Chapter three

But you forgot to dot some I's, and cross some T's along the way.
I'm better now despite you baby.
I'm stronger these days.
Stronger.
I survived the crash.
Survived the burn.
Survived the worst, yeah baby, but I learned.
Survived the lies.
Survived the blues.
Almost killed me, but I survived the truth.
And when you wrote me off like I was doomed.
I survived you.

Bella's POV

Disclaimer- I do not own Twilight, sad I know.

Three a.m.

What the hell am I doing up?

Oh yeah, it's because I have insomnia.

I walked into the kitchen to pour myself a cup of coffee when my dad walked into the kitchen with his work uniform on.

"Hey dad, why are you up and dressed for work?" I asked and passed him a cup of coffee. "The station just called and said there's been another bear attack up near La Push. This is the third one this month. I don't know how long I'll be gone. Call me if you need me, I'll come home as fast as I can." "Sure thing dad, be safe." He nodded, chugged down his coffee and left.

My dad was chief of police here in the small town of Forks. Every once in awhile he'd get called down to La Push. La Push is a small reservation about fifteen minutes from Forks. They never call him at this time though.

It must be important.

Seven a.m.

I sat up on the couch and stretched. TV really sucks late at night, or more like early in the morning. I think I may have dosed of for twenty minutes during some infomercial on a vacuum thing. I got up off of the couch and went into the kitchen to make myself another coffee to help me get through the day. I decided to skip breakfast, but that wasn't different than any other day.

Bentley was giggling at his fish toy in his crib when I went up to his room to get him.

"Hey baby." I said as I picked him up and kissed him.

Like the day before I took him to the daycare then went to school. Instead of getting out of my truck to go mingle with the other students, I sat in my truck and cried.

I cried for Bentley.

Who would never have his father in his life. For all the things I wanted to give him and couldn't.

I cried for my dad. For all the extra expenses he has now since I moved in with him. For the extra drama in his life.

And lastly, I cried for myself. For the love that was lost. For the life I wanted but couldn't have. For the lack of family. For the lack of parenting skills and most of all for love.

I wanted true love more than anything.

I wanted to be happy, no not happy, just not miserable.

I was brought back to reality by a knock at my truck's window. I quickly wiped the tears from my eyes the best I could then looked up to see who it was.

Alice.

She had a look of worry on her face. Once she noticed I wasn't getting out of the truck she walked around to the passenger's side and got in.

"Bella?" She asked in a quiet voice. "Hi Alice." "Are you okay?" She asked. I looked over and studied her face. Her eyes were all red and puffy like she'd just been crying. Her normally spiky hair was pulled back into a messy pony tail and she looked as if she hasn't had a full night's sleep. "I could ask you the same thing." Her eyes started to get teary then she looked away from me. "I'm fine; it's Edward who's not." I snorted. "What, could he only get three girls to sleep with him last night instead of ten?" She looked over at me with a fresh stream of tears falling down her face. "He was in a car crash, Bella." My jaw dropped. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "Oh my gosh Alice, I'm so sorry. Is he okay?" She shook her head. "I don't think so. From what I've heard from my dad after he checked him over they think he has a broken leg, three broken ribs, and is black and blue all over. He drank so much Bella he had to get his stomach pumped. He's in so much pain emotionally and I don't know how to help him!" She put her head into her hands and started to cry harder.

I felt so bad for Alice, and even Edward. So he may have been a jerk yesterday, but no one deserves to go through this. "Buckle up, Alice. We're going to the hospital" She looked at me with a confused look on her face. "But we have school." I rolled my eyes at her. "Not anymore."

"Alice, what did you mean when you said your dad checked him over?" This time she rolled her eyes at me. "He's a doctor Bella, duh." I felt silly for asking such an obvious question.

"Thank you, Bella." Alice said as we drove to the hospital. "For what?" "For doing this for me, and for Edward." I smiled. "It's not a problem. I know what it's like to need someone when your down, and that's what Edward needs right now." She was quiet for a few minutes, and then spoke up. "Bella, what did you mean you know what it's like to need someone when your down?" I sighed. I like Alice, a lot. I've only known her for two days but it feels like we've been best friends since, well, forever. She should know about Bentley. It's not like I'm ashamed of him or anything. That little boy is my whole world. I just don't need the drama right now. I don't want to be judged, and I don't want to be asked questions about his father.

But I trust Alice.

"I have a baby Alice, a baby boy." She was silent. I was scared to look over and see her reaction. Maybe I was wrong about her. Maybe she won't want anything to do with me now.

After a few more minutes of silence I looked over to Alice. She was silently bouncing in her seat with a huge smile on her face. Once she noticed me looking she burst out squealing. "Alice, are you okay?" I asked a bit concerned about her sanity. "Yes! Oh my gosh Bella! Why didn't you tell me before? How old is he? What's his name? Do you have pictures!" I laughed. I should have never doubted Alice. "His name is Bentley, he is four months old and yes, I have a picture. It's in my wallet." Before I could say anything else she was digging in my purse looking for my wallet. Once she got the picture she started squealing all over again. "Oh my gosh Bella! He is the cutest baby I've ever seen. He looks just like you, except for the tanned skin. Where does that come from? His father?" My eyes started to water at the thought of his father, Jacob. "Um, yeah." I could feel Alice's eyes on my face. "Bella, are you okay? What happened? Did he dump you or something? Because if he did I will gladly kick his butt personally. I'm sure Emmett wouldn't mind helping either." I smiled through my tears. "Um, no Alice. He passed away." By now we were sitting in the hospital parking lot. I watched as she covered her mouth with her hand. "Oh no Bella, I'm so sorry. We don't have to talk about it if you don't want too." "Thanks Alice." She hugged me.

"Oh, Alice?" I said as we got out of my truck. "Do you think we could keep this between me and you for now?" She nodded. "Of course. But can I pleaseee tell Jasper about Bentley. I promise he won't say anything." She nudged me with her elbow. "And you better be giving poor little Auntie Alice over here a picture of my little nephew." I almost started crying again. But this time because I was happy.

I dug out my wallet from my purse and gave Alice the picture of Bentley I had in there. "Here," I said and handed it to her. "I have plenty more at home." She started jumping up and down. She linked her arm through mine as we headed into the hospital.

"Hey dad." Alice said as we walked down the hall that lead to Edwards's room. He was just coming out of his room. "How is he?" He smiled. "I just checked him. We were wrong about him. He doesn't have a broken leg, only one broken rib and some pretty nasty bruises. He's coming home tonight." Alice hugged him tight. "Oh dad," She said as she walked back over to me. "This is my best friends, Bella." He stuck his hand out to me. "It's nice to meet you, Bella." I nodded. "It's nice to meet you too, Mr. Cullen." He snorted. "Please, call me Carlisle. Mr. makes me sound so, formal". I smiled and nodded. "Bella, if you'd like you can go see Edward now. I just need to talk to Alice for a few minutes."

I walked into Edwards's room. He was sitting up in his bed trying to reach over to the table to grab a glass of water.

"Stupid wires." He mumbled to himself. I smiled and walked over and handed him the glass. "Bella?" He looked so confused. It was kind of funny.

"Hey Edward. How are you feeling?" He looked at me for a second. "What are you doing here?" He asked, totally ignoring my question. "Alice told me what happened and I wanted to come and see for myself that you are okay."

Again, he just stared at me.

"I can leave if you want?" I turned to leave but he grabbed my hand. He pulled me back and pulled me down to sit in the chair beside his bed.

"No, please don't go." He said and took his hand away from me. It was weird. As soon as his hand was away I felt empty. "Why?" "Well after the way I treated you yesterday I never thought you'd talk to me again, let alone come and visit me on my death bed." I let out a small laugh and snorted.

"You're such a drama queen." He smiled. Alice knocked on the door and stuck her head in the room.

"Bella, dad says we should get back to school now. Edward, I'll see you at home tonight. I'm so happy your okay." "Alice, I'll meet you out at my truck, okay?" She nodded and left the small hospital room. I stood up from the chair and walked to the door. "Bella?" I turned around and looked at Edward. "Thanks for coming. You know, other than Alice and my parent's, you're the only person who has come to visit me. Emmett hasn't even come to see me. Not that I can blame him." I really wanted to stay and talk to him. To try and understand his life, his hurts, his odd relationship with his brother, Emmett, and to figure out this new weird pull I felt between us. But I really did need to go back to school, for Bentley. "Maybe I'll stop by your place tomorrow after school and see how you are doing." He smiled. "Maybe I'll see you then." I shook my head and smiled as I walked out of the door.

"Bella, you've been smiling ever since we left the hospital, what's up?" Alice asked as we stood in the lunch line at the school's cafeteria. "Nothing Alice." She sighed but didn't say anything else. I'm guessing she had better things to worry about because she didn't mention it again for the rest for the day.

The rest of my day went pretty smooth. I picked Bentley up from the day care. Took him home, played with him, feed him, bathed him, and got him to bed for the night.

I got all my homework done fairly quickly and got to eat a decent meal without puking it back up.

I laid in bed and thought about my talk with Edward this morning. What in the world would make him drink and drive? I'm pretty sure he knew better than that. What's the deal with him and Emmett? I knew brothers didn't get along sometimes, but if your brother was in an accident wouldn't you want to go see him? I had some many questions I wanted to ask him.

Beep! Beep! Beep!

I jumped and fell and hit something hard. My floor? I looked round and noticed I was in my room still in my jeans and t-shirt from the day before. I slept through the whole night?

What is Edward Cullen doing to me?

Chapter three you guys! What do you think? Does anyone have any guesses about Edward's past? About Jacob? Bella is going to see Edward after school. Where will Bentley be? Will she bring him with her? If she does, what will Edward think? Review and leave me your thoughts. Every single one means so much to me, thanks bunches.

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