Disclaimer: I do not own viewfinder, Yamane-sensei does.
Warnings: Angst.
Pairings: Asami/Akihito, Akihito/OC
Chapters: 5/
Summary: Akihito's past coming knocking. What will Akihito do when his first love comes back into his life?
Notes: Thanks for all the comments/reviews for this story. I hope you enjoy this chapter and please tell me what you think.
Chapter Five:
Asami stood up, rage building inside of him. Those hazel eyes showed guilt and he knew his boy was lying. He walked toward his lover who stared straight into his eyes, not moving an inch. Yes, Akihito would always fight back. Sadly, Akihito wasn't fighting; he was hiding his true feelings. He never knew his boy to do that and he would never let the other hide that self of him.
Akihito blushed as he saw the older man's entire body; a body that drove a fierce fire in him that shouldn't be there. He stared into golden eyes that were making him drown. He wanted to fight back. He wanted to be free. Lips sealed him, dominating him. He returned the kiss like it was his life line when he didn't want that. He pulled back and lied, "My friends will be at my apartment soon."
"You should tell them the truth of who you really are seeing." Asami remarked coldly. He already showed his friends who Akihito belonged to. He wanted to see what his boy would do next.
Akihito hissed, "Yeah, that would be a great topic. Oh by the way, I am having sex with a yakuza. That would go well with them." He looked down and took off his pants again. He walked to the bathroom. He wasn't going to go home smelling like sex with Maya coming over. He glanced back to see Asami glaring at him. He narrowed his eyes and snapped, "Do not think you will rule my life. The last thing I need is my friends worrying about me." He walked into the bathroom, ignoring the warning in those golden eyes. He turned on the water and stepped inside. His back was sore but not as sore as it would be if Asami was rougher with him. He leaned his head against the cold tile. He didn't know what he was going to do. Asami showed him a different side and it was making him more confused. He always wanted control or at least he thought so. He was a man, not a woman. He closed his eyes and sighed, "What are you doing to me, Asami?"
Asami went back to the bed and laid there. He lit up a cigarette, glaring at the bathroom door. He knew his lover was going to see that girl. He looked down at Akihito's phone he picked up, looking at the number. He could end it all here and now but he knew it would do him no good. He had patience. That was how he got where he was now. It was so hard to wait now though. He set the phone on the night stand and blew grey smoke out. Akihito was hiding what he truly was feeling and it wasn't like his boy to do that.
In the bathroom, Akihito stayed under the water, trying to block out what happened last night, but he couldn't. It was different than what he received from the older man. To his horror, he didn't like what happened last night as much as he did when Asami took him rough. He turned off the water and wrapped a towel around his waist. He walked out of the bathroom to see Asami lying in bed in all his glory smoking a cigarette. He looked over the nude body to see every muscle.
"Like what you see?" Asami teased as he smirked at his young lover. Akihito blushed and turned around, drying himself off. He narrowed his eyes at the photographer. He stood up and pulled the other body against his strong one. He whispered into Akihito's ear, "You only belong to me."
"I do not belong to no one." Akihito fought back. He turned around and stared into those cold emotionless eyes. He wanted out and free. Would he ever be free again? He pulled away from the toned body, dressing back in his suit. He would have make up a lie to explain why he was wearing a suit.
"I will have Suoh drive you back." Asami replied, suppressing his anger. He didn't know how long he could keep this act up. He wanted to threaten his boy to make the other submit.
Akihito started to panic. He couldn't let Suoh drive him or else Maya would be caught. He spoke loudly, "No! I can walk!" He dressed quickly and ran out of the bedroom and out of the penthouse. He couldn't let Asami find out about Maya. It would end her dreams or worse her life. He ran past the guards before they could stop him. He didn't want harm to befall on Maya. She was innocent in this. She had no idea what kind of trouble he got himself caught into. She would never know like everyone else.
Inside, Asami tossed Akihito's phone up and grabbed it before it hit the floor. He smirked as he realized his boy was naive. He already held all the cards but he won't do anything. Akihito will see him and never look else where soon enough. Akihito will soon realize that he was in love with him.
Akihito ran to the store close by his apartment. He looked down at his suit and wondered what kind of lie he could say to Maya to stop her from asking too many questions. He slowed down and sighed. He looked up at the sky. Why was everything going into circles? Maya and him were together and were happy. They never lied to each other. Now, he was lying to her and everyone around him to keep what he had with the yakuza a secret. What was wrong with him? He stopped in the store and picked up some food to hold him over for a day or two. He started to walk to his apartment. Asami was different last night and it made his head spin. Asami was always like an animal when they had sex. He had to admit Asami always made sure he gained pleasure every time. He had to admit during sex Asami wasn't selfish. He walked around the corner, running right into Kou and Takato. He stared at his friends. They were looking him over. He lied, "I had to work at a nice club and had to wear a suit."
"And you just got off of your work?" Takato asked, tired of being lied to.
Kou touched Takato shoulder to stop him doing something he would regret. He stared into hazel eyes and spoke, "We saw you last night in front of your apartment. We saw the guy with you."
Akihito dropped his bag of food on the ground. He didn't care if anything broke. His friends knew the secret he was trying to hide. He didn't want anyone to know. Takato and Kou gave him a look of concern and it hurt. He didn't want their pity. He was a strong person and can stand on his own. He hissed, "Mind your own business."
"Mind our business! Fuck, Aki! You say you can't walk out of the relationship! It was the guy from New Year's! Everyone there sensed danger from him! Tell us what the hell is going on, so we can help!" Takato yelled, not caring if others were stopping and staring at them like they lost their minds. He was tired of being lied to by his friend who was always opened to them.
"That is the point, you can't help! This is my problem not yours! Leave what you don't understand alone before you get hurt! You know nothing about Asami and what he can do!" Akihito screamed back. He was losing all control over his emotions. It was too much for him. He had a great relationship before he ran into Asami. Now, he was trapped by the yakuza and he couldn't figure a way to escape. Then Maya returned and it was horrible to lie to her, to see pain in her eyes. He wanted her to be happy. He wanted to be with her, right? She was his first love and he still held feelings for her, right? She made his world complete but didn't make it interesting. He shook his head and mumbled, "Stay out of it. Please. Just stay out of it. I will figure a way to end this."
Kou responded as he touched Akihito's shoulder, "Aki, we are friends, have been friends since we were children. We want to help you. We want to be there for you like you have always been there for us. Remember the trouble that we would get caught into and you always found a way to help. We want to return the favor." He glanced to see Takato lighting up a cigarette and nodding his head.
Pulling away from the comfort, Akihito stared at his friends and knew the danger they could be in if they tried to help him. He snapped, "Mind your own business and stop butting into mine." He picked up the bag and walked past his friends without turning around.
Takato yelled at his friend, "He knew we were watching! He saw us!"
Akihito stopped and glared at nothing. How dare Asami do this to him? That was the reason he couldn't let the man in or him falling for the older man. He would lose everything if he did let their weird relationship mean more. Then what did last night mean? He shook his head and continued to make his way back to his apartment. His mind was in turmoil and he couldn't think straight. He wanted to curl up and cry out his heart. Why did everything have to be a mess? Why did he continue to go back to the yakuza? He always ran to that man when trouble followed him. He walked up the stairs to see Maya leaning against the wall by his door. She was wearing a black dress, going all the way down her tan long legs. Her eyes were showing so much guilt and sadness. He wanted to take the pain away but he didn't know how. He walked to her and she flung herself at him. He dropped the bag again and wrapped his arms around her small frame. He remembered feeling safe in Asami's arms.
Maya felt safe and whole but she knew it wasn't right. She pulled back, giving a sad smile. She ran her hand across Akihito's cheek. She stared into hazel eyes that made her lose her mind. She whispered, "You were with her last night, not work."
Akihito wanted to say he wasn't but he kept his mouth shut. He couldn't lie to Maya. She was so sweet and innocent. He no longer had that in him. He saw things and did things that were not innocent. He sighed sadly, "It isn't what you think." Last night came to his mind. The dinner, the dance, and the way Asami had sex with him. It confused him and made his head a mess.
Maya whispered afraid to talk any higher, "It isn't fair to her or me. You can't have both Aki."
"I don't want her." Akihito mumbled. Lying about the part it was a guy he was with. He didn't want the yakuza, right? Maya leaned against his body and he wrapped his arms around her once more, but his thoughts were on someone else who had the fiercest eyes. He felt relaxed and safe the morning. To finally admit, he always felt safe with Asami. He didn't understand why. Asami was dangerous and a killer for a living.
Maya pulled back from the place that made her feel safe. Akihito leaned forward, ready to kiss her but she covered his mouth with her hand. She stared into confused hazel eyes. Shaking her head, she spoke, "I never knew you the type to lie to others alone lie to himself. She means more than a good time or sex. She has a place in your heart. It isn't fair to her for me being around." She felt tears run down her face as she said those words. She wanted Akihito more than anything but she had no right to be with him, not after what she did in the past. She stopped calling him and made sure not to answer his calls.
Asami walked up the stairs and saw nothing but red. Akihito was too close to that girl that it was driving anger inside him. He spoke, "Takaba." Akihito span around so fast he almost fell over his own feet. Blue eyes glanced at him and widened. He walked toward them.
Maya spoke first, "Asami-san. What are you doing here?" She was confused. She looked at Akihito, seeing his face drained of all color. She wondered what was wrong. She touched his arm and whispered in a worried voice, "Aki."
Akihito stood there, frozen. Asami knew Maya. How was that possible? Did Asami know already? How would he? He cursed himself. Of course, Asami would have someone follow him. He was doomed and so was Maya. He stepped in front of Maya. He had to protect her from the yakuza. She didn't do anything wrong. He opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out.
Maya questioned, "How do you know each other? Oh wait, since you were at my shoot, maybe you met Aki through models."
Asami kept his eyes train on hazel ones. He pulled out a cell phone and spoke to end all dreams Maya had about being with his photographer, "You left your phone at my place, Akihito."
Maya dropped her hand from Akihito's arm. She stared into golden eyes that read nothing. She glanced to Akihito and muttered, "You aren't seeing a woman but a man." Her heart was breaking. She raised her hand and slapped Akihito. Hazel eyes stared at her but made no move to stop her from hitting him in the chest. She didn't know why she was upset. She was made a fool. All this time she thought Akihito had a woman. Did it really matter? He was taken and could never be hers again. She sobbed, "Why did you lie? Why couldn't you be truthful? You never lied before." That was why she was upset. He was lying to her. He never did that before. She felt her body pull away from Akihito and realized it was by Asami. She pulled away from him and stared at him. His eyes were narrowed.
"Maya." Akihito spoke for the first time and he raised an arm toward her.
Asami growled, "You want her. You want something that you will never gain."
Akihito turned to look at the yakuza and chuckled brokenly, "You knew all this time. You were playing with me. Everything last night was a lie."
Asami stared stunned at his lover. Yes, he knew the whole time but last night was special. He was trying his best to show his lover what was between them. His eyes narrowed as he spoke, "You really believe that. Then you truly are a fool. You really think I would do all that for some throw away lover."
Maya looked between the two men. She walked to Akihito who was showing so much confusion. She sighed, "Aki, stop lying to yourself. It isn't you." She moved forward and kissed Akihito. He didn't return the kiss and her heart was breaking even more. She stepped away and mumbled, "You don't love me." She turned on her heel and left the two men there.
Akihito shook where he stood. He didn't return the kiss because the yakuza was standing there, right? He saw golden eyes narrowed. He pushed against the toned chest as he screamed, "BASTARD! YOU FUCK UP MY LIFE! I LOST EVERYTHING BECAUSE OF YOU!"
"But you still have me." Asami replied.
Akihito fell to his knees. His life was over and there was nothing there. He lost his friends and he lost the one girl who meant something in his life. He felt strong arms wrap around him and he cried. He cried like he never did before. He sobbed, "Why? Why me? Why can't I have my life? Why damn it? I want to be free. I want to be me again." Strangely, he felt warm and safe.
Asami stared down at the mess. He felt guilt like he never did before. He made his lover cry like this. He lifted Akihito's head and stared into watery hazel eyes. He spoke, "But you always were yourself. I never changed that. You chose to lie to everyone around you. You chose to lie to yourself." He stood up, bringing his lover with him. He wiped at the tears and whispered, "Maybe it is time you admit the truth to yourself." He kissed those lips tasting the salty tears. He pulled back and sighed. He spoke, "I'll give you time but not forever." He pulled away and walked away. He walked down the steps to see Maya standing there, staring at him. He spoke to her, "I told you I'm pushy when I want something."
"So you hurt me to gain what you wanted." Maya made a statement. She asked, "How can you be that cold?"
"Because my dear foolish girl, I live in darkness." Asami replied as he walked to his limo.
Maya grabbed the man's arm and asked, "What do you mean?" Golden eyes stared at her for a moment but the man didn't say anything. He pulled his arm away from her and slid into the limo. When it drove away, she glanced up and sighed. She didn't know what to do. She walked down the street, trying to hide her pain. She had to be at a shoot and show a happy smile while her heart was breaking.
In front of his apartment, Akihito leaned against the locked door. His head was a mess and he didn't know how to fix it. Asami told him he could have time but not forever. Asami also told him that he was lying to himself. He let the tears fall down his face. He stood up, unlocked his door, grabbing his bag of food and walked inside. Once the door was shut, he slid to the floor, hiding his face in his knees. He didn't know anything anymore. Asami said it meant something last night but could he believe the yakuza? After all, Asami knew about Maya. He wiped at his tears, upset that he broke down in front of the older man. He wasn't weak. He always was strong. He had to be while he grew up. But it was nice to relax and know someone else was there to take care of him. He chuckled brokenly, "And the person who took care of me is Asami." He leaned his head back against the door. Maya was his dream girl, but she never drove a fire in him like the way the yakuza can. Being near Asami drove things in him that Maya never did. But Maya meant something to him. Why couldn't he figure it out?
At Kou's apartment, Takato sat there with a beer in hand and a cigarette. He watched Kou pace back and forth. He sighed, "What do you think we should do?"
Kou flopped onto his couch and mumbled, "I don't know. I mean Aki has never took help before. He was always the one who remained strong through everything."
Takato responded, "This is insane. First he hides this and then tells us Maya is back."
"I feel bad for him." Kou replied.
"He is the one who is lying." Takato hissed.
"Would you tell everyone that you are seeing a guy?" Kou asked. Takato sighed but said nothing. He leaned his head back, thinking of a way to help his friend who would accept it. There was a knock at the door and he jumped up. Answering, he was hoping to see Akihito but he stared widened eyes at the man in front of his door. He didn't know what to say or do.
Asami stared at the boy in front of him and spoke calmly, "You fought with Takaba." The other boy came to the door the moment he spoke. They both stared at him. He retorted, "I will let no one hurt him and I mean no one."
"I don't know who the fuck you are but you are the one…" Takato was cut off by being pushed into the wall. The man glared at him and glanced back to Kou daring him to do something. He glanced outside to see two big men there.
Kou spoke, "You will hurt him if you do anything to us."
"I know." Asami responded as he released his hold on Takato. He waved his guards out of the apartment. Kirishima and Suoh bowed there heads and stood in front of the door. He spoke, "You fought with my boy. I know well enough that it hurt him."
Takato leaned against the wall and stared at the man. Shaking his head, he retorted, "Aki is different. He lies every time he sees us. That isn't him. What did you do to him?"
Kou kept his eyes on the two men outside his apartment. He shut the door and turned his attention on the man who was with his friend. He sighed, "That isn't our friend. Aki never lied to us before."
Asami stared at the two who showed concern for his friend. He asked after remaining silent for a while, "What would you have done if you found out that he was with a man?" Neither of them said anything. He lit up a cigarette and spoke, "You would have made comments that would hurt him. You would have tried to change his mind."
"You aren't the type my friend should be with. I can see danger rolling off of you." Takato remarked. He could tell it by the way he was pushed into the wall.
"I protect those who work under me and those that are near me. I would throw down my life for Akihito." Asami responded. He turned toward the door. As he opened it, he left with his finally words, "Do not hurt him again or my next visit will not be pretty."
At a small apartment, Akihito laid in the bed, staring up at the ceiling. He didn't know what he was lying about. He knew he couldn't be by Asami. It would be dangerous and it would ruin his life. He closed his eyes, picturing the two of them.
'Aki, I love you.' Maya's sweet voice rung out.
'You are mine. Remember that Takaba.' Asami's voice whispered into his ear.
Two different sayings, but only one made his heart race wildly. The photographer laughed out bitterly, "I have been fooling myself all this time."