Chapter 4
Renesmee POV
"Renesmee, how did you get into all of this mess?"
"I wasn't... I mean he wasn't to-" I couldn't say anymore, I just let the tears slowly roll down my face.
"Mom, he wasn't supposed to find out like this. I can't even think about going back to him. If I do he might... He's gonna kill me!"
Bella almost said something, then she stopped just as I touched her face. I showed her the day i was born, when Jacob almost threw me out the window.
"Sweetie, I know he seemed angry, but he wasn't. He didn't throw you out of the window that day; he cared for you. Jacob will always feel that way."
That only made me cry harder! He could love me through thick and thin, but could I love him after I've hurt him so much?
"Nessie, I want you to go into the other room and think. Write down everything that happened from the fight until tonight. Because if you're not able to say it to his face you can write it down for him."
I felt so foolish and immature, but I knew she had a point. So I didn't argue, I just walked to my former bedroom and began to write.
And with every word I wrote, a bucket of emotion was dumped onto the page.
Flashback 16 years earlier
Renesmee POV
"Get the hell out of here!" Jacob still continued to crawl towards me. "I said go away!" I picked up a chair and hurled it in Jacob's direction.
"But Nessie, its not what you think!" Jacob whined as I pitched another chair at him.
"So what is it? Can you explain that to me!" my voice only increased in sarcasm as I spoke. "I leave for two danm nights and come back to find 13 different hoes underwear and someone else's boxers in your
pillowcase! For two nights I am gone and I come home to see that my husband is a... is a..."
"Don't say it Renesmee. I don't want to hear it."
"What! Oh I guess you have got a headache from all that moaning. Well guess what, I don't care about what you want to hear! I'll say that you're a bitch, a slut, and a man whore!"
"Nessie, that's too far."
Too far! Ha! You should have thought about what was too far last night!" I wasn't about to stand here and be criticized by the biggest hypocrite of them all. So I ended the fight with a few famous words that noone ever wants to hear. " I'm Leaving."
Then I sprinted out of the door onto the streets. I wasn't planing my trip yet I already knew where I was headed. All I could think was "I'm
going home.
"Dad, Mom. Are you guys home?" There was no answer so I took a seat on the door step and read the note attached to the floor mat.
"Out hiking. We will be back in a jiffy!"
I couldn't believe that the people of Forks still think they are hiking. I wonder why no one has asked to tag along.
"There is nothing to do out here." I whispered to myself. "So I'm going inside!" I turned the knob to find it unlocked. As I began to walk inside I realized how depressed this room was making me. My joyful trot slowed into a sorrowful shuffle as I thought of what could have been.
I was supposed to get married in this room, just like my parents. It is also the room I was born in. And the first time I saw Jacob. My
Jacob...
"Pull your self together!" I motivated myself "it is not the end of the world, we just need to get Jacob of our mind!" SO I decided to call Bella.I dialed the ever familiar number on my phone and waited
for her to answer.
"Hey this is Bella! I'm busy so can you leave a message. Bye!"
"Umm... Hey! This is Nessie, I mean Renesmee. I need to talk to talk to you. Can you please, like come home." I really needed to talk to
someone. As of now, the only person that I knew I could talk to was
Bella.
So as I waited for Bella to arrive, I took a seat on the couch and
slowly cried myself to sleep. My Jacob...
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"Nessie, Nessie! Get up!" I heard someone call.
"Ugh." I groaned sleepily. " Mom? You're here?"
"Yes, Nessie. Me, and only me, the others are still out hunting."
"Can you sit down. I need to tell you something."
"Sure." Bella said, like she was confused. "But first can you tell me why you're here?"
"Well i left because... He cheated Mom. HE played us like a game! HE did everything wrong, broke all the rules. And he broke my heart." I
couldn't help but cry.
"Renesmee, I am so sorry. I wish I could do something but..."
Then she stopped. Right in the middle of her sentence, and we sat for 5 minuets in a awkward silence.
Eventually she moved.
" Hey Mommy," I asked as I wiped my face. " What are you doing?"
"Well tonight you will forget Jacob. Because me, you and Alice are having a GNO!"
I didn't quite understand what was going on. I think Bella was throwing a party. Now that is impossible.