Chapter Three – Discoveries
Hey sorry it took so long to update but my laptop broke and everything I hadn't backed up got wiped so I had to start from the beginning when I got it back. Hope you enjoy the update. Glad to be back on to work on this fic.
I lay awake thinking about the mistake I had made the one that had cost my friends their lives, the one that made me regret the decision to follow Castiel. Final I fell into an uneasy sleep. The dream I have is weird may different lives all seen through my eyes. My past life's, I learn that I have been reincarnated nine times and have met many angels including Anna, Uriel and Castiel before. The vision then goes on to my life but things that haven't happened. The future. There is only one thing I see.
Jenna and I are running through underground tunnels there are two people running in front of us with a third supported between the two, a four it being rescued by Taylor and they should be behind us so , I turn around the wendigo is catching up preventing Taylor and the guy from getting out. I pull out my flare and shoot. At the same time as I pull the trigger the wendigo goes up in flames and collapses. My flare carries on straight into Taylor who cried out before the flames consume her. Someone grabs me and pulls me from the tunnels into the dim evening. The next day Sam is gone and the second day after he says yes to the devil.
I wake with a start, tears running down my checks. Everything it is all my fault; Sam saying yes, the world ending. Writing a note I pack my things and disappear into the night hopefully me leaving will changed what I saw, it isn't set in stone that it will happen but there is just a very good chance of it happening. If I leave then Taylor will live. If Taylor lives Sam doesn't say yes and if Sam doesn't say yes then the world won't end.
Quickly I write a note, pack my things and push my car far enough away so no one will here it start. Soon I am on the long journey, driving on instinct going somewhere but not knowing where. The sky is starting to turn red, the sun is rising, the others will be waking up soon and I won't be there. A tear runs down my check at the thought of them wondering where I am, everything that can be traced of mine is sitting on my bed, set out so they can see I have left of my own free will. Music drifted from my car radio. Within Temptation – The Truth Beneath The Rose was playing.
Give me strength to face the truth
The doubt within my soul
No longer I can justify
The bloodshed in his name
Is it a sin to seek the truth
The truth beneath the rose
Pray with me so I will find
The gate to heaven's door
I believe it would justify the means
It had a hold over me
Blinded to see the cruelty of the beast
It is the darker side of me
(Forgive me my sins)
The veil of my dreams deceiver I have seen
Forgive me for what I have been
Forgive me my sins
I wonder if they will look for my. Of course they will Jenna won't be satisfied with my note. Castiel. My thoughts turn quickly to him, I wish I had spoken to him before I left but if I had I doubt I would be here now. Driving from memory with no thought as to what I am doing. I will hunt, it's the only thing I can do knowing what will happen. Maybe I could see if my powers are strong enough to kill Lucifer. Something maybe my instinct of one of my past selves tells me that I just wishfully thinking. I began to think about the battle we had been drawn into and how we had been brought between heaven and hell.
Pray for me cause I have lost
My faith in holy wars
This paradise denied to me
Cause I can take no more
Has darkness taken over me
Consumed my mortal soul
All my virtues sacrificed
Can heaven be so cruel
I believe it would justify the means
It had a hold over me
(Forgive me my sins)
Blinded to see the cruelty of the beast
It is the darker side of me
(Forgive me my sins)
The veil of my dreams deceiver I have seen
Forgive me for what I have been
Forgive me my sins
I'm hoping, I'm praying
I won't get lost between two worlds
Follow a sin the truth lies in between
Give me strength to face the wrong that I have done
Now that I know the darkest side of me
How can blood be your salvation
And justify the pain that
We have caused throughout the times
Will I learn what's truly sacred
Will I redeem my soul
Will truth set me free
(Forgive me my sins)
Blinded to see the cruelty of the beast
It is the darker side of me
(Forgive me my sins)
The veil of my dreams deceiver I have seen
Forgive me for what I have been
Forgive me my sins
Final I arrive at where I have been heading, Jenna doesn't know this place. It is my save heaven, somewhere I feel safe. Inside nothing has changed, the furniture, decorations and books are all where I left them last time I was here. This house was one that my parents had built for when they where hunting in the area. There was a supernatural proof basement that I had added to. Edwardian warding magic to prevent angels for getting in.
Once I unpacked I went to the shops and bought some supplies. I got enough to last me a long time as I didn't know how long I would stay here. After I had some breakfast I sat in the big armchair in the library and began to read up on what I knew was yet to come of this battle.
Jenna's POV
I woke Dean's arm wrapped protectively around me. I slid out of bed careful not to wake him, I need to talk to Taylor and see what they could do about Sam's supposed future. Maybe my sister can help. If I tell her what I learned from the demons when I rescued her that time all those years ago when I left . She has been reincarnated nine times and each time her powers have grown, she can see the future maybe she can tell us why Sam says yes and then we can stop it.
Quickly I get changed and head to Taylor's room. Quietly I open the door and see Sam lying beside her, both fast asleep. Taylor stirs so I softly wake her and whisper my plan. She moves Sam's arm and kisses his check before getting out of bed and changing. We the head to Gabby's room. The door is open a crack which is odd, she never leaves her door open. Her room is empty bar all her phones and every other object we could possible trace. A note is taped to the mirror. Taylor opens it and the two of us read it.
Dear Jenna, Dean, Taylor, Sam and Bobby,
You will not know this but I have been reincarnated nine times and each time my powers have grown stronger and I can see the future. I have left to go and hunt on my own for in six months time, Jenna, Taylor and I will hunt a wendigo and Taylor will die. Sam will leave and two days after her death he will say yes to the devil. I have met Castiel once before and even then I loved him. Please tell Castiel that I love him and that I have loved him since that time we met when he trained me with his brothers so I could fight the devil with them. Please tell him it is not his fault I died using my powers to help save him and the angels I was with. He couldn't have known until it was to late. You guys are the best family a girl could have.
Love and hugs always
Gabrielle.
P.S: I will see you all again when I know that what I have seen can no longer come to past.
Gabrielle's POV.
I gave up reading and began to think about my past lives. Every time I was reincarnated something big happen in the supernatural world when I reached my sixteenth birthday or sometime after that. My lives seemed to revolve around hunting and fighting supernatural creatures. I have never been married or had a family, I always seem to died before the end.
My oldest life was 2000 years ago, the last time angels walked the Earth and every life since then has followed the same pattern, every life expect this one. Every time I die it is to save someone I love and it is always before I hit forty. I loved Castiel in one of my lives which explains my instant connection with him and how easily I fell in love with him. I died using my powers to wipe out an army of demons that had him, Anna and Uriel surrounded. It took to so much power to kill them all that I died shortly after.
The only other life worth mentioning is the life in which I died to save my brother, his name was Samuel Colt and we had just finished making a gun together, a gun which could kill anything. We where attacked by an army of demons, I told him to run with the gun. He did and I fought my way through over twenty demons and was killed by the final one, I was shot badly. I finished of the demon and ran to catch up with my brother.
He had waited for me not far from the house, the tunnel we had built prevented demons from following him. I died with him before he was able to save me. I had told him to go on with his life and not to make my death worthless and that I was happy to have died to save my baby brother. In my next life I had done lots of research and found my sacrifice had not be in vain. My brother had had a great life, thanks to my death he had lived on.
I knew deep down that I should go back to Bobby's and that Jenna would look for me. I had known this when I left which is why I had left everything that could be traced back in my room in the guest house at Bobby's. Just one look to see if they where ok, I thought. It's not like Castiel will be there to see me. Before I could look tiredness over took me and I fell asleep. The next morning I woke with a sense of being watched.
My hand wrapped instinctively around my gun, and my powers went into over drive. Silently I pushed myself up off the armchair and moved ghost like around the house searching for any sign that I was not alone. Once I was sure that the house was clear I gave in and focused in on my powers, the familiar tingling sensation I felt ran through me and I focused on my sister.
She was sitting with Dean, Sam, Taylor, Bobby and Castiel. Castiel looked up and noticed me, he got up and walked towards me. "Where are you hiding Gabby?" He asked using my nickname.
"Somewhere I won't be found." I responded.
"Gabby come on tell us" Taylor demanded.
I shock my head and was about to leave when Castiel reached out and took my hand like I was actual there. "Please tells us where you are." Castiel whispered.
"Sorry but if I come back and keep hunting with Taylor and Jen, Taylor will die and I can't be responsible for that as well and Jo and Ellen's deaths." I cried. A tear running down my check.
Castiel lent closer to me "Then just tell me I won't tell the others." He whispered.
"I am in an old house that use to belong to my parent Jen doesn't know about it. It is my hide out when I need to think." I said then I told him the coordinates and disappeared. Back in the safety of my hide out I silently cursed for telling Castiel as I had no idea if he would tell the others or not. Part of me trusted that he wouldn't but another part said he would.
It felt like my two thoughts were battling for dominance, for me too believe. Sighing I flopped onto the bed and closed my eyes. The flutter of wings told me I was no longer alone in the room. The bed sunk as someone sat down. Finally I opened my eyes, Castiel was sitting watching me. "Before you ask I did not tell the others." Castiel said.
"What makes you think I was going to ask that?" I teased.
"You were pretty instant that I did not tell the others." Cas answered.
"Thanks for keeping it quite, I'll tell Jenna about this place when I am ready to but right now I need to think. Alone" I said.
"So why did you tell me?" Castiel asked.
"I need someone to talk to about what is happening to me and Jen doesn't know." I replied.
"You should tell her." Castiel responded.
"I don't know how to." I admitted. "Will you help me figure this out?" I asked weakly. I have never, ever asked for help but right now I knew I needed it.
"Of course." Cas answered. I smiled and handed Cas a folder. "What is this?" Cas quizzed.
"Everything Lucifer and Zachariah have said to me about me powers and about what I am turning into." I responded.
Without thinking I lent and went to kiss Cas on the check, one of us must have moved because I caught his lips instead.
At first the kiss was soft and slow but quickly turned into something deeper and more passionate, my arms slid around his neck and his hands rested on the base of my back. Castiel as usual pulled back. "I should go tell your sister you are ok." He stated.
"Stay she knows I am ok." I argued. Cas sighed but gave in, we sat looking through the folder for anything that could help us understand the process as we both knew it was to late to stop it.
I kept glancing at Cas thinking of something to say that might give me insight into how much he knows about the note. "So did Jen tell you about the note I left?" I asked.
"A little, all she said was that it is not my fault you died using my powers to help save me and the angels with you and that I couldn't have known until it was to late." Castiel replied.
The more we looked over the note the more confusing everything became, Castiel seemed confused by what he was reading, glancing over his shoulder I read the section he was reading. It was the one part that I hadn't told anyone. This could kill me. "Lucifer isn't really trust worthy he said that by doing this the slow way I am reducing my change of survival." I stated.
Castiel looked at me with concern in his eyes (I think the emotion is concern I could be wrong he isn't the easiest to read). I lent closer to him on some basic instinct and wrapped my arms around his neck. I didn't notice when he closed the distance between us and his lips met mine in a gentle kiss. The kiss became deeper and more passionate, Cas would likely break the kiss any moment now.
I was surprised when suddenly we where no longer sitting in the study but on the soft bed upstairs. I slid Cas's trench coat and jacket off and let them fall to the floor, I carefully removed the tie from his neck and dropped it on top of the discarded jackets. His hands found the edge of my t-shirt and began sliding it up before we had to break the kiss so he could slid it over my head. His lips were back on mine and his tongue slipped between my lips and began to explore my mouth, my fingers began to unbutton his shirt and slid it over his shoulders dropping it somewhere.
The next morning I woke in Cas's arms, sunlight streaming through the window. Eventually I had to get out of bed, I slid on Cas's shirt and went downstairs and made breakfast for myself. Cas came followed me down and putting his trousers back on. After I had eaten I showered and changed before going back to the study to continue my research.
Just as I reached the bottom of the stairs a sharp pain hit my stomach, it was like being shot only there was no blood. The pain continued to run round my body, it was most incense in my head and heart and I fell to the ground Cas was beside me before I could shout for him (like he knew something was wrong) as the world around me began to spin I was vaguely aware of Cas putting his hand on my forehead. I blacked out.