**Oh my goodness! I can NOT believe the response I have gotten for this story! Thank you all for all of the adds! I am humbled and overjoyed at all of them! Please forgive me this next chapter for taking so long to post! I have been sick and have finally recovered enough to begin writing again! I hope you all like this chapter! There is still lots more to come! Thanks again everyone! Reviews are appreciated! Love to you all!
~Rachael (Saphire Dancer)
A momentary 'deer in the headlights' look fleeted across Delancey's face at Steve's question. But she quickly schooled her features and plastered a smile on her face. She looked directly into his dark blue eyes that seemed to be darker than normal.
"Yes, I have a son."
"How old is he?" Danny asked handing Steve the picture of Delancey and Jonah.
"He just turned 6 about a month ago."
Steve looked down at the picture as Delancey answered Danny's question. He noticed the little boy's dark curls and dark blue eyes. He was quickly doing the math in his head.
"If he just turned 6, then he was born in…" he thought.
His head suddenly shot up and he looked at Delancey. His face looked like a thunder cloud.
"Danny, will you please excuse us for a minute. I need to talk to Delancey, in private" he asked.
"Sure" Danny said wisely not saying anything else.
He quickly walked out of the office door.
Steve walked over to Delancey's desk and placed the picture back on it.
"Please tell me that you were not with someone else while we were together" he said quietly.
Delancey's face softened at the pleading she heard in his voice. She gently placed a soft hand on his arm.
"Steve, look at me" she told him.
Steve turned his head and looked down at the beautiful woman in front of him.
"No, I was not with anyone else while we were together."
"So then that would mean…" Steve began.
"Yes" she said. "He is your son."
Steve sat down on the desk and just stared at Delancey.
"Why didn't you tell me?" he asked his face a mix of awe and betrayal.
Before Delancey could answer, Chin stuck his head into the office.
"Boss, we got a lead on the Sanders case. Kono and I are heading out. You with Danny?"
Chin didn't really need to ask if Steve would be with Danny, but he could feel some tension and see the look on Steve's face, and he thought he would say it to snap his boss out of whatever mood he was in.
"Yeah, I'll be right there" Steve told him.
Chin left and Steve looked back at Delnacey.
"We will finish this conversation when I get back" he told her firmly.
All Delancey could do was nod her head and watch him walk out of her office.
Steve gripped the steering wheel of the Camaro so tightly his knuckles were turning white.
Danny watched him with concern. He didn't know what had happened between him and Delancey, and his curiosity was killing him.
"So…how long have you known Delancey?" he asked nonchalantly.
"Since we were 5" Steve answered with a short, clipped tone.
Danny just nodded.
"So, what's her son's name?"
"What?" Steve said turning to look at Danny.
"I asked what her son's name is."
Steve looked at Danny darkly.
"I don't know. I didn't ask."
"Is he yours?" Danny asked while anticipating Steve's fist to come flying towards his face.
Steve took a deep breath and let it out slowly.
"Yeah, he's mine" he answered quietly.
"You sure?" Danny asked.
"Yep. He looks just like me when I was growing up. And she told me he was mine."
Danny chuckled.
"Wow, super SEAL with a kid. That's just great! Someone else you can teach how to blow things up! Another maniac in training!"
Steve shot Danny a look that told Danny if he said another word Steve was going to throw him out of the car.
Danny again wisely kept his mouth shut.
Delancey sat down at her desk and tried to calm her shaking hands and pounding heart. This was not how she wanted to tell him. How could she ever explain to him how much he had hurt her by leaving? How could she make him see that what she did was the best for the both of them, actually all three of them?
She put her head in her hands as the tears started to fall. She hadn't cried in so long, and with no one around she let the tears flow freely.
Several minutes had passed when Delancey finally began to be able to control the tears. She stood and left her office to find a bathroom. Once inside she washed her face and blew her nose.
As she stood in front of the mirror looking at her red rimmed eyes and pale face, she realized that she could do this. Her parents had raised her to be a strong, independent woman. She had done just fine with Jonah on her own and didn't need Steve's help.
She straightened her shoulders and walked out of the bathroom with her head held high.
She went into her office and began to pace. She was going to be ready for Steve when he got back.
Steve and Danny walked into the Five-0 offices with a suspect in tow. Delancey watched as Steve looked at her and then said something to Danny. Danny turned and looked at her then back at Steve. He nodded his head and walked through the doors to HPD to deliver the suspect to holding.
Steve walked calmly over to Delancey's office and walked in.
Delancey stood still as he walked over and sat down on her desk.
"We need to talk" he said quietly looking into her bright blue eyes.
"Yes, we do" Delancey agreed.
"Why didn't you tell me?" he asked.
Delancey took a deep breath and look into Steve's eyes.
"I didn't tell you because you were leaving for Afghanistan. I didn't want you worrying about it while you were at war."
"Didn't you think I deserved to know?" he asked angrily.
Delancey's anger rose to the surface as she stood as tall as her thin, 5 foot 7 inch frame would allow.
"If I had told you, would it have stopped you from leaving?"
Steve sighed and ran a hand through his hair. They had been through this argument before. She just didn't understand that he didn't have a choice. He had to deploy. He was a SEAL and had a country to fight for and protect.
Steve reached for her hand. He gently rubbed his thumb over the top of her hand.
"D, you now I didn't have a choice. I had to go. It was my job, my duty. But if you had told me, I would have done everything I could to come home to you just as soon as I could."
Steve paused. He took another deep breath.
"Is that why you sent me the letter?" he asked quietly.
Delancey could see the hurt and pain in his eyes and she had to look away.
"Yeah. That's why I sent the letter. I couldn't bear the thought of you getting killed and having to bury you before our child even had a chance to get to know you. I did what I thought was best…for all of us. I got a job in Charleston, and moved out there when I was six months pregnant" Delancey paused for a moment gathering the courage to finish what she needed to say. "I have taken good care of him and I didn't and don't need your help" Delancey finished, her voice laced with anger.
Steve jumped up off of the desk.
"What about what I want?" he asked, his voice rising.
"It doesn't matter what you want. You don't have a say in this matter" Delancey shot back, her voice rising as well.
"The hell I don't! He's my son too!" Steve yelled furious at what Delancey was saying.
"You are nothing more than the sperm donor" Delancey shouted.
The look on Steve's face told Delancey she had gone too far.
Steve turned and stalked out of her office. He walked past all the other offices and out the door into the sunshine. He got in his truck and peeled out of the parking lot.
Delancey sat down at her desk. She picked up the picture of her and Jonah.
"Oh god. What have I done?" she thought.
This wasn't how she had wanted this to turn out. She wanted Steve to be part of Jonah's life. But now? She wasn't so sure Steve would want to be.
She knew she had let her anger take over and said things that weren't true. She knew she had hurt Steve like she had hurt him before. And this time she wasn't sure he would ever forgive her.