"I well...I feel very strongly towards you. More then liking but not yet love if that makes sense" Sirius said with a small blush starting to form on his cheeks.

"It makes perfect sense to me. I more then like you to Sirius" Remus said with a chuckle before closing the distance between them with a kiss.

Sighing they reluctantly pulled away. Sirius running his thumb softly over his new boyfriends lips. Noticing the fear in Remus's eyes as he did so.

"Sorry Sirius but we can't do more then this tonight. With Teddy being here and all" the brunette said as he stood up.

"It's fine. I should get going anyway I still haven't found a hotel to stay at yet" the black haired man muttered as he rose and hugged Remus.

"You can stay here the guest room it still empty" Remus yawned out as he turned around.

"You sure that's okay" Sirius asked nervously as he rubbed the back of his neck.

"Of course it is" the younger man said with a soft smile as he headed off to bed.

But unlike Sirius, Remus tossed and turned all night. Thoughts racing to his mind that he wished to keep at bay. His body began to shake and burn. He thought he'd made it past this but he hadn't. And as he began to cry he knew this would never work. He couldn't be with Sirius even if he wanted not after what happened. He could put 1000 years in between it and it wouldn't help him. His body would remember the pain and his heart would feel each break. Could he really be with Sirius when he was so damaged. So broken and ill.

Time seemed to race by and the pleasant scent of bacon filled Remus's nose waking him up. He couldn't recall when he fell asleep but he knew it couldn't have been more then a few hours ago. Never the less he climbed out of bed. Shivering slightly as the cold air rushed around him. He walked down stairs and heard a delightful sound. Someone singing and not just singing, but singing one of his favorite songs. Hey Jude by The Beatles. The voice singing it was intoxicating to say the least. So deep so rich and loving.

"Morning and how did you sleep" Sirius said as he put some food onto a plate and set it in front of the aforementioned man.

"Fine. I take it you slept well" Remus chuckled out eyes scanning over Sirius.

Silky black hair falling softly against his face almost framing it. Grey eyes sparkling with affection and mischief. A bright grin plastered over that gorgeous face.

"More then just well Remus. I had the most wonderful dream. Anyway as Teddy ever been to a fair cause there's one going on today and I was thinking" Sirius voice trailed off. They both knew it had nothing to do with Teddy but Remus smiled and played along.

"No he hasn't but you can take him" the younger man said with a smirk.

"I would but that seems like a date and I'm not a pedophile you see" Sirius whispered in Remus's ear making the man next to him shiver.

"Ahh well then you can take me and he'll just tag along" Remus said and with that began eating.

There was a happy air filling the room. Teddy had already finished eating and was playing a game. Remus had warned the older man about letting a one year old play with an iPad but he didn't seem to care.

"My son better not find any porn" Remus mumbled out with a soft glare.

"Hmm he might but look at it this way he won't need sex ed" Sirius laughed out at Remus threw a piece of toast at him.

After breakfast and a nice hot shower they made there way back down stairs dressed and ready to go. Remus wasn't one for loud crowds of people and screaming but this would be fun. How could it not be when he had Sirius with him. And Teddy who was singing about this in the back seat. Remus knew that today had to be a good day. His mother had always tolled him things would get better for him. His past had been filled with pain which only meant his future had to be better. Or at least he hopped so. The world didn't seem to be doing a good job balancing it out so far. But he couldn't think about that right now he was going to have a good day. It was no time for tears and self pity.

The fair was just like Remus had expected. Loud with tons of people who seemed to scream at each other. Sticky things all over the ground which was also littered with trash. But Teddy and Sirius seemed to be enjoying them selfs. Which made him happier then ever.

"'Ello Lupin" a voice said breaking threw Remus's happiness. "It's been a while ain't it" the older man said green eyes glaring into his.

Remus couldn't speak his body began to shake. And all he wanted to do was run away run faster then he'd ever ran before. But he couldn't move at all. His mind screamed run or get Sirius but how could Sirius help him.

"Remus is this a friend of yours" Sirius said as he looked over the man.

"Aye I am and you are" The tall man said his sandy brown hair falling over his scar covered face.

"Sirius Black" the black haired man growled out not liking the tone he was just spoken to in.

"Black ey' you must be Orion's little brat right" the man said with a sick smirk.

"Yeah I am and who are you" Sirius said eyes glaring daggers into the man.

"David Jackson" David said smiling at Remus who nearly cried. "Your friend here is a bad boy".

Remus's body began to shake even more and he felt waves of fear crash over him. He grabbed Teddy and ran. He couldn't recall where he was or where he'd even been going. The air around him was moist and filled with salt so he guessed he was near the beach. Teddy was whimpering his name but it fell on deaf ears. Remus's held his son tightly and made his way down to the beach. Hardly anyone was there so they just sat. Until Sirius came running up.

"Remus are you alright" his voice dripping with concern.

"I'm a good boy I swear" it was all Remus kept saying he kept saying it and crying. It scared Teddy to see his father like this.

"Of course your good Remus. Your a very good, kind, sweet man" Sirius whispered as he hugged the shaking man next to him.

They stayed there for a while as Teddy rolled around in the warm sun. Remus finally came down from his fear induced trance and looked into his boyfriends eyes.

"Fenrir Greyback" Remus whispered making sure no one else heard him.

"The drug dealer" Sirius said as he cocked his eyebrow.

"When I was five my dad was a cop and had caught him. He insulted Greyback who didn't take kindly to that. When they couldn't get the charges to stick he was let go. He found me took me and he...he...he" but Remus couldn't say it.

"You were that kid on the news. The cops son he kidnapped and held for those six months" Sirius said in shock.

"Yeah I'm that kid. My real name isn't Remus it's Romulus I changed it because I hate my real name. I hate everything about me. I hate this skin most of all" and Sirius knew why Remus was this way now.

Fenrir Greyback had taken a five year old boy raped and tortured him. Filmed and let other men do the same. Sirius had remember hearing all about it on the news. The parents in his neighbors were all worried they'd do the same thing to their kids. But it turned out it was just pay back. How low was this sicko. Sirius felt ill when he remembered Greyback had been over to his house before. He wished he could go back to that day and kill the bastard. How dare anyone harm Remus he had never done anything to anyone. Who could be so cruel as to rape an innocent child. One that was still to young to even know about sex.

"Don't worry Siri I'm fine that was over 20 years ago" Remus said with a sad smile as he rested his head on Sirius's shoulder.

"I think Teddy's gonna need a bath he's got sand all in his hair." the older man said with a laugh.

"Your giving it to him since you wanted to take him to the fair" Remus said as he stood up stretching in a way that left Sirius breathless.

"Fine fine whatever but you have to kiss me first" he said with a smirk.

Remus leaned over and kissed Sirius softly on the lips as they made their way back to the car. Teddy had fallen asleep shortly after they began the long drive home. And for the second time in his life Remus Lupin had shared that horrid tale. And for the second time in his life he'd be accept. So maybe his life wasn't all bad. Most people only got one person to love and be loved by. He had two, and a lovely son. Slightly over protective parents, and crazy friends. So what if he hadn't had a great childhood. He was living a great life now.

The car stopped jerking Remus from his thoughts. A hand rested it's self on his thigh and grey eyes looked into his. The had nothing but love and understanding. So after putting Teddy to bed Remus made his way into Sirius's room and smiled.

"No" Sirius said as Remus went to undress.

"What you don't want to have sex" Remus asked feeling a bit hurt.

"Not here I have it all planned. James and Lily will take Teddy tomorrow and we'll go down to Durham. I got us a dinner reservation at a little italian place and a hotel room." Sirius said as he kissed Remus softly.

"Why did you do all that" the younger man asked glaring at his soon-to-be-lover.

"Because this is your first time and I want it to be wonderful" the older man said grey eye sparkling in the light.

"You know damn well it's not my first time" Remus growled out as he went to leave.

"It is have a sex with a man. Rape and sex aren't the same you've never had sex with a man. Your a virgin to it and I want it to be amazing your first time" Sirius said with a soft smile hopping that won Remus over otherwise he was going to have to start crying.

"Alright then" Remus muttered as he shut the door behind him.

He couldn't believe anyone would go threw all this just for him. But there Sirius was wasting his time and money trying to make Remus happy. Part of him felt awful because of it but the other half was screaming with joy. He couldn't believe he was going out to eat in the biggest city within 100 miles. He'd only ever been once but it was so beautiful. The lights and all night book stores oh it was heaven. He'd half to remember to go get his hair trimmed and clean up his good shoes.

The dark stone room reeked of blood and semen. Rats huddled in the corner as the door cracked. A boy was tossed hard down the stairs by a rather tall man with long black hair and bright blue eyes. The boy fell hard with a cry of pain his small thin body nearly breaking as he his the concrete. Amber eyes filled to the brim with fear and pain. He shook and screamed.

"MY FATHER'S A COP HE'LL FIND ME!"

"Kid I've met your daddy. In fact you can thank him for this. It's all his doing you know what they say...never piss off a wolf" and with that the man slammed the door shut.

The small boy began to shake and whimper tears falling softly down his cheeks. He couldn't see the hand in front of his face which scared him even more. This darkness seemed to encase his body and soul. Crushing him and stealing away his last breath. And this silence was deafeningly loud with this chamber. Oh how he longed for light and to feel his parents hugging him. Oh how he longed to not be here in this darkness.

The man returned and flipped a switch causing light to flood the room. There was a small mattress in the corner, a tub and a bucket. The small boy began to shake as the older man stalked down the stairs with a sickeningly happy gleam in his eyes.

"Romulus right? Well Romulus I'm Fenrir. Now you be a good boy and do what I tell you and I'll let you live. Misbehave and you'll be punished".

It sounded easy enough all Romulus had to do was behave. He was always a good boy this would be no problem. Then he could go home and see him mom and dad.

"Strip" the man barked.

Romulus stood shocked but did was he was told. Standing there six years old,naked,alone with a scary man. He prayed this was a nightmare of god please let it be. But it wasn't.

"Now Romulus-" the man unbuttoned his pants with a sick smile. "-your to suck on my cock here til I say stop, got it"

Romulus nodded and did as told he sucked on as much of the mans dick as he could. But his mouth was small and the man was rather large. He could only take in about an inch. Not that Fenrir minded being in the boys mouth isn't what got him off.

"Now get on the bed and get on your hands and knees".

Romulus again did as he was told but didn't understand why he was doing any of this. Why was he naked like this was the man going to spank him? But all thought was lost when the man thrust into the virgin 6 year old beneath him.

"PLEASE STOP THAT HURTS SIR STOP" the boy screamed in pain.

It only made Fenrir thrust harder not caring how much pain the boy was in. He thrust until he climaxed and left not even checking to see if the boy was okay. Not that he cared if the boy lived of died. He could always find another fuck toy.

The boy in question sat shaking and crying. He was bleeding and his arse hurt. He felt gross and sticky as the blood and semen leaked from his once virgin body. He felt like dying and he cried and cried the pain never leaving him. And a moment later the man was back. He prayed he'd come to kill him.

"Oh yeah good job brat" the man said with a beastly grin on his ill face.

He walked over and the boy shuddered. What happened next wasn't as bad as the rape but hurt. The man took a large knife and craved his initials into the boys lower back. After that he left with a sadistic laugh.

Remus awoke with a loud scream and tears racing down his cheeks. Sirius rushed in and held him whispering soft soothing words into his ear. The was all new to Sirius he'd never dealt with a rape victim. He had no idea what to do so he just held the man.

"Sirius...stay with me please. I..I just don't want to be alone" Remus whispered hating the way it sounded like Romulus.

"Of course Remus." with that Sirius climbed into Remus's bed and slept.

Sirius rolled over and noticed something was missing. More specifically Remus was gone. He wandered around the house looking. But each room was empty which worried the man. Remus hadn't seemed well not since meeting up with that prick. Sirius walked outside and noticed under the rather large tree in the back was Remus fast asleep. He walked over to the man who looked rather cute in the state.

"mmm Sirius is that you" a voice broke into the morning air.

"Yeah it's me."

"Why are you out here it's freezing" Remus said as he stood up shaking a bit.

"I could ask you the same thing" Sirius mumbled taking Remus's hand and walking back inside.

"I find it easier to sleep outside."

"I'll never understand that. How could you want to sleep on wet grass in the freezing cold morning."

"During the time I spent with...it I wasn't allowed outside. I guess I enjoy outside more because I feel free. I feel like I'm not with it anymore."

Sirius nodded and began making breakfast.

"So Remus is there anything you really enjoy."

"I enjoy chocolate,books,classic movies,good music and tea. But enough about me what do you enjoy?"

"Sex, ice cream,horror movies, rock music and anything by Stephen King" Sirius said with a smirk as he watched Remus blush.

"Your a pervert" Remus murmured.

"You know it baby."

They laughed at each other for a bit before Remus took a shower and came back down with Teddy. Trying to explain that he was going over to Harry's for a sleep over later. But Teddy wanted to go now. He really wanted to go hang out with his cool older friend.

"Not now Teddy later, okay just eat" Remus said with a sigh setting a plate down in front of his son.

"Okay papa. Umm are you okay papa you were crying a lot yesterday" Teddy said with a mouth full of eggs.

"Yes I'm feeling much better now."

"Why were you crying papa" Teddy asked with a sad smile on his young face.

"Papa had remember something sad is all. But it's okay now".

"Alright papa."

"And what have I told you about talking with your mouth full." Remus said with a groan as Sirius laughed.

"Kids talk with their mouths full all the time he'll grow out of it if he ever wants a girlfriend".

"EWWWWWWWWW! Girls are gross Harry says his daddy told him they have some di..di..sickness and if you touch them you get it"

"Leave it to James to ruin a child that isn't even his. Teddy girls are fine."

"Then why do you like my papa, and not some girl?" Sirius and Remus both nearly choked.

"Ummm because your papa is a very amazing man. Far more amamzing then any girl I've ever met." Sirius said smiling at the boy.

"Oh. Are you gonna be my new mommy?" Again both men nearly choked.

Blushing heavily Remus spoke "Teddy we don't know yet okay so just save your questions until later, right now just eat."

Half way threw their lovely meal someone knocked at the door. Remus stood up quickly and answered it. Surprised to see his neighbor and friend Molly Weasley.

"Hello Molly, is there something I can do for you?"

"Yeah I kinda need to use your A Encyclopedia for a while." she said with a sad smile.

"Of course come in. I'll be right back with it" Remus said as he ran off to his study.

Molly was a kind lady who didn't snoop often but when she heard a familiar laugh she ventured into the kitchen.

"Oh Hello Sirius" she said a bit surprised to see the man.

"Hello Molly fancy meeting you here" Sirius said with a laugh as he made another silly face at Teddy.

"I could say the same to you, why are you here anyway?"

"I'm staying with Remus for a while, why are you here?"

"The twins decided to scream arsehole in front of Ron and now he's been saying it. So I'm going to make them write down every word that starts with A in the English language ,and since Remus is the only one around with an Encyclopedia collection I came here."

They seemed to glare at each other in anger for a while. Until Teddy being the adorable ball of stupid he is shouted. "SIRIUS IS GONNA BE MY NEW MOMMY AUNTY MOLLY!"

Sirius spit his drink across the room, and Molly looked at the boy in shock.

"Teddy didn't your daddy already explain to you that we don't know what we are to each other yet."

"But you like him right? And he likes you. So of course your gonna be my new mommy" the boy said with a cute smile on his face.

"Your seeing Remus" Molly asked in shock eyes meeting Sirius's.

"Yeah kinda I mean-" but before Sirius could finish Molly had already left in search of Remus.

She found him in his study looking around for the book.

"Oh hello Molly sorry for taking so long my study is a bit unorganized at the moment" he said with a nervous laugh.

"Are you dating Sirius" she asked in a harsh tone.

"I don't see how that's any of your concern but yes I am" Remus responded in a equally harsh tone.

"Sirius is trouble Remus you shouldn't be with him. He's the type of guy to say anything you wanna hear, get you in bed then leave. Trust me he's just saying what you want to hear, and once he's done you'll never see him again. Don't fall for his lies" she said with a pleading look in her eyes.

"I don't know much about him but he seems sweet enough to me. And he was kind and helpful when I needed a friend so maybe he's changed." Remus said and thrust the book into Molly's hands. "Your a good friend Molly but this is my life I'll live it how I want to."

Remus followed Molly out without so much as a goodbye. Then made his way back to the kitchen noticing it was only Sirius there.

"Where's Teddy" he asked sitting back down to his lukewarm meal.

"He finished so I let him go play. Is that a problem?"

"No no not at all...Umm Sirius how many people have you been with?" Remus asked nervously.

"A lot... I know what Molly told you but it isn't true. Yes granted I have lied to get people in bed before, and yes I have slept with my fair share of people but I'm not doing that with you. I like you a lot, more then with anyone I've ever been with before. I promise you I'm not just using you." Sirius said taking Remus's hand in his own.

"Alright then. I believe you Sirius" Remus said with a loving smile. "Mmm oddly I'm no longer hungry. Would you mind if I took a quick nap before our ummm date?"

"Not at all you'll need your energy to what I have in mind anyway."

Remus awoke a few hours later to Sirius shaking him.

"Huh, what's going on is everything alright" Remus yawned out.

"Of course but it's nearly time for our dinner reservation so get a move on my sexy little beast" Sirius said with a smirk.

Remus groaned and got up quickly making his way into the shower. His mind was still a bit hazy from just waking up. The warm water rushed over his aching body and he began to think about Sirius. He was worried that once Sirius saw him naked he'd regret his choice. But he couldn't keep thinking like that or he'd make it a reality. No Remus was going to enjoy tonight no matter what. Because he was going out with a very stunning man who liked him. The water began to go cold so Remus hurried. Rushing out and putting on his best suit and tie.

"Took ya long enough" Sirius said with a laugh as he saw Remus coming down stairs.

But the laugh was cut short as he caught sight of Remus. His soft brown hair was still a bit damp clinging softly to his face. His eyes and skin seemed to glow, and the way that dark blue suit hung off him. The way the red in his tie seemed to match the bit of red in his hair. Sirius was speechless.

"What? Is something wrong" Remus asked nervously.

"No no far from it. Remus you look absolutely ravishing. I'm not sure were gonna even make it to dinner."

"Shut up" Remus mumbled blushing a bit.

Sirius was a gentle men the whole time. Opening doors for Remus pulling out his chair. On there walk to the hotel he even bought the younger man a rose. Remus in all his years on earth had never been so pampered before. He was enjoying himself. Sirius was a very romantic man, and a very interesting one too. At the restaurant he order for them both in perfect Italian. And sang to Remus a wonderful love song in French.

"Here we are" Sirius said breaking Remus out of his thoughts.

The room was lovely, a beautiful queen size bed sat in the middle covered in white rose petals. On the pillows were two small chocolates and the room was decorated to the nines. Sirius dimmed the lights and poured a couple glasses of wine handing one to Remus.

"Are you sure you'd like to do this" Sirius asked.

"Of course just...be gentle please" Remus whimpered taking a sip of the lovely wine.

"I will" Sirius said then set down his glass quickly capturing Remus's lips in a wonderful kiss.

They kissed softly at first but as time wore on the kissing got more heated. Until Sirius had Remus pinned to the bed beanth them. Sirius tougne trailed down slowly all over Remus's neck sucking softly at random places. Sirius whispered sweet and very naughty things cauing Remus to moan loudly. His hands sliding all over the younger mans body touching the bit of skin that he could uncover. His finger trailed lines up and down Remus's back driving the man far beyond insane. But he felt far to good and in that moment to fight it.

Remus was losing his cool all the while Sirius seemed like ice. So he leaned forward began to melt him by sucking on his neck. Bitting hard enough to leave just the trace of a mark. Sirius enjoyed it his moans began the drive the younger wild as he practically dry humped him. They pulled apart and Remus began to blush looking softly into his the older mans eyes. The slowly began to undress until they were only wearing their boxers. Sirius slowly pulled Remus's down and smiled. Enjoying the sight of the small man naked, blushing all for him.

"Your so amazing Remus" he whispered before grabbing out a bottle of lube and slicking up his fingers.

Slowly Sirius pushed a finger into Remus's ever so willing body. Noticing how tight and hot he was. Remus shut his eyes tight as those fingers went deeper and deeper into him. Shivering he gripped the bed as tightly as he could nearly tearing the sheets. Another finger entered and then a third streching him as much as they could before curling to find that spot.

"SIRIUS!" Remus shouted arching high off the bed.

Sirius smiled and withdrew his fingered quickly replacing them with something much larger. Remus was far to pleasure drunk to care anymore he just moaned. Begging Sirius to do something, anything he just wanted to feel that way again. Sirius entered quickly and held still noticing how Remus's faced changed from pleasure to pain. The younger man was now whimpering his cock going soft as the familiar pain filled his body.

"Remus focus on me don't think about him" Sirius said stroking Remus quickly.

A few minutes of stroking and kissing and Remus was ready for more. So Sirius began moving his hips slowly at first until the man beneath him started begging for more. So he began to move even faster until they were both at their limit.

"Sirius...I can't..." Remus moaned out clinging to the older man.

"Me too...lets cum together okay" Sirius panted out kissing Remus softly on the cheek.

A few more well placed thrust and they came together. Remus's cum coating their chest and Sirius's filling him. Panting they laid next to each other for some time not thinking about anything. Suddenly Remus yawned and snuggled closer to his lover.

"Night Siri" he whispered before falling asleep.

"Goodnight Remus" Sirius said smiling softly before joining him in blissful rest.

((Sorry for the lateness I've been having a lot of trouble writing this one. I normally have my boyfriend around to help me with romantic stuff. But damn marine is back on active duty v.v Anyway please reveiw and I'm very sorry for the awful sex scene but I fail.))