MR. BRIGHTSIDE – THE KILLERS
I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go
And I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside
I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go
Cause I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside
I never...
I never...
I never...
I never...
Chapter 5
Mr. Brightside
Whoever it was that invented shades must be a freakin' genius…
And if only Finn knew him and he lives somewhere in Lima he would have given him props already for helping out dudes like him who are so love struck over their exes…
Guys like him whom without the help of tinted sunglasses would probably be labeled as stalkers and end up in a godforsaken jail somewhere, doing time and incarcerated…
Trying his best to pry his gaze away from Rachel to concentrate instead on the lame ass game that he's been pretending to play on his laptop for the past three hours, Finn sighed heavily at how pathetic his life is that despite the fact that he went out on a limb just to get a part for this movie, the reason why he auditioned in the first place does not even notice that he exists except perhaps when she's looking at him as if she's eaten something bad every time she feels his presence…
Hiding behind the guise of stretching and yawning, Finn sneakily steals a glance at Rachel once again from behind his shades…
She was sitting across from him in their otherwise empty dressing room… Waiting patiently for the time when they will be called for take by flipping through her script and memorizing her lines…
He watched her as she meticulously underlines each page and then close her eyes while mumbling before checking if she's got everything right and then doing the same thing all over again…
How adorable is she?
He can't help but think…
He wonders how she manages to still look so freakin' gorgeous and fresh despite the fact that they've been working 18 hour days ever since they started filming…
He marvels at how she manages to ace all her scenes while he fumbles with his and how she can be so alert and bushy eyed when it was so early in the morning…
How could she seem so unaffected by his presence when just being around her makes his heart race and his palms sweat and his hands itch to just hold her close and kiss her senseless?
DAMMIT…
He must really be in Hollywood Hell…
And all because she smiles at him and flirts with him and looks at him with loving eyes but only when the cameras are rolling…
But once it stops?
He could have been invisible for all she cares because she barely looks at him and barely acknowledges his presence …
It had been two weeks since that heavy and emotional confrontation that they had and he's been telling himself that she just needs time and that maybe after awhile she would also come around…
Yeah, right…
Fat chance of that happening…
If only she's just halfway as damned occupied with him the way that he is with her…
If only just like him, she freakin' faints whenever he walks past just like how he sizzles when he watches every single move she makes…
Or if only she would walk towards his direction with a determined look on her face the way that she's doing now -
Finn blinked his eyes as he realized that she REALLY is going towards where he is and that he is not just imagining things…
Muttering a muffled curse under his breath, he almost fell off his chair as he tried to straighten up… Trying out positions that would make him appear all cool and casual and unaware that she was near rather than about to pee his pants in excitement which was what he truly feels…
"Sup Rach?"
He cocked an eyebrow at her, hoping against hope that he appears chill as she stopped in front of him…
She was hugging her script close to her chest while chewing on her bottom lip… Looking every bit like she doesn't know what to do now that she's standing there or like she'd rather be somewhere else rather than where she currently is…
Following her movements, Finn watched her as she flattens her skirt before sitting down daintily on the chair beside him…
He felt his pulse quicken at the thought that maybe she's not there to make small talk but rather once again to call him on his shit and chew him out while giving him a piece of her mind…
"The - The director told me that maybe it would be a good idea for us to rehearse our lines together?"
She said softly…
He was so fucking relieved to hear that that before he knew it, he was breaking out into a smile that could only be described as million dollar…
Rachel stared at him for awhile… Looking entranced as she watched his face before she averted her gaze and cleared her throat and the moment was gone…
"Look… I agree that sometimes I may be too rash and impulsive and that there really was no reason for me to lash out at you the way that I did last time… It was immature of me and sophomoric and frankly, we're all adults here so there really is no excuse for me to have acted so juvenile and so silly…"
She sighed as if at a loss for words before continuing again…
"I guess what I'm really saying is that we can act inoffensively and talk even if we're really not friends… it's just so infantile for me to keep on avoiding you or for us not to talk to each other knowing that we have work to do and that people are depending on us to deliver what they expected…"
He felt himself break out into a grin again despite the fact that he can't even understand half of what she's saying …
Just the thought that she's even talking to him without looking at him like he's some kind of criminal is enough to make him feel like a superstar and even if she's saying that it's just for work and all that crap, as long as she's talking to him, he would take whatever baloney she dishes...
"I'd – I'd love that…"
He gushed…
He fuckin' gushed…
God! he sounded like a pansy…
And when she looked at him and smiled, he swears hearts reflected in his eyes and he almost shot rainbows out of his ass…
"Now that that's over…"
Rachel straightens up and he watched her as she puts on her "let's get down to business" face…
"I was thinking about this scene - do you think we should be saying this while -"
Her voice washed over him and he barely hears what she is saying because he was just so doggone happy that he couldn't stop smiling nor think about anything else…
And then her goddamn cellphone rang…
She looked startled as she excused herself… Frowning a little as if surprised that someone was calling her when she was in the middle of something like work and when she was just starting to get her business on the way…
"Hello?"
The moment that she heard who was on the other line, her expression quickly changed…
He watched her as she broke out into a smile and he doesn't even know who was calling her but he wanted to punch someone in the face, preferably the one that she was talking with…
"Jesse…"
She said breathlessly…
JESSE?
ST. JAMES?
Fuck… Now he really wants to throw something…
Where in the world does that douchebag even get the guts to be calling her again?
She glanced at him guiltily, lowering her voice and turning her back on him as he tried to pretend that he was not listening in on their conversation, pretending to be typing on his laptops keyboard as if he was doing work that would win a Nobel Prize or cure AIDS or something…
"Yeah… yeah… I miss you too…"
WHAT THE HELL?
How can she be talking to him that way when he left her heartbroken and embarrassed her and she talks to HIM as if he's scum and like he's the devil who's ruined her poor soul in so many ways?
Maybe because he just cracked an egg on her head but you cracked her heart, grinded it and then turned it into hamburger…
Finn scowled more heavily as he heard that little voice inside his head…
His hands are now heavy on the keyboard… Almost pounding on it and Rachel looked back at him with a frown distractedly…
She lowered her voice even more, covering the mouthpiece and standing up to put some distance between the two of them…
Finn threw away his shades and kicked away a chair…Muttering expletives about how his laptop doesn't seem to be working which caused Rachel to whip her head around to glare back at him…
She opened her mouth wide open, an irritated expression on her face as she stretched out her hands in annoyance like she was gesturing what was his problem…
He shrugged innocently, pointed at his laptop and mouthed the word "Broken…"
She was still shooting lasers out of her eyes as she turned her head around to continue her conversation with Jesse St. dickwad…
And it felt like forever before she put the phone down…
And in that amount of time, it took every single muscle in Finn's body to stay still and not snatch the phone away from her and then smash it into a million pieces…
"Now, where were we?"
She asked the moment that the call was over…
Leaning forward to grab her script from where she left it like everything was normal…
"Like I was saying perhaps it would be better if in this scene if I-"
"So, the rumors are true huh?"
He cuts her off midsentence and she lifted her head to look at him quizzically…
"It was not just made up? Those articles on the tabloids? You're really going out with Jesse AGAIN?"
He could have smashed his head against the wall for sounding like a jealous husband…
She straightens up and she looked a little guilty and just when he thought that she wouldn't answer she tossed her hair as if making a point that she has nothing to be ashamed of and that she can date whoever she damn well pleases…
"Not that I think it's polite to be listening in on other peoples personal conversation and not that it's any of your business but yes, if you should know I'm - seeing Jesse…"
There was a beat of hesitation in her voice as if she is not even sure what she'd call this thing that they're having…
He scoffed…
"So what? Are you guys living life like a musical and singing duets while grocery shopping and then planning to have babies that would be red haired and singing Tomorrow while you cook in the kitchen and he fixes the gutter?"
His voice was dripping with sarcasm and he wanted to stop but he couldn't…
She sighed…
Closing her eyes before pasting on a sarcastic smile on her face as if to stop herself from snapping because he was REALLY testing her patience…
"Not that you need to know, but we do sing duets while doing the laundry and NOT when we're grocery shopping …"
If he was not just so freakin' annoyed he would have laughed at how naïvely cute she sounded…
"Besides none of us are redhaired so there's no chance in hell that we would have a kid that's red haired… "
She rolled her eyes as if it was the silliest thing she's ever heard…
And he felt himself flush with anger…
Just hearing her even THINK about having babies with that ass is enough to get him in one of the foulest moods that he's ever had…The kind of mood that he had when he learnt how it was not him but Puck who was the father of Quinn's child and then he pounded him to a pulp…
"GREAT! GREAT FOR YOU guys! Then why don't you just get damn freakin' married!"
He muttered a muffled "fuck" before slouching low into his seat…
Out of the corner of his eyes, he saw Rachel's eyes widen… Surprise etched on her face as she blinked a couple of times as if she can not comprehend why he was suddenly so angry…
"There's no need to curse! Besides I don't -"
She exclaimed… Her words coming out of her mouth like a freight train but then her words suddenly trailed off as understanding slowly dawned on her and she looked at Finn with curious eyes before asking him tentatively…
"Finn Hudson… Don't… don't tell me you're jealous?"
She said disbelievingly…
He would have wanted to deny it…
Wanted to keep a little bit of pride for himself just to save face…
However, just like how he has no pride left lately when it comes to her and letting his instincts guide him instead… he stood up so suddenly that Rachel took a step back and he leaned over her as he brought his face THIS close to hers….
"Like hell…"
He whispered…
and then he walked away...
Leaving Rachel wide eyed and breathless and in a trance as the cursor in as the size 38 neatly typed font in Finn's laptop flashed
"JESSE ST. JAMES IS A FUCKING IDIOT, DOUCHEBAG, JERKFACE AND I WOULD LOVE FOR NOTHING MORE THAN TO KICK HIS ASS"…
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