Finding you...

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Last time

"so.." Alice began, "I'm guessing I'm not the sole reason for you coming out to Scotland?"

"Not really. I was hoping you could tell me about Edward?" I started.

"Well..."

Chapter 4

"Well... it's a long story" Alice admitted.

"I have time," I replied, "it's what I came for." This was important.

"Why don't you tell me what you know first?" she suggested, "It may make it easier if I knew what you know."

"OK. I read the letter, the one in your room... I wasn't snooping, I promise but I found all of the Edward related stuff under my floorboards and thought of putting it back. Especially Elizabeth Masons ring... it's beautiful." I said, on the verge of tears.

Alice sat next to me and wrapped her tiny arms around my shoulders. It felt familiar and nice.

"That was lovely, really thoughtful. You know enough to know we never wanted to leave you, really Bella, we all miss you. Even Rosalie, though she won't admit it. Rosalie spends all her time in the garage, fixing cars that she has already worked on; Emmett no longer jokes about, it's getting to the point he won't even wrestle; Esme and Carlisle have lost a daughter, this is really hard on Esme as it was because of losing a child she jumped of the cliff; I have stopped shopping, unless it is completely necessary, I honestly have no reason anymore; and Jasper can't be anywhere near our family anymore, the emotions coming off our family is too much for him to bear." Alice told me, "Edward was so broken after he left you he moved away from the family. I suppose that added more to our grief, he only checks in every few months. I can give you an address to where he lives, however be warned, he is not in a good state."

I sighed. At least I knew he was still alive, I wouldn't put it past him to commit vampire suicide. "Perhaps I may be able to get through to him," I ventured. "I mean, if he misses me as much as you say he does it can't hurt trying... can it?"

Alice looked at me and smiled, it was brief but it reassured me that she still believed in me. I think that was all I needed to carry on, I was beginning to lose hope before this. "Please come back with me to the rest of the family before you set off?" She pleaded. I couldn't say no to those puppy-dog eyes, a major design fault for me...

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As I was walking up to the Cullen's new residence, I felt scared, not due to the fact they were vampires, but even after Alice told me they had missed me, I still wasn't sure. I knew that the only thing I needed to send me back into the depression that had scared my family so much was the Cullen's rejecting me. Before I even got to the front door a huge, grizzly bear sized teenager was hugging me fiercely. Emmett! I hugged him back with as much force as I could manage, I hadn't realised how much one of Emmett's hugs would cheer me up! As soon as Emmett let go of me, I was swept up into a motherly embrace, Esme... I can't believe I had ever thought my family would leave me; even Carlisle hugged me before stepping back into the house and beckoning us in with him.

Sitting on the sofa with an apologetic face was Jasper, without hesitation, I looked at Alice who nodded , I walked over to Jasper and wrapped my arms around him in a way I hoped he took as forgiveness and tried my very best to project those feelings to him. My family still loved me, I felt revived and alive! Just seeing them I felt so much better. I was out on the balcony recalling the events of the past few weeks when I heard a noise. It was Rosalie. Rosalie walked over to me with a frown on her face she raised her hand and bought it back down towards my face in vampire quick speed!...