Alrighty, Here is Chapter 4, hope you guys like this one!
Were starting to go back into Kikyou's past, like when she was a child and stuff like that. Keep in mind i change the perspectives in this chappie.
Anyways. Enjoy ~
Chapter 4: Inuyasha's Secret Sorrow
Inuyasha sat along the river side, keeping himself crunched up in a big ball and twirling his fingers silently in the water. He stared intently down at the rippling pool; his mind only on one thing, Kikyou. Why couldn't Kagome understand the position he was in? All he wanted was her safety; he didn't want to lose her too. He continue to stare at the water, his eyes widened as Kikyou's imaged rippled in the water.
"You didn't protect me" her voice echoed. Inuyasha felt his heart break,
"Kikyou I'm so-" he stopped, and stared at the image of the beautiful woman.
"It's your fault I'm dead," she said, her image beginning to disappear.
"No! Kikyou wait! Please" he begged, but her image was gone, and he was left with nothing but the sad fact that she was right. Angrily he slammed his fist in the water, over and over again he hammered his fist in the cold water.
"Damn! Damn! Damn!" he growled, already feeling the tears brimming in his eyes.
"Hey!" called a voice, Inuyasha quickly brushed away the tears and turned to see Nariko standing on top of the hill. She was leaning against large stick to help her keep her balance, her expression was strong and determined.
"Fool! What the hell are you doing here?" He asked, trying to hide the feeling he got when she looked at him. Her eyes reminded him so much of Kikyou's. So fierce, yet so sad and loving.
"I came to find yo-" she stopped when she accidentally dropped her stick and began to roll the hill. Inuyasha got up to help her, but instead of helping she fell over him causing both of them to land in the river.
"Damn it" Inuyasha muttered, angry now that he was all wet.
"Sorry, ow" she winced in pain as Inuyasha picked her up and placed her on the soft grass. He watched as she ringed out her hair, she looked so beautiful.
"Coming down the hill probably wasn't a good idea, huh?" She said smiling, Inuyasha frowned.
"No kidding!" he yelled, Nariko frowned.
"Lighten up," she said, Inuyasha scoffed.
"Why are you here anyway?" he asked, "You here to side for Kagome too?" he added annoyingly.
"Nope" she said simply,
"Yeah, I knew it, course you would side for-" he paused, "What did you say?" he asked,
"I said, 'nope'" she laughed,
"Then why are you here?"
"You really miss her, don't you?" she asked, ignoring his question. Inuyasha already knew she was already informed about Kikyou. He nodded,
"It's my fault she's gone, I could have saved her" he said, "But I failed, I don't want that to happen to Kagome either."
"When I lost my parents, my sister was all I had left, now I don't even have her. Your lucky, and I think Kagome should listen to you. All you're trying to do is protect her, right?" she said, Inuyasha nodded.
"Yeah," he said, looking back down at the water. "What happened to your parents?" he asked, he glanced over at Nariko and saw the utter look of depression on her face.
Kikyou stared at Inuyasha with sad eyes, in her old life she had never once spoke of her childhood with Inuyasha. She took a deep breath, and looked him in the eyes.
"They were murdered." She began, "The villagers, set fire to my home. My little sister, mother, and father were all still inside." Kikyou continued on explaining what had happened on that fateful day, the images already playing in her mind.
I rushed home when I saw the smoke, I was praying that the hut on fire wasn't mine. But when I got there I knew it was my home. The villagers had set it on fire, I ran over to the angry mob,
"No! Please stop it!" I scream, angry at them all. Without thinking I ran inside, the heat was intense but that wouldn't stop me from finding my family.
"Mama! Mama where are you!" I cried,
"Kikyou! Kikyou quickly get out!" my mother screamed, I ran to where I heard her voice. She was holding onto Keade. She was beat up badly, she handed me Keade.
"Get out here, Kikyou. Take Keade and go!" Her mother ordered,
"No! I won't leave you!" I cried, I looked over and saw my father's dead body laying on the ground. His body was already being burnt to ashes.
"Papa!" I screamed,
"Kikyou listen to me!" Shouted her mother,
"No matter what they say, you're my Kikyou. You're destined for greatness I know it, you will make me proud" said her mother. Tears streaming down her face, She pulled us close and gave me a kiss.
"Take this and go," she said, it was a silver bracelet, old but very beautiful.
"I love you Kikyou, take care of Keade" she said, "Now go!" she screamed. I didn't want to leave her, but I knew I had too. Without another word I ran out. I ran away from the mob and continued to run until I was sure they weren't following me anymore.
"Only then did I turn around to see my home collapse to the ground" she said, looking away from Inuyasha.
"What happened to your sister?" Inuyasha asked, Kikyou sighed.
"She was taken away from me when she turned eight, I never saw her after that" she lied, she felt the warmth of Inuyasha's hand on her's.
"I'm so sorry" he said, his grip tightening, as if he were nervous to hold her hand. Kikyou would have enjoyed this moment, but he was holding on so tightly to her hand she could feel herself losing circulation.
"Uh, Inuyasha, you're hurting my hand" she said, Inuyasha instantly pulled away.
"Sorry, I uh... Don't know what came over me" he said, Kikyou smiled.
"You're so odd" her words slipping out, Inuyasha stared at her.
"Coming from the girl who tried to rape me" he scoffed, Kikyou frowned.
"I did not try to rape you!" she said,
"Did too, I felt so violated" he said, moving away from her. Kikyou gasped in anger, but couldn't help but feel herself blush.
"Please, Why would I want to rape you?" she asked,
"How should I know, you're the rapist not me" he retorted.
"I'm not a rapist, I'm only eighteen!"
"Then that makes you a rapist and a pedophile" he laughed,
"Does not, you're a demon right?" she said, Inuyasha nodded even though she didn't phrase it as a question. "I'm human, so your older than I am, making you the pedophile" she corrected him. Inuyasha laughed,
"Guess you're right," he chuckled, she smiled at him. She had missed his laugh, of course back then it was also very rare for herself to laugh. Her fingers made her way to her lips, a kiss was the closest they got. She remembered that day. They were getting back from there usual meeting spot, she had accidentally tripped over her bow and was happy to see that Inuyasha had catched her. When she looked up at him, it was like something deep inside was finally being released. The way Inuyasha looked down at her, like she was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. Without a word he wrapped his arms around her, before she kissed him he was going to say the words 'I love you.' The very words she needed him to say now,
"Nariko" said Inuyasha, "Why are you looking at me like that?" His words brought Kikyou back to reality.
"Oh, uh... no reason" she said,
"Well stop, it's creeping me out" he said standing. Kikyou grinned, he ignored her grin. "We should get back" he said. Kikyou nodded and rose to her feet, Inuyasha came over to pick her up but she gently nudged him aside.
"No thanks, I can do it" she said, Inuyasha shook his head.
"Don't be stupid, you know you can't get all the way back up the hill!" Inuyasha said annoyed.
"I'm tough, I can handle it" she told him, which was true. She had always been strong, through everything she was strong, even through her death. No matter how much she wanted to tell Inuyasha she didn't want to leave she stayed strong for him.
"I'm not buying it" he said, trying to pick her up. Kikyou pushed away,
"I can do it myself" she told him, trying to keep him off.
"No you can't!" Inuyasha said, raising his voice.
"Inuyasha you sly dog, only met her today and you're already trying to put the moves on her" said Miroku walking down the hill. Kikyou finally realized how close they actually were, quickly she pushed him to the ground.
"You have it all wrong, he was just-"
"Trying to help her, but she's too stubborn" Inuyasha huffed. Miroku grinned,
"Uh huh," Miroku sighed, winking at Inuyasha.
"We weren't doing anything!" Yelled Inuyasha. Miroku walked over to Kikyou, holding her hand with his right hand.
"I'm terribly sorry, Inuyasha can misbehave sometimes" he said, Kikyou jerked her head as she felt Miroku's left hand groping her bottom. In an instant Kikyou lifted her free hand and smacked Miroku in the face, Miroku fell back to land on his butt.
"Just what kind of girl do you take me for!" Kikyou yelled angrily. Miroku stared at her baffled that someone other than Sango had actually slapped him. Inuyasha put his arm her, laughing hysterically.
"I like you, Nariko, you're crazy funny" he told her, his right arm around and his left hand brushing back his long white bangs. Miroku frowned,
"It's this cursed left hand" he said, pointing at his left hand which also contained his wind tunnel.
"Yeah whatever, Miroku" said Inuyasha, he looked over at Kikyou.
"I'm carrying you, even if you try to protest. Got that?" he said sternly. Kikyou was tired, she simply nodded and let him pick her up into his strong warm arms. Kikyou curled herself as best she could to make herself feel comfortable. It was relaxing the way he was walking, slow, as if he were trying to be careful of dropping something fragile. She liked that, she liked that he liked her. That he thought she was funny, even though she wasn't trying to be. She felt her fingers dig into his kimono, slowly she felt her eyes getting heavy; and with one last thought of her fantasy of being with Inuyasha she drifted off into her slumber that wouldn't 50 years.
Inuyasha continued to take slow steps as they headed back to Keade's hut. He was going slow for two reasons; one, he didn't want to hurt her, and two he didn't want there time alone to end. True he had only met her today, but something about her made him feel normal. He felt himself around her, he looked down at her and saw her fast asleep. He smiled, She's had such a rough and painful day, it's no wonder she's tired He thought.
"She unique" said Miroku, walking in step with Inuyasha. His hands tucked inside the sleeves of his robes.
"How so?" asked Inuyasha, Miroku laughed quietly.
"You're not going to tell me you haven't noticed by now?" Miroku asked sarcastically. Inuyasha gave him a stern look.
"Does it look to you like I know what the hell you're talking about?" Inuyasha retorted. Miroku gave him a sly smile.
"I'm talking about her aura" said Miroku, "I can't figure her out, she seems rather nice but there's something off about her." Miroku seemed to be sounding serious, still Inuyasha didn't find anything odd about Nariko. Except for the fact that she had tried to rape him, maybe she really was a rapist.
"I'm not sensing anything off about her, she seems different" he said, a good different Inuyasha thought smiling.
"There's something else" Miroku began, "Her eyes, they look just-"
"Like Kikyou's" Inuyasha finished, "Yeah, I know" he said, turning away from him. By now he had stopped walking, he simply stood there holding Nariko in his arms.
"I was holding her the same way as I'm holding Nariko now" he said softly.
"Who?" asked Miroku.
"Kikyou, before she died, I was cradling her in my arms" he told him. The monk sighed and placed his hand on the half-demons shoulder.
"Why is it so hard to forget her?" he asked,
"No one said it would be easy, Inuyasha" Miroku answered, "Sometimes, finding someone else is a cure" he said. Inuyasha tried hard not to tighten his grasp on Nariko but Miroku's words angered him. He knew he was talking about moving on with Kagome. Things were different now, different between them. True he was fond of Kagome, but he didn't love her like he thought he did. It was almost as if Kikyou's death helped him to see just how much he didn't love Kagome. Would he ever love anyone more than Kikyou?
"I can't" he said, looking up at Miroku.
"Inuyasha, you can't keep Kagome waiting" Miroku stated, "If you do, Kagome will only get tired of you and end up leaving."
"You just don't understand" said Inuyasha, "I just don't..."
"Don't what?" asked Miroku,
"Nothing" he said, "Let's go" he began moving again. Trying to get to the hut quicker and avoid Miroku and his nosy questions. Finally they arrived, he slipped through the door to find everyone asleep. Kagome was laying down next to Sango, both using Kirara as pillow. Shippo sound asleep on Kirara's tail, Keade was resting in her usual spot by her sister's old bed. The hut was small, so Inuyasha had no choice but to lay Nariko down next to him. He took his spot against the wall and laid Nariko head on his lap, mostly because she had no pillow or covers. He took off the top part of his robe of the Fire Rat and used it to cover her. Miroku was already falling asleep, and without a single thought he rested his head down and fell asleep.
Ayumi walked over the sleeping humans, she found it amazing to walk through them without them knowing they had a dead spirit entering them. It was so pleasing to her she had to stop herself from laughing out loud. She also had to keep quiet, seeing as the only person who could see and talk to her was Kikyou. She had to admit Kikyou had luck on her side, well sort of. It probably wasn't luck that she broke her leg, but still, she got pretty damn close. She held in a laugh as the image of Kikyou rubbing her face in Inuyasha's testicles returned to her mind. Finally she couldn't help, she let out her laughter. She quietly regained her composure, she straightened up her hair and fixed a bit of her make-up. I need to start acting like a Geisha She thought to herself.
"Oh what do I care, I'm dead" she said, trying to laugh, but this sadly wasn't funny to her. She only wished she could have the same chance as Kikyou. She wanted Kikyou to succeed which was why she was here now, to help her by fixing her leg. She didn't want Kikyou to end up like her, a mess, a wondering spirit filled with anger and hate.
"Forgive me Kikyou, but this may hurt" she said, placing her hand on Kikyou's broken leg. "A lot."
She chanted silently to herself, a small glow erupted from her hand and into Kikyou's wounded leg. After that she excited the room.
"You'll thank me later, Kikyou" she said aloud, and vanished into the night.
I had Ayumi end the chapter for some reason, i don't remember why O.O lololol
Okay
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Chapter 5: Inuyasha's Responsibility