Fri 7th May 2010
3pm- Nothing to do all day. Before lunch fantasised about being part of CSI murder case, discovering vital clue, solving whole mystery, and getting far more involved in case than any real pathologist would. Want CSI to be real (though don't want to be one of victims or friend/family of victim, or friend/family of murderer) Realise CSI fantasy world not all it's cracked up to be. Lunch v. boring, Harry had to finish up on some case from earlier in week.
5pm- Hoorah. Finished.
5:02pm- Forgot about dinner with Harry's mum. All happiness gone, replaced by fear and anxiety.
5:09pm- Told Harry I had headache, didn't seem very sympathetic.
"You've been dodging it for 2 months, Niks," V. offended he didn't believe me, although v. impressed I have boyfriend who knows me so well he can tell when I lie. V. good sign. "I don't even see what the problem is," Said quick goodbye to Leo before continuing conversation outside. "You've met her before,"
"But not as your girlfriend," I had made this point before; he continued to not understand it, v. frustrating.
"My mother has been trying to get me to make you my girlfriend," Didn't appreciate him impersonating me. "Since she met you," Let impersonating incident slide, he did the stroking cheek with thumb thing, v. distracting.
"Liar,"
"I actually think over the past few years the thing she's hated most is any sentence involving the words Nikki and boyfriend."
6:30pm- Let ourselves in, Mrs C looked v. busy in kitchen, gave us both quick hug before returning to stew like substance. Surprised, was expecting Spanish inquisition.
8pm- Harry went to toilet and Mrs C said amazing thing.
"You know Nikki," Stopped eating delicious veg stew so could give full attention. "You don't need to worry about pleasing me," Took big gulp, expecting 'You're never going to be good enough, no matter what you do' to follow. "I think I loved you even before Harry knew he did," Mother's approval, hoorah. Boyfriend telling mother he loves me, double hoorah. Couldn't resist smiling like crazed lunatic.