A/N: I totally forgot to mention that Clare might be a little OOC.

But I mean, it's natural as we grow up we don't act the same as we were

In high school. Sooo yeah! Hope you guys like it!

OH, one more thing, I'm not going to tell anyone the twist :D

It'll be a surprise.

Chapter 2

I was ready as ever to get on that plane.

I was nervous; my heartbeat was probably increasing with thought of seeing Eli.

I haven't spoken to him since we broke up; didn't really find the need to when just the thought of it makes me cry.

But I had to be strong; I couldn't let anything bring down, even love.

Finally they called my plane, and I boarded.

It wasn't a long flight, but long enough to read my book, the one that brought me all this success.

Obvious I knew what the book was about, duh, I wrote it.

I read it to reminisce.

Before I could go home, it was the first stop in the tour.

At this little bookstore, just little bit out from where home was.

I got to the place and saw a lot of people there.

Quickly scanning the room, making sure he wasn't there.

I was still looking when Angie, she always tags along with me, pulled me into the back.

"Clare, come on it's almost time!"

When I turned the corner I almost screamed for joy.

"Alli!" I whispered.

We hugged and were just all smiles.

"Well?" I asked.

"No signed of him."

I just smiled. Alli was always there for me.

"Clare, it's time." Angie signaled.

Alli went back out to the crowd of people.

I took a deep breath before I stepped out to people screaming and shouting my name.

I never really thought I was that famous. I just waved and smiled back.

I sat at this table with a big blown up picture of the cover of the book behind it.

"Hello everyone!" I spoke into the microphone.

People clapped.

"Well, where do I begin? I really enjoyed writing this, mostly because some of the events in there were based on my life. I'm not going to say which ones, but some, and it was nice to get closure and get it all out there."

I smiled trying so hard not to cry.

"Who here can relate to Rachel? Show of hands."

A lot of people raised their hands.

"Rachel was written as this shy, quite girl, until she met Kevin. Kevin this amazing guy, the one she'd dream about marrying. He had the looks most girls surpassed, but he mostly made Rachel feel like she didn't have to be in a shell."

I just smiled, but not at the audience, but just into far depths of my mind.

"Who here has had a Kevin in their lives?"

Once again almost all the women in the room raise their hand.

"I think the part that got me the most while writing and even reading it over now is where Kevin breaks up with Rachel. He tells her that he can't do it anymore. The long distance thing. How he just gives up on her, on them. Like everything they've been through didn't matter."

And now he's engaged, engaged to another woman.

Angie came from behind me and whispered to me that it was time for some readers to ask questions.

I nodded and proceeded.

"Ok, who has a question they'd like to ask?"

Almost everyone raised their hands. I randomly pick some girl in the back.

"I want to know, how is it being a writer affected your life the most?"

"Oo, good question. I always loved writing. Right before starting college, there were events in my life, that changed me. It changed my writing. Before I just to write whatever came to mind. Now I write whatever I feel."

The girl just smiled and sat down. I pick another random girl.

"I heard that you have a boyfriend, is that true?" She asked trying to look into my eyes and see if I would answer.

"I am happy right now where I am at. Do I have a boyfriend, no. But the real question is, do I need boyfriend?"

A lot of woman shake their heads; guess I wasn't the only one single.

"Ok, um, let's get those books autographed." I shot a smile to them and headed over to this other table.

I must have signed a thousand books, because my hand was hurting.

Then this woman came up to the table. I remember her dress so pretty.

"Who do I make this out to?" I smile.

"Karen." She said very quietly. "Actually, can you make it out to my fiancé and I?"

"Aw, sure, did he read the book?" I didn't really think guys would read it.

"Yeah, but he doesn't know I'm here. It's a surprise, the autograph."

"Aww, ok so what's his name?"

Pen in hand, ready to go.

"Eli."

And just like that everything fell.

"Um, come again?"

"Eli." She repeated herself.

I picked up the pen signed it "to Eli and Karen. Enjoy."

Normally I would write more but I couldn't take it.

I finished everyone who was waiting.

Then called Alli, right away.

"I can't believe this!." Alli was telling me as we were at the Dot.

"I know, his fiancé was there! She asked me if I could make it out to Eli and her." I rolled my eyes at the memory.

"Clare, now you know he's going to try to talk to you."

"I know."

"Clare, why are you avoiding him? Ever since the book got out."

"Because, I know what he wants to talk about."

"What?"

"The book."

She just looked at me confused.

"The whole book was based off of the relationship I had with Eli."

"Oh, Clare."

And as if on cue, walked in Karen with Eli right behind her; they sat at the table behind us, and they didn't notice Alli and I.

"Here, I got you something." I could hear Karen saying. I guess she's giving him the book.

"You got me a copy of a book I already have?"

"No, it is your copy."

"O.k." he has no idea.

"Open it." I could hear her smile.

Then silence. For a long time.

"Well, what do you think?"

"How did you get this?"

"She was having a talk outside of town, so I went."

"How did you get her to sign it?"

"I just asked her." She sounded like she wanted to say duh.

"Oh, right, she doesn't know you" I heard him muttered.

I gave Alli a look, signally her for us to leave.

Thankfully we left without notice.

Alli and I just walked.

Walking in the cold, in the past, and right into pain.