Soulmates Chapter 3: Abandon All Hope, a supernatural fanfic

Chapter Two- Abandon All Hope

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We needed a plan so once we arrived at Bobby's we called Elena and Jo who agreed to help therefore they headed to Bobby's. In the meantime we set about searching for demonic omens and began to compile a list of possible places Crawley could be hiding out. I was in the kitchen when out of now where a man appeared, my hand went for my gun but then my powers told me that this being was an angel so my hand relaxed slightly but still held my gun for reassurance.

"Castiel?" I questioned.

"That's right. You must be Gabrielle." He replied. I nodded shocked that this seriously hot angel knew my name.

"How do you know my name?" I asked.

Castiel laughed. "I could ask you the same question but then again I could also answer it. You are very well known amongst the angels for your rare and powerful gifts." He answered.

"So you know what I can do?" I questioned.

"I know that you can sense beings of power and tell if they are demon, angel or fallen angel and that you have amazing strengths as a faith healer. Your other gift intrigues even us angel as we are not sure of how if works." Castiel responded.

"Ok then, I take it you are looking for the Winchesters?" I said

"Yes but it appears they are not here." Castiel responded.

"They will be back soon along with my sister, Bobby and another couple of hunters." I told him. "If you would like to you can wait here until they get back." I added.

"Sounds like a good idea." Castiel replied. "What is it you are doing?" He asked gesturing to the pile of paper next to me and my open laptop.

"Trying to look for possible places Crawley could be. The problem is there are a few places that demonic omens are showing up so we don't know where to find him." I explained.

"Have you tried using your powers to help you?" He questioned.

"No, Jenna is the only one that knows about them and I don't know how I would explain it to them." I answered.

I sat down again and began to go thought the list with Castiel, with his angelic powers and my 'gifts' as he called them, we narrowed it down to two places. The others finally arrived and I was glad to be able to get out of the house and go for a walk to get a chance to think. Somehow by the time I had made it to the beaten up impala that I had been fixing up – from the way it looked I think it was a 63 but I couldn't be sure - I had completely forgotten what I had wanted to think about.

I went into the shed next to the guest house – Bobby and I had built both when I was 18 so that my sister and I could have our own space – and got my tool box and began to work on the car (a great way to relax and think). My mind began going over my muddled up feeling and what had lead to then. Firstly I was worried about going to get the colt, secondly I was scared about going after the devil and third and most freaky was how in about half an hour I had somehow fallen for Castiel.

While we were sorting through all the omens I had handed him some of the paper and our hands brushed up against each other, the smallest moment of contact had sent my head spinning and shiver ran down my spine. From the look in his eyes I could tell he was effected as well but the thing was I was scared that as he is an angel that he wouldn't be interested in me. Jenna came out and came over to where I was.

"Gabby, get out from under the car I need to talk to you." Jenna shouted.

I slid from under the car and got up wiping my hands on a cloth. "What is it?" I asked.

"I told Dean about your powers and he told Sammy, Ellen and Jo. Bobby doesn't know but I wanted to tell you the guys would ask you about it." Jenna babbled.

"Don't worry about it I was going to have to explain it to them before I try and heal Bobby." I responded.

Jenna smiled and the two of us walked back to the house. When we got in the Winchesters, where telling Bobby what Jenna had told Dean. "Hey Gabby, why didn't you tell us what you could do earlier?" Sam asked.

"I didn't know how to tell you and I didn't really know my full strength. The whole thing scared me and I did want to tell anyone except Jenna till I knew what the full extent of my powers where." I answered.

"Do you know the full extent of what you can do now?" Ellen questioned.

"No, there are still aspects of my powers that I don't understand. However I was actually going to tell you guys because I want to see if I am strong enough to heal Bobby." I responded.

"Do you think you will be able to?" Dean asked.

"No idea but I want to try." I said walking over to Bobby.

I took Bobby's hand and closed my eyes focusing on trying to heal him. Slowly I began to feel the warmth and calmness that came over me when I connected to my healing power. My strength channelled into healing Bobby and I felt myself weakening as my power flowed into Bobby. I heard the others gasp as Bobby moved his legs then for the first time ever after using my powers, I blacked out.

I woke with a pounding head and blinked several as my eyes adjusted to the light of the rising sun. A figure was sitting by my side and as my senses and powers returned I was able to establish the figure was Castiel. Carefully I sat up and looked at Castiel, his bright ocean blue eyes showed signs of concern as he observed me carefully before I broke the pleasant silence.

"Did it work?" I asked.

"Yes it did. The doctors say they are no signs that he was ever paralyzed." Castiel answered.

"That's good at least it was worth it." I relied.

"You have been unconscious for three days everyone has been really worried about you." Castiel said.

"Where are the others?" I quizzed.

"They went to go and have a look around to see which of the two places Crawley is hiding" he answered. "I stayed here because the demons would have been able to attack you if you were left undefended so I watched over you." He added.

"Thanks for staying." I responded getting up. "I going to have a shower and then get something to eat. Stick around ok." I added heading into the small on suite bathroom. The hot water woke me up and by the time I was washed and dressed I began to realise how hungry I was.

I went into the kitchen in the guest house as that was where I was. I made my self something to eat while Castiel filled me in on what I had missed. It wasn't much so I didn't feel too bad as I wanted to be able to help go after the devil. "Why did you stay with me?" I questioned.

"I wanted to make sure you were ok and Jenna wasn't happy about leaving you unprotected." He answered. I chuckled that sounded like Jenna.

I had finished with the dishes and they were all in their place so I walked over to Castiel and gave him a small hug. "Thanks for looking after me." I whispered raising my face to look him in the eyes. By accident our lips met when I moved to give him a kiss on the check. The kiss was soft and gentle but Castiel ended by pulling back breaking the embrace as well as the kiss.

Castiel left not long after that and I sat down to do some research but somehow ended up sitting on the bed with my guitar playing 'If You Only Knew' by Shinedown.

If you only knew
I'm hanging by a thread
The web I spin for you
If you only knew
I'd sacrifice my beating
Heart before I lose you
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
I swear I've lived and learned

[Chorus]
Its 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew
How many times I counted
All the words that went wrong
If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go,
Even when you're gone
I don't regret any days I
Spent, nights we shared,
Or letters that I sent

[Chorus]
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
You help me live and learn

As I sang I heard the others come in to check on me, they came into my room and saw me sitting on my beds with my guitar. Jenna gave me a significant look as if asking who I was singing about.

Once the others left, Jenna sat down next to me. "So who was that about?" Jenna asked.

"You would laugh" I answered.

"Come on Gabby you can tell me" Jenna urged.

"Maybe later ok." I said getting up and going into Bobby's house and sitting down with the others. "So what did you guys find out?" I asked.

"We went to the first of the two places and looked around but the demon we found was not Crowley so we sent it back to hell and came back here." Dean answered.

"So Castiel is staking out the other town" Jenna added.

"So we are just going to sit on our hands and do nothing." I responded.

"Well it will give you time to work on that car of yours." Jenna stated.

"I would rather help Castiel it would make it much quicker." I sighed.

"You could help me it would make things go much faster." Castiel said making me jump.

"See the angel says I can go so I am going." I smiled.

"Come on Cas why did you have to take Gabby's side?" Jenna whined.

"I took her side because she is right and her ability to sense demons powers will make things go much faster" Castiel answered. "We should get going" Cas added.

I grabbed a duffel bag and tossed in some clothes before heading back to the others. Castiel took my hands and flew to the town where we suspected that Crowley was hiding out. It took us a moment after we arrived for us to let go of each others hands. It was beginning to get dark so we would not be able to search for very long.

"Lets find somewhere for you to stay while we look around." Castiel suggested. Wow that took me by surprise I figure we would get started right away.

"Ok but don't you want to start looking for Crowley?" I asked.

"That can wait for now but you need to eat something and it might be better if you aren't carrying around a duffel bag that contains weapons." Castiel answered.

I found a motel using the internet on my mobile and went to check in then left my duffel bag in the room then Castiel and I went to look for Crowley.

I got a take out and ate that while Castiel and I looked around the town. When it got dark Castiel told me to get some sleep so I wet back to the motel wondering what he would do while I was a sleep. In the morning I was woken by Castiel's gentle voice. "Jenna don't worry I will keep and eye on your sister………Yes she is fine……….No she is still asleep at the moment………..Yes I'll tell her to call when she gets up." Castiel fell silent and I heard the phone snap shut.

Rolling over I looked over to Castiel. "What did Jenna want?" I asked.

"She wanted to make sure there were no side effects from you healing Bobby." Castiel answered.

"I'll call her later." I said "but right now I am going to have a shower and get changed." I added heading into the bathroom and shutting the door.

Once I was ready I took a cereal bar from my duffel bag and Castiel and I went out to search for Crowley. By lunch time we were unsuccessful so I got a sandwich and Castiel and I sat down in the park so I could eat it. After I had eaten we continued to look for Crowley but we had little success so at about eleven o'clock at night I returned to the motel and got ready to go to bed.

In the middle of the night I woke from a nightmare breathing heavily with tears running down my face. I sat up and felt a hand grasp my shoulder and began to turn round slowly to see who it was; my hand sliding under my pillow for my iron knife. Quickly I spun round pushing the person onto the bed hold the knife to their throat. While holding them down with the rest of my body I reached out and turned on the bed side lamp.

"Damn it Cas I nearly killed." I sighed rolling off him so he could get up.

"Are you ok?" He asked softly.

"I held a knife to your throat and you're asking if I'm ok." I stated laughing.

"You were crying and your breathing became heavier I thought it was a result of you healing Bobby." Castiel responded.

"It was just a bad dream I am find." I stated getting up to get a glass of water.

"What was the dream about?" Castiel asked.

"It was nothing just some random bad dream." I avoided not wanting to discus the real subject as I knew it wasn't a dream. Castiel left after he had made sure I was ok and I made him promise not to tell Jenna. The rest of the night was uneventful and I was able to sleep.

"Gabrielle, what is that dream about?" Castiel asked.

"I don't want to talk about it just yet" I whispered.

"We should get going then." Castiel responded.

"Maybe he doesn't come out in the day which is why we can't find him." I suggested.

"You might be right but we should probably keep looking just in case." Castiel responded.

"I know but maybe we should spend tonight looking around for him." I stated.

"Good idea but don't you need to sleep?" Castiel asked.

"I do but as a hunter I can function well without much sleep meaning I can hunt at night." I answered.

We began to wander around the town but we still had no idea where Crowley was; in fact we didn't even know what he looked like. My cell rang, "Hello"

"Hi, Gabrielle is Jenna around?" Taylor questioned.

"She is at Bobby's how come you phoned me instead of her?" I asked.

"Her cell is off, where are you if you're not with her?" Taylor responded.

"I am with Castiel trying to locate a demon that we believe is in position of the colt." I replied.

"As in the angel that dragged Dean's ass out of hell?" Taylor quizzed.

"No of course not" I teased sarcastically.

"I'll call Bobby's to get Jenna then. Nice talking to you I might join you guys and the Winchesters since you could always do with an extra pair of hands fighting the devil."

"Really you don't just want to check Sam out, and are using helping as an excuse?" I laughed.

"Both, I want to help kick the devil's evil ass and check out Sam's hotness." Taylor answered before hanging up.

I laughed shutting my phone. "What is so funny?" Castiel asked.

"Jenna's friend Taylor was just being an idiot." I responded. The day then continued on much the same as the pervious one. That night I went to sleep feeling oddly tired or maybe my lack of sleep was beginning to catch up with me.

The next morning I got up and when I was dressed had something to eat. Lucifer appeared. "Here, take this and when you are ready to accept me and you future then smash it and the grace will flow into you." Lucifer instructed.

"Where did this grace come from?" I stammered.

"From me, it is but a small piece of my grace and it will bind us together for eternity and make you more powerful than anyone can imagine." Lucifer responded.

With that he left. I lay curled up on my bed holding the small vile of grace replacing Lucifer's word over and over again.

"You are becoming an angel where you like it or not it has begun to happen. Your love for Castiel and his growing feelings for you are doing this but even if you survive the change I will not let you spend eternity with your precious Castiel. You will be my bride, my partner. The change will be more painful if it happens slowly and you have less chance of surviving." Lucifer explained.

The weight on the bed shifted as someone sat down.

I didn't move, I knew it was an angel so I remained still pretending not to notice. "Gabrielle what is wrong?" Castiel said his voice oddly soothing to me.

I told Castiel everything; I hadn't meant to it just all came pouring out of me. "You will be ok; you are stronger than anyone knows. Healing Bobby should have killed you but you survived. It proves you are strong enough to survive becoming an angel and that you are a fighter." Castiel reassured.

"Wow you really have being spending too much time with us." I joked.

I lent and kissed Castiel, the kiss was soft and gentle. Surprisingly Castiel didn't pull back straight away instead he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer deepening the kiss. My phone rang causing us to pull back both breathing heavily. I answered my phone.

"Hey, Jenna what's up?" I asked.

"I was just calling to see how it was going so far." Jenna responded.

"So far we haven't found anything so we are going to spend tonight looking for him as well." I replied.

"Ok, call in when you find something." Jenna said before hanging up.

"Let's get going" I stated.

"Your right, the long we search the more likely it is we will find Crowley." Castiel responded.

I took Castiel's hand and we continued our search. By midday I was starting to think he may have moved on. "Maybe he has left." I said voicing my thoughts.

Just then we came to an old bridge where two men stood one was clearly a demon (I could feel his power getting stronger as we got closer) and the other looked like he was here to make a deal.

"Mr. Pendleton, I presume? The name's Crowley." Crowley said.

"In my negotiations I was, uh, dealing with a very young, attractive young lady..." the man answered uncertainly.

"Yes, I know. But you, piggy-banker, you... are a big fish. And I wanted to do you the honour of sealing this deal personally." Crowley responded.

"She said the deal would be sealed with a kiss." Mr Pendleton replied.

Crowley smiled "That's right" he answered.

"No, I mean she's... I don't..." Mr Pendleton stammered.

"Your choice, you can cling to six decades of deep-seated homophobia, or, just give it up, and get a complete bail-out of your bank's ridiculous incompetence." Crowley responded.

"There are just things that I..." Mr Pendleton stated.

"Going once" Crowley begins

"No, I don't think so…" Mr Pendleton started

"Going Twice" Crowley continues.

"All right, all right" Mr Pendleton snarls.

Crowley pulled him into a kiss while the poor man squirmed. I pulled out my mobile and called Dean. "Dean we've got him but as we speak he is sealing a deal." I whispered.

"All right just don't loss him." Dean responded.

"We won't loss him" I hissed.

We followed him to a big house on the edge of town which explains why we hadn't found him we had not yet searched the outskirts.

"We followed him. It's not far, but... it's layered in Enochian warding magic. I can't get in." Cas told Dean. "Dean says they will take it from here." Cas filled me in.

"Dean has to be joking if he thinks that I will be sitting this one out." I stated.

"You need to sleep." Castiel responded placing two figures on my forehead and then I was asleep. I woke up back in my motel room, Castiel was sitting staring out the window. Some part of me understood how he must be feeling; scared, alone, lost but part of me told me there was more to it than that. "What time is it?" I asked.

"A little after five in the morning. The others found Crowley he gave them the colt and told them where Lucifer will be Thursday." Castiel stated.

"Great and I missed all that because you made me sleep" I whined.

"You needed to sleep." Castiel responded.

I silently swore when I saw what Castiel was holding. The grace Lucifer had given me.

"I guess you want me to tell you how I got the grace." I whispered.

"That is your business I don't need to know." Castiel responded.

I got up and wake over to where Castiel sat still looking out the window. "Cas, I still don't understand why Lucifer is so interested in me and I have been trying to decipher what he said. I wanted to tell you sooner but I was scared that you would be killed." I explained.

"You do not need to explain yourself." Castiel replied.

I sighed then crouched down in front of Castiel so that he was looking at me. He tried to turn away but I moved his face so our eyes met then I told him everything the devil had told me including the parts involving Castiel. After I finished telling Castiel he just sat silently; I moved to sit down next to him.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Castiel asked turning to face me.

"I didn't know how you would react." I answered.

"Why?" Cas questioned.

"Zachariah tried to kill me last time I saw him so I thought that you would have a similar reaction." I replied. "Where is everyone now?" I added.

"They are all at Bobby's." Castiel answered.

"Well then lets go. I am not missing out on helping to kill the devil." I stated.

"Jenna told me to keep you here." Castiel responded.

"To bad we are going, my sister is just being overly concerned." I said.

Castiel gave in and took me to Bobby's. Jenna was a bit annoyed but final gave up trying to stop me. Ellen, Jo and Taylor had all come to help meaning that we had a total of nine people ready to face the devil. "Do you realise that we are probably the largest group of hunters working cooperatively ever." I stated.

"Ye but Castiel is an angel and you have powers that are very rare so I don't think that the two of you really count." Jenna teased. I just shrugged.

Bobby called us all into his study and made us all stand in a group and he took a picture of us all. Castiel had his arm around my waist which made gave me and idea – not one that I was going to try but all the same the idea made me smile slightly.

The next day we arrived in Carthage, Missouri. "Jen you getting a signal?" I asked.

"No nothing Gabby you? Jenna replied.

"Nothing technical but my powers are screaming at me." I answered.

Dean signalled for us to pull beside then. "We are going to check out the PD you guys stay here and see if you can find anyone." Dean instructed.

We got out the car, Castiel using his angel powers. Castiel was looking round. "What is it Cas?" Ellen asked.

"This towns not empty," He paused "The reapers." He added

"Reapers as n more than one?" Ellen questioned.

"They only gather like this at times of great catastrophe Chicago fire, San Francisco quake. Excuse m I've got to find out why they are here." Castiel rambled walking off.

"I'll go with him, just in case he needs help." I said running after him.

We walked through the reapers, I had adjusted my sight by connecting to my powers to see them. In a window there was a single reaper that turned and began to walk away when it saw us. I took Castiel's hand and he flow us to into the room. I decided to keep holding Castiel's hand as we walked through the house. We walked into the room at the end of the hall. "Hello brother." Lucifer greeted.

Castiel and I where now stood trapped by a circle of holy oil. "Lucifer" Castiel said.

"So I take it you're here with the Winchesters?" Lucifer asked.

"No we came alone." I answered.

"Loyalty. Hm. Such a nice quality to see in this day and age. Castiel, right?" Lucifer said.

Castiel nodded. "Gabrielle it is so nice to see you. I am glad you came." Lucifer added.

"I am not glad to see you." I hissed.

"Castiel, I'm told you came here in an automobile." Lucifer stated.

"Yes" Castiel answered.

"What was that like?" Lucifer asked.

"Um….. Slow. Confining." Castiel answered.

"What a peculiar thing you are." Lucifer said.

"Lucifer, What's with the lesions on your face?" I quizzed.

"What's wrong with your vessel?" Castiel asked.

"Yes, um. Nick is wearing a bit thin, I'm afraid. He can't contain me forever so…" Lucifer began.

"You." Castiel responded angrily stepping forward. I put my arm out stopping Castiel. He looked over at me thankfully remembering the holy fire. "You are not taking Sam Winchester. I won't let you." Castiel stated.

"Castiel. I don't understand why you're fighting me, of all the angels." Lucifer said.

"You really have to ask?" Castiel queried.

"I rebelled, I was cast out, you rebelled, you were cast out. Almost all of Heaven wants to see me dead and if they succeed guess what? You're their new public enemy number one. We're on the same side, like it or not, so, why not just serve your own best interests which in this case just happen to be mine." Lucifer responded

"I'll die first." Castiel replied.
"I suppose you will." Lucifer said.

Lucifer left and I pulled Castiel into a gentle hug. "I am going to see how the others are doing." I whispered. I closed my eyes and was stood beside my sister. Dean: Well this is great, we've only

"Well this is great, we've only been in town for twenty minutes and we've already lost the angel up our sleeve." Dean stated.

"You think Lucifer got them?" Sam asked.
"I dunno what else to think."
"There you are!" Meg exclaimed
"Meg." Sam stated

"Hi Meg" I sang. Meg glared at me angrily.

"How the hell did you get out the holy fire?" Meg demanded. Everyone looked around confused until Jenna realised. "Gabby" Jenna stated.

Everyone still looked confused. "She has this weird power that she can use to spy on people or check up on them. No one can see her but angels and demons."

"Shouldn't have come here, boys." Meg said
2Yeah, I could say the same thing for you" Dean said walking forward and aiming the Colt at her.

"Didn't come here alone, Deano." Meg responded. Dean glanced around nervously.

"Hellhounds." Dean stated,
"Yeah Dean! Your favourite. Come on boys. My father wants to see you." Meg ordered.

"I think we'll pass, thanks." Sam answered.
"Your call. You can make this easy, or you can make it really hard." Meg taunted. Dean glanced back at Ellen, who nodded. He looked back at Meg.
"Whenhave you known us to ever make anything easy?" Dean asked shooting a hellhound everyone started to run.

The next part happened really quickly, Dean went down Jo moved forward shooting the hellhounds then one of them torn at her side and I tried to use my powers but Jenna shot the hellhound. Dean picked Jo up and they run into a shop. I snapped back to where I was and told Cas what was happening. When I came back Lucifer was talking to Castiel. "Now Castiel you have some time, time to change your mind." Lucifer was saying.

"You seem pleased." Castiel said to Meg

"We're gonna win. Can you feel it? You cloud-hopping pansies lost the whole damn universe. Lucifer's gonna take over Heaven. We're going to Heaven, Clarence!" Meg gloated.
"Strange. Because I heard a different theory from a demon named Crowley." Castiel replied.
Meg's smile vanished. "You don't know Crowley." She stated
"He believes that Lucifer is just using demons to achieve an end. And that once he does... he'll destroy you all." Castiel responded
"You're wrong! Lucifer is the father of our race. Our creator. Your God may be a deadbeat, but mine – mine walks the Earth." Meg stammered
The pipe falls, knocking Meg into the circle. Castiel puts his hand on her forehead but nothing happens. She laughs.
"You can't gank demons, can you? You're cut off from the home office, and you ain't got the juice. So what can you do, you impotent sap?" Meg taunted
"I can do this!" Castiel responded He throws her into the circle of fire and steps out over her waiting to help me over.

"One second." I said turning to Meg. "Maybe Cas can't kill you but I can so remember that Bitch." I told her.

Castiel took my hand and took us to the others. He signalled for them to be quiet then took us all to Bobby's. We were told that the wound Jo had sustain would have killed her and that she and Ellen had sacrificed themselves to kill the hellhounds that I couldn't kill due to the flaw in my powers that means I can only use one at a time. Bobby held the photo of us all in his hand then placed it in the fire.

I walked outside to clear my head, if I had stayed with them I could have destroyed the hellhounds and saved Jo and Ellen but no I had to go with Castiel. This was my fault, I should have stayed it was stupid for both of us had gone, we were the only to that had powers. Mine could have saved them but no I had to go with Castiel. I had to follow my heart.

A hand on my shoulder pulled me from my thoughts. "You couldn't have know this is not your fault." Castiel reassured.

"If it is not my fault why do feel so guilty?" I asked.

"They where your friends and you are grieving. You feel responsible for something that you could have know would happen." Castiel comforted. I lay my head on his shoulder and let the tears I had been hiding flow down my checks.

Castiel wrapped his arms around me and let me cry. He lightly kissed me head when my tears ran out. "No one blames you but yourself. If you want to blame someone blame Meg or Lucifer but not yourself." Castiel said. I lent and kissed his check.

"Thanks for helping me so much." I responded. We the went back inside and tried to figure out the devils next move.

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