And he looked. . . .Perfect.

From the kitchen, they worked their way up the stairs and into Agito's room, Kazu, carrying the smaller boy in his arms as they continued to kiss and stroke each other.

Agito could feel the strength in Kazu's hands as he was held in the air. He knew that if he tried to fight him on it, he would be in more pain than he would need to be. It would hurt less if he just complied with what Kazu wanted.

Kazu, driven on by the smaller boy's willingness to go up the stairs and into his room, assumed that the smaller boy felt the same desire, if not need, to continue what they had begun.

In Agito's room, they continued to explore each other's bodies with apparent abandon.

Kazu took off his clothes before ridding the smaller boy of what was left of his.

Kazu took time to kneel above his new-found lover, appreciating his beauty. Even if he knew what they were doing was considered wrong, he didn't care, just as long as he could finally be with the boy he loved.

Agito couldn't help but shiver as Kazu's gaze ran over his exposed body, lust making the older boys' pale eyes shine in the dim light. Agito realized something; Kazu was beautiful. His body, usually hidden by long-sleeved shirts and jeans, was well toned and lean. His pale golden locks, always before hidden by the retched beanie, were softly framing his delicately beautiful face. Kazu is beautiful. The realization shocked him. He had never noticed it before. In the year he had been living with Crow and them, he had never even noticed it.

Agito was shaken from his musings by Kazu moving forward to kneel to one side of him, closer.

Only when Kazu was within a few inches of him did Agito see the scars that riddled the older boy's body. But, strangely, it did not take away from his beauty, if anything, it added to it. It made his ethereal body seem to be real. Like a Greek statue come to life. (The Greek liked to make everything seem perfect, unreachable)

Kazu tenderly kissed Agito, his tongue gliding smoothly across the smaller boy's lower lip, asking for permission to enter.

Agito opened his mouth for the older boy, amused at Kazu's gesture. It's not like he wouldn't have just forced his way in anyways.

Kazu plunged his tongue into Agito's moist cavern, enjoying the pure taste of him. He explored his mouth like he planned to explore the rest of the smaller boy's body; tasting everything there was for him to explore.

From Agito's mouth, Kazu ghosted kisses down the lean body stretched before him, until he reached the hallow before the boys erect member. He gave the hallow sure licks with his tongue, sucking the delicate flesh at whatever spot interested him.

Agito writhed under his tender touch. Kazu's kisses and caresses were gentle, maybe too gentle. Although Kazu's lips were cold, every place he touched felt as though it burned. In all the times he had had sex, all the people he had had sex with, it never felt like this. This feeling of freezing yet burning was so foreign. Agito felt as though he was about to explode with the new sensations he was feeling.

Kazu finally moved his attention to Agito's member, kissing the tip, causing Agito to moan slightly, biting his lip.

Kazu paused his ministrations to say, ' Let me hear the pleasure I bring you. Don't hold it back.' With that bit of instruction, he took all of the smaller boy's length into his mouth, deep throating him, almost choking at how big he was.

Agito screamed Kazu's name, almost coming into the older boy's mouth then and there, but hanging on. He knew that if he came so early in the game, Kazu would not be pleased.

Kazu stayed on Agito's erection as long as he could, eyes rolled up to watch the smaller boys pleasure. He slowly released his prize, his tongue sliding along the underside of the soft yet firm skin, enjoying the sensation of it and of how Agito's eyes grew wider the more he played with him , the strangled look on the younger boys face as he clutched the sheets, breath frantic.

Agito threw his head back as Kazu dove back on his erection, sucking him as fast and hard as he could, finally bringing the smaller boy into the ecstasy he so wanted him to be in.

Agito screamed and screamed as waves of pleasure rode through him, Kazu's mouth still working him, his throat swallowing him down, drinking all he had to give him.

When Agito could think through his urgency to draw in breath, he realized his folly; had he held onto his release longer, it would have given him more time to prepare for what would happen next. Fuck. Now it's his turn. God, I hope he's small enough to go in smoothly, like brother. Agito clenched his eyes shut tight as Kazu moved up to a kneeling position, forcing the smaller boy's legs to spread wider on either side of him.

Instead of the painful thrusting he expected from between his legs, he felt a light kiss on his trembling lips. Shocked, he open his eyes to see Kazu's face directly in front of his. Kazu kissed his lips again then leaned back on his heels with a foreign look in his eyes. It was a look that Agito did not know, and it scared him.

'Prepare yourself for me, Agito. Make yourself ready for Me.', Kazu said, his voice wavering slightly from what Agito assumed was desire.

Agito nearly cried upon hearing those instructions. He knew them well. His brother had often said such things to him when he 'behaved' enough to 'deserve' the 'gift' of preparing himself before he was ravaged.

Agito bent his head to hide the look of shame on his face as he put his own fingers into his mouth, making them as wet a possible before bringing them to his hidden entrance. The smaller boy paused briefly, mentally preparing himself for the pain. Slowly, he slid his fingers into his own body, carefully widening his entrance. Since he had not had anal sex (or any sex for that matter) since he moved in with the crow, he was tight, like a virgin. He couldn't help the small whimper that escaped his mouth as his fingers dug into his body.

Another whimper echoed his own, looking up; Agito could see Kazu looking desperate at the end of the bed, holding his own swollen cock in his hands, precum oozing from the top. This amused Agito until he fully processed what this could mean; if Kazu got any more turned on, he was likely to just come at him instead of letting him prepare himself, and by the looks of how Big Kazu was, he would need all the preparation he could get.

Agito turned his attention back to preparing himself, driving his fingers ever deeper inside of himself, probing for that special spot inside of him that would make all the pain dim a little, turning his fingers diving in his secret opening from tools of pain into tools of pleasure.

Upon finding it, Agito let out a shrill cry, his cock becoming hard again. Agito kept pressing his spot, none to gently, until he was sure he could get farther, adding two more fingers to his ministrations, scissoring his fingers all at the same time, widening him still.

When Agito couldn't stand it anymore, he wrapped him free hand around his throbbing cock, pumping his hand up and down as he pounded his fingers into himself, keeping the pace hard and fast, making himself almost cum at how good it felt.

When he was just about to release, he stopped himself. Pulling his fingers out of his throbbing ass, he looked at Kazu, who was now clutching the sheets like it was he who was so near orgasm. But, Agito thought, maybe he was. The older boys cock was so hard that you could see the flesh straining to hold him in. See the sweat pour down his body.

As soon as Kazu realized that Agito was done he crawled toward his lover, spreading the smaller boys' legs until he could fit his own lean hips in between them. He positioned his throbbing member at the smaller boys' entrance.

'Are you ready, Agito?' Kazu asked heatedly.

Kazu was almost going to faint from excitement, after all the time he had loved the younger boy, he was finally going to be with him, he was finally going to get to release himself inside of him. This was going to be the older boys first love making and he was more scared than he could have ever imagined. He had watched all of his older sisters 'boys' love' videos and read all of her books. He had done everything to make sure that this first time would be special, that he could share his love with the standoff-ish boy he had always had feelings for. He had copied everything from the books and movies; he had done everything that they did in them to Agito. Said every line just like the seme in the videos had, and now, he was finally with the boy he loved, and they were about to make love!

Kazu was shaken from his joy when he heard an angry voice almost scream, 'What do you care?! You're going to take me anyways! Just get it over with so I can pretend this never happened! Or what? You plan to tell all your little friends about your sick hobbies?"

Kazu's head swam in confusion. 'Wha-?' he began. He reached down to Agito only to see the smaller boy flinch, closing his eyes as tears streamed down his face. Only when this had sunk in did Kazu realize the smaller boy was shaking, his tiny body tensed up as though waiting for some pain to befall him.

Kazu just shook his head, trying to sort all this out,' R-r-ra- pe? Rape? B-b-b-but I-i-i-i-. I t-th-thought y-you , um , I-i-i-i- thought you, y-ya know. L-liked. . . me?'

At the desperation in the older boys voice, Agito looked up, fear still making it hard to move.

From where Agito lay, he could see the larger boy easily; Kazu looked like you had just told him that his mother died. Face pale, eyes wide, tears on the verge of running down his face.

The sight made Agito's gut clench. So much pain on his face; Why? He knew this wasn't consensual.

'Why does your face look so stricken? You knew what this was when you threatened to restrain me. Why do you look like I told you something that you didn't know? '

Kazu let the first tear slide down his face. So he doesn't love me. Rage consumed the older boy as that thought went through his head, So he'll profess love and offer himself up to Ikki anyway he wants, but for me? He calls me a rapist. A RAPIST! I'll show him rape! I'll make him regret not loving me back!

But even as the thoughts went on in his head, he knew he could never hurt the boy he loved. He could never be so cruel.

Agito watched thoughts struggle across Kazu's face. First he was afraid, so afraid at the look of hate on the larger boys face that he almost knew that he wouldn't survive what would happen next, then, the look on Kazu's face softened, going from such hate to that look he had on earlier, that look that was so foreign to Agito. That look that left his pale eyes slightly brighter than normal, yet so soft. It sort of made Agito feel good, that new look of his.

Agito was shaken from his musings when Kazu got off of the bed and started walking to the door. Agito could see the older boy's shoulders shaking, and somehow he knew that Kazu was crying.

"I- For what it's worth, i'm sorry. I sorry I forced you to bed. I'm sorry I r-r-raped you. I -i'm sorry. I am so sorry, Agito, I-i-i- I j-just. . ." Before he could even finish he broke down and let a strangled sob escape from between his lips. He started for the door only to hear Agito say harshly "Wait. I have a right to confront you about this."

Kazu stopped walking. He just stood in the middle of the room, his head down and his shoulders shaking.

Agito got up from the bed, which hurt him considerably, and walked to the trembling boy.

"I promise I will never touch you again, Agito. I will never breathe a word of this to anyone. I swea-" Agito cut off the older boy by knocking him to his knees with a well placed kick to the back of his knees.

Once he had the older boy on the ground, Agito circled around him until he could see his face. The tears had dried in red tracks down his lovely pale face. His beautiful eyes flinched as Agito looked into them.

'Why me? Why did you want to . . . have sex with me? Kazu?'

Kazu just looked at him with shiny eyes, biting his lips to keep sound from coming out.

"Why?!' Agito yelled at him.

Kazu flinched, looking down he said. ' B-b-b-because I-i-i lo-ve y-you, A-agito. I-i-i always have. S-s ince you , y-ya know, joined us. S-since i first met you.'

Agito looked shocked. 'B-but I-i thought you loved that bitch ass Emily or whatever the fuck her name is. '

Kazu just shook his head. 'Emily is just a friend. I love you.'

Agito couldn't believe it. No. Love isn't real. Not when it comes to him.

Agito back-handed the older boy in the face. "Don't fucking lie to me!" He screamed.

Just then Ikki walked into the room, bag in hand, looking bewildered. 'What the-?'