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Song: Explosions in the Sky - "Your Hand in Mine"

The calls never stop. For weeks they go on. Every time you hear his voice through the answer machine, you bite your tongue and brace yourself where you are. You fight yourself from flinging through time and space to pick up that receiver.

But you manage. Even though it hurts every fiber in your body.

Finally one day, weeks after you left, Phil suggests to just disconnect it. Your mouth drops at his suggestion. His words are an abomination.

Phil can't do that.

You like to hear his voice.

Those messages are all you have left of him.

And then you remember, it was you who chose to leave.

You left him.

Jacob would have never left you...

As Phil takes the phone and puts it back into its box, your heart jumps out of your chest and stays with that phone.

You cry for days when you no longer hear the phone ring..

It wasn't your plan to stay away this long. While leaving you were merely hoping to take a semester of classes in Jacksonville's local community college and maybe return back when your thoughts were clear, your first plan was to stay away from Edward and Jacob. Period.

But the longer you stayed in Florida, the longer you realized that maybe Edward's words had been right from the beginning.

A clean break will heal faster...

You even hope that Edward could forget you.

You knew you didn't deserve him all along.

You knew that maybe you were never enough.

You knew you loved him with every piece of your heart.

But immortality required too much sacrifice. Immortality would only take away everything that made you, you. It meant losing your parents. It meant losing Sam and Emily. It meant you'd never speak to Angela again. It meant not tripping and not falling. It meant no longer feeling the cold. It meant you'd never feel Jacobs warmness around you ever again. The thought makes you shudder day in and day out.

You didn't plan to lose him forever. You just planned to let time fix everything for you.

And it really did make sense then.

Slowly things did come together.

You learned that you could live without Edward. Although sometimes you felt empty without him there.

But other days, as you stepped out into Florida's sunshine, you'd feel a bit liberated. You'd fell the warm rays penetrate your skin and warm your soul. You learned to smile without him.

Although you often mourned the loss of the Cullen family, going to school helped you find new friends.

But deep down you were thankful he let you take your life in your own hands. You could go where you want. You could say what you wanted to say.

Every time you laid in the sand and stared out into the sky, you knew that even if he was here, he wouldn't even be able to go out in the sunlight.

But with Jacob it was different. Jacob was something you tried not to think about.

Even when you'd lie awake night after night, trembling from the lack of warmth, you refused to go back.

You just wrapped yourself in layers and layers of blankets and tried to ignore the fact that Jacob did nothing to deserve this.

So you stayed longer and longer. You always found excuses to never go home.

One semester turned into two. And a year turned into another. And once you were offered a full ride to the University of Florida, your decision had been made.

You weren't going back.

You had friends in Florida. You loved them but you also kept a non-stop chain of emails going back in forth between you and Angela.

There was always something to talk about.

Always something to do.

You even learned how to surf. You discovered you loved it.

But every day always ended the same.

You'd lay awake staring at the ceiling thinking over and over how much you wish those emails between you and Angela were actually emails between you and Jacob.

You know deep in your heart, Jacob would have loved Jacksonville.

As your parked outside of Billy's house in your rental car you realize several things.

Billy's house is no longer red. It's blue.

Your heart clenches.

The garage you and Jacob use to spend your afternoon's in no longer is there.

Your lip trembles.

You just actually caught a plane from Jacksonville to Seattle.

You can't breathe anymore.

There are several cars parked in the drive way.

You just actually drove 200 miles to La Push non stop..

You also have NO idea where Jacob Black lives.

So you start bawling again.

Bawling like you really have just lost 5 years of your life.

Bawling like it's all your fault you'll never get them back.

A cars headlights slowly starts flashing through the back window in your car.

At first you just ignore it, waiting for it to pass. After all, all you can really see is a blurry mess of this strange blue house and your tears.

But when you hear the car motor right behind you and see it turn off it's lights, you freeze.

Someone is here.

You glance at the clock on the dashboard in panic.

It's two in the morning.

Who could it be?

You look back at the blue house.

The lights are on.

You stop moving. You pray whoever it is wont see you.

Your heart stutters.

But you're also praying that you'll be able to see them.

So you hold your breath and curse yourself when you jump after hearing the doors slam.

So it's two people...

You look straight ahead and refuse to look at the driveway.

Moments go by.

Your heart is pounding in your ears.

You're sure you're good-

Then someone is knocking on your window.

You don't scream, but you jump so high you hit your head.

Your shivering. You shaking.

Because even if it's not Jacob, you're not ready to see anyone.

You look out the window, but its so dark.

All you see a wide body shape. And it looks familiar.

Too familiar.

Your thoughts start racing. Nothing makes sense.

Maybe you forgot where the button to open the window was because you never did open that window.

Whoever it was opens your door and leans in.

You should have screamed.

It could have been a murdered.

It could have been a kidnapper.

But it isn't.

"Is that...is that who I..think it is"? He asks.

You breathe in for the first time. He gasps.

"Bella?"

You almost weep at his voice.

"Se-Seth" you manage out, and then start bawling all over again again.

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