Chapter four

Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
But all these days, they feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me out of here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
And watch this life pass me by.

Bella's POV

"Alice, what are you doing here?" Alice was standing at my front door smiling. It's only seven o'clock on a Thursday morning. "I just wanted to see if you wanted to ride with me to school today." She looked around me. "And possibly meet Bentley." I rolled my eyes. "Come in, Alice." She squealed and we walked into the living room. My dad was sitting on the couch bouncing Bentley on his knee. "Oh my gosh Bella, he is going to be a little heart breaker. Can I hold him?" She looked at me with pleading eyes. "Of course you can." My dad passed him to Alice and she bounced him in her arms. She started making funny faces at him and he started laughing. "Bella, I love him already! Can we take him to the park today, pleaseee?" She begged. "I can't, I told Edward I would stop by and see how he was doing today after school." I heard my dad huff then he got up off of the couch and left the room. "What about Bentley. Are you bringing him with you?" She asked. "Um, I haven't figured that out yet." A huge grin spread across her face. "Can I watch him?" "I don't know, Alice." She pouted. "Pretty please? He can come over after school with you. Edward is stuck on bed rest so he won't see him. And you'll be right upstairs if I need you. Please?" I thought about it for a minute. I couldn't see why not. I trusted her with Bentley and she really wanted to watch him and besides, I did promise Edward I would go see him.

"What about your parents though?" She rolled her eyes. "They're gone away and won't be back until later tonight." "Emmett?" I asked and put my hand on my hip. "He has football then he said something about going out with Rosalie. Bella, no one would judge you anyway." I sighed. "Fine Alice." She kissed Bentley's forehead then passed him to me and started jumping up and down. "I'm so excited!" I laughed. "I would have never guessed. Now, let's go before were late for school."

"Is it hard, I mean, financially? Like dare care itself must cost a fortune, that's not including all the baby stuff. I heard they poop a lot." I sighed. "Yeah, it gets a little tight sometimes. My dad always says he's willing to help, but I want to do it myself. It's just hard being in school still. I'd get a part time job but that would mean I'd never get to see Bentley. Right now I'm using my college money, but that will only last so long." "What!" Alice screamed and glared over at me. "Alice! Watch the road!" She looked back at the road and took a deep breath. "Alice, it's not a big deal." She just shrugged and didn't say anything else for the rest of the drive to the school.

I decided to grab all the work Edward has been missing and bring it with me when I went over to him house. At least this way he could get caught up.

"Bella!" Alice called from across the cafeteria to me. "I already got you your lunch." She said as I sat down beside her. "Alice, you didn't have to do that. I am fully capable of buying my own food." She shrugged and leaned over to whisper in my ear. "Can Jasper come over after school to so he can meet my little man? I showed him the picture you gave me and he said he was the cutest little thing he's ever seen. Even cuter than me!" I laughed and nodded my head. "Sure Alice." She smiled and hugged me. I'm guessing she's not mad anymore.

"Oh my gosh Jasper, you are going to love him!" Alice squealed in the car on the way to the day care to pick up Bentley. He smiled over at her. "I'm sure I will, Alice." He held the hand she wasn't using to drive. I watched the two of them closely. They were both so much in love.

I want that.

"There he is!" Alice ran over and snatched Bentley up off of the floor. She brought him over to us. "Can he hold him, Bella?" She asked. I nodded and she handed Bentley to Jasper. He started cooing at him. Bentley looked at him kind of weird for a minute then started trying to clap his hands. "He's adorable, Bella." He said, never taking his eyes of Bentley. I smiled

I have the greatest friends.

"Bella, calm down. Jasper and I will take Bentley into the living room. Edwards's room is on the third floor; as long as you shut his door he won't hear him." I sighed. We were almost to her house by now and I honestly thought I was going to puke all over the back seat of Alice's car.

"Alright, like I said, his room is on the third floor and at the very end of the hall." Alice said once we got to her house. I was amazed at her house. It was big and utterly beautiful. The outside was plain white but it suited it. The inside was the same, light colors and very open. It had a friendly feeling to it. "Bella, are you listening to me?" I nodded, took and deep breath and headed up the stairs. I walked up to the third floor slowly then made my way down the hall. I took another deep breath and knocked lightly on his door. "Come in." he hollered.

Here we go.

"Hi, Bella." Edward said with a smile. He was lying on his back on his bed with at least five pillows shoved under his head and a game controller in his hand. He turned off the game system and put the remote down on the night stand beside his bed. "You don't have to stop playing because of me. I don't mind watching." He rolled his eyes. "It's okay. I was losing anyway. Come, sit." He said and patted the spot beside him on the bed. I walked over and sat down beside him.

Neither one of us said anything.

"So, how was your day? He asked after a few minutes of silence. "Long and boring. Oh! That reminds me, I got the work you've missed from school. I forgot it down stairs though." "That's okay, I'll get it later. Thanks." I smiled. "Has anyone from school come to see how you are doing yet?" I asked. "Tanya did. But all she wanted was sex." He sighed. "That must have been painful considering the state your in." I blushed. Did I really just say that? I looked up at Edward and he was smiling. "I love it when you blush. It's beautiful." That only made me blush more. He laughed then got serious again. "We didn't have sex. I told her I didn't want to do that with her anymore, or any other girl for that matter." My eyes widened. He quickly caught on. "I'm not gay either Bella. Jeeze, get your head out of the gutter. What I meant was I want to wait until I find someone I love." He looked like he wanted to cry once he mentioned love. I was just about to ask him if he was okay when I heard a cry coming from down stairs. A baby's cry.

Crap, I forgot to close the door.

"Shoot." I muttered to myself and jumped up off of the bed and ran down stairs. Alice was standing in the living room bouncing Bentley in her arms. Jasper was standing beside her trying to south Bentley so he would stop crying. I ran over and took him from her. "Alice, what happened?" I asked, worry evident in my voice. "I don't know. Jasper was sitting on couch bouncing him on his knee then he just started screaming." I looked over at the clock on the wall. "He's just hungry." I passed him back to Alice then went to get his bottle from the diaper bag. I heated it up and brought it back to feed him. Alice had him calmed down and offered to feed him.

"Bella?" I heard someone say from behind me. I turned around and Edward was standing in the living room door way staring at Bentley. He didn't look mad, but confused. "Bella, is that your baby?" He asked. I nodded. Before I could say anything else Emmett came flying into the room followed by two people who I assumed were Alice's parents. "What's going on?" Alice's mom asked. "Mom dad, this is Bella, and her son Bentley." They both looked at me shocked. "Bella, you have a kid? How old are you?" Emmett asked. I turned to look at Alice and mouthed for her to please take me home. She nodded. "Um, mom, dad, I think I'm going to take them home now." Alice said. I rushed out of the house as fast as I could and got into Alice's car.

"Bella, I'm so sorry." I was sitting in the back seat of Alice's car trying very hard not to cry. "Its fine, Alice." No one said anything else for the rest of the drive to my house.

As soon as we got to my house I mumbled a quick thanks to Alice for driving me home then got out of the car before she could try and start a conversation with me.

I wasn't in the mood to talk.

I put Bentley to bed at seven o'clock like every night then went to my room. I didn't do my homework or any kind of housework like I would normally do.

I fell to the floor and cried.

I don't know hold long I sat there but after some time there was a knock at my door. "Go away dad, I'm doing my home work." I don't usually lie to my dad, but right now I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. "Um, it's me, Edward."

Cliffy! Sorry, it had to be done. So why do you think Edward is at Bella's house? What do you think Esme and Carlisle are thinking? Please review, they mean a lot to me. And, they make me want to update faster!

Next chapter: Alice's POV. What happened once she got home from taking Bella home.

Brooke xoxo