Let Me In-Chapter Fifteen
By MoneyTunes10
The lust galloping through Edward's veins has rendered Isabella's usual astute senses useless…she can taste it in his blood… and her taste buds dance with joy at his lustfully sweet flavor…
For this reason, she had no hope of seeing Alice's small frame shuddering, no hope of smelling this particular Cullen… but the audible fright that leaves Alice as she remains in the doorway is enough for the feral eyes of this creature to shift to the sound.
Isabella's lips remain latched to Edward's throat…still devouring his life essence…but her eyes glare at Alice, challenging her to make more than a whimper. Her love, Edward, is taken aback at the sheer terror in his twin's eyes. He has never seen his sister so afraid, not since they were kids and he fell off his bike. But he can not wretch himself free of Bella, the unyielding urge to remain in her grasp leaves him in a sea of lust and fear.
He feels when her lips leave his neck…her tongue tickles him as she takes a slow languid lick, sealing the wound with her venom…
"Hello Alice, can I help you?"
Isabella smirks at the small human before her…her milky white neck is practically sheer as her veins pulsate with fear. The adrenaline in the room is palpable…
Ahhh…the Cullens smell most appetizing…but her Edward is the most flavorful.
Her ruby eyes study Edward and she can see the doubt cloud his green orbs. Although he remains holding her, the urge to right the wrong communicating through his eyes takes over. She has to ignore the creature trying to force its way out…the creature that yearns to consume all the blood rhythmically thundering in the small room.
Ruby orbs turn to brown as Isabella quells her bloodlust and softens her alien appearance. Even Alice is surprised when she looks more human …
"You know that I'll never hurt you right?"
Her voice is saccharine sweet…too sweet…too innocent. Isabella can only focus on both their heartbeats as she awaits his response…
Their hearts are in unison…thunderous with fear…
Edward's eyes finally shift from his sister's to Bella's… her brown eyes does not look like the Bella he knows, they seem more sinister now…more alien…
Isabella Swan is most assuredly more than a human teenage girl…
Does he know that she will not hurt him? Edward is unsure but he nods anyway.
Perfect white teeth flash when he gives his affirmation.
The same satisfied smile is angled at Alice who can only blink. This is not Bella, something seems wilder much more feral about the girl sitting on the counter with her brother standing between her thighs. Alice doesn't think before the words leave her mouth, "what are you?"
"Oh Alice don't be like that…I'm the same girl…Isabella…and don't worry about your brother, he was helping me."
"Oh."
What is she suppose to say to that? What she witnessed between Bella and Edward seemed so intimate…
"I trust that you will keep this between us."
There is not a request… but Alice ponders the idea before she answers.
Will she be able to keep this from Jasper?
Since Bella entered their lives, she has had to cover up strange events for this girl including the unanswered questions from the night of Charlie's death…
Alice nods despite the gut feeling that she should tell someone, anyone about Isabella's strange habits.
With that, the three silently leave the bathroom and rejoin the others.
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In the following days, Isabella is the most present manifestation…and rightly so because Bella is hiding, for lack of a better disposition.
The hurt from Charlie's death have left the softer side of this creature without the capacity to function and so her human qualities fall to the wayside.
The Cullens assume that she is withdrawing as a coping mechanism to deal with Charlie's death but Alice and Edward know better…
The incident with Bella in the bathroom has scared Edward enough for him to withdraw slightly from her. He feels guilty about the timing of his decision but he needs space to figure out his irrational feelings for her. He also needs to know what she is…it didn't seem important at first but when he saw the fear in Alice, he had to reexamine his earlier notions.
And so we find Edward spending less time with Bella…Alice follows suit and isn't as warm to Bella either…they are afraid of the unknown, as expected.
Humans are always afraid of the unknown…this is one lesson that Isabella is taught time and time again. The lesson never ceases, it runs on a loop through time and she sees the fear in both Alice and Edward…for she is the unknown.
Let's not forget about Edward's dutiful girlfriend… Tanya is delighted for the obvious frostiness between the Cullen twins and Bella.
Rosalie differs; she is in a state of oblivion and does not care for the tension. Her own apprehension towards Isabella is thrown to the wayside simply because she is bored.
Emmett and Jasper still try to include Bella in their activities…they may not understand why Alice and Edward suddenly turned a cold shoulder to Bella, but they have no qualms with her.
At least that's what they remind themselves every time Bella turns them down…
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What our sweet little humans don't know is that Edward's withdrawal from Isabella is detrimental…she is questioning the entire concept of mating because of Edward's reaction…she is in a dark place…a cruel place…
The place that every girl gets to when they are made aware of their ignorance…that fairytales are not true…they never were…but nightmares…ahhh those are as real as it gets…
It seems that Isabella was in some dreaming state when she began living with Charlie… she thought she could camouflage what she was and pretend that she was human…
Now that she knows better, nothing can draw her from this state…her constant thought is of Edward's rejection, which is the key that holds her under.
She can feel the oppression of his refusal deep in her bones. She can touch it through the walls, taste it on her tongue, but most of all, she hears it. It is loud and it is clear... through Tanya's whimpers of pleasure, her stifled moans and uncontrollable panting as Edward thrusts inside her. As Edward spills into her, as Edward loves her.
If you could peek into Isabella's room, you would see her gently touch the wall, press her ear against it and feel the minuscule vibrations of their lovemaking…then you would witness the fracturing of an unbreakable creature…the hair on the back of your neck would start to shiver….goosebumps would erupt and the most basic instinct inside of you would scream to run…warning you that Isabella is becoming unhinged.
Her nostrils flare and her body quivers…she can feel her mate, from her feet to the hollows of her eyelids, electrifying her spine, breaking her ribs and shattering her skull.
This is the damage that Edward continually inflicts on Isabella…every moment he makes love to Tanya in the Cullen home.
And although Isabella is birthed from evil, there was always hope that the good that inherently accompanies all evil things could be coerced from her. How laughable this idea is now…
As the days pass by, she loses the little humanity Charlie managed to bring forth from her…
Why should she deny herself? Her nature? She is the living dead; Death itself was undone for her, so why should she be craving a human boy…one so alive unlike herself.
And so she tells herself…no more dreaming like a love struck girl… she's been in love with the wrong world for too long and she was going to change that. She would unleash herself unto the world…starting with this small town.
A storm erupts inside her, thunder sounds and lightning cracks…she submerges herself in the dark world that she has known for as long as she can remember…the spell of needing to be human has been broken and now she is torn open in the midst of this storm.
She sees the disparity between herself and her human Edward.
But wait my Lovelies, you think her fracturing is the worst part…to see the object of your desire with anther…what if you couldn't leave…couldn't' turn away to stop the pain…had to remain near him…
It would be so easy to run away from it all…to escape…but it is impossible for her to live without Edward. Knowing that her other half exists…albeit in human form…she must remain rooted near him or risk dying… she is caged.
All that power and nowhere to go to unleash it…until she has the conversation with Carlisle and Esme about her attending Forks High.
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What a sight to see Isabella walk the halls of Forks High School. Clearly her features are more appropriate for high fashion magazines and this makes the hormonal boys insatiable. They grab every opportunity to fixate on her features but they keep their distance. Maybe it's the way she turns her head in their direction and looks at them like prey, maybe it's the lithe movements of her body…or maybe it's just human instinct…it keeps them away.
Edward notices this…they way they look at her and the way she dismisses their attention. How can he not notice this? He notices everything about Bella. Even as he tries to banish her from his mind, his faculties betray him…and his soul rebels. It sneers at Tanya when he makes love to her and screams for Bella because he knows how close she is. But he just needs time to sort out what she is…he hadn't meant to be so cold to her. Not really, it was Alice who suggested that he take some time to figure out what he wanted… because clearly there was more than friendship between them. She even promised to support him, claiming that she had to re-evaluate her friendship with Bella…
But a curious thing was happening to Edward…the more he remained aloof from Bella, the more he seemed to be losing time.
It first started with him zoning out in class…he resurfaced to an annoyed teacher yelling his name to bring him back to reality. But when Edward returns, he is startled when he realizes that he doesn't remember where he is, or who he is. There is only one name that runs through his head…Isabella.
That was the first time…
The lapses in time become longer… he would forget the name of the dark haired girl sitting across from him or the strawberry blond holding his hand or the young girl jumping around excitedly, yet he instinctively knew that they were not Isabella.
Edward began to have frequent episodes, each lasted longer, then it would take him longer to recollect Alice's name, or Tanya's and even Carlie, his own baby sister. Once, he remained staring at a brawny dark haired boy and a blonde boy, trying to remember them but the memories took a long time to return. When Edward's memories were finally restored, they flowed painfully into him; his neurons all fired at once…trying to reconnect, desperate for the renewal of knowledge. He would be left drained and dizzy, alerting his family and friends.
Something's wrong with Edward...
Brain scans and neurologists at Carlisle's job failed to find anything out of the ordinary... no aneurysm…just a normal teenage brain.
Yes, Edward's lapses are a curious thing indeed.
But a slow smile spreads on Isabella's face as she listens to the hushed discussion between the worried Cullen parents. Something is obviously wrong with their son and they need to locate the problem in order to solve it.
At first, Isabella wasn't sure how mate separation would manifest for a human, but it seems that Edward's mind has rebelled. She may be starving and in physical pain, but her hardened body can withstand much more than Edward's. She did not have the pleasure of witnessing one of his blackouts but she has a good idea what a cure would entail…
Annotation: Sorry for the delay with updating…I was just waiting for Isabella to inspire me :)