I know I've made Bella look a bit irrational. Just keep in mind that she's going on instincts for once. I am against infidelity and all that home ruining stuff (although the drama does sounds nice lol) so don't worry. :)
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Song: Explosions in the Sky - "Your Hand in Mine"
Jumping out of the car and bear hugging Seth was not the way you had intended to greet him. Nor did you ever intend for it to involve you crying all over his shirt. In fact, you don't think you had ever even imagined greeting him again. Not like this...
Inside your heart, you knew there was a possibility that you were dead to the pack.
But this was Seth. And if he's anything like he was 5 years ago, then maybe just maybe he could forgive you.
You spent so much time being Jake's other half, it was inevitable that you'd get attached. Even Paul, who back then played Mr. Tough guy and anti Bella/leech lover, would still treat you like a sister.
They tolerated you even when you brought all that crap and life threatening drama. The thought would make you cringe if you still weren't crying.
But now, there were only two possibilities.
Seth and maybe the others are either going to remain faithful to their pack brother, Jake, and may ignore you. Although it makes your heart ache thinking they'd react like that, you know you deserve it.
Or they could just going to act like you were literally a long lost friend.
Ha. That final thought makes you laugh in mid cry.
Seth, who was momentarily stunned, is rubbing your back now.
You're just a hiccuping mess. You should be embarrassed. But you know you're too selfish to care at the moment.
He doesn't say anything while he holds you and waits for you to quiet down.
His silence has your veins grinding against your skin so you try to keep it together.
After what seems like an eternity, he places his hands on your shoulders and takes a step back.
You bite your tongue waiting for his reaction.
"I can't believe it's really you" he says in astonishment as he eyes you up and down.
It's really dark out, but you still manage to catch his features.
Seth is still young and adorable.
But he's definitely a man now. He has a wide body and muscles rippling every where.
His hair is all messy pointing this way and that.
You swallow a sob because he resembles your Jacob more than ever.
He's no longer yours remember...
He never was.
He lets out a low whistle and says, "Well look at you"
You nervously shift on your feet.
"Do I look that bad...?", you say cringing.
"Other than all that liquid leaking from your face, you look gorgeous!" he says, and then he breaks out into a brilliant smile. His face instantly looks younger and the person in front of you is definitely still the same Seth you remember. You heart flutters in hope.
You nervously laugh, but your voice is croaking.
"Not much has changed, Seth."
"I beg to differ", he says.
Than he grabs your arm and spins you around. The movement catches you off guard and your stomach almost lurches.
You can't remember the last time you ate.
"Look at that tan! And are those muscles I see?" He says incredibly.
Leave it to the supernatural to be able to say you clear as day at 2 in the morning.
He pinches your left upper arm with his huge fingers and grins.
You almost laugh.
"Yeah...I sort of..surf" you manage out.
He stares at you a couple seconds before he bursts out in a fit of silent giggles.
You frown and put your hand on you hips. You want to smile, but as much as you try, you can't. You still feel heavy all over.
"What?" you say slightly offended.
"Is that so hard to believe?"
He nods vigorously.
"Yeah." he says taking a step and reaching for someone behind him.
"That's something I have to see to believe" and then he pulls a girl beside him smiling.
"Oh", you say surprised. You had forgotten he was with someone.
But that's all cut short when you see her.
She's beautiful.
Her skin is brown cinnamon glowing in the moonlight. Definatly Native American. Her warm eyes sparkle in the moon light.
He looks at her reassuringly and presents you to her as if you had never left. Your heart clenches at his warmth. You know you probably hurt Seth along the way too.
"Daniela, this is Bella. Bella, this is Daniela, my girlfriend" he says without glancing at you. His eyes are all on her and even though the scene is too cute, all you can see in front of you is imprint.
She looks at you and waves softly, whispering a polite "Hello". Her eyes seem distant and shiny.
Then she quickly lets her gaze fall to the ground.
You nod but she misses it and you get sad all over again because she must not like you. And if she doesn't like you, how could everyone else...
Seth puts his arm around her neck and rubs her shoulder pulling her close. He kisses her hair and he seems to be comforting her.
He gives you an apologetic look and then keeps rubbing her shoulder.
You feel like you're intruding.
After some moments, Seth sigh's and looks back at you. This time he no longer has that smile on his face and the air feels colder.
You suddenly remember where you are and who you're talking too. You feel cold and stupid for even coming here. What the hell were you thinking. You can't do this. You can't just walk back here.
What for?
Seth looks behind you at your rental car and points at the lugage bags that are all over the back seats.
"Did you..just get here?" he asks you.
You nod, but look at the ground. You feel like jumping back into your car and speeding back to the airport. Because all of a sudden coming here seems like the worse idea ever. You're not sure what you were thinking. And you've never felt like a bigger fool.
Jacob now has a family and even you know better than trying to interfere with that. Life is what it is.
You start to tremble.
"Bella does...does he know you're here?"
Your heart stutters. But you shake your head violently.
He looks at you in surprise. Then he looks at the lugage in your car again.
"Does Charlie even know you're here?" he asks.
You internally freak out at the name of Charlie. You didn't even tell him you were coming.
"No" you whisper out, taking a couple steps back.
You don't belong here...
Daniela who was staring at the ground now is looking up at you curiously. For a brief moment you notice how sad she looks.
"What...what are you doing here Bella?" Seth asks.
The question catches you off guard.
What are you doing here? Why the hell did you come here?
Your thoughts start racing. Your heart is pounding hard again. Some how, hours before, you thought you were going to be able to tell Jacob you were wrong all those years. You didn't think about how ridiculous that sounds now.
"I- I—don't know" you say. The tears start spilling out your eyes. You reach behind you and feel for the car door handle.
You can't take it anymore.
Once you find it you turn around in panic and just when you open the door, Seth slams it closed from behind you. You gasp as he turns you around. You're done trying to hold your sobs.
The face Seth has on is now nothing like you've ever seen. There was nothing cute and adorable about this man. His eyes were piercing through your skin, through your bones. His grip on you wasn't hurting you, but you know you couldn't leave even if you wanted to.
"Why are you here?" he asks again. Although his voice isn't scary, it's demanding. He has his game face on. The face of a wolf being loyal to his pack brother.
This time there is only one thing you can say.
The truth is all that's left.
"I. I wa-want to s-see Jake" your cry out.
There it was.
"I ju-just wa-want to apologize for be-being mean" you say sobbing.
His eyes slowly soften up and his grip releases you. He sighs and hugs you again, pressing your face into his chest muffling your cries.
He whispers in your ear, "I know honey." He even sounds like the Jake you knew.
"I knew this day would come." he whispers.
You stay in his arms for another couple minutes until the girl behind Seth gasps.
You both untangle yourselves and look at her shocked face.
She points at you but looks at Seth in question.
"She's—She's that girl from the picture. She's the one who ruined Jacob,...isn't she?" she says. Her voice is not accusing, but her words are like daggers to your heart.
"She brings her delicate hands over her mouth as she's realized what she's said. Her eyes briefly wonder over you, she silently begging you an apology.
Seth nods softly and walks up to her.
It's official. You ruined Jacob Blacks life. You start reaching for the door handle again.
Seth takes her hand and rubs her cheek in an endearing way. She looks up at him with nothing but adoration in her eyes.
"Go inside Daniela." he says softly and beckons her towards the blue house.
"Marie needs you more than ever and I'm sure you guys have a lot to talk about" he adds.
Marie? You ask yourself. Did Billy no longer live there. Did he remarry someone named Marie. Was she okay?
You realize you missed so many things, and now you'll never know...
"What about you?" Daniela asks. "Will she be okay?" she says glancing back at you, even though she has no reason to care about you.
"She'll be fine. I promise. I'm going to take Bella to our house. She can't be here. Especially not now. Tell my mom or whoever asks that I had a work emergency and that I'm sorry."
Daniela nods and kisses Seth's cheek.
You start questioning whether you just heard right.
He even just said it. You can't be here. Not even now.
You're heart just continues to break by the second.
"I'll tell Leah to take me home tomorrow morning. If your mom can't help Marie, then I'll be staying with her okay?" she says quietly, her voice full of melancholy.
Whatever happened to Marie, has Daniela really upset.
She starts walking down the street to the driveway, when she looks back at you.
"It was nice meeting you Bella. I'm sorry about tonight. But don't worry...I-I wont tell anyone you're here."
Your heart swells in gratitude.
She glances at Seth one final time.
"Make sure you don't let her drive or leave Seth. She doesn't look so good"
Then she gives you that sad smile you don't deserve and starts walking towards the moonlit blue house.
You're speechless.
Seth smiles at you nervously and quickly takes your arm and leads you to the passenger side of your rental car.
He opens the door for you and helps you in.
"Get in quickly. We have to be long gone before Daniela reaches the door"
You don't even know what's going on anymore. Through out everything you feel like you don't even have a say in anything. All of a sudden you feel tried, and numb. You start to feel nauseous and keeping your eyes open start to become a struggle.
As Seth gets in and starts the car, you promise not to look back when the door to that strange blue house opens. By the time you think Daniela is already in the house, Seth already has you on the highway.
It's late.
You're tired.
You've lost already, you think.
Before you know it, strong warm arms are carrying you somewhere. Your half asleep and don't know where you are.
Before sleep envelopes you again, you think you hear Seth say,
"Oh, Bells...How can you fix something so broken?"
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