Eight months had pasted since that fateful day. And as Remus Lupin sat smiling bouncing his son on his knee he began to wonder where Sirius had gone. The man had left with out a single goodbye just up and vanished. Remus had greatly wanted him to stick around he felt as though he could use more of Sirius's help. But he figured the older man had a good reason for leaving so he may as well just accept it. And besides in a few days Teddy would be one. He had no time to think about anyone else but this adorable boy.
Teddy smiled and hopped of his dads knee running into the next room to watch tv. His curly brown hair bouncing has he ran. His blue eyes lit up as his favorite cartoon came on.
"PAPA BLUE CLUES IS ON COME WATCH IT WITH ME" he shouted at the top of his lungs.
"Alright alright just quiet down kiddo I'm not deaf. At least not yet anyway" Remus mumbled out chuckling softly when Teddy began to pout.
"I'm sorry papa I'll be quieter" Teddy whimpered out as his father picked him up.
They sat and watched blue clues for a couple hours until Teddy fell asleep. Remus smiled and as he laid his son down and got back to planning his sons party. He really wanted this party to be a big thing. Since all that had happened he really wanted his son to have an amazing birthday. One that he could think of when he was down and smile. Though Remus knew this party was more for him then Teddy. It had been nine months since her death and he dare not say her name.
No it caused him far to much pain to even utter it. So he took a deep breath and looked threw the booklet he'd picked up. He wanted to give Teddy a blues clues party, but this would be hard seeing as how without her brining in money and Remus only being a teacher he barely had enough money for this. But he'd make it work some how he just had too. Even if it meant he may not eat for a couple weeks he'd be fine he wanted to see Teddy smile.
Lily and James were a big help with all of it. They even gave him money to do it. They called it a loan but they never expected Remus to pay it back. Lily just wanted to see the man truly smile. She could see he was still hurting even if he wouldn't admit it himself. He refused to wear anything but long shirts since the scars 'made him ugly'. Lily thought fixing him up with a woman she knew would cheer him up but it ended worse then she thought it would. Not only had Remus purposely pushed the woman away and made her cry in doing so.
James was doing what all men do when a friend is down and took him out drinking. But Remus was never a big fan of getting drunk. It seemed all the man would do was sip on some vodka until he finished the glass, call a taxi and go home. One night James and Peter managed to get Remus drunk which didn't end well. Peter slipped up and said something very cruel about the taller mans late wife. It took all of James's strength to keep the man at bay. Luckily Remus was too drunk to recall the events so Peter and James just forgot about it.
Harry was a great friend to little Teddy. When Teddy would fall Harry would rush to him, kiss his wound and help him up. Harry was like a big brother to the young Lupin. He showed him how to drink from 'adult cups' and how to float in a pool. He would often put Teddy on the back of his trike and ride around the back yard. Teddy would smile and laugh he really looked up to Harry. He was so much older then him and seemed to know how to do everything. Even if Harry was only six.
The Weasley's had been very kind as well. Molly was always trying to feed Teddy and Remus any chance she could. Bill their eldest was always coming over to help Remus in anyway he needed. The boy was sweet and fresh out of high school hoping to marry his high school sweetheart. Which Remus always thought was very cute. Charles and Percy loved his books. They'd often come over and borrow a few. And since Remus was Percy's English teacher they got close. Sharing favorite books and Remus would even help Percy with his stories. Fred and George on the other hand were very destructive. They once broke his window. He didn't mind since he could fix it but their parents were very very mad. The there was Ron and Ginevra aka Ginny. Ginny loved taking care of little Teddy almost like a mother. Ron on the other hand was like harry trying to show him cool things, often getting the little boy hurt.
Remus was grateful for all the help he was getting. He was sure if these people weren't around he'd have lost his mind. But part of him still missed Sirius for some reason. They'd only been around each other a couple weeks but still. He felt like he could tell Sirius anything because the man won't judge him. With a long yawn Remus arose from his seat and decided to take a short nap. He'd been up the last few night grading tests and looking over cake idea's. He could use a couple hours rest before going back at it.
Across town Sirius Black was leaning against his motorcycle taking a long drag off a fag. His soft black hair falling gingerly around his face. Eyes watching as several parents walked into the large toy store in front of him. He wanted more then anything to go back and see Remus but he'd need a reason first. And what better reason then Teddy turning one. He just had no idea what to get the boy. So he sat back eyes wandering over the people and their kids. The smiles on the children's faces at the gifts they got. But none of the things he saw looked right so with a deep sigh he put out his fag and walked inside.
His eyes scanned around the store the isles full of useless crappy gifts. He wanted to get Teddy something amazing. But everything he saw just seemed like everyday junk. The women looked no better. Half of them eyes filled with lust for him, the other half glaring daggers at the man. He was bored with this but he couldn't give up. So with a frown he trudged up and down each isle. He wondered what Remus was doing which wasn't helping. Because it'd be very wrong to get an erection in a children's toy store so he stopped. Grinning like a mad man at the item in front of him. He knew this was what Teddy needed. He hoisted it up and carried it all the way to the clerk. This would be beyond worth it.
Remus awoke to the sound of Teddy giggling. His son was sitting on his chest smiling away like nothing could be better. Remus groaned and lifted the boy into his arms rolling over to go back to sleep. Or so he wished but Teddy would have none of that.
"Daddy can I have a clown at my party" He asked cutely.
"No you got scared and cried when Harry had that clown over. Remember he tried to give you a balloon and you screamed" Remus said snuggling closer to his son.
"What about a unicorn" Teddy said blue eyes shimmering softly.
"Those aren't real kiddo" Remus yawned out kissing his sons forehead as though trying to say it was time for bed.
"Will there be cake" the boy asked yawning as well.
"Of course now please papa is tired" the older man whispered.
Teddy understand and nodded off as well. He loved sleeping with his papa it made him feel safe. Like no matter what bad would happen if he were here it couldn't get him. His papa chased away all the bad dreams and kept them away. He was such a brilliant, strong, brave man in his eyes. And Teddy wished more then anything to be a man like his papa when he grew up.
Sunlight broke threw the window as Remus groaned. His head was aching and his back was stiff as a board. But he smiled seeing Teddy hugging him tightly his face holding a very bright smile. The boy was fast asleep and from what he could tell having a great dream. So even though he was hungry and in pain he lied still for a bit longer. Until Teddy yawned and grinned up at his father. His cute broken smile making the man smile as well. Remus picked up Teddy and ran some bath water for the boy. After getting all cleaned up Remus made a quick breakfast and dropped Teddy off at his parents.
Remus was baking the cake himself which meant buying all the ingredients. But this would be a bit of a challenge since Remus was never good in the kitchen. In fact it's where he did most of his messing up. Sure he could read the instructions and do what they said. But he'd always manage to forget something or drop whatever he made. So he was going to be extra careful and make sure the floor was clean, and that he triple checked over this cake. Everything no matter how much work would be perfect for his son.
His mind seemed to drift back to Sirius though and he didn't know why. He knew he liked the man as a friend but why was he always on his mind now. Maybe it was because he left without saying goodbye. That had to be it he thought so he let his mind wander over the man. He finished his shopping rather fast and checked out. Thankfully even though his mind was off thinking about Sirius he managed to get everything he needed. He decided to go home and bake the cake seeing as how Teddy's birthday was tomorrow.
Teddy was very happy as he giggled and rolled around on the floor of his grandparents house. The boy liked rolling around it made him happy. His grandparents laughed as he did so. It was a wonder the boy stayed clean at all. They were amazed at Remus. He was an only child who was always behaved. And even if he didn't get what he wanted he never let it get him down. He was easy to please give him a book and some chocolate. But Teddy was a bit harder to figure out. He hated eating certain things and would throw them if given. But those things ranged, and it was never the same thing the next day.
But even if the boy was a handful no one could be mad at him. He was so cute, his face was like his mothers. Pale skin and a cute heart shaped face. His eyes were hers as well but that nose was clearly Remus's and so was that smile. And the way he loved to read. He was a perfect little bundle of cute and brilliance. To cute to hate and bright enough to use that against if he wanted to.
The day wore on as Remus baked and decorated his thoughts now only on his son. But he was growing tired so he glanced up at the clock on the wall. Much to his surprise it was 11 at night. He must have gotten so caught up doing everything he lost track of time. He was done though to he put the cake in the fridge and made his way up stairs. Taking a quick warm shower before sinking into bed, he was very very tired. If the bag under his eyes were indication of that. His head felt like it was spinning and it throbbed slightly. He was thankful to get a good night's rest before dealing with screaming children.
The sound of banging at his front door woke him up. Running down stairs Remus nearly tripped but caught himself and quickly opened it. Smiling when he saw James and Lily holding a present in there hands.
"Over slept I take it" Lily said motioning to his clothing.
"Yes sorry, I'll be back down in a bit could you just set everything up" he asked with a sorry look on his face.
"Of course go shower" James said patting Remus on the back.
Remus groaned as he stepped in thee shower. He couldn't for the life of him remember what he was dreaming about but he was annoyed. Whatever it was not only made him late but made him hard as well. He didn't want to waste time wanking so he turned the water on cold. He began to think of awful things to make it go down. But in the back of his mind wishing to remember what he had been dreaming about. He was very sure it wasn't Nymphadora. And he didn't fancy anyone else at the moment. At least that he knew of so who could it have been.
Time raced on quickly. And Remus was sure everything around him was moving faster then he was. But time seemed to slow down when Teddy came home and everyone jumped out surprising him. The boy laughed loudly and hugged his father. He was very happy about the large party. Harry and Ron filled up a couple water guns and chased the girls around in the back yard. Teddy filled up water balloons with the twins to throw at Ron and Harry. Percy had at some point got out some silly string and was spraying all over them. Remus and Lily laughed at the sight. Molly on the other hand was out there egging it all on.
Jolting up Remus rushed to the door after hearing a knock. His eyes nearly bugged out of his head in shock. Standing there in a nice black button down shirt and grey slacks was Sirius. He grabbed Remus and pulled him into a hug. It was then Remus's dream rushed back at full force.
Sirius was above him slowly kissing down his neck. Sucking softly every few seconds just to make him squirm. He moved a bit lower and lapped at one of Remus's nipples causing the younger man to moan. He arched up like a cat in heat head shaking softly. A stream of moans fell from his soft pink lips. And he had to bite down on one to keep from coming when Sirius took his cock and began to pump it. Then the black haired man deep throated him sucking hard and humming around the base. Remus shivered and cried out his name over and over.
"Sirius" he whispered blushing heavily.
"Hey. I'm really sorry about leaving suddenly I had a few things to take care of" Sirius lied as they pulled away.
Remus took a couple deep breaths and smile praying Sirius didn't notice his overly flushed face. "Oh it's not problem".
"Oh and I got Teddy a gift but I'll need all the kids inside so I can set it up out back" Sirius said with a smirk.
"Alright I'll call them in" Remus said turning around quickly to bring all the children inside. Who all even Molly seemed to be pouting. Teddy stomped his foot and hmphed.
"I wanna go play" Ron said with a sad look on his face.
"Sorry kids but Sirius needs to set up his gift for Teddy just hold on" Remus said with a soft groan.
Suddenly a loud hissing sound filled the room and the kids ran up stairs. Remus peered outside in horror. Sirius was outside setting up a Blue Clues moon bounce. With a chuckle Remus walked out back as Sirius grinned at him.
"Think he'll like it" Sirius said breathing over Remus's ear causing him to shiver.
"Yep. He loves Blues Clues" the shorter man said eyes wandering over his whole back yard.
Remus feared being alone with Sirius right now. Seeing as how he had not even 5 hours ago been dreaming of the man sucking him off. He felt sick just thinking about it his wife had died only 9 months ago, and here he was dreaming about her cousin. He cousin that was clearly straight. The noise stopped and Remus looked in front of him. There it was full inflated. He rushed inside and grabbed the kids.
Teddy's eyes went wide as he tossed his shoes and socks off running for his new toy. The others followed with equal glee. James hit Sirius hard in the arm and hissed at him.
"Great now Harry's never gonna wanna leave" Lily said with a groan.
"Oh this will tire him out and you can take him home without a fight" Remus chimed in as he set the plates down.
"Good point" James said as he drug Sirius away to talk.
Remus's mind wander over his dream yet again. Why was it Sirius and not a woman? He'd never in 28 years of living dreamed about another man pleasuring him. He had no problem with gay men but he wasn't on. Up until recently he was very happy having sex with his wife. So why all the sudden was he dreaming about a man? Was it because Sirius had saved him in a way from himself? Or was it because he was suddenly turning gay. What was going on with his mind that he was now dreaming of naked relatives. Dear god he didn't even know if Sirius was gay.
"You alright" Lily asked he voiced laced with concern.
"Yeah sorry. I'm just thinking about things" he whispered praying she wouldn't ask anymore.
"What kind of things Remus" she whispered in return and looked him in the eyes.
"Something I watched on this movie. Lily why do you think a man with a wife would suddenly leave her for a man" He asked shifting to look at something other then her.
"Hmmm well maybe this man could offer him something his wife never could. Like true happiness or love."
"But he'd loved his wife and she loved him. The man had never even thought about another man in that way before" Remus muttered as he grabbed the candles for the cake.
"Then maybe this man is in love with two people and since his wife is dead he should focus on the living one male or not. Because his wife would want him happy isn't that right Remus" she said with a grin as he blushed.
"But I can't Sirius isn't gay" he whimpered out before he realized. Not only now did Lily know he liked another man but that he liked Sirius.
"OH MY GOSH" Lily shouted causing James, Peter and Sirius to rush in.
"What is it" James asked eyes scanning over his wife quickly.
"Remus told me a very naughty joke about a dentist" he muttered blushing now as well.
"Oh well then lets hear it" Sirius said with a sly grin.
Remus sighed and scanned threw his mind for a joke. "Uhh okay this woman goes into a dentist's office, after he is through examining her he says 'I am sorry to tell you this, but I am going to have to drill in there.' The woman then says with anticipated agony, 'Ooooohhhh, I'd rather have a baby!' To which the dentist replies 'Well make up your mind. I have to adjust the chair.'"
Sirius and James started laughing very loudly and Peter just blushed. With a slap on the back from Sirius the three left Remus and Lily to there talk.
"You like Sirius" she whispered once she was sure they were out of hearing range.
"I don't know I had this wonderful dream and he was there doing things to mean" Remus whispered back placing the candle in the cake.
"Okay well one Sirius isn't straight. He says love has no gender and I know he's slept with men before. And two I hate to ask but are you sure you just don't like him cause he's like her" Lily said in a pained hushed voice.
"I have no idea anymore" Remus said as he made his way out back.
Lily grabbed him and drug him into the closet. She turned on the light and glared at him.
"Your not running away from me Remus Lupin. Now what do you think of Sirius" she asked glaring daggers at the taller man.
"I think he's brilliant and funny. I think he's a very wise man for such a young age".
"And would you be willing to go out with him if he asked" Lily said leaning back against the wall.
"Why would a sexy,charming, brilliant man like that ever want a bookworm like me" Remus said with a groan.
"Not what I asked" Lily hissed out smacking him on the arm softly.
"I don't know Lily. I'd have to hear him ask me before I would. I have to feel him want me know that he'd accept what I am. And then I could give you an answer" Remus said and with that he opened the door and called the children in for cake.
Lily seemed to avoid him since there little talk. Not on purpose it seemed but she just seemed distant. As though she had a lot on her mind now. James didn't seem to notice because he and Sirius had started a food fight. Everyone was throwing cake and Remus groaned. He wanted to smile and join in but he too had a lot on his mind. Not only had he confessed that he liked a man but now said man was shirtless in his house covered in cake. Oh fate could be cruel to poor Remus sometimes. Not only would he have to clean this all but he had to watch the sex god known as Sirius Black make the mess. Part of him wished he could eat that cake right off him.
Remus knew better though he wasn't some teenager with raging hormones anymore he was an adult. And as such he had to behave a certain way. This meant doing this like not getting an erection at a one year olds birthday party. And not day dreaming about a 6'1 black haired, grey eyed walking orgasm. And also not cumming in his pants. He was failing at all three and hoping no one noticed he was.
After the presents and giving Teddy a good long bath Remus had the difficult task of cleaning his kitchen. Which wasn't helped at all by the fact that Sirius was there.
"Sorry about the mess we made Rem" Sirius said as he walked in to the kitchen.
"It's alright I've cleaned up bigger mess then this before. Besides it was a party I mean parties are for fun and you all clearly had fun." Remus rambled on without realizing he was.
"Let me help you" Sirius said cutting him off his sentence.
Sirius's hand bushed up against his and sparks went off. Remus felt as though he hand had just caught fire but he didn't want to put it out. No in fact he wanted to feel it burn. It was an oddly amazing feeling that seemed to travel threw his whole body. For a second he was sure he'd died but he took a deep breath and began cleaning yet again.
Remus was on his hands and knees scrubbing away at the floor. Sirius noticed this which made his pants unbelievably tight. He hopped Remus didn't turn around and check him checking out his arse. But in Sirius's eyes Remus was perfect. His soft brown hair and lovely amber eyes. And the scars on his face gave him depth. Oh yes and the that butt. It was perfect firm and tight with such lush to it. Sirius could feel himself drooling at the mere thought of it. Shivering he turned away and back to task at hand.
They worked in a very tense silence for what seemed like hours. But once finished Remus smiled at Sirius and offered him a drink.
"So do you have any good movies" Sirius asked with a soft smile.
"I don't have many but I've always been fond of Total Eclipse" Remus said as they made their way into the living room yet again.
His mind raced as they sat down watching one of his all time favorite movies. He moved slightly closer to Sirius with each passing minute until the were a mere inch away. And Sirius paused the movie with a soft grin and tilted Remus's chin up.
"Your far to cute for your own good" Sirius whispered before kissing Remus.
Remus moaned softly into the kiss lacing his arms around Sirius's neck. Sirius grinned and took this chance to slip his tongue inside Remus's mouth enjoying the moans that came from that. The older man lifted his younger counter part up and onto his lap. Sliding his hand around Remus's neck and deepening the kiss. Remus moaned a bit louder now as he felt Sirius's aching cock threw his jeans. Causing Remus to grind down.
"God damn your amazing" Sirius said as they pulled away causing Remus to whimper.
"Sirius stop we need to talk" Remus whispered out eyes fixed on the floor.
"Okay. What is it" Sirius asked turning Remus's face so they could lock eyes.
"How do you feel about me" Remus asked worried amber eyes looking into confident grey ones.
(( Alrighty so I hope you enjoy this chapter please review as always. Reviews help me work faster to bring you yaoi. Oh and the movie Total Eclipse stars David Thewlis who plays Remus Lupin in the movies. He shares a gay kiss and some other...things with the lovely Leonardo DiCaprio. Anyway I hope you enjoyed this chapter. xoxo -Brenna))