Sirius smiled placing his hand softly on Remus's shoulder after noticing the fear in the mans eyes. He knew that no words could make this easier for Remus. Hell the man was stronger then most he'd seen lose a loved one. So Sirius wasn't going to push him he'd sit there with his new friend as long as it took. Even if it took well into next month. The air was thick with fear and pain. But no one spoke even Teddy was silent in the back. The only sound was the soft breathing and the wind outside the car. Sirius began to wonder if Remus could do this? Or was it far to soon for him to be trying.

Remus's eyes made there way to the hand on his shoulder. He'd only known Sirius for a day yet the man was being so kind. For this Remus was truly thankful. He'd never really had a friend so he didn't know what to say. Right now his mind was spinning with fear, and he didn't think he could handle being here. He wished he could put this behind him like he did with so many other things. But sadly this was real and no matter how he tried it wouldn't just go away. A single tear ran down his cheek and fell off his chin. Then another and another until they just wouldn't stop. He was barely aware he was crying until Sirius hugged him.

They stayed embraced for a while until Remus began to feel better. He pulled away slowly and smiled taking a deep breath and staring at Sirius. He hopped that the older man had some answers but his eyes were filled with the same pain Remus's were. So again he took a deep breath and closed his eyes. Unlocking the doors and grabbing Teddy. The three stood there for a moment allowing the wind to blow threw there hair. It stung a bit on Remus's face but he didn't mind right now.

The funeral parlor wasn't as bad as he thought it would be. The young man there was very polite while showing them around. Explaining prices and talking about each casket. And when Remus began crying again the boy didn't judge or mock him. He simply got him some tissue and stayed silent. He continued once Remus was finished like he hadn't even started crying. The other person there was an elderly lady who was the one that would dress and prepare Nymphadora's body. She was also a very nice women and allowed Remus to see his wifes body. Which he wasn't sure he could handle but did it anyway.

She looked amazing in her favorite mid-night blue dress. Her soft bubblegum pink hair and pale pink lips. It was almost like she was just sleeping oh how he wished that was the case. She was heavenly looking and he felt a sudden ache in his chest. It should be him laying on that table not her. If he hadn't been so tired she wouldn't have driven. And then maybe she'd still be here for her son. What good was Remus to the boy anyway he was so broken now. He needed her but she was gone. And suddenly like before he began to sob falling hard on the ground. Sirius who was holding Teddy rushed over to the man. Handing the boy over to the sweet lady so he could hold Remus. Who just shook in his arms for a while.

When all was said and done and they had made all the arrangements Remus felt better. He was starting to feel like he could move on or at least let the pain dull.

"You okay" Sirius asked as they began to leave.

"Yeah I think so. Minus this headache and overwhelming urge to throw up that is" the shorter man said with a soft chuckle.

"That goes away after a few beers" Sirius murmured getting into the car.

The drive home was done mostly in silence until Sirius spoke.

"Your a strong man" he said with a soft smile.

"I'm a what" Remus responded eyes shifting to look at the older man for a second.

"I know people who months and months after a loved one died they just stayed locked away from the world. But your doing so much in only a months time. Your a very strong man Remus Lupin. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise" Sirius announced as though he was giving a grand speech.

"I am far from strong. I'm only able to do this because of Teddy. I have to show some kind of strength for him, even if I do just keep breaking down" Remus admitted with a soft sigh.

"That my friend is strength. Were only truly strong when we've found someone to be strong for" the older man argued with a grin.

Remus stayed silent for a while thinking over what Sirius said. Was he strong because he had someone to be strong for? He had to admit that it made a lot of sense. Sirius hadn't seemed like a wise man but Remus was starting to change his opinion of the man. This man who seemed shallow at first was a very deep very kind man. Which man the younger one think. It was true you could never judge a book by it's cover fully. Because he hadn't like Sirius cover but the pages so far were very nice.

Arriving at the house they made quick work of getting Teddy up stairs and to bed before he had time to fully wake up. With a small smile Remus sat down by Sirius and turned on the telly. Handing the black haired man a beer they drank and talked about odd things. Sirius love of tattoos and art. How he really wanted to fly a jet pack, and oddest of all Sirius's sexuality. Sirius was bi he didn't believe loved had a gender. Remus was shocked but didn't mind he was never one too judge. He hated it when people judged him.

"Hey Remus can I ask something" Sirius asked with a bright grin on his face.

"Sure what is it" Remus responded before taking another sip of his beer.

"How'd ya meet her" Sirius asked slightly nervous about saying his cousins name.

Remus laughed softly and set his drink down. His eyes scanned around the room finding the photo album and tossed it to Sirius. Who opened it to the first page and saw something very sweet. A picture of Remus and Nymphadora holding hands in spring. He'd never in all his years seen his cousin smile so brightly.

"It was early spring on a Sunday" Remus began sitting back down.

It was early spring as Remus made his way down the hall to the elevator. He nearly fell trying to catch it he was already late as is. Shouting loudly in hopes someone would be kind enough to stop it for him. And someone was a beautiful blonde women he'd never seen before.

"Hello" he said panting softly.

"Hi" the woman responded holding out her hand to shake his. "I'm Nymphadora and you" she asked very politely.

"Remus, and it's a pleasure to meet you" he said shaking her hand softly. "You new here" he asked hopefully.

"No just visiting my friend Emmeline" she said with a giggle. "What about you?"

"I sadly live here" he said with a nervous laugh.

"Why sadly this place can't be that bad" Nymphadora said eyes looking into Remus's causing his heart to nearly stop.

"It is when your roof leaks and the super won't fix it cause he's a prick. Pardon my language" he groaned out shifting softly to get a better look at her.

"No need I swear like a sailor half the time. And sorry about your roof" she added with a cute smile on her face that made him all but blush to death.

"No need I'm use to it" he said as they stepped off the elevator sadly. "Hey you wanna go get something to eat later?"

The blonde woman grinned and wrote her number down on a piece of paper handing it to him. She left a second later leaving Remus a blushing mess. After his interview he called her and asked her out for lunch.

"I'm glad you called" she said softly taking a bite of her pizza.

"How could I not, I was lucky enough to meet a pretty girl who didn't turn me down" Remus said with a soft laugh causing Nymphadora to blush a bright red.

"So what do you do for a living" she asked as soon as she remembered how to talk.

"I'm trying to get into teaching. I've always wanted to be a teacher. I love helping people and learning it just seems to put both together and I can still get summers off" he said before taking a sip of his drink.

"Wow I could never do that. I teach by screaming at someone until they get it right" she said laughing a bit.

"That's the same way my father taught me how to tie my shoes" Remus said laughing hard. Nymphadora joined him and they caught eachothers eyes.

"So Nymphadora that's a very beautiful name but it's long. May I call you Dora" he asked reaching out to take her hand.

"Sure, I hate Nymphadora anyway" the woman in question responded taking the mans hand in her own.

They finished their meal and went on a long stroll. Past the lovely lit up shops and the wonderful park. Time had escaped them but it didn't matter they didn't want to be anywhere else right now. Neither could remember ever being this happy on a date before. Hearts skipped beats each time they locked eyes. The skin that touched felt as though it was on fire. It was all so perfect and seemed to just get better and better.

"I love the moon" Remus whispered eyes staring at the round white thing above them.

"It is very beautiful isn't it" Nymphadora added cuddling closer to him.

The moonlight danced softly around them and Remus tilted Nymphadora's chin up kissing her softly. The kiss wasn't heated or passionate it was simple and gentle. She laced her arms around his neck and deepened it slightly. But they remained calm and kissed a bit longer before pulling away. Eyes shining in the dull moon light. Remus smiled again as they made their way back to his car. He dropped her off with a final kiss and made his way back home. All the while thinking of that beautiful woman.

"And that's about it. Sorry for making it so long I guess you really didn't wanna hear about our date" Remus said rubbing the back of his neck with a nervous smile on his face.

"Nah, it's fine besides it was a very lovely story your great with words" Sirius assured Remus before getting up to go grab another beer.

Sirius took a long sigh as his eye wandered around the kitchen. His cheeks were now a soft pink and he was shivering. Remus's lips. They were the only thing he could think about and he felt awful. Remus was married to his cousin who died not a month ago. And yet here he was thinking of those lips on parts of him he shouldn't. Sucking on places they'd never ever go and licking. God he was so hard it was starting to hurt but he couldn't go wank. Not while Remus was still awake anyway. No he couldn't do it all thinking about him. It was beyond wrong to have sexual thoughts about him. Sirius was a pervert he wouldn't deny that but this was just sick even for him. He took a few deep breaths and thought about his mother naked. Which easily made him go soft, then he grabbed a beer and quickly made his way back to the living room.

Remus and Sirius talked for a while longer before Remus began to drift in and out of consciousness. So Sirius being the man he was kindly helped him up to bed and laid him down softly before tucking him in. He felt even worse now because touching Remus had brought his hard on back, and he was sure not even thinking of his mother having sex would make it go away. So he took a deep breath and made his way into the bathroom. Where he pictured Remus's amazing body beneath him crying out, begging Sirius to fuck him. Shivering at the thoughts in his head Sirius came hard and sighed. Quickly cleaning up his mess and crawling into bed. Hopefully he could dream of something that wasn't about Remus naked or Regulus dying.

"Hey Sirius wake up" Remus shouted shaking the older man hard. It was past noon and Sirius was still out cold. They still had things to before the funeral next weekend.

"Mmm ten more minutes mum I'm having a nice dream" Sirius groaned out rolling over and pulling the blanket over his head like a child.

Remus groaned as he made his way down stairs with Teddy in his arms. Setting his son down in his playpen he got to work on the rest of the funeral plans. Which would have been fine if he didn't also have a slight hangover from drinking last night. Remus wasn't a light weight but he rarely drank. His head throbbed painfully in his skull as the woman on the other end began to scream at him. Oh yes this was only going to get better. Now his late wifes mother was blaming him like he didn't already blame himself. He hadn't spoken to her since Teddy was born. Now he had the painful task of telling them and trying to avoid breaking down. Andromeda was a relatively nice woman a bit high strung but nice. Now she was screaming at him and cursing his name. He couldn't bare it any longer he hung up the phone without even saying goodbye.

"You okay" Sirius whispered as he handed Remus a cup of water.

"You know Andromeda right" Remus asked his voice failing to hide the pain he was feeling.

"Yep. Andromedas my favorite cousin by far. Unlike the rest of the family she married for love I always liked that in her. Defiant." the black haired male said as he took a seat across from Remus.

"Great cause she hates me for killing her baby girl. So can you call her back and tell her the funeral is next weekend" Remus pleaded he really couldn't call that woman back and not start crying.

"Sure no problem" Sirius groaned out taking the phone and hitting redial eyes never leaving Remus.

"Hey Andromeda. No it's Sirius" the older man mumbled. "No, I'm here helping him. HE DID NOT KILL HER SILENCE YOU OLD BAT" He shouted nearly crushing the phone in anger. "Her funeral is next weekend at the cemetery off Lake View road. You should come she is your daughter" he said softly before hanging up.

"Thanks" was all Remus could say. He felt horrid for making Sirius yell at his cousin like that.

"No problem. I'd stay and help but I need a shower" he mumbled out as he made his way back up stairs to the shower.

The rest of the day was spent calling all of Nymphadora's family members and friends. Telling them each when the funeral was and for those who didn't know she'd past that she had. A few started crying while on the phone making it hard for Remus not to but he bit his tongue and stayed silent. Every fiber of his being was aching with each call. It was like having to face her death over and over again. It replayed in his head like a broken video tape. It kept looping back and starting until he was sure he'd lose his mind. How could one man deal with this he was never that strong. But now he had to be for the little boy in the next room who was giggling and rolling around. That boy would give him the strength he needed like Sirius said.

Time passed quickly almost like the world couldn't wait to show Remus what he'd done. He stood there in front of the mirror body covered in scars with a soft sigh. He hated this he truly did. But it was going to happen weather he liked it or not. So with a heavy sigh he opened threw draw only to find his lucky tie was missing. He nearly cried as he threw everything from those draws. He couldn't find it anywhere he needed it today more then ever. He began to shake from fear as more and more tears fell down his cheeks. Suddenly Sirius walked in holding it.

"You left this on the able when you went to change" he said eyes looking all over the room. Seeing clothes strung about and Remus softly crying in the corner. "Are you okay Remus" he asked helping the man up.

Remus lunged forward hugging Sirius tight before pulling away. "Could you tie it for me I'm shaking a bit too much" the young man said his soft brown hair falling over his amber tear filled eyes.

"Sure" Sirius muttered quickly tying the tie and placing it around Remus's neck. "You look very handsome" he said sound like a mother.

"Thank you so much Sirius" Remus whispered as they made their way from his room and down to living where Teddy was napping.

Remus quickly picked him up and strapped him into the car. He let Sirius drive fearing that if he did they'd never arrive. He wanted to just stay home, cry and fall asleep and nothing seemed to be making it any easier. Then the car parked and Remus wanted to cry. Her whole family was there, ton of rich people in dark clothes complaining out how hot it was. Saying awful things like how they knew this would happen when she married such a stupid man like her mother. Sirius and Remus stepped out together Remus holding Teddy. All eyes were on them and not in a good way. Walburga was the first too speak to her son.

"What are you doing here" she asked in a harsh tone.

"Helping out what are you doing here" Sirius responded his tone just as harsh.

"My niece's little girl died, I'm here to help her threw that" she said turning away and walking off.

"My ass you are" Sirius said grabbing Remus by the arm and making his way over to James,Lily and Petter.

"Hey" James said eyes wandering over the large group of people.

"Why is Harry over there playing with a Malfoy" Sirius hissed under his breath glaring daggers at the blonde haired bunch.

"Because he wanted to just chill okay. This isn't about family hating family it's about Nymphadora" Lily said as she smacked Sirius on the arm hard.

No one spoke as the service began Sirius held his tongue as his mother went up and fake cried. He didn't speak when the Malfoy's said there bit to Remus, and when Bellatrix and Druella came over he wanted to scream.

"So I heard your the reason she's dead is that right" Bellatrix said with a cat like grin on her face.

Remus went wide eyed and though he wanted to both kill her and cry he just smiled softly and grabbed Sirius's hard as though begging him to make her leave. Which he did by shouting at her drawing all eyes back on them. But he cursed her name and called her things he wouldn't call his worst enemy. She smirked and pulled her mother away. After that Remus fled he couldn't stand the Black family. They were awful to deal with and so very cruel to him.

"I understand" a voice said as two silver eyes started into his. As though gazing into his soul. "There an awful lot and I have them. But they only say what they say because they've never known a love like you two have".

Remus smiled and hugged Sirius yet again. No words were said or needed to be the hug was enough. The funeral ended moments later and with that Sirius left. He never said goodbye to Remus not that he could. No he loved the man and that meant that he couldn't stay now that this was all over. He had to get as far away from Remus as he possibly could.

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