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Title: Visions Of A Former Self

Words: 595

Romantic Pairings: Gene&Alex.

About: Ashes To Ashes

It had been a week since Gene had last seen Alex anywhere, she hadn't been in the flat or the office or even in his dreams, instead he had dreamt about a pub, it was as though he'd been stood watching the whole scene.

"We should have known that something was wrong" Ray sighed, taking a drag of his cigarette "As soon as she stopped hanging around with us, just sitting in that bloody bedroom"

"We should be worried about her" Chris spoke "Every time I walk past her room I hear her crying"

"Nelson said she's been asking about ways of going back, saying that she wants to see the Guv again"

"Should have known it's something to do with him" Sam said, drinking his pint "Mr Heartbreaker Hunt"

"Typical for him to screw up the head of a perfectly shaggable bird, I actually thought I could try and get in there seeing as he wasn't coming in here" Ray grumbled "He fucked that one up for me didn't he"

"Don't be so disrespectful Ray!" Shaz shouted "Something isn't right, I know that she's grieving but she's gotten worse, it's like she's lost him all over again"

Gene sat up the bed, sweating and shaking. He threw back the red covers, the ones that no longer smelt like her, climbing out of bed and heading into the bathroom. He should have known that something was wrong when he had stopped seeing her about the place. He climbed into the shower and turned on the water, letting the hot drops fall down onto him and soak him through, steam filling the room. He just stood there, thinking about how many times she would have stood where he was now, naked, closing his eyes he let him reach down and take himself in hand, rubbing himself, imaging that it was her who was working a hand up and down his length.

"Impressive"

His eyes shot open and he released his hold on himself, seeing Alex sat on the toilet lid, her blue turned pink underwear now a jade green.

"Bolls, where have you been? I haven't seen you in days"

"It's because you didn't want to see me, but not you do, now you'd give anything to see me, wouldn't you?"

He watched her stand up and shed her skimpy clothing, climbing into the bath and standing in front of him in all her glory. He didn't care if she was there or not, he could see her directly in front of him wearing nothing but her skin.

"You were thinking of me then weren't you, imagining me touching you" she smirked, running her fingers through her hair "You do understand that I'm not real, don't you? That I'm the formation of a mental image, of something that is not perceived as real and is not present to the senses"

"Even a fake you still goes on with the psycho-twattery" he chuckled.

She smiled and tilted her head to the side a little "I'm going to tell you something Gene, you're going to see me again soon"

"I can see you now Alex"

"No, I mean you are going to see me again, for real, you're going to be able to touch me"

He smiled and rested his head against the wall, placing his hand against the damp white tiles, she did the same. For the few seconds, before Alex disappeared, Gene actually felt as though he was sharing an intimate moment with her.

"It's going to be alright Alex" he smiled "I'll see you soon"