I'm Not Dreaming, Am I?

Looking down at her bloody thigh she felt herself still at the words she had once thought would be a distant memory in her life. Shock filled her body, she felt so numb. How she wished that her leg would move, that any finger, any arm, any blink would awake her from this reality.

"N—n—no." she whispered to herself finally lifting her leg closer to her, to hide the horrific scar.

"Rach…" Kurt replied choked with tears in his eyes.

"Pl—please tell me this isn't happening, I need you to tell me everything will be okay….Please." she pleaded fighting back the tears as she ranted herself into denial, refusing to believe.

"It's going to be okay." He replied looking at the wall behind her, wishing desperately that she would think he was looking at her.

"Don't lie to me. "She replied sharp as a dagger.

"I… I can't tell you that everything's okay, because it's not, but I'm going to be here for you every step of the way." He told her in desperation, and she nodded her head in acceptance refusing to let her façade fall down on her.

"This isn't a dream is it? I'm not going to wake up am I?" Rachel pondered with innocence of a child that had been told that Santa was not real, that the goal of being a princess was impossible.

"You're never going to wake up." Kurt solemnly told her and saw her eyes widen and the tears she had tried so desperately to hold back come crashing down.

"Who did this Rachel?" Sue asked curious.

"D-Da-…. I can't…. I can't do this." She whispered.

"Rachel… I know this is not an easy time for you, but I need to know who did this to you. I need to know who to expel, I need to know what monster is, I need to protect you, and I need to protect every single girl in here." Sue asked her as she brought her hand on top of hers trying to shake the feeling of pity as she saw her flinch at the mere touch.

"That monster has been a tormenter and a threat for as long as I can remember and none of you have done anything! How do I know this isn't let's make Rachel think that things will be better once we find who! Let's face it! Every time I came to complain to Figgins! Every SINGLE TIME! He told me it would be okay….and you know what? IT NEVER DID! Instead, He…. He told him….and it…" she replied hysterical leaping up from her chair as she began to pace back and forth as she ranted with venom seeping out of her core.

The room was dead silent at the insane girl, with the formally quiet clock roaring in the background.

Silence….

One minute…

(Tick)

Two minutes…

(Tock)

Six minutes…

(Tick)

Ten minutes…

Hysterical laughter filled the room, and Kurt and Sue looked on in shock as Rachel broke down.

"Do you know how fucking ironic this is?" sick amusement filled the air as they breathed in a huge breath of air dreading the answer.

If you had asked Kurt, if he wanted to see Rachel Berry break, he would have. It's what everyone had wanted. They waited; they pushed….she did nothing. The Slushies'', her own mother leaving her for Quinn's daughter, Jesse's betrayal, Finn's lying, the pornographic pictures, Jacob's obsessive stalking. It was supposed to break her. They were wrong it only made her stronger.

How he prayed to the god he didn't believe in to forgive him forever wishing to break her. She wasn't even broken, she couldn't be fixed. She was destroyed and all he could do was watch in horror as she disinegrated to the ground, fire and ash as one.

"If you had just LISTENED to me! If you had taken the TIME! This… this would never have occurred. He would have been behind bars like he should have been years ago!" she yelled going from hysteric to a twisted sick smile in seconds.

"You want to know who made my life hell? You want to know you just destroyed whatever was left of that pathetic life called Rachel Berry? I'm going to tell you. Oh you'll love it Ms. Sylvester. It's your favorite Glee tormenter. Dave Karofsky? I'm sure you hear of your star student?" Rachel replied looking at her with a disturbing knowing smile with such glee that it gave Kurt the chills even looking at her. Hoping to change his direction he looked into the eyes of Coach Sylvester and was surprised to see that look of denial in her face that was once on Rachel's face.

"N—No! W—that, how is this possible?" Sue asked flabbergasted looking ashamed.

"Don't act as if you hadn't seen this coming. He's been harassing me since my first day of freshman year, and you encouraged them!" she spat disgusted, with her fists clenched, and face turning red.

"I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have let this rivalry happened." Sue pleaded with her with remorse in her eyes.

"I cannot take this anymore. I'm going home. I'll call the police. Just get him expelled." She demanded her and within a blink of an eye grabbed Kurt's hand and walked like a lady to the door.

"It may not be clear, but I will not be attending my classes today." Rachel told her, with a affirmative nod from Sue, she walked out of the Room as if nothing had fazed her.

Sue and Kurt watched from their perspective places in awe.