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Andy turned to face Luke. She had said it all now. She was out with it. But, to her surprise, she didn't feel any better. There was no sensation of calm relief rushing through her veins. No weight had been lifted. In fact, her over dramatic outburst had taken quite a different turn. Because, at the exact moment she turned to glare at her ex…the moment she was going to drive home her point…really let him have it, Andy noticed something. Luke had started to cry. Luke never cried. He was always so sure of himself…always in control. The strangeness of what Andy was witnessing distracted her. Her face softened and her eyes betrayed her utter confusion. Her remorse.

What am I doing? Who am I? "I don't care if it hurts you to hear it?" Why would I say that? I meant it…no…no I didn't. God. You're on a roll tonight, McNally. I should just keep going…ostracize myself from anyone who has ever been a friend to me. Call them all up…sound like an idiot…a jerk. No one will ever speak to me again and that would be better…at least then I couldn't hurt them…

As Andy was sorting through her thoughts…as she was attempting to find the right words to tell Luke that she was sorry…that she was an awful mess of a person, she was disturbed by the sound of Luke clearing his throat.

"Andy, you said that life is never what you think it might be…but…life is what you make of it. So, if you're confused about yours…maybe you ought to stop and think about what you want from it."

Luke paused for a moment and glanced over at Andy. He thought that she had a strange look on her face. It seemed to look almost scared or confused…or disgusted.

"Andy…" Luke said, his voice quiet and gentle. "You meant what you said, I know it. I've known it. And I agree…for the most part it was the truth. You are wrong, though…about me. I did what I did with Jo because I was afraid…I was scared that I was missing out. You know…for the longest time…before I met you…Jo is what I wanted. She is who I imagined a future with…and that imaginary future seemed great. But that's just it…I imagined the whole thing. It wasn't real. It couldn't have been. Real love, Andy, is about forgiveness. It has to be…because like real life, real love isn't perfect. People make mistakes. I made a mistake. You may never forgive me…and I'm okay with that. But, never ever think that just because I made a mistake that that mistake meant that I didn't love you. It just meant that I'm human."

Andy had her eyes lowered. She was looking at her shoelaces. She didn't want to hear Luke. Maybe he was right. Maybe he was wrong. Maybe she was too tired to care and maybe that meant that she was some kind of cold-hearted monster.

"Hey…Andy…" Luke hesitated.

When she didn't respond, he continued.

"About Sam…look, I don't know why he hasn't called you back. But…I know that he will. He'd be crazy not to. A girl like you, Andy…that's a once in a lifetime. That's an honor. Sam's a lot of things, but he isn't stupid. He'll call. Just be careful, you know? You build someone up too high…they'll only let you down. Like me with Jo. Just keep things in perspective. Andy…if he doesn't call…if you really love him…just…you know, never give up on someone you love. It's worth the struggle."

"Luke…" Andy managed to choke out between her sobs.
"I'm sorry for those things I said to you…I've just…today hasn't been easy…I know…there's no…e..x..cuse…it was…. nice of you to drive….all the way out here to get me…and…I…I'm just really tired…and I can't sleep. And…there's always Tracie…and her mom…Leo…they're so nice to let me…stay…but it's just really har…"

"Andy" Luke interrupted. "Stay at our place…my place, I mean. I can take you there. I'll just drop you off. I won't stay. You can have your privacy and everything. I've got so much work to do….the Strauss case…and…you know, I'll probably just end up sleeping in my office. Why don't you go to my place, then? You can have it all to yourself."

"Luke…no, you've already done enough. I've already been a total ass to you. I won't keep you out of your own house."

"Andy, you know that it's not like that…I won't be there anyway. Besides…all of this…it's the least that I can do for you. Even if you don't think so…helping you like this makes me feel better. Will you stay?"

Andy let out a long sigh. It was a tempting offer. She hadn't slept in an actual bed for a long time. Besides, it was what Luke wanted and after all she had said to him tonight she could at least humor him with this.

"Yeah…you know, Luke? That sounds really great. It sounds better than great. Let's go."