santana shuts down the computer and waits for Brittany to
call or come over. She must have fallen asleep, and was awoken by Brittany getting in bed beside her. "Go
back to sleep baby, I'll be here in the morning." She faintly feels against her nape.
Santana nods and mumbles a garbled 'love you', and smiles when Brittany whispers 'I love you too'.
-
Brittany was supposed to be with them, but her mom called and asked her to come home, so Santana was
stuck with Quinn in the middle of the park, watching the other girl look at her phone for the past 15
minutes, she counted 40 sighs since they sat down. On the 41st sigh her hand shoots out and grabs said
phone, and Quinn's hand shoots out to grabs her arm.
"Hey! Give it back Lopez!" Quinn mutters angrily
Santana just sneers, "What are you gonna do Fabray, send me away too?"
She sees Quinn deflate in front of her and let go of her arm, and almost wanted to kick herself, almost being
the operative word.
"Can I please have my phone back S." Quinn mumbled.
"As soon as I find out what you keep looking at." was Santana's answer, she looks down on the screen in front
of her and was not surprised to see it was Rachel and Lulu, it was a picture she hadn't seen before. Rachel
was sleeping on her side an arm across a sleeping Lulu who shared the exact same pose holding a teddy bear,
she had never seen Rachel so relaxed before, and for a second time a picture took her breath away. 'damn,
this love thing is really kicking my ass, I've turned into a giant mush ball.' she silently hands the phone back to
Quinn, and just shrugs.
Holding her phone, Quinn just stares at the picture on her screen, "I love this picture of them, they look like
two peas in a pod, they sleep the exact same way." A small sad smile takes residence on Quinn's lips, "I used
to watch them sleep curled around each other, and feel my heart swell. Rachel is so loving towards Lulu, like
she was her own. And Lulu absolutely adores Rachel, she thinks Rachel hung the moon."
"Just like you do?" Santana interjects.
"Not just the moon, but the stars too." was Quinn's whispered reply, "I-" Quinn falters, and wipes and errant
tear away, "I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I miss her so much, I love her so much, but I can't bring
myself to talk to her aside from saying goodnight." Quinn's tears start flowing now, "I feel like such a bad
person, last night Lulu was so upset coz she wanted Rachel to come home coz I missed her, and when Rachel
told her she couldn't, she got mad at her, *Mad* at her H coz she wouldn't come home and make her Momma
happy."
When Quinn starts sobbing Santana stands up and sits beside the other girl, pulling her into an embrace.
"I've made such a big mess out of things S, I keep thinking about Rachel, everywhere I look, everything I do
reminds me that I told Rachel to leave me, leave us. I never told her I love her and sent her away. In my mind
I know I did the right thing, I want her to be happy S, and making her stay here in Lima would only make her
miserable. She deserved the world, and if it meant me sacrificing my happiness then so be it. I just didn't think
it would hurt this much. I just, sometimes I think this is some kind of karmic retribution going on for every
wrong thing I've done you know? I mean just when I finally realize that I was in love with Rachel, just when I
realize that I was loved and that I started feeling safe again, that I felt like I belonged, I had someone who
forgave me for my transgressions and shortcomings, who accepted me even if I didn't deserve it, not even in
a million years but she did..." she takes a deep breath, "then- then I had to choose between loving her, and
*loving* her."
Santana was at her wits end, and steeled herself to knock some sense into her friend, "Q, do you really hate
yourself so much that you don't want to be happy? You really didn't have to choose at all you know?"
Quinn turned to her gaping, unable to make any sound.
"No seriously," Santana prodded, "It's like all you ever think is woe me, my life sucks, I made mistakes but
Rachel deserves to be happy, She deserves New York. She deserves better than me. Seriously?" She shouts
the last word so loud that almost everyone around them turned and looked. Quinn just kept looking at her.
"Look Quinn, I love you, you're my bestest friend aside from B, but this, this morbid need to punish yourself is
absurd. She loves you Q, she loves you with all her heart. She loves your daughter, her whole family loves
both of you, hell you're fucking part of the family. Even before Rachel left, you both had changed we all
knew and saw it, and while she was wearing her heart on her argyle, you kept yours hidden under a
cardigan." Santana takes a deep breath waiting for Quinn to interrupt, and when she doesn't she continues,
"Look, I get it you're afraid. After everything that happened the Berry Daddies became your pillars, and
Rachel your North Star, your guiding light. They became your family even if you just really realized it
recently, I get that you think that this whole thing might be taken away from you, but you need to
understand you're doing a fine job of letting it slip away all on your own, and I'm not talking about the Berry
Daddies, I'm talking about Rachel and how you told her you could only be just friends even it was so blatantly
obvious both of you wanted more, you were both so head over heels puppy dog in love with each other."
Quinn sniffles, "If I had told her that I love her, If I said that we should be together, and it didn't work, I don't
know how I would have coped." Wiping at her tears, "If I had asked her to stay she might never have left, and
I couldn't do that to her, not after everything she's done for me."
Santana just rolled her eyes and flicked Quinn's head, she hears and indignant 'Hey' and just ignores it,
"Sometimes I wonder why is it that for someone so smart, you are just absolutely dumb when it comes to
things like this." Quinn glares at her and she glares back. "Really Quinn, whatever happened to the fearless
queen that I knew?"
"She got drunk and slept with her then boyfriends bestfriend, got pregnant and got dethroned." was Quinn's
reply.
A sigh escaped the latina, "So that's it, you're just giving her up? you won't even let her try, you won't even
fight for her? you won't even take that chance huh?" when the blonde doesn't answer, "You are so pathetic
it's depressing." she stands up, "You're right. You don't deserve Rachel. You're just another Lima Loser and
she's absolutely better of without you and I hope she finds someone who will love her more than you ever
could."
Before she knew it Santana's cheek stung, and in front of her was an angry looking Quinn Fabray, the same
Quinn Fabray that used to walk down the halls of McKinley in a cheerio's uniform. Santana lifts up a hand to
rub her cheek, 'that hurt' she thinks, She watches Quinn watch her, and then look at her hand that had
slapped Santana. She once again deflates to the shell she became after Rachel left.
Quinn's lips quiver, then her whole body shudders as she cries. "Oh god, Santana I'm sorry!" she exclaims
before dropping to her knees.
Santana just follows suit and gathers the crying girl in her arms, "At least that got a reaction out of you." she
lamely jokes, helping Quinn back up on the bench where they were sitting. "Quinn, I can't tell you what to
do ok? all I know is that every time We talk to Rachel, all she talks about is you. Last night was the first time I
saw Rachel cry that hard, it was also the first time I heard her basically say that she wants a life with you,
not just a relationship, she vaguely mentioned babies Quinn, BABIES! and not just Lulu! And all she wants is a
chance ok? She knows you think that Broadway is her dream." She lifts her friends face up so they were face
to face and looking at each other. "What you don't know is that all of those dreams will mean absolutely
nothing without you." Wiping Quinn's tears away, " She loves you Quinn, just like you love her. So you better
get your act together. You may not believe it, but Rachel Berry loves you with all that she is and wants
nothing else but a chance to show you. And I'm pretty sure she loves for keeps. So even if you think you
don't deserve it, everyone else knows you do. Stop running away from her Quinn, stop pushing her away. You
deserve to be happy Quinn, just like the rest of us."
"I just don't want to lose her, what if it doesn't work out? I don't think I can take that, I don't think my heart
will ever recover from that kind of blow. What if love isn't enough?" Quinn asks.
"Look if you guys were able to live together without killing each other while you despised each other, I'm
pretty sure you can overcome everything else. You won't lose her if you work on it, what you're doing now is
definitely doing that job for you. Nothing is perfect Quinn, you're going to have to work on it, and you
pretty much have to make it up to her." was Santana's answer.
"I never really hated her you know." Quinn mutters somewhat off topic.
Santana just laughs, "Oh I knew that Fabray, B and I used to talk about it all the time, even when we were
just kids, my first clue was how you couldn't not pick on Rachel, it was kinda kindergardenish even when we
started high school."
"What do you mean?" Quinn asks with furrowed brows.
Santana laughs harder, "You know when a little boy likes a little girl, he punches her, pulls her hair, tells her
she has cooties all coz he likes her."
Quinn stares at her blankly and then mutter an "Oh."
"Look, I won't hit you for hitting me." Santana starts and almost laughs when Quinn shirks away, "B, Rachel
and the Berry Daddies will prolly have my hide, and I don't want Lulu to glare at me every time I see her, I
kinda like being the squirts bad-ass Santy" she grabs Quinn's hand and holds it, "We all just want both of you
to be happy, stop playing stupid and open your eyes."
They hear a bubbly voice from a distance, "You guys!" and both watch as Brittany skips towards them.
"The moment you get your head outta your ass, is the moment you get to have what B and I have. Take that
leap and go get your girl, ok Fabray?" was the last thing Santana says before she stands to welcome her girl
with open arms.
Brittany just squeals in delight as Santana lifts her off of her feet, and once back on the ground, she walks
dragging a smiling Santana over to Quinn, who she proceeds to hug. "What did I miss?" she asks.
Santana just raises her eyebrows at Quinn waiting for her to say something. "S just made me realize some
things B."
Brittany looks at her girlfriend and smiles, "Yeah?" she asks, not waiting for a reply she gives Santana a kiss.
"Well, I hope you stop being stupid and stop making Rachel so miserable. It's sad, she's sad, I've never seen
her this Un-Rachel like and I don't like it, it makes me really feel bad, and she's too far away that I can't give
her a hug. Make her stop hurting ok? coz if you don't I might just start hating you or maybe sick my Santana
on you."
Quinn was surprised at this, Santana could so kick her ass without even trying, "I-, I'll try B."
With narrowed eyes, Brittany stares at Quinn for quite some time. Quinn was starting to worry, but was able
to release the breath she was holding when the other girl gives her a bright smile and says, "OK."
All of a sudden the rain comes pouring in, and all three girls make a mad dash for some for Santana's car.
They were all soaked but Quinn didn't seem to notice, so lost in her thoughts, she didn't notice Santana
stopping in front of her house.
"Hey Quinn, this is your stop." mutters Santana.
Quinn turns her head and sees a mirage of Rachel waving at her with an umbrella, her heart clenches and
she wishes it were true. "Yeah, ok. Thanks guys." She unbuckles her seatbelt and was about to open the
door when she hears Brittany say her name.
"Quinn." she begins, "I know that I'm not so smart, but I just want you to know that Rachel is the best thing
that ever happened in your life aside from Lulu. And letting that go, not doing anything about it is going to
be the stupidest thing ever or whatever you know."
Not knowing how to react, Quinn just nods her head not really paying attention as Santana tells her
goodbye, She just gets out of the car. Instead of coming in, she starts walking with no clear destination in
her mind, she finds herself in front of her old parish. She enters, and walks to one pew, gets down on her
knees and prays, asking for guidance, asking for forgiveness, for help. She cries silent tears and so lost in her
despair she never notices the parish priest approach her. Once he sits down beside her and asks her what
was wrong, she was apprehensive to say anything, she really didn't think telling a priest that she was in love
with a girl was the best course of action. But she was surprised when he didn't even bat an eyelash, he just
told her that God doesn't give us troubles we can't overcome, and that she was a true testament to that,
and if she really did love this girl with that breathless smile and a voice as beautiful as a sunrise, then she
should go for it. He also said that sometimes we meet people that changes our lives in the most extraordinary
way, that there are people that make us happy beyond the meaning of the word happy and all you really
need to do is hold on. She thanks him, and as she was leaving he gives her a hug even if she was wet with
rain and tells her that she can come back anytime with her little girl in tow and that if the way her eyes light
up at the mere mention of her Rachel's name was any indication, she should play for keeps. All Quinn could
do was blush mumble a thank you.
The rain was slowing down, and she makes her way back home. Once inside she hastily makes her way to
their room, to the bathroom strips and takes a shower. Once done and fully clothed she lies in bed, and
thinks of Rachel.
She grabs and holds Rachel's pillow closer to her body, and takes a deep lungful of air. It still smells like her.
And for a moment it doesn't hurt as much.
She still doesn't know what to do. All she knows is that she loves Rachel and she misses her. She never
thought that Rachel would be miserable without her in New York. And finally realizing she might have been
wrong about some things made her feel like a world class bitch. The conversation she had with the priest
also made her feel lighter somehow.
Unable to stop herself from thinking of Rachel, and of all those moments when her heart swelled with so
much love for the other girl she thought it would burst. She abruptly gets out of bed, and goes to the living
room, rummaging around for a bit, she finds what she was looking for, a home made movie that was a few
months old, she can't remember why she was filming that day, but she was very thankful that she had this
moment on film.
She pops it in, and watches as the camera was trained on Rachel and Lulu sitting face to face. Rachel was
teaching Lulu the hand gestures for 'twinkle twinkle, little star' and Lulu had such a cute concentrated look
on her face that Quinn couldn't help but smile. She could hear Rachel softly sing.
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky!
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are.
She knew there were other parts of the song, but Rachel seemed to just stick to one stanza, leave it to her
to focus on the stars part. Rachel was opening and closing her hands, and Lulu was trying her best to mimic
it. She watched a smile blossom on Rachel's face as Lulu beamed at her when she was able to do it just like
Rachel did.
The video gets a bit shaky and changed angles then a few seconds later the video version of Quinn shows up
and sits herself in between her daughter and Rachel. Lulu looks at her beaming and exclaims, "Momma look."
she closes and opens her hands then frowns since Rachel wasn't singing along. "H gen!" she demands. Both
teenagers just look at Lulu with wide eyes, Lulu looked perplexed and tried again, "H gen peas." she says.
Quinn looks at Rachel then, who looks as if she's about to cry while smiling the biggest grin she's ever seen
on the Diva's face. She turns to her daughter and asks, "What did you say baby?" She sees her daughter pout.
"H gen peas." she says as enunciating each word as if it was giving a speech.
"H?" questions Quinn, Lulu just nods her head and looks at Rachel. "Do you mean Rach?" she asks again. Lulu
nods one more time. And once again says. "H gen peas!" louder this time as if Rachel didn't hear her the first
time.
She swoops her daughter in a hug, unable to stop herself, she glances to her right and sees Rachel openly
crying and smiling. Lulu squirms away from her arms when she hears sniffling. And once Lulu's eyes land on
Rachel, she unsteadily gets on her feet and toddingly walks over to Rachel, who immediately holds onto the
baby's waist. "H sad?" she asks.
Rachel just shakes her head, rubs her face on her shoulder and smiles. "I'm ok baby, want me to sing again
then you can show Momma how to do twinkle twinkle?" Lulu gives Rachel a sloppy kiss then nods her head
enthusiastically and plops down on her lap. Rachel just laughs and asks, "Don't you want Momma to see what
your doing baby?"
Lulu turns her head around and looks at Quinn, "Ohhh.", and she shakingly stands up and turns with the help
of Rachel. As Rachel starts singing Lulu beams at her Momma while doing the actions to the song. They do
the song a couple of times until Lulu lost interest and started playing with her toys.
Quinn pressed pause and looks at video Rachel who was watching Lulu, she remembers this day so vividly in
her mind. She knows how her heart skipped a beat the moment Rachel finally turns around and throws her
arms around Quinn. It was the first time Lulu said her nick name, granted it was an even shorter version.
Quinn remembers the love she saw on Rache's eyes as she kept on looking at Lulu, and she remembers how
those eyes would light up every time Lulu called on her "H". She remembers the proud look on Rachel's face
when Lulu wobbled to where she sat and made her sing twinkle, twinkle so that the little girl could show
Rachel's dad what she could do. Once Lulu started calling Rachel "H", it was a race to what Lulu would say
first, if it was "Grandpa" or "Zayde", Bit (which was actually Brittany) won.
That was the night that finally made her realize she was absolutely in love with Rachel. And staring at the
frozen screen before her, she knew exactly what she had to do, she was going to get her girl, she was taking
that leap of faith. She never noticed the digital clock on the radio change from 06:29 to 06:30.
She's startled from her thoughts by the ringing phone and hurriedly stands to answer it.
"Rachel-" Quinn starts, she knows her voice was quivering, she knows that she is now openly crying but she
didn't care. She hears a sharp intake of breath, and also hears its slow release, time slowed down, It seemed
like minutes or maybe even hours had gone by.
"Quinn?" asks Rachel as if she thought she imagining things.
"I mi-, I miss you so much Rachel." mumbles Quinn, trying to stop her tears. "So so much."
"I-, I miss you too." was Rachel's shaky reply.
Quinn's heart ached, and her voice gets caught in her throat. She missed her so much. She couldn't speak.
Rachel's panicked voice comes through the line clear and crisp, "Quinn are you still there?"
Quinn finds her voice, her courage and her conviction. She loved Rachel Berry, and starting this moment, it
was enough. "I love you Rachel, I'm so in love with you."
"And I am so ridiculously in love with you." was Rachel's whispered reply.
"Can we try Rach? Is it too late?" Quinn asks almost afraid of the answer.
She hears Rachel laugh through her tears, "I believe it's just about time. I love you Quinn Fabray even if it
took you long enough to get on board with me on this."
She clutches the phone to her, and laughs a real laugh in a very long time. "I know, Santana told me I was
kinda dumb for someone so smart.", her heart was lighter, her world brighter. She loved Rachel and Rachel
loved her, they loved each other. Finally, she lets herself really believe it.
Rachel makes and uh-hm sound, "I whole heartedly agree, I am pleased that Santana was able to talk some
sense into you. I still don't understand how you got all of those silly notions in your head." Rachel pauses
then in a gentle voice says, "You're it for me Quinn Fabray. I want you to know that I am never letting you
run away from me ever again."
"Why would I run? You're it for me too." She whispers believing it was true. What they had was real, and
nothing was going to stand in their way.
"Good." states Rachel.
They lapse into a comfortable silence, only their breathing could be heard over the phone. Both knew that
they were in for a bumpy road, but they had each other, and "their" Dads, they had Lulu and they had their
friends.
Quinn sighs happily, "I love you Rachel." she says.
"And I you my love." was Rachel's reply.
Both of them knew that it may only be the beginning and with their shared history it was bound to be a
bumpy ride. They still had a lot of things to talk about and and a lot of things to think about, but they loved
each other and they were finally 'together', those were the most important parts.