It has been almost 2 years since the very night Bella agreed to marry me. Unfortunately for us, the saying "life's a bitch, and then you die" became our reality. My family's' military background is well known among the south. It can be traced back on paper all the way to the French and Indian war, and I'm more than sure it goes further back than that. The Whitlock men were born to serve and protect, and I'd do anything to protect my Bella. Our families had been hit hard financially since the war started. I had joined the army as soon as I could, of course no one knew that I was only 17, I lied to join the southern army. I didn't do it to keep slavery like many of my men did. I did it to protect my Bella, and our family. Even the thought of our town being raided by the enemy made my stomach turn. During times of war, remaining a gentleman and keeping the monster at bay is not something many of us can do. Hell I've even shot a few of my men after catching them rape or beat women and young girls. The murder of any civilian by one of my men is un-expectable, and any of my men stupid enough to even try, have suffered long, excruciating punishments, and only live as long as there body could withstand my torture methods.

I remember the first time I had to see the outer shell of a woman and her daughter after ten of my fellow soldiers raped and beat them as her husband and her father watched, I snapped at the sight of it, and shot the men that were currently sheathed inside of them; But God damnit, I was far too late, the father had died watching his wife and daughter being disgraced. Not even a minute after his daughter grabbed the dead soldiers' pistol, and shot herself in the head. I had to restrain the mother before she could do the same. Only to find out a few hours later she had cut her own throat with a piece of broken glass.

I made it to my superior and let him know the names of every soldier involved. I had thought they'd be punished, I was wrong. They were transferred out to different units. My superiors words to me were "What they did was despicable, but this is a time of war, they were the enemy, and the time now is crucial, the south need more men, not dead soldiers." I was disgusted and vowed to have my own unit within 6 months…needless to say, I did my family name proud and was made major in just less than 5 months.

I was raised for the life of a soldier, and as Bella's future husband, I had a responsibility to protect her. My Bella had the purest of all souls. She was honest, trustworthy, and her kindness and generosity toward people was truly remarkable. Then again, her kindness towards all people (and all races) made her a target for malicious rumors, and to one group of people, she was and ideal person to be made an example of. If I had known that the qualities she was loved for by so many, would be the same qualities that she would be killed for, then I would have never of left her to fight this war…

When Bella was three years old, she had wondered off from her nana, and ended up walking olong the river bank. Bella was always clumsy, but that day her inability to walk and not fall was the reason for her premature death.

She had slipped in to the fiver and was dragged under by the current. That as the day she befriended a young Indian boy, his name was Ephraim Black. He was only 6 at the time, but he jumped into the river and pulled her out. He then carried her all the way to the reservation where his mother, the quilette tribes medicine woman and wife of their chief, saved her life. They knew who she was, and had her father notified of his daughters whereabouts. Bella had remained friends with the boy ever since, and her fathers gratitude towards the Black family was far to great to interfere. Bella reffered to Ephraim as, My Ephraim, and her best friend. As time went by and we all got older, they had began to spend less, and less time together, he had responsibilities to his people as next in line to be chief, and he knew that their friendship was dangerous for her. I hated that he was right, but I knew that their friendship disgusted and pissed a lot of people off.

That's why she's gone now. She was riding her wagon from town and saw a mob of men attacking Ephraim, Bella shot off her gun, and threatened them. She saved Ephraim that day, and disappeared 2 days later. That happened a year and a half ago.

A year and a half ago, my Bella's father was found murdered and my Bella was never found and believed to be dead. They had chalked it up as a casualty of war, but I knew different. Her friendship with the local natives from the reservation was deeply frowned upon by many of the town folk. I try not to think of the fact that her body was never found as I fight my way through the masses of men fighting during a battle. Then again, it's always in vain, for my love, my heart, my soul, MY Bella was with child at the time, she was caring our child when she "disappeared" and knowing that the day I received news of our miracle was the same day it was taken away from me, turned me into the blood thirsty monster I am today. My reason to live was ripped out of this world, and now nothing else matters to me but the sweet cry of victory from my men.

Not that it matters if I make it through the war alive, because as soon as this is over, whether we win or not, I will forfeit my life. I will not let death keep me from her.

I often write in my journal, and have decided that I will write a letter to my Bella:

Bella,

My darlin' Bella, not a day goes by that I don't think of you and what should have been. Our last night before my deployment was a blessing and curse. It was the first time we made love, but it was also the last time I felt complete. It was beautiful, you were beautiful. I remember the feeling I had as we explored each other. As I entered you, I swear I felt a shock go throughout my body. I never felt more at peace or more complete then I did in that one moment. We were meant to be Bella, and my soul will search Heaven, Hell, or every lifetime until I find you my angel. I will find you and then I will never let you go again.

It's my fault your gone, I should have been there to protect you and our baby. I thought I was doing right by fighting in the war. I thought this would protect you. Why couldn't I see that the biggest threat to you were the sons of bitches that saw you as a traitor…I love you Bella, more than words can describe, I love you.

Forever yours,

Your Jasper

Me and my men have just evacuated the last of the towns people away from the approaching battle, they were coming, and I'm more than sure that this will be my last battle. They have more men, and we are being pushed back. I take one more look to make sure all civilians have been removed, and that's when I spotted them.

I'm standing on the road, staring at three of the most terrifyingly beautiful woman I had ever seen. I couldn't help myself, and when she approached me, it was as if I was being hypnotized. I finally registered the words coming out of this woman's mouth.

"He has potential…" she said

"My name is Maria…what is yours?"

"Major Jasper Whitlock ma'am…the town is being evacuated, you must leave before the blue coats arrive."

She laughs at my reply and that's when I notice her blood red eyes…Fuck me! She's a demon…shit. Fuck, fuck, fuck…the devil is a fuckin woman...

"What the He-…"

She cut me off as she came at me, biting my neck…

I'm going to die.

Finally, it's over, it's finally over.

I'm going to die, and then I'll be with my Bella…finally I'.

Then the next words she said destroyed me as I realized she was not the devil, and now I know exactly what kind of demon she is…vampire.

"You will make a great leader for my army major, you'll be my major forever. You will never die, you'll never sleep, and as the leader and my second in command, you will have your fill of as much human blood that you can finish, that is if you're a good major and train my army well."

"NO! NOOOO!" I screamed

"Yes, immortality will suit you well. Don't worry mi amour, you will not remember anything from your human life, and I can tell you will make an excellent vampire." She purred.

"BELLLAAAAAA!!AHHHHHHHHHH!! I screamed as I felt a fire blaze throughout my body. Time meant nothing to me; I only knew that this pain was unending. My thoughts were in shambles, all thoughts stopped as the pain increased, my heartbeats were so fast I could not hear the thump of an individual heartbeat. It became more of a thrum…and then…shit.

Then my heart stopped.