Kibum's Comeback

A Long Kiss Goodbye

Kibum stared at the man laying in the hospital bed. 'This is all my fault,' He thought, frowning. "I'm sorry Jonghyun," He muttered, small tears forming in his eyes. With out Kibum know, Jonghyun opened his eyes a bit, staring at the fuzzy figure in front of him.

"Ki...bum...?" He muttered, giving out a small cough.

"Jonghyun!" He smiled through his tears, wiping them from his reddened cheeks."I'm so glad you're alive..." He muttered.

"Of coarse I'm alive..." Kibum found it amazing how he was still able to smile."How long have I been out, Do you know?"

"Three days..." Kibum sighed heavily.

"Three days? Geez! Is Se Kyung okay...?" He asked. Why was Jonghyun so...so attached to that girl? Kibum was jealous. She didn't deserve him.

"She's fine," He responded, putting on his best fake smile. Out of know where, Taemin, Minho, and Onew walked in. Taemin gasped sharply.

"Appa! You're awake!" He said, starting to cry a little. "Taemin was so scared you died!" He muffled into Minho's shirt.

"It's nice to see you're awake. Don't exhaust yourself too much," Minho said, holding onto Taemin. "Okay?" He added, looking to Jonghyun.

"Well, I hope you're okay now, You don't know how much Onew cried." Kibum laughed faintly.

"Well you cried like a baby too, Kibum." Onew smirked faintly.

"Well...I was caught in the heat of the moment. Do you know how scary it was?" Kibum sighed while messing with his shirt.

"We'll go tell the doctor you're awake," Minho said, trudging out of the hospital room with Taemin.

"I thought I was going to die that day...I wanted to tell you to take care of Onew...He's pretty pathetic with out me," Jonghyun said, staring at the sheets.

"Don't say such things! Onew will be fine...And you are not going to die, Jonghyun," Kibum responded in his 'Motherly' tone of voice to Jonghyun. "Jonghyun?" Kibum said, now worried, Jonghyun stopped respond to him after he said that. "What's wrong? You look a little pale," Kibum said, waving a hand in front of his face. "..Are you okay?" He asked, moving his hand closer to see if he had a fever. With out warning, Jonghyun smacked Kibum's hand away, causing Kibum to jump a little and pull his arm to his chest.

"Oi! Jonghyun!" Onew snapped.

"It's okay, Hyung! I understand...Jonghyun is just irritated considering all that is happening," Kibum laughed nervously.

"But...still! You don't have to do that to him, Jonghyun! He's been worried sick about you," Onew sighed heavily when Jonghyun didn't respond to him. Then, Minho and Taemin walked back in.

"Hey guys," rang Taemin. "The doctor said Appa can go home after a few check ups! Isn't that great?" he said, grinning widely.

"Alright! Well, I'm gonna go outside and get myself some chicken," Onew sang, smiling at the slightest mention of chicken.

"I'll go with you, Hyung," said Kibum as he stood from his chair. Onew responded with a simple 'Hmm~' Kibum looked at Jonghyun. "Ne, Do you want some chicken too, Jonghyun?" He said bending down slightly to get to eye level with him.

"Ramen would be nice, Onew," Jonghyun said, completely ignoring Kibum. Kibum frowned. What did he do now?

"Yeah, Yeah, Come on Kibum, Let's go! I want some fried chicken," Onew swooned at the last two words. People could swear if there was a contest for a life times supply of chicken, Onew would be the first to sign up. The pair then left.

"What's the matter Jonghyun? You look a little pale," Minho asked, sitting down on Kibum's old spot.

"I'm fine..." Jonghyun replied.

One week later back at their home...

Quick foot steps sounded as Kibum walked downstairs.

"Good morning Kibum! You're up rather early," stated Se Kyung. The two had been living together since they are like siblings. Kibum didn't respond."I see you have band practice," She added, laughing awkwardly. "You wanna eat breakfast first?" She asked, trying to get Kibum to at least speak to her. No reply. "Okay then...Could you just tell Jonghyun - " Suddenly, she was broken off of her sentence.

"Just Leave him a message! Or call her! You have a cell phone dammit!" Kibum snapped in annoyance. Damn this girl talked to much. Kibum was really starting to hate her. Slamming the door behind him, he walked off.

"Well somebody sure is cranky today," Se Kyung laughed softly and took a sip of her coffee. Kibum made his way to the car, but stopped. He breathed softly and decided to walk around a bit. First, He went to the store and scanned the isles. He looked down at the chocolate pocky. He remember the way Jonghyun would always 'giggle' when he got loads of it. He picked up a box and ran his fingers of the edges of the box and grabbed to more boxes. Carefully, he went up to the cashier and payed for them, with out talking to the lady.

After that, he made his way to the bus stop and got on the up coming bus.

"Hey! Isn't that Kibum from SHINee?" One girl said.

"Nah, That's just some wanna be! Kibum wouldn't ride a public bus!" The other one stated, which was a total lie since he was on one now. Taking out a piece of pocky, Kibum bit it as he watched the city scenes go by quickly. The bus stopped at a bus stop near his old high school, there he walked up to the fence. He clearly remembered what happened there.

Flash back ...

"I love you...And I always -" Jonghyun muttered.

"Save it...Some one else deserves your love, and knowing that some one really pisses me off, and I don't care if you love me or not..." Kibum said through his cold facade. It's been a month since Se Kyung told him, she liked Jonghyun.

"But Kibum - -"

"Just go..." Kibum said. Worse thing he could ever do, reject and make Jonghyun cry. Jonghyun ran off in embarrassment. "Dammit..." He mumbled, hitting his head on the pole. 'I love you too...' He thought.

End of flashback...

"Dammit! Where is Kibum!" Onew sighed heavily. He wasn't one for waiting, especially during practice. "Can I go home..?" He muttered.

"No...Se Kyung told me he left early today. He might come, we just have to wait," Jonghyun said, putting his hand in his jean pockets.

"Maybe he went on a date," Taemin giggled lightly at the thought.

"Kibum doesn't have a girlfriend, Silly." Jonghyun laughed.

"Maybe he doesn't swing that way?" Taemin shrugged innocently, only to receive a "WTF" look from the three.

"I'm just saying~" sang Taemin. Kibum then walked in the door and the others jaws dropped in surpsied.

"What?" He questioned, staring at the group.

"Kibum, You could have at least old us you were gonna be late!" scolded Onew.

"Does it matter? I'm here aren't I?" Kibum said rhetorically.

"Let's just start practice, okay?" Jonghyun told the group. With that, the group begun to play. "Kibum...I can't here you, can you play a bit louder?" The group were now practicing on guitars for the moment. The played for about another fifteen minutes.

"Uh... Kibum, your beat is kind of slow could you please - -" Minho trailed off, only to hear the loud strum of the guitar as it hit the floor.

"If you can't stand my mistakes, you can find yourself a new member!" Snap. Kibum snapped completely.

"What's wrong with you?" Onew glared a bit."What happened to you? You've been acting like a big jerk lately!" He said sternly.

"That's enough, Onew," Minho said rather calmly."Ass for you Kibum. You need to watch your attitude. I understand you've been through a lot lately, but that is now excuse to be a dick head to everyone..."

"This is stupid," murmured Kibum. He shoved Onew away from him. "I will not force myself to stay in a place where I am not wanted," He stated, grabbing onto the door handle.

"Dammit Kibum! Come back here ! YOU !"

"ONEW!" Jonghyun snapped suddenly."Calm down...It's okay, I'll talk to him," He told Onew, placing a gentle hand on his shoulder. Leaving the room, Jonghyun chased after Kibum, unaware of the fact Minho and Onew followed behind secretly. "Kibum!" He called. "Do you really want to quit this band?"

"I already did," Kibum replied in a monotone.

"Do you know how hard we worked to even make this possible?" Kibum gritted his teeth. "...And you're just gonna let go of that? You've changed, Kibum..." Jonghyun sighed a bit sadly.

"Don't act like you really know me! Cause you don't!" Kibum shouted, his bangs covering his eyes.

"That's because you don't tell us anything ! You keep your feelings to your -"

"DO YOU WANNA KNOW HOW I FEEL!" Kibum asked angrily.

"You can tell us, Kibum...We're here for you." Jonghyun said, looking in concern to Kibum. "I know it's a start..but we'll be here to help you no matter what. Please tell us, Kibum...tell me," the male said, crossing his arms over his chest.

"Before I got here -" he paused. "I went back to our old school...where you confessed." Kibum admitted, Jonghyun stared at him, thinking about the moment in time where he did confess to Kibum."Do you know what I told myself that day?" He said, taking steps closer to Jonghyun. He could feel Jonghyun breath on his cold skin.

"Wh - Why are you bringing this up?" Jonghyun asked in a whisper.

"I told myself," the next thing started to make Kibum's heart rush, with out thinking he said, "I told myself...That I love you too..." Jonghyun looked at him, shocked. "..And I still do..." Kibums hand gently touched Jonghyun cheek, pulling his into a warming kiss. "Be with me Jonghyun," He whispered.

"No," Jonghyun breathed. "I can't Kibum...I'm sorry..." He said, crying a little. A pained look crossed Kibum's face. He did it again. He made Jonghyun cry, again.

"Hey...It's okay..." Kibum told Jonghyun. The other looked at Kibum in shock. "Goodbye...Jonghyun..." He said, with a soft smile on his face. He turned around and headed to the door, and left. Jonghyun leaned against the wall, sobbing.

"M - Minho..." Onew whispered quietly, to where only Minho heard him.

"I know Onew...I know..." He said in his normal cooling voice.

'I wanted to love...and to be loved...in my own special way...' thought Kibum as he walked.