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Tsukasa woke up from her nightmare. She panting and sweating. She looked around the room, relieved that she was not in the room where her memories were forcefully erased. She still doesn't know why Timoteo, her grandfather, did that to her. The men in black that killed her mother and separated and maybe killed her brother were part of the Vongola. She knew that living in the Vongola mansion since her birth but why would her grandfather do that to them? Why would he kill her family? Tears started to fall from her eyes unknowingly. She quickly wiped her tears. She can't believe the family that she was willing to die for will did that to her. They betrayed her. She was unknowingly sacrificing her life for the same people that killed her family and made her life hell. If it wasn't for Reborn and the Guardian she wasn't even sure if she could have survived the torture that her aunt gave her. 'There should be a reason for their action. I need to find that out and if the reason is valid, I will forgive them but… is the even a valid reason for me? I don't know what to do anymore. Please someone tell me what to do. Someone save me' she thought helplessly. The door suddenly opened revealing Byakuran.
"Hi, Tsukasa-chan" Byakuran greeted with his normal Cheshire cat smile. Tsukasa looked at Byakuran. She noticed that his smile today is fake. He was troubled by something. When she first saw him with Tsuna alone inside the Millefiore, she knew that the smile he wore that day were real and full of longing. It made her heart beat fast and blush. It was so bright and made her want to smile too. She can't understand but she feels weird around him.
"Nee, Byakuran-san, can I ask you something?" Tsukasa asked. She doesn't know why but she trust Byakuran. She needs someone to talk to because if she keeps it to all herself, she feels as if her heart might blow up. She doesn't like the ugly feelings that she feels right now. It's bitter and full of pain and is killing her slowly by choking her.
"What is it?" Byakuran asked with his sing-song voice. She looked straight in his eyes as if guessing what Byakuran is thinking right now. She can see no malice in it so she smiled a sad smile. Byakuran looked at her. It's the first time he saw her smile and the smile somehow make him feel as if his heart is breaking.
"If… If the world you live in suddenly turned into world of lies… If you discovered that your whole life is a lie… if the people you think of as your most precious people are the one who is caused all of that. You don't know why they did that. You want to know but you're also afraid. You want to trust but not sure if you should. You're really lost at what to do. What will you do? Would you find out the truth even if it might hurt you? Would you still trust even if you're afraid?" Tsukasa asked closing her eyes to prevent tears from falling. She reminisce the things that she discovered lately and it overwhelmed her heart causing her to start crying. Byakuran looked at her and at lost at what to do to comfort the crying girl. He usually knows what to do and won't even care. He'll just fake caring but now, he can't help but care. The only person who made him feel at lost at what to do and panic is 'her' only. Tsukasa wiped her tears. She forced herself to smile. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to cry in front of you. I'm just really lost right now. I'm sorry for showing you the pathetic part of me. I promise it won't happen again." She said. Byakuran felt as if his heart is being ripped into two seeing the young girl in front of her suffering.
"What's right or what's wrong. During this time, it doesn't matter. What matter is that what you want to and what you believe you should do. Whether you choose the right one or the wrong one is up to what you will do." He said honestly. He can't seem to know why but he felt as if he was a moth being drawn to the flame, which is her. He knows that he shouldn't feel this way but he can't do anything. Tsukasa smile but this one, heartfelt.
"Thank you. I guess choosing to ask you for your opinion helps. I don't know why but I feel like you know the answer to the questions I can't seem to find the answer. I don't know why but I feel comfortable around you." Tsukasa said truthfully. After a few moments of silence, Byakuran stood up and left. Tsukasa smiled. Suddenly, she remembered something.
- FLASHBACK -
Her brother was smiling to her with his fake smile. She walked towards her brother and stared at his angry violet eyes that never once left their smirking aunt. Being little then, she didn't know all the bad things their aunt is doing and is saying. It all sound gibberish to her but she know that it's bad since it could make her brother that angry that he didn't even seem to notice that she's staring at him. Their aunt smugly left the room. Tsukasa looked at her brother with concern and it seems like her brother finally noticed her gaze. He looked at her. The feeling inside his eyes changed from angry to sad. "Don't be angry. Don't force yourself to smile if you don't want to. I want Kura-nii to be happy but not fake happiness. Please." she told him with tears threatening to fall. Her brother looks shocked for a second then smiled truly while ruffling her hair. She smiled at him.
- END OF FLASHBACK -
'I have to remember everything quickly. I don't think I can go on without remembering anymore.' She thought sadly as her consciousness started to slip away.